Seed

This is really fascinating!!!! I’d advise watching the whole thing but go from 0.36 if you just want to get straight to the point! A MUST WATCH! ?

Poor Jim Bowen; overshadowed by the colossus that was Stephen Hawking. http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/entertainment-arts-43403178 “Stay out of the black and into the red, nothing in this game for two in a bed." That's got to count for something, hasn't it?!

And yes I do just have teeny, tiny (massive) crush on Jesus the 2nd...

Meditating going well... LP soaring.... Emotional / personal stuff manageable... Then BAM! Panic attacks out of nowhere, can’t sleep, food is making me nauseous... anxiety bubbling up... i guess I just stay mindful and wait for it all to pass ? :-( I just get fed up cause I’ve been working so hard for over a year now, just get reminded that I’m not getting anywhere. I feel so weak.

Have and always will, absolutely LOVE this human... saw him live last night in Birmingham and was totally floored with so much mention of consciousness and awareness, ego, mind deception, spirituality and the absolute. Perfectly entwined with ripping himself for the time he attempted to take down government. He has this amazing ability go so deep with is, but also being absolutely hilarious, which is essential for engaging the masses. Anyone one else would just come across as way too intense! People in UK, highly recommend getting tickets for his tour, if you still can

didn’t think of that!!! ?Jokes... Unfortunately, a bath doesn’t have any effect whatsoever on the symptoms of PTSD... they are extremely persistent! And I have at least one bath a day, even with added lavender oils. Damn! ?

I'm going to spend the next 24 hours in a hotel room and meditate until something shifts... I don't know what else to do. All I know, is I can't fight it. I can barely move.. and I am getting dehydrated even though I am drinking water non stop.

Inerta cause of the changes ? Should I up the mediatation? I just want into make it stop. My mouth is dry, cant swallow. Can’t think. Can’t make big movements..

I’ve tried that before and it only helps temporarily as a placebo and and a boost to my ego x

Thanks Nahm... what’s an onpurpose diet ?

You can start positive affirmations from as early as 3 and ask questions which promote mindfulness... practise keeping calm through deep breathing and simple yoga stretches... and just being still.... all done in an imaginative and fun way! Talk to her about negative feelings, when she has them and describe them as monsters... we all have an ‘angry monster’ or a ‘panic monster’ or a ‘sad monster..’. they come and go but we don’t need to be afraid of them.... they really are quite harmless once we know what they’re about. She could draw them, give them a name and a smell and describe how she feels in her body when they arrive. This will help her manage strong negative emotions as she gets older. I have lots of practical tips for all ages as I have just started running classes... love this topic :-)

Thank you !!! Now let’s just hope my daughter doesn’t wake up in the night... hadn’t yet considered that one !!! ??? Sweet dreams everyone... xxxx

I'm doing something publicly tomorrow, to kick start my LP. I am not an extrovert by any means and my stomach is dancing and I am not calm at all! It's important that I do stay calm in order to come across well... anyone got any tips? Apart from the obvious, deep breathing, staying mindful etc... I am trying but mind's gone mental right now... Nerves are close to excitement right??? I am just VERY 'excited!?!?!'

Thank you @Nahm ... this nearly makes me cry. I do believe I am attaching 'the LP' on to this, making it such a MASSIVE deal.... usually I think it would be a little bit panicky but nowhere nearly like I am now... This is the first public thing I have ever done for my LP apart from online marketing and social media, which is always easy as your hiding behind a screen. I know tomorrow I will be fine when it's all done and be thinking 'why the hell did I make such a big deal' ANticpation is always the worst! Thank you for your help... and don't wish me luck, as what will be, will be, and will be exactly as it should be...

Thanks so much @starsofclay @Arman Really helpful stuff.. :-)

Thank you both.. @Arman - my mind won't keep still enough to do any of that, although I have done weeks and days ago when I felt the need and definitely helps! Night before is a 'no go' though, I just have to let myself go a bit crazy in the lead up to all public events and then I am always fine when it happens! @starsofclay when's best to listen to that? Just before bed? Do I have to say it with him?

I have a red wine in hand right now... bad move I know! But it's settling me a bit.. 'and breath............'

Thank you, they are the vehicle's wild side!

Hope no one knows me ! this may have to come down soon... haha!

I have created this and hangs above my bed, it contains about 30 pics - is this too big ? I do love it.

I’m a girl but thank you ! ?

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@Charlotte - you sound so similar to me! Where are you from?