Max_V

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  1. I think unhealthy stage red and social anxiety disorder have huge correlations. Whenever I try to entertain deep metaphysical topics and contemplate them on my own, and then afterwards return to something that screams stage red, the part of me that's very scared of the world feels this deep congruency and 'yes'. Thoughts like: "this is how the world is, and I simply need to come out on top, and be safe" really feel true. It feels more 'right' than the higher spiral stuff, although I can intuit that there is more than just survival. I don't know how to overcome that deep inner sense of feeling unsafe in the world. I've had that for a long time.
  2. This show is my childhood, I felt a deep spiritual connection to it at that age. It inspired a lot in me
  3. Is it good? Saw this, but haven't checked it out yet.
  4. Hi friends, I've always been able to deeply experience others' emotions and energy. This has been a double edged sword, as on the one hand I can understand and help people on a deep level, but on the other hand I tend to absorb emotions and energies and mistake them to be my own. Which can be deeply troubling. It feels like I'm wide open all the time. As for my Life Purpose, I'm still working on the LPC, but I'm quite certain I want to help people work through their psychological issues in one way or another. My question is, do you guys have any resources or tips on how to mature empathic abilities so as to be able to not absorb and be constantly so affected by the emotion and energy of the world? Thank you
  5. @Leo Gura Such as David Pakman ?
  6. @Leo Gura He seems to be stuck and closedminded in a lot of ways, but overall, I like him a lot. Some of his debates are quite useful and interesting.
  7. @Leo Gura Have you ever watched Destiny's content? And if so, what are your thoughts?
  8. https://www.michaelcaloz.com/personality this site tests by questioning into your cognitive functions, seeing which ones you use most, and then finding the stacking order. I've found it to be the most accurate.
  9. @Himanshu That is actually super interesting, I'd love to talk more with you about this in depth. Never made the direct connection between the different functions and spiritual paths.
  10. @Leo Gura That's true. But if we look at it from a relative perspective, archetypes and different elements are inherent into how reality expresses itself. Most of the recognized personality theory, (that Jung talks about for example), stems from the study of different elements like Fire, Air, Water, etc. and how everbody has a different makeup and balance of these. The different mixtures of life's elements give rise to the different archetypes and personalities But I guess if you take everything to it's ultimatum, the boundaries collapse, and there is nothing left. Though for the sake of growth, I think these theories can be quite helpful in charting a personal map.
  11. @Leo Gura Hahahh, but that's what I'm saying. I'm not an INTP, but I still love it. Could have to do with Enneagram types, who knows
  12. Michael Pierce is a great resource for MBTI This is his first video on INTP's And here is his revisited one:
  13. @Leo Gura I have been researching this topic for a while. From my understanding there is quite a plethora of different personality theories, but among them MBTI and Enneagram seem the most reliable and helpful for growth. From what I've seen, It seem that next to an INTP you are also a 5 type on the Enneagram. I myself am an INFJ on MBTI and a 5 on Enneagram. Which leads me to believe that most people that connect with your teaching are either INTP's (so similar in how their cognitive functions work) or enneagram 5's (same mode in how to approach life and similar core fears). I think it's interesting to look at what kind of people are drawn to your work and if there is a certain similarity to be found among those people. Could help to draw in those that would benefit most and identify most with your approach.
  14. The Complete Enneagram by Beatrice Chestnut is really amazing.
  15. For over around 6 months this girl in the supermarket keeps making very deep eye contact with me and giving me flirty smiles. The crazy thing is, we haven't even really talked yet. I looked at her one day, and ever since then she keeps making this same type of contact with me. I was diagnosed with ASD a couple of months back (I'm 20 right now) and suffer from heavy social anxiety. I don't know if these labels mean anything to you, but perhaps they could give some insight or idea into why I'm struggeling with something that seems quite normal to most. Everyone probably has their own area in life that they really struggle with. Thinking, contemplating, meditating, etc. for example never has been something that was hard for me, it is something I naturally gravitate towards. Relationships and the social realm is the one thing I struggle with most, so much that even thinking about it, makes me want to cover myself in blankets and hide into never ending safety. I would really like to talk to her and get to know her as I'm quite attracted to her, but am completely paralyzed by the fear of not-knowing what to do. I have always been someone that thinks a lot, and makes a lot of inferences and predictions about the future. Being quite limp in the social realm, I have not much to go off of, and that petrifies me. This same type of question has probably been asked countless times on this sub, but I wanted to ask for help nonetheless since overcoming this might be the key to solving suicidality and low self-worth that has been haunting me since I was around 12. Not being capable in something makes me feel like something that shouldn't exist. Hope I could talk to any of you about this. Regards, Max
  16. @egoeimai @Onemanwolfpac @IJB063 @Keyhole @Girzo @Leo Gura@Loving Radiance@StarStruck @Socrates @StarStruck @mandyjw @Hugo Oliveira@bazera @EnlightenmentBlog Thank you, everyone. Even admitting that this part of my life is important to me and that it needs practice and care, has been really difficult. For years of my life I have supressed my desires for relationships and connections almost entirely because of how overwhelming dealing with people is for me. I've been caught in this loop of wanting to open up and connect, then confirming with cognitive bias how much I suck at it and how painful the self-critisizing is while I try, then dismissing my feelings and putting my head in the sand for months until I can't handle the pain no more, and the cycle starts all over. This has led me depression, despair, and sometimes wanting to end my life. I hope with the combination of psychotherapy I'm already doing weekly, my own contemplations, and incremental social practice, I can improve and open this area of my life up. I want to be whole again. I might open up some threads here and there to share experiences, and ask questions, because doing this all by myself has been really difficult, I hope that's ok. All the best, much love
  17. @Onemanwolfpac If only it was that easy. It feels like literal life and death, not so much as a "If you do this to conquer your fear, blablabla, etc". It feels like if I look worthless in the eyes of others it's better to just die, it's that bad.
