Max_V

hahaha, I wonder if some people in the crowd understood who he was impersonating

Max_V Which stands for ‘Maximum Value’

Most times I read a book or think about my life purpose, then I breathe a bit and fall asleep

@Shin Good thing it already is @ajasatya I go to a zen dojo every week, but I this is not your usual Zen from the east. It's a westernized version for helping people gain a better understanding in their daily lives. It's great don't get me wrong, but I'd actually love some hardcore practice, where Truth is the number one priority

@ajasatya I've had this intuition that at some point in my life I want to spend time in a (zen) monastery, hell, maybe this hints towards my life purpose, who knows. Could you help me with some advice and words as to where you found a zen monastery to stay in and if I'd have to travel to Japan or Asia to do so? Thanks @Shin I do: Shadow work Meditation and self-inquiry Pushing my comfort zone and talking to people Being mindful throughout the day Is there anything else I should add to this list? I'm highly motivated

@Leo Gura What are your go-to places to meet higher consciousness people? I go to Rupert Spira satsangs twice a year, so that could be a good starting point.

@Nahm I live in the Netherlands, does this mean I don’t have to filter my water?

A while ago I printed out this quote from one of Leo’s videos on Hero’s journey and taped it to the wall. I become teared up reading this, every time.

@Joseph Maynor True I like being alone a lot too, the difficult part for me is at school though. I subconsciously still care a lot about if I fit in or not. This is something I struggled with a lot a couple years back, and there is still some residue of it left. It’s just that now I don’t really have anyone to sit with at school anymore wheras before I had a big group. This is just a big pill I have to swallow. I’ve committed to this path, and am ready to give up everything for it, but that doesn’t mean I don’t feel the hurt anymore @Shin I will trust in that.

@Pallero Yes, it’s especially painful since I used to be a people-pleaser, always wanting everyone to like me and wanting to be approved of. But now that I really let go of this habit, the results really starts to show as in that people actually start to dislike me for becoming more authentic. Have to get used to it I guess, but it still hurts a lot

@Thanatos13 Can you consciously recall your ego choosing your body to be born and manifest?

Watch this video, it will help you realise what is happening and how it gets you stuck. @StrangerWatch

That’s an awesome insight. You’re right, I’ve always been prone to imitating the good sides of people because I have trouble knowing how to behave myself. Hopefully when I find my life purpose and keep meditating, I will become more and more authentic and find my own way

@Shroomdoctor Taking baby steps is something I really have a hard time with. When I want results, I want them fast, and I'm willing to work my ass off for them. That's one of my weak points I'd say, always neurotically striving for results, results, results. @phoenix666 I wish I could do psychedelics too sometime. I'd really love to break through some of the crap that's blinding my view, it's something that I'm aware of every day, but I can't do anything about it. Can be quite frustrating sometimes. I'm not in a place to do psychedelics though, first I want to become very grounded and imperturbable emotionally. If I'd take a psychedelic now, I would probably crash so hard, it would make me unstable. Emotionally I can't take much at the moment since for the first time, I'm gradually exposing all my weaknesses and working on them. I guess I have to deepen my vision and find my purpose as soon as possible, so that neurotic striving for results can cease and I can start to become more trusting in my vision and learn to be okay with baby steps.

@phoenix666 Yes, I feel so blessed. I really have a vision for my life and start to get more insight into it, wheras before I just assumed that these things can’t be known and if I feel depressed or whatever, it’s not fixable. But I still feel quite confused sometimes as to what to do, how much meditation I should do to have maximum effectiveness in 10 years, which steps to take. This journey and looking into the future can be really overwhelming sometimes?

@phoenix666 Pretty good I'd say! Although having some trouble here and there What I'm working on at the moment: conquering my anxiety and fear doing consciousness work (meditating and self inquiring) Reading books. working hard for school Finding my life purpose Eating clean, finding vegan meals and working out I do have a bit of trouble with reading every day, I find that the Book of Not Knowing --which I'm reading atm-- is not a book I can read when my family is close by. I really need to go and sit alone to contemplate this stuff, which is quite difficult sometimes since I meditate and self inquire every day + work for school too every day, so I sometimes I get really short of time.

@Vlad Ropotica You can also just take a break for a week or so while being mindful of how you feel throughout your day without meditation. Then after that you get back into it again but limit the time to an amount that you can handle

@aurum So then the competitor vs creator is only a psychological view right? Then this means if my life purpose in the end has something to do with becoming the best player in counter strike for example, going to tournaments and world cups, I can have my paradigm in such a way that it doesn't matter if I win or lose, my skill and feel of strategy is my type of art and creation?

@BjarkeT Because when you are a competitor instead of a creator, you are always depending on the position of yourself in relation to others to define how well things are going for you. When you are a creator, it doesn't matter when someone else does something good, it doesn't hurt your position in any way because you are just focused on your own creation regardless of what other people in the same field as you are doing. But still when you are a professional tennisser for example, isn't your way of your skill and movement a creation of it's own? Can you not be a creator in a competitive field? @Slade

Lol, quite an amusing story

@phoenix666 Fuck it being far fetched, let’s become sages!

So incredibly motivating and beautiful, thank you.

Lol dudes it’s fine, we both love ya @Joseph Maynor @blazed

Every time I sit down to self-inquire or read books related to consciousness/enlightenment-work, for some reason I lose all my focus and automatically become very tired. I have an energy problem in general that I’m dealing with right now, but even when I do all of this in the morning, I still automatically become sleepy. If this an ego defense-mechanism, what is the best way in going about tackeling this pseudo sleepiness?

@Mighty MouseAlright, I will try taking naps. Means I have to set up my schedule differently. @Leo Gura It's indeed very interesting to experience this for myself, puts the concept of Self-Deception in a whole different context.