Arkandeus

*glass of water raised* aaaah the joys of timelessness.. . .

I think that the ego takes a huge beating when you drink urine, which makes you more present and awakened how you manifest infinite love is up to each of us I am impressed with this urine drinking, it's creative and courageous, I won't partake but I get the spirit behind the practice

I feel my hand, I see it I think a thought, I see a thought I feel pain , I see pain I imagine a place, I see the imagination of a place I long for enlightenment, I see me longing for enlightenment everything occurs in the lens of my universal eye, I

same with heartbroken people ''I'll never fall in love like that again, she/he was absolutely amazing, never will I find such love again" is it not life that you this grand love in the first place? is it not life that gave you this retreat opportunity life can always do more, and better, in a million different ways, that's infinity, infinite love if thats what you desire there will be plenty more opportunities to be pushed out of your comfort zone, if thats what makes you comfortable

belief of lack "I do not have the means to grow'' belief of limitation ''I can only enlighten if I do that...'' how can you grow at the retreat if you cannot grow outside of the retreat? the retreat is for fun, you're free to chose how you will express your enlightenment connect with freedom and creation

infinity, so yes infinity will beat up the earthly mind and the ego from their iron fortresses time and time again when you find yourself with no ground to stand on, you will rise

keep nurturing your mindfullness energy by meditating, reading books, making posts like this

if your heart responds then it is real, there cannot be a single second of life that is meaningless and that is not bursting with the vitality that the universe expresses they are consciousness exploring life in different ways with different rules, different ways of being and if you are in connection with a fantasy world it is not by chance, life is trying to show you something the heart always points towards the truth life is infinity

I will agree with leo, you see what you want in a computer, if you've done a few trips you know you could see a million things in a computer,a brick or a rock, till you realize you are seeing your own infinity the reality of atoms, the reality without atoms, the man with a brain, the man without a brain, they're all joyful creations of infinity I used to judge people, if I saw someone as I deemed to be "dumb" I'd get on my high horse, call them dumb , now I know that it is the universe, infinite intelligence playing dumb it is hilarious,impressive, the intelligence behind the dumbness is seen dumbness is a work of art by the universe now I can enjoy and marvel at "dumb" people, I respect them truly, I know behind the mask lies infnite intelligence I truly look at people that I used to consider dumb as my equals, now that I understand their art of infinity infinity has really really helped me put the puzzle together the way you see a tree is unique to you the way I try to imagine how you could see a tree in a different way then me is a creation of me the way you imagine how I would imagine you imaging a tree in a different way then me is again a new creation there is no ending, there is no such thing as repeat every single thought, every action you take is entirely new, every imagination a burst of life, your thoughts give birth to worlds your minds expand as wide as the universe if you allow infinity to surface

@John Iverson perhaps there are certain insights you want to get? you could watch a video related to that, from your favourite spiritual teacher or meditate a bit when the lsd is taken right at the start, you can listen to inspiring music, check out inspiring art or images,on deviantart there is a lot of good stuff

aah good, well definitely don't do anything you don't wanna do, it seems like you have a good mindset

lsd is way more intense then mushrooms, its the next level, mushrooms can be intense as well of course in my opinion definitely mushrooms are the basic psychedelic, I'd say even weed first then shrooms, then lsd, then ayahuasca dmt all that stuff thats in my opinion a safer psychedelic progression I'd take two days, one day for the trip, the next day to recover, simply to be and to process, just a day to be if its your first trip take half of the recommended dosage, just to get familiar with mushrooms, get familiar, get to know dont aim to get blasted into crazy trips right away, its not a big deal if you don't feel a lot or you expected more, its a handshake trip, you build a relation with psychedelics if you have a good, calm, composed first trip this will affect all the trips after that, you'll feel comfortable and confident when you take a normal dosage all trips are connected, your first trip will be part of your second trip and so on unless you've done psychedelics many times dont do it with drunk friends around or people who wouldnt understand or support you, or a club or party, just saying, for the first time that's not ideal

I wouldn't do that to your grand-parents maybe a very very small dose of shroomz to your parents first, if they like it then you can all sit together and share what happened between yourselves, and eventually if the grand-parents want to, try it with them, also a ridiculously small dose you have to really feel the open-mindedness from your parents or grand-parents the best would be for either your mom or your dad to do a small dosis, in the presence of your grand-parents this way they trip indirectly, the energies during a trip ripple out, and a trip is not contained to the person tripping, being nearby is enough to feel it, to experience whats going on and this way you only have one person to sit for, managing the trips of both your parents at once would be too much

denial, rejection, intruder, insanity, heresy.... all I have to do is to be nothing more is required of me nor required of life, I will be anything that allows me to be I'll take it, ego,sadness,joy. everytime I be I become so I'll be anything, I'll be that which there is to be, I'll feel that which there is to feel I was made aware of the ego, instead of rejecting it I will embrace it

yeah you follow your instincts, besides its not like pickup is the only way to find love, life is infinite

