Revolutionary Think

@Annetta what's the song about? Never heard it before.

@Leo Gura Now that we are having this conversation. (Even though I wished we could've had it earlier.) I think even in the movies and film's the hero at least makes one or two good friends that help him along his journey. Was this the same for you or did you have to go it all alone with only books, meditation, and learning good habits?

@Lorcan I'm 28 years old turning 29 in September but, me and you are on the exact same page regarding the education system. Take a look at what I wrote in my self-actualization journal Yesterday. Your entire life with this stupid system that you are in that from the beginning you're told what you can do and what you can't do. In school everything is lined up for you and put together for you and all you have to do is follow orders and if you don't follow orders you suffer the consequences. Everything is done by threat and by force like if you don't do your homework and get good grades you'll be held back in school, go to detention, or the principals office etc. After you follow all the rules all these stupid brainless idiots give you is a piece of paper and coax you to go to college. Even after you're done with College you just get a piece of paper. Then after that there is no more detention, no my principals office either. If you mess up you end up penniless and on welfare but, now there is a caveat you're just expected to know what to do with out any guidance, help, or anybody who's going to make you do something. In addition to that the job market is a gamble that you've never exactly been prepared for. Then after that it's funny how many older people I talk to and how stupid they are that this goes way over their heads. A lot of people tend to agree with what I say and support the things I want to do. The problem is that I don't know how to get people and mobilize them to really do something about this disgusting travesty. The best I ever get is a bunch of people who agree with me then make me feel good in the moment but, in the end it doesn't mean shit. I could just imagine now a child who is in elementary school exactly the way I was putting his faith in this stupid evil system doing his best in school and then when he's done he's just going to get a dumb piece of paper while the rest of the world is just waiting to eat him or her alive because the idiot school didn't prepare them for life just a bunch of random trivia. The parents and the community at large are just as stupid, ignorant, and brain dead. The just repeat the same exact shit like parrots "get an education get an education". While this child can have some really good intrinsic talents and passions that's going to waste in a shit community, ignorant parents, and a stupid excuse for an education system. Those kids are the ones I want to be a hero to.

@Salaam this is a poetry piece I did talking about the things I wanted to do with my life to become a hero.

