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@ajasatya I heard Sadhguru answer this question with "How do you know when you are enlightened? Well.. It will be so significant that you won't be able to miss it, you just know that something amazing happened."

Very interesting responses guys, I want to become wiser and wiser on this topic but at the same time I just want to chill sometimes too. I guess that's part of it too, finding balance. Hopefully as the years progress and I keep working hard I can get myself to a higher state of consciousness and keep growing. Thanks for the input!

I just found out how deep my people pleasing and 'wanting to be liked' tendencies are. Was busy with my highschool exams, in the Netherlands they decide for 50% if you pass high school yes or no. So I was busy doing math and suddenly this hunger struck me, I had sandwiches nearby but I was afraid to disturb other people sitting close to me so I kept on denying myself to eat. Then after some time I just couldn't focus anymore and got in the middle of this panic attack, my head and stomach were hurting so much because I needed food. I just wrote a couple question marks at the last assignments and got out of the classroom. Now I just feel this terrible shame and regret because I was not able to bring myself to just do what I really needed to do and get stuck in this 'what will people think of me patern.' How can I forgive myself for this. Even when my health is on the line I still feel like I need to be liked. How can I get this out of my system? How can I depend on myself?

@Dan Arnautu Thanks, just what I needed!

@Dan Arnautu I must say, I know what you're going through. Had several of these really frightful weeks I asked about on the forum aswell. I was/ still am sometimes, really scared that I will die in one of these attacks. What I've learned from everyone's responses is that there is only one way to handle it. Don't try and overcome it, don't fight it, don't resist it. This has worked for me and when you get out of these 'cycles' for a while it feels amazing. also, instead of trying to say "I accept this", "I accept that". Say "Its okay". This works because when you try to say "I accept" you are trying to like or to love something you want to go away or despise. When you say "It's okay" this doesn't apply as wanting it to go away, but being completely acceptive with it. Anyway, good luck. I wish you the best

I keep wondering when I meet someone who asks me what I'm doing and why, etc. Which book to advice that will get them hooked into personal development and start taking steps. It obviously depends on the person and what problems they encounter in life, but still there must be a fundamental book that I can advice.

As the title reads I'm not sure to which meditation technique I should stick at the moment. I want something simple that will help me transmute my resistance into consciousness. Do you guys have any suggestion on what techniques I should look at?

@Natasha Thank you!

@Martin123 Watched the first 5 minutes of the first one. To say it's ok instead of I accept. Very interesting, thanks for listing these two, I will watch them

@Stoica Doru But how do I love myself? I have this deep ingrained loathing of my face and how I act around people

@Shin When my mind suddenly goes blank and I feel this peace over me, I get hit after 15 sec from something that ranges from some anxiety to a full blown panic attack. During this backlash, everything that once was clear becomes very chaotic and hazy. Idk how to explain it but it feels like all the equanimity I had before the backlash just vanishes in an instant and I become one with the pain and fear. I would like to know if there is anything I can do to learn or grow from this. Anything I can do that helps me overcome this fear and let the peace stay without interruption @nightrider1435 I try to face it everytime. Even if I do manage to accept it, the next time when I get insight it still happens

With all the personal developement and meditation I do my awareness is growing pretty rapidly. Recently I noticed that wherever I go or whatever situation I'm in, I'm always aware of my heart beating. It is very strange for me and sometimes freaks me out. Is this something that's usual?

@Mert Well, after such a long time of practising this technique it's hard to change it up. It's become so routine for you. With the do nothing technique you basicly don't do anything and don't want to change anything. So even if your mind goes into automatic see, hear and feel labeling, that is fine Good luck and remember, everything your mind produces is oke, you don't have to do anything with it. Just let it be and observe

Real awesome post. I can resonate with what you said about suffering . Everytime I get to this deep rooted peace and I become aware of the fact that I don't know who I am, I get hit with so much fear that I almost get a panic attack

Haha, I'm 17 and on the journey too. Good luck!

Notice, it's not the game that is negative. It's your reaction to it. I play csgo too, have a lot of hours in it practise hard to get good at it. I'm not addicted to it anymore as I used to be, just something that I do as a side thing now. Use it to up my mindfulness game too, when you feel a negative trigger in you ( because you have toxic teammates whatever) you can become mindful of this. I have had multiple times where I was playing and I was just in this meditative state, pretty cool.

@Dan Arnautu Thanks, haven't even read that one yet hehe. Great suggestion! @Christian Ye when I was typing I was already realizing that everyone has different problems. I still want to help others though, I know how it feels to be in a dark place and not know where to go. Don't want others to experience the same

As the title says I have been experiencing really frightening panic attacks. When I meditate I force myself to face these issues that create the panic attacks, but I feel like it is only cultivating these attacks. My question is what can I do to get past all this? I know I should see this as a challenge and that the only sane way is to accept and observe, but these attacks are just so incredibly painful, I don't know what to do. When I'm in the middle of it, observing just seems so hard.

@Visionary My first intention 2 years ago ofcourse was to relieve anxiety and become peaceful, centered Now after this little while my motivation is completely different. I want to grow my consciousness and fix the problems I've created in my younger years. I want to walk this path that leads to Truth. 1 month ago these fears started to bubble up and that's when the panic attacks and the increased anxiety started. This is hopefully just another process where I will come out with growth. Thanks for the tips all of you, I will study them and try to apply them.

I have been doing concentration practise for 3 months now I think. I did not notice any signs of improvement. Maybe that's just my ADD that keeps me from improving my concentration but it is still bugging me. Grats with the growth though, I can see how that improves your school and spiritual practise!

@Splion Tolle is not saying you should stop thinking. He says that the mind is an incredible instrument if used correctly. Only when thoughts become destructive it is only natural you want them to disappear. He teaches how to become the observer of the mind ( who you already are ) A lot of people love Tolle's work, A lot don't find it useful. But for those who do get something great out of it. it is awesome. Everyone has his own opinion and prefered teacher, so if you don't like him that's completely fine

@Martin123 I will do so! @Shin When I feel stressed or in panic, I get this tingeling painful feeling on the left side of my chest. During meditation when I go deep or I get an insight, this feeling deepens and I feel light in my stomache too. It feels a bit like the start of a panic attack Even though I know my heart is fine, when I have this feeling in my chest I still get so incredibly scared. I feel so disconnected and alone, like I'm going to die. I have had this since about 3 months now.

For quite some time now during my 40 minute meditation sessions I sometimes get this very tight feeling in my chest. I've had a check on my heart and lungs done about 3 weeks ago so it shouldn't be anything with a physical root. Any of you have experienced this too? Or know what this is? Thanks for helping me out, Max

I had an interesting thought this morning, 'What if we weren't born with breathing automaticly and always had to control it every time, wouldn't we always be in te moment?' Pretty cool that such a little thing could change human consciousness What are you guys thoughts on this?

@Sobiesky5 That sounds quite obvious haha, I will try that. I know that craving is not good, but I really want a girlfriend.