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@Nahm ‘The end of the dream’.. For some reason that made me feel really sad for a moment.

If they understand ‘ This is where daddy/mommy sits still for a while’ And they get that from an early age, I don’t think they will interupt it.

I am very interested in what your guys method is of processing theory, information, and techniques from books and Leo’s videos for example. I find it difficult to keep things in order and find my way of watching these videos and reading books without it feeling like it becomes work or something I’m obligated to do. It kind of loses it’s simpicity and fun for me when I have to keep a pencil near to underline all important stuff in a book for example So do you guys have some different methods I could try to use for processing and the better memorization of information ?

@Joseph Maynor Yes I have been really improving my practises across all things. I meditate 1 hour and 30 minutes every day now. Also I try to self inquire during my day. Once in let's say 2/3 days I will do a concentrated practise of self inquiry. I've noticed if I force myself to self inquire, it doesn't feel as natural and it starts being something mechanical which is something I don't like because I really love contemplating and looking into the nature of consciousness. It feels kind of disrespectful to turn that into a obligatory practice instead of doing it when I'm naturally pulled towards it. The only thing that has been going not as succesful is the theory part. I watch a lot of Rupert Spira videos and I have interacted once with him too but that has been really it these past 2 months. I haven't been reading as much and I haven't watched any of Leo's videos. I feel resistance from doing these things for some reason. It doesn't feel authentic to do atm. I will take up reading again, resistance could be a trap that I'm falling into. I will continue reading The Book of Not Knowing.

Fuck I just realized how depended I am upon situations to make me happy. When something goes wrong I get so depressed. Then I try to inquire what is depressed but it feels like nothing is happening. The same analogy that I’ve used before aplies here. It feels like an arrow being shot at a heavy armored knight. The arrow get’s deflected. The belief that I am the body mind is so strong, it seems like it is impossible to ever grasps that I could be something different. I have these moments where there is a realization ‘Ahh I am free, how could it be any different ?’. Then the day after this state is gone. I know awareness never leaves us but it feels like it goes back to being small and isn’t enough to be free of problems. It isn’t on the foreground anymore but is somewhere in the background. The problems become overwhelming.

@WelcometoReality Very interesting. This really resonates with me, I've found the inner resistance towards feeling depressed. There is an belief stuck in my head that to be deep in consciousness work means to always feel peaceful. This is obviously wrong and can never be achieved. It's the underlying peace that is there under all circumstances. Thanks for making me aware of this, I really appreciate it!

@ajasatya Haha after that you discover that the ‘you’ cannot be kept up and is completely free from any experience but at the same time intimately one with it

@Shin I hit the 9 day mark today again. It feels like there is porn in my mind 24/7 lol

This vid might help. Saw it in another thread but it might be something relevant here too. About implementing new habits, not really know too much about that process

@Martin123 ‘Thank you’

@Joseph Maynor hahah I love your signature!

Maybe because you don't radiate it. When you go work on yourself, meditate, do consciousness work, personal development, etc. You get these qualities automatically. Nowadays when people pass me by I automatically smile at them and look them in the eyes. Whereas before I would avoid eye contact and try to make myself as unnoticable as possible. You just feel the love when you look at people, how amazing it is that they exist. That is something nothing else can replace

@Shiva If it was only that easy hahaha

@Joseph Maynor When you don't dream, or forget about it, people tend to say " It was like I closed my eyes and opened them right after " If you think about this, you get a glimpse of how timeless consciousness is. Because it was you that was aware all those 7 or whatever hours but it seemed like a couple minutes. It is not like consciousness left you during those 7 hours because then that begs the question 'How would a moment of no awareness look like? ' Weird stuff

@Nadosa But see, how is it possible to be aware of not being aware? Can awareness ever not be present? How would a moment of non awareness look like? It cannot be done. Awareness is there and it will always be there. You cannot leave the now either. Even when you are sucked into your thoughts, you are doing it now! Have you ever experienced living in the future or the past? Notice how the presence of awareness never leaves you. Become interested in that. What is it that knows my experience? What is it that has always remained with me ? In deep sleep, when there are no thoughts in your mind for a split second, etc. Explore that

@Ilya I think it works slightly different. Some get a rush with libido and suddenly have more sex because all the energies that were blocked and all the limiting beliefs are gone. ( I've heard Osho was one of those, but don't quote me on that). Others who used sex to 'become' happy might experience a decrease in libido and keep it at one partner.

@RossE Nice, keep at it. I'm close to my completing my first two years

You just do it. Commit to it. Make a specific time in your day the time where you meditate. Write down the reason why you do it and discipline yourself to stick to it. After a while you won't need to anymore because meditation itself becomes too enjoyable for you.

@hundreth Yes after awakening it is impossible to not have some sense of humor. You realize that it is all play of form and there is nothing else then to laugh about it.

You don't have to be enlightened to talk and contemplate about this. Leo is not enlightened but he is one of the clearest speakers I know.

Yes, Alan Watts's is special character. He has a specific way of putting things that really blows me away.

@Shin Alright that sounds interesting. Will give it a shot!

@Shin I bumped up my meditation time to 1 hour. Does that blend in with what you meant by do nothing or should I have a specific time for this aswell ? I'm quite interested in this topic too. In my daily life I tend to rely on things such as masturbation, videos, thinking about stuff / conceptualizing, gaming as a means to get those 'high happy moments'

@smd I thought that would actually hurt a lot.

@LaucherJunge lol