Day 4: To some extent I'm bothered that I look at so many of these videos from Actualized.org and after that I really don't know what actions I should be taking to make the dream I envisioned for myself a reality. The good news is though that it's not all just video watching and no action I've started a meditation habit. Now I'm kinda bored when I meditate but, I just view it as an interesting time where doing nothing is the best thing you can do for yourself. I always enjoyed aviation so whenever I hear a plane or helicopter in the sky I just wish I could be there. In fact I've always fantasized about living in the sky or being a part of the sky. Living on the ground seems so bounded but, being part of the air and the sky seems so carefree and free in general. I have this symptom where I think about all the terrible things that happened to me in the past and think that the world owes me compensation for it. When I think back to how I should've had better parents and how I shouldn't have lived with my grandparents. How much my middle school was a dump and the teachers were fascist and how I didn't deserve that. How I didn't deserve to have such a bad experience in the job market and how most of the jerks never got back in touch with me to hire me. Then I at least think thank goodness I graduated with no debt and I had the chance to travel internationally. In fact after I got the chance to travel I thought to myself that's kinda like compensation for all the crap I had to go through in my past. It's still not satisfying though my mind keeps going back to those episodes where I felt betrayed by my parents and society at large and then I go on these rants in my head about how much society sucks and how I deserved so much better because I didn't break any rules and yet this big fat stupid asshole of a world treated me the way it did. I guess that's where meditation comes in so hopefully I can get rid of that part of me that just yearns for an explanation of the way I felt in my past. The best thing though about looking back at my past is that I'm happy I don't live in it anymore. I'll never be the person to look back and yearn for my childhood. It's funny how Leo talked about the earlier the midlife crisis the better. I've had an early life crisis in 5th grade when my parents divorced and I had to live with my grandparents and told myself life shouldn't be this way. I had another crisis in University where I lived with my dad and my dad told me to go live with my mom. I honestly hate it that I have to go through so much bullshit to become successful when I think to myself all the resources the country I live in has. How much money is spent on the "system" how many millions of dollars go to things like the military, the education system, and other programs etc. but, if I just had a tiny fraction of that money I'd know what do to with it and make an extraordinary life for myself and others. I have this amazing message and this amazing passion to get it out there and I'm more than willing to put the hard work into it. The problem is that the is no guide/blueprint on how to do it. That's the worst part of all. That's what would bother me so much about older people and why I'd think that these ignorant stupid morons are all full of shit. Your entire life with this stupid system that you are in that from the beginning you're told what you can do and what you can't do. In school everything is lined up for you and put together for you and all you have to do is follow orders and if you don't follow orders you suffer the consequences. Everything is done by threat and by force like if you don't do your homework and get good grades you'll be held back in school, go to detention, or the principals office etc. After you follow all the rules all these stupid brainless idiots give you is a piece of paper and coax you to go to college. Even after you're done with College you just get a piece of paper. Then after that there is no more detention, no my principals office either. If you mess up you end up penniless and on welfare but, now there is a caveat you're just expected to know what to do with out any guidance, help, or anybody who's going to make you do something. In addition to that the job market is a gamble that you've never exactly been prepared for. Then after that it's funny how many older people I talk to and how stupid they are that this goes way over their heads. A lot of people tend to agree with what I say and support the things I want to do. The problem is that I don't know how to get people and mobilize them to really do something about this disgusting travesty. The best I ever get is a bunch of people who agree with me then make me feel good in the moment but, in the end it doesn't mean shit. I could just imagine now a child who is in elementary school exactly the way I was putting his faith in this stupid evil system doing his best in school and then when he's done he's just going to get a dumb piece of paper while the rest of the world is just waiting to eat him or her alive because the idiot school didn't prepare them for life just a bunch of random trivia. The parents and the community at large are just as stupid, ignorant, and brain dead. The just repeat the same exact shit like parrots "get an education get an education". While this child can have some really good intrinsic talents and passions that's going to waste in a shit community, ignorant parents, and a stupid excuse for an education system. Those kids are the ones I want to be a hero to. This is why all the stuff that Leo says isn't counter intuitive for me. Mainstream society to me was a plague. Really ignorant people running around like ants with no purpose or passion in life. The system at large beat it out of them and replaced it with a disgusting, corrosive, and idiotic pop culture. The ignorant stupid people sometimes ironically are the antithesis of what you learn to be in school yet, they are the ones making all the money. I guess that's why there are so many few people like me throughout history that changed the direction of humanity and the world for the better. The majority of people didn't do anything and there is a slightly larger minority that did the opposite and made humanities time on the world worse. I just hope in the coming months and weeks I muster up the will power to take action to fulfill this idea to give hope to all the people out there who want to do something more with their lives and change the world. I know I have the potential I just have to find a way. I will find a way eventually it's just a matter of time and being persistent.

@Leo Gura Do you agree with Harris?