if these are wrong decisions you are rejecting your life, you cannot be happy now if you are not happy with your past your life is you, these decisions are you, you cannot reject a part of yourself believe in yourself, and you will see the complexity, the intelligence, the magnificence behind these 'wrong decisions' making the wrong or right decisions that doesn't matter, happiness is not gained from knowing that we made the right decision how can you truly be happy if you do not know that every decision you make is the right one? this freedom is the essence of happiness and it is your right

all this nothingness talk, the truth is in front of your eyes, you perceive what is it ain't that complicated after all but the mind wants to and will do a million mental gymnastics before it will recognize what is so in a sense all this mental craziness is good, let the mind run a mental marathon eventually it will relax

when the ego drops there is no enlightened ones and unenlightened ones if you enlighten, everyone enlightens, the ego is the separation of unity you cannot enlighten if you can't recognize that everyone is at the same level as you there is no more enlightened one or less enlightened, there is no higher or lower there are just different roles , different paths, and different explorations as long as you view 90% of humanity on this planet as unenlightened baboons you will in your consciousness be 90% a unenlightened baboon because you cannot recognize unity, and you actually believe you're doing better then others which is pure ego and more importantly because you are everything you experience once and for all, we have to stop getting off on the idea that we're better then others, the only thing, the forbidden apple or do it, get off on it, feel better then everyone, as long as deep inside you know its just a play,dont take yourself seriously or you'll live in a very serious world see the enlightenment in animals, the enlightenment in insects, in drug dealers, in trump, in wallstreet business man and woman, in your dad or mom, your friend, in a kid, in a tree , in a rock, in a chair, yes you think you're better then the chair you sit in?think again your chair is enlightened too see what you want to be, for everything you see is you the ego is a playtool, the most magically advanced toy for gods that want to divert themselves "how should we have fun next?" "let's pretend we are separated, that's going to be loads of fun! want to try?" "yeah let's do it, sounds like a fun game, I can't even imagine what that would be like,to not be one!" "or can I"

just for clarity, lsd is much more intense and less soft then shrooms, in my experience don't go taking lsd expecting a softer trip then shroomz shroomz are good, you can easily dose it, take a tiny tiny amount and up the dose each time, taking a weebit its perfect against fear, you can comfortably dose it

evolving visuals often the people in images or in movies look more real then the people I have seen up until that point because visuals and depths evolve constantly by the time I watch a movie a human face and body have evolved to look different then before,so its always a discovery everytime I see people I witness the evolution of the species animals look and feel like legendary pokemons now

@Timothy screw the nightclubs, when I was doing pickup I did it during the day I mean if you're not comfortable in nightclubs daytime is just as good, everyone has their environments, there are clothing stores, libraries, coffee places, plenty of daytime places IF you want to do pickup, and its fine not to , as I said I stopped, I'd say do it like this go to a busy parc, say hello to a girl, leave her this is the sort of stuff you take it easy with you can't put this pressure on yourself that you're supposed to seduce this girl , be this don juan,when you have insecurity and inexperience start with basics, saying hello to a girl, saying hi, thats how I did it, no more, nothing more start by being you, a guy that wants to be comfortable talking to a girl he doesnt know when you finally feel how easy it is to say hi, and how it is your Right, to say something to any women you see, to talk to women you will then automatically try to take things further, this happens naturally it starts by saying hi don't even make it hard, one hi to a girl a week, you can take your time

everyone has deep insights, both positive and negative people life can talk to you through anyone, you can only be in the present moment when you realize that everything is meaningful meaningful is the nature of the atoms that constitute a drunk guy sleeping on a bench or a lecture from your most favourite spiritual teacher its easier to see the meaningfulness in your teacher's lecture, but with practice the drunk guy sleeping on a bench can tell you a meaningful non-verbal insight as well

I have meditated in front of the mirror during a mushroom trip, it was very intense I say do it, it seems like you are ready when I did it I met my 'body' consciousness,it went from fear to joy to a brotherly alliance since then I never felt it was me in the mirror and many times I'd even fear looking in the mirror, seeing my body look at me now I'm more at peace, the fear is slowly dissolving, what I see in the mirror is not me, it is an alliance and sometimes randomly I have a moment where I suddenly see my body looking at me through a reflection, its surprising , but sorta fun to know you're never really alone it takes careful attention to your consciousness to recognize what happens when you look into the mirror, you do it many times, even through random reflections in the city or town, in shops, in your tablet, phone, a puddle of water

oh no you receive much more, but it's unimaginable flavor of food is so rich, and it evolves as you advance, the more you advance the more flavors, scents, depth of touch, depth of sight, growth of space, oceans of time of being you link with the divine the mysterious to your life, connections with others are so so so much more meaningful I'd say its realizing that heaven on earth is possible with the life you have, there is nothing wrong with it heaven is inside if you can link up with that, it will reflect that in infinite ways, wherever you are, whatever you do heaven is carried inside, like a liquid jewel, wherever you go , you get to see divinity, its true freedom you don't have to die and join some party in the clouds, you can bring heaven right here and share it with everyone

good question, I dislike pain as well, but it's there so I accept it the best I can