lostmedstudent

https://www.forbes.com/sites/tomangell/2019/05/08/denver-voters-approve-measure-to-decriminalize-psychedelic-mushrooms/#50c39b943ddc

how did it happen? just spontaneously like that walking through the forest?

@Sahil Pandit hahahaaahahahahahahahahahhaha awesome

@outlandish @Serotoninluv thank you so so much!!! i will focus on long runs from now on and start really slow!! i will keep you guys updated with the results. i really appreciate your advice <3

hello i am currently training for my first ever marathon. due to my busy schedule, i am no where near ready for my marathon. my highest weekly mileage is 50km (30 miles), and my longest distance so far in my training is 20k. i have done 2 half marathon races in the past, my best one was 2hours. in my training, i often hit the bunk. i eat before and i bring gels with me, but at about 20k i usually hit the bunk pretty bad even if i carb up the few days before. i also only run in my training. i do a bit of swimming on the side but no strength training. should i start doing some strength training? if so what kind and which muscles especially? i was wondering if you guys have any tips for the first marathon? i am pretty nervous. i dont have high goals, i just want to finish it without injuring myself. should i start super super slow? should i bring A LOTTTTTT OF gels? should i drink coffee?? what has been the most useful technique / mindset that has helped you in your marathons? in the end, i just had to increase my mileage gradually but my marathon is in a month so i dont think ill be ready . so i am hoping to get some last minute tips. and possibly more long terms techniques / advice for my next marathon and half marathons! thanks all for your help!

@BuddhaTree what is the newsletter about Kriya Yoga? I would love to sign up too for it

@BuddhaTree thank you thank you thank you

@Alex bAlex I also have a plant based diet and cannot surpass 20k haha...

i started reading the book secret power of kriya yoga and that is the first book ive ever read about kriya. i havent found the JC stevens one. I never tried any form of yoga really before. so i followed the instructions and started with kriya bow this morning and i have a few questions. i am fairly unknowledgeable, i had to even look up what ocean breathing was, and the different chakras, so you can see why i would have a lot of questions... 1) i think i got the ocean breathing down. its like a darth vader breath so to speak? it kind of almost makes you snore if you constrict the throat just a little tighter? can someone confirm? also do you breath very heavily or normally with the ocean breathing? do i inhale strongly? 2) how do you move yourenergy from different chakras to the third eye? when i did it today,i was just kind of "imagining" that im moving my energy? are there preliminary yoga exercises i should do if im not even familiar with the concepts of chakra and 3rd eye? 3) the book mentions chanting "om", is it just "om" "om" "om"? or what does it refer to...? 4) as of right now, i cant sit cross-legged, too unflexible. so is it ok to start with kneeling on a meditation chair? sorry for my noob questions. please if someone has some readings or videos they suggest i do before proceeding, let me know. thanks so much for your help!!!!!!!

Good luck! Let us know how it goes!!!

i started reading the book secret power of kriya yoga and that is the first book ive ever read about kriya. i havent found the JC stevens ones. so i followed the instructions and started with kriya bow this morning and i have a few questions. i am fairly unknowledgeable, i had to even look up what ocean breathing was, and the different chakras, so you can see why i would have a lot of questions... 1) i think i got the ocean breathing down. its like a darth vader breath so to speak? it kind of almost makes you snore if you constrict the throat just a little tighter? can someone confirm? also do you breath very heavily or normally with the ocean breathing? do i inhale strongly? 2) how do you move yourenergy from different chakras to the third eye? when i did it today,i was just kind of "imagining" that im moving my energy? are there preliminary yoga exercises i should do if im not even familiar with the concepts of chakra and 3rd eye? 3) the book mentions chanting "om", is it just "om" "om" "om"? or what does it refer to...? 4) as of right now, i cant sit cross-legged, too unflexible. so is it ok to start with kneeling on a meditation chair? sorry for my noob questions. please if someone has some readings or videos they suggest i do before proceeding, let me know. thanks so much for your help!!!!!!!

@Sahil Pandit the world is against me, im developing new allergies to cashes pistachios and other nuts im seeing a doctor soon for that ! thank you

@kieranperez im not sure i understand this... most of my long runs i go for an easy pace (my half marathon pace or slower). @outlandish wow your guys have impressive mileage~~~~~~~~~~~!

any suggestions for a vegetarian/ vegan diet? my diet is vegetarian but i dont eat eggs or drink milk. my only dairy intake is snacks occasionally like cookies, cheese or other food that has egg/milk. does The Endurance Diet by Matt Fitzgerald talk about vegetarian diet?@kieranperez @Sahil Pandit my protein source is mostly lentils and tofus. other wise by the sheer fact that im vegetarian, i have a lot of carbs in my diet. theres no way i can last 20k without any energy gel.. could it be because i havent trained my body to burn fat? i just feel like i could do longer cardiovascularly speaking but im so hungry after 20k that i feel my hands and feet tingling thati have to stop.. i am also pretty skinny, do i need to gain more weight? my bmi is 19 thanks

@mandyjw how come carb load is bad??