  18. Lately I’ve been thinking about this a lot. When we come into this world, everyone seems to have a certain baseline of abilities and capacities. One is better at this, the other has more feel for that. What I’m really interested to discuss and talk about in this topic is how this understanding functions existentially, and if there are objective limitations to how far one can go. Can anyone become a Genius at anything?
  19. This might be a crazy question since it seems to be common sense that everyone is bounded to their own genetic make up, but what makes you say "to some degree" and dismiss the possibility of completely altering brain make up and as a result mold it into what you want to excel at? For me, the part I want to improve in is being more able to grasp complex and complicated concepts, and be able to interlink them and see connections. I feel my working memory and processing speed are not up to par with the pursuits I want to go after in life.
  20. @Leo Gura So then is this thought correct? If every form has it's strengths and weaknesses, then every form must have a potential to it's own idiosyncratic Genius? -------------------------------------- Also, this is a slightly different question, but does IQ = How well a brain functions? And if so, can one change the efficiency of that structure since the brain seems so malleable? I have listened to the 'What is Intelligence' video multiple times, and from that I feel like I can now clearly conceptually discern between Genius insight and intelligence and a well functioning intellect. But, if one wants to excel in using their intellect well, is improving it's efficiency a different matter from getting downloads from the universe?
  21. @JosephKnecht I appreciate the sentiment, but that doesn’t leave me with much. I still haven’t gotten any further.
  22. @JosephKnecht With that you speak of the capacity of being willing to do the (difficult) work to actualize potential? Also, could you explain to me why you think that and how you’ve come to that conclusion?
  23. Hi everyone, Yesterday I took my first dose of L-theanine which was one pill that contained 100 mgs. I mainly did this because I got diagnosed with ADD as a child, and recently with ASD as well. There are multiple manifestations that these alterations of brain and nervous-system types emit on my daily life, but the most prominent one is a huge lack concentration/scattered mind and a general sense of bodily stress/anxiety. This deeply bothers me because the type of work and study I do would benefit a lot from me having a crisp and sharp cognition. So anyway, I noticed very quickly a certain calm coming over me. It was odd though, the baseline bodily stress and anxiety left, but the unresolved psychological stress and it's concequences I could still feel. This was in a general sense really amazing as it allowed me to calmly think and contemplate. But then after a couple of hours, I started experience a sensation of deep angst and panic throughout my body. The same kind I would get if I were to drink a big cup of black coffee (I'm very sensitive to caffeine). It is still very early in my experimentation with this substance as I have now only taken it twice though had the same result on both days, I'm also going through a big psychological shift that could perhaps have a relation to this panic in my body. All in all, there is still some observation I have to do. So tomorrow and the day after I'm not taking it, and then after that I'll try again so that afterwards I might be able to postulate if L-Theanine is really to blame or if it comes from a different source. Also, I read somewhere that one could have a genetic mutation that could make it so that L-Theanine has the opposite effect than it normally has on most people. This mutation was also mostly found amongst those that have AD(H)D as well. It is called MTHFR. Perhaps this could be the case with me? I don't know, never got tested. I was wondering if there are some people here that have experience with Nootropics, and might have suggestions and/or advice for what I could do or try concerning my cognitive state. It feels deeply heartbreaking to want to do so much, but be limited by how my brain and body functions. I want to learn and help the world so bad. I really hope there is a way for me to fix this, or make it more bearable and have less impact. Anyway, thanks for reading this all the way through. All the best, Max_V