@outlandish okay thanks honestly after stirring up the incident in my apartment that i share with other people (students, not my friends) and a trip to the emergency where my colleagues work... i think i will start slow and take it more seriously in terms of setting / environment.

wow thank you for sharing. i think you've already done the most that you can and it is incredible. i think you know yourself the best and all you have to do is to believe in yourself and stick to your plans. i have had minor issues with food but it wasn't severe enough that contemplation and meditation was able to tame it. i think you are on the right track . i would suggest starting one thing at a time, instead of everything at the same time. for example, start by just mindful eating, once you are able to do that with ease, start with the next thing on your plan. it will take time, but dont rush it. one step at a time. youve already come a long way so dont give up !

https://www.walmart.com/ip/Spring-Valley-Hair-Skin-Nails-Caplets-with-Biotin-Antioxidants-3000-mcg-240-Ct/19758122 this one has helped me. i struggled years when i was younger with hair loss issue. this was the one i found to be helpful. although in the end, what helped me the most was to accept that i was losing here and still love myself good luck!

@outlandish @Serotoninluv yeah i think so too. and it could also be that some people resonate better with certain substances than others.

@outlandish thanks! yeah my intentions were clear: i wrote down 2 questions i wanted to explore in the trip. then what ended up happening was the high hit me faster than i had expected, so i kind of felt sick and just wanted to curl up in a ball in my bed, which i did. then what happened was just a bunch of weird stuff , wasnt sure if i was asleep or awake, and even when i got ot the hospital, i still thought i was in a dream.....

@Leo Gura Thank you so much. i will try your recommended doses. i dont have LSD at the moment, i have AL-LAD, would the starting dose be the same? half a blotter (i thinnk 75microg too) i will take them more seriously next time. i wouldve avoided the hospital trip if i did it alone. i thought i was able to handle it without disturbing my roomates..

@Leo Gura hi Leo, so if i understand well, it takes a few trials for each substance in order for a person to find the perfect dose for himself. When it is the right dose, ie breakthrough experiences which we can integrate in everyday life and grow, will it be clear that it is a breakthrough? i am asking this because i have tried psychedelics 3 times now and my experiences can be summarized as follows: 1st time shroom, very mild high, totally in touch with reality, did not have any insights 2nd time ayahuasca in a ceremony, felt my body dissolve and panicked for about 30s, but also did not get any insights, 3rd time, the worst yet, i took too big of a dose (shroom), and it was just plain weird, i totally lost contact with reality, like i couldnt tell whats real and whats a dream and i kind blacked out and was brought to the hospital... i remember during the peak that i had some realizations but because i overshot it, i dont remember much... what do you recommend in this situation? do you see some obvious mistakes in the way i am proceeding? thanks

Death or the threat of death really comes at the most unexpected moments. Im doing a rotation in northern Quebec, and my way of discovering a place is to run around town. Today I planned to go for a long run, I wanted to discover some quieter and more serene roads where I can just run and not be disturbed by the passing traffic and the dusty trails they leave behind. The weather is pretty good, about 5-6 degree celsius with lots of sun, wind is blowing, snow is melting, the weather was just lovely (for northern quebec..) After running through a long stretch of road that comes to a dead end, there was an entrance to the woods area. And I decided to go in once I realized the snow conditions are quiet good. I also ran into another man who was taking a long walk through the woods and he told me the roads in the forests are pretty steady. So I started to jog and found it to be so peaceful and nice in the snowy woods. It’s a very small trail that’s quite soft under my steps and there are trees arching over so it makes a nice shadow for the blasting sun above me. There are certain areas where the snow is softer and would sink under my feet. Sometimes a little bit, other times I sink to my knees, but it all fun and games, I just pull my feet out and carry on. There are also not many forks along the way, and for the 2 forks (or so I thought) that I encountered, I put some marks on the snow so that I remember which way to take on my way back. I went through the woods, continuing as far as I can, until the snow starts to sink really bad, then I make my way back. On my way back, I ran into the old man who was walking earlier and he told me to be careful not to get lost, to which I thought "there is just one way, how could I be lost", so we chatted briefly and I carried on. At this point, I had already finished my 2 running gels because I was hungry. The slippery snow and the occasional falls made it fun but also a little tiring, so I decided to trail back and head back to the roads. I passed the last fork before the exit and took the road on which I had put some pin branches. This trail is supposed to take me right out of the woods. I passed by some of the landmarks that I recognized on my way into the forest so I thought I shouldn’t be far from where I came in. Then I started to fall, once, twice, three times, because the snow beneath me was so soft that it couldn't bear my weight. At first it was funny because it didn't hurt, then it became annoying, and then I was wondering why it wasn't sinking on my way there. "was it because the sun is so strong that it started to melt right under my feet?" "did I take a different road? But there is no branching, there's no way I derailed". As I m thinking, I continued to fall, my feet sinking down to my knees every 2 steps. I decided to slow down and started walking. It didn't help, the snow just seemed like a web of trap, taking me down even on the lightest steps. My feet started to get wet and cold. And then suddenly, I sank again, but this time I couldn't get my left foot out of the snow. The snow around my shoe started to melt and solidify at the same time and having nothing else to bear my weight or lean, I could just not get my foot out. I started to dig with my hands (didn't bring any gloves since the weather was so beautiful), but the more I dug, the more snow there was. So with all my strength, I pulled hard and only my foot came out: the shoe stayed stuck in the snow, some 30cm deep. I tried to dig more furiously and forcefully with my hands, my feet, and I could not even see the shoe anymore. At this point, my hands started to freeze and I have my left foot with a wool sock and my right foot with a soaked breath-through summer running shoe. Everything is quiet around me. Birds are chirping, leaves shuffling, the sun was shining down on me, no sights of houses or roads or human trace anywhere. I am sitting on the snow because the mere act of standing makes me sink to my knees. I started to freak out. I didn't know where I was. I was convinced this is the road I took, in fact I did not even ponder the option of going back, I just wanted to go forward. I wanted to get out. Yet I couldn’t move, I couldn't walk. And all around me was just snow and woods. I started to crawl on all fours. It hurt so bad, my knees felt frozen, I couldn’t feel my hands anymore, I started to hyperventilate because my fight or flight response was full power on at this point. Not even 5 meters in, I couldn't do it anymore, my knees hurt too bad, I couldn't feel my hands. So I stood up and I could make 2-3 steps before I sank down to my knees again. So I went back to crawling - I didn’t want to lose my second shoe. All of the thoughts are flowing to me: Is my life going to end this way? I wish the man I ran into was here to help me. I wish someone could see me and help me. I can't reach out to anyone because I didn't have my phone.. I can't even tell my boyfriend.. Can I really die from just going into the woods? But if I cant get on the road, and im stuck here, then yes I could die. I could DIE? WHAT? My parents don't even know, my boyfriend doesn't even know that I am DYING. I am stuck here all alone to DIE. And im running out of energy. I was 12 km into my run. Calm down, calm down, you still have energy. Calm down. But I couldn't calm down, I couldn’t relax, I couldn’t let go of the fact that I was dying. I did not want to die. I thought briefly about buddha, I thought about enlightenment, I thought about my meditation practice, but there was so little room for that. I just wanted to make it out alive. I couldn’t calm down. Maybe my mind was exaggerating it all but I really thought I couldn’t make it. I kept crawling, falling, walking, sinking, falling, crawling. I couldn’t feel my hands at all. I saw some houses in the distance but it didn't reassure me because I didn’t know how long in the snow I could crawl before my hands would fall off or I pass out. I started screaming "help! Help! Help!". Only the echo of my own voice.. I kept crawling, my knees were hurting and so numb. Being a quite healthy young adult, I've never felt this close to dying. After crawling some more, maybe a few meters, maybe a few hundreds, I saw a pile of woods in the middle of the snow. I fixed that as my objective, and told myself: if I can get on there, then at least I will be less cold and I can breath a little bit. So I got to the woods. It took a few attempts to get on the woods since as soon as I try to bear weight on the snow, it collapses beneath me. I climb on the woods and im collapsed. I am in shock yet I am calming down. I screamed a few more times "aidez-moi"! But no one seemed to hear me in those houses. Thank god the weather was good. As soon as I was on top of the woods, the sunshine was heating me up. My hands started to hurt as hell as the feelings came back. I was still hyperventilating but my senses started to come back to reality. Its not fight or flight anymore as I realized the houses were not too far away and I could easily crawl to the roads without dying. So crisis averted at this point and I rested a little more before crawling on the snowbanks onto the roads. I ringed the door of one of the houses and the lady at the house helped me call a taxi to get back home. the taxi ride seemed surprisingly unreal. I was so happy and relieved to be on land again, yet I was still living the adrenaline of that event. I told the taxi driver about what has happened and he just laughed about it. The event still seems unreal. I don't know whether I survived a dangerous situation or exaggerated a benign situation. But what I know is it was life threatening for me and I have some battle wounds (over 10 bruises on the legs and a few on the hands and arms). There are 2 big take home lessons from this: 1) The line between safety and danger is very thin, so thin that you've crossed it many times without realizing and when you realize it. It's too late. Life is more fragile than you think. Who would ever think a run in the city can turn out this way? So always prepare for the worst case. Don’t go into the wild woods in a new city alone, without a phone.. Cherish your life, cherish the people around you, cherish every breath you have because you never know when it will be your last. 2) You can contemplate, meditate, read, ponder on death all you want, but it all goes away when it's right in front of you. It's so big, so total, so bold that it takes over you like nothing else. That moment whenI felt seriously threatened, my true nature came out, all my spiritual practices and knowledge thrown aside. My true nature being: I wanted to live. Looking back on the map, I did not derail far, nothing could've really gone wrong, had I kept my composure, stayed calm, it would probably have been a minor accident. So this event showed me how little I know about what death is and how long a way to go to a mindset of a true adventurer. thanks for reading. i always like to share these kinds of personal stories here because you guys always have more interesting stuff to add and the discussion is always great. have a nice day

@mandyjw

@outlandish nice thanks