I'm starting a deep philosophical topic that anyone who had a traumatic or less than average childhood can relate to. So when all of us were first born we really came into the world with absolutely nothing and the slightest stimuli would set us off either laughing or crying for any reason or sometimes no reason at all. As time kind of passed by our society, parents, (religious institutions) and education system took hold of our psyche and our very limited understanding of the world. All depending on where and when we were born. If you think about it you really trust your parents the most and in most societies when you are under the age of 18 you are basically their hostage for better or for worse. At a very young age our parents interpret the world for us but, then more things start coming into the mix like the school that we go to. Now I'm thinking that actualization has to do with positive things and positive habits that most parents instill in their children at a very young age like being nice to people, not lying, not being mean, and being happy. As you grow older though sometimes you may go through a de-actualization process. I like to say that it starts in the education system because the education system is chock full of people with ego's in fact I think that the education system is an ego building machine. It's all about competition and one upping your fellow classmates and always getting that good grade no matter what or it goes on your record and this record represents you. For me my de-actualization process started in middle school and I could even feel that something wasn't right. My personal de-actualization process began when my parents divorced and put me in the middle of their fights. The fights would be about money and things like that. Not only was that de-actualizing but, the attitude of my middle school teachers as well. Being treated like just another number in school instead of an autonomous individual. Having teachers who hated their jobs and would announce it to the whole class. Being depressed and frustrated that what you learned in school almost had no bearing to what actually happens in the real world. Not only that is de-actualizing but, all the dogmas society puts into your head at a young age that if you don't do well in school you're basically useless as a human being and such. What is also de-actualizing is going through a culture that doesn't care about actualization and just goes through the same exact routines times and time again because of it being a "time honored tradition" even though it wasn't exactly a contemplative tradition that asked itself why it does these rituals. Then when you are in your teens and young adult years that is some serious de-actualization happening especially in the west with all the corrosive culture around you (not to mention where I live the epicenter of celebrity nonsense) everyone's role model is some rich celebrity that doesn't know what they're doing with their lives. This culture is highly competitive, materialistic, and based on what your status is. Sometimes this de-actualization leads people to pharmaceuticals, doing hard drugs, getting stuck in bad habits, and having a sense of hate and disgust for the rest of the world and humanity. I think there is a light at the end of the tunnel though. Sometimes you get older and you have the fortune (because not everyone does) of stumbling into something like this. Even if you didn't stumble upon places like actualized.org you can still be lucky enough to go through some kind of process of re-actualization and hopefully undo the de-actualization. You can do this by journaling, getting therapy, and letting go of dogmas just because you realize they are not helping you. Sometimes you re-actualize by relocating to a better place and a better community with more like minded people as well including less dogmatic more friendlier and warmer people. So what do you guys think? Keep in mind that even though I am watching Leo's content and engaging in this community I think that these de-actualizers in our life are all around us no matter how old we are and no matter where we are and the best we can all do is be vigilant about them.

@Salaam Thanks and this is a video I did on Democratic Schooling.

@Sevi I just think it's cool where you have a dream and the power to do anything you want in it. If people know how to do that I want to find out as well.

Which actually bothers me is because society at large turns you into a villain by giving you the ego. No where is the more apparent than in the education system ESPECIALLY the Western style education system. At a very young age you're taken away from your parents for most of the day and given all these things to do. Then later in the school system that's when they separate everyone and make these caste systems. They make the grades and the grades are attached to you defining the kind of person you are and the kind of person you are going to be. The people who get the better grades are the ones who's egos are fed the most. Basically the education system especially when you get into the later years is just a trough for the ego. Almost no attention is paid to getting in touch with your true self. Only your fake self. The grades, the diplomas and degrees that are posted on the wall (showing everything the ego has accomplished). I don't know about anyone else here but, I think that an enlightened society would never create something like a public education system that's just based purely on competition and giving out grades. Then again I run into the problem of my own ego by writing down this statement about how the education system is and what it does to people it's my ego that wants the attention for the good that I'm trying to do (or I think I'm doing) by bringing attention to this problem.

BTW @Salaam the 9th post here is my story. The main reason I joined this forum is to find people with either similar stories or pain in their past who I could relate to. Then I want to take everything I learn to do some public speaking and speak about important topics to help others.

@Salaam I also don't appreciate it either when people who haven't been through what you've been through think they can talk about it as if they are an expert on the subject. Also I want to know if you spoken to those disgusting people who did those things and what there motive was. That or they are either mentally deranged. Also I'm glad that you and your wife spent time healing and growing I think that's what we're all ultimately trying to do here.

I think most people tired of the status quo may create heroes.

I guess the best way to look at it is that enlightenment is a state of mind rather than a set of dictates that a person has to live their life by. If you were a friendly person before enlightenment you'd be a friendly person after and if you were a grumpy person before enlightenment you'd still be that grumpy person. Or maybe a better way to think about it is that you'd most likely have the same personality and know you didn't exist instead of having that personality and thinking you existed... I'm kinda confused but, I'll get the hang of it.

I watched that stuff. I guess not doing anything to help out would be the Zen Devil.

@Leo Gura I'm also wondering if enlightened people would save others from concentration camps if they had the chance or if the whole no good no evil paradigm would make them complacent and say that suffering, pain and fear is all a part of life so what's happening isn't good or bad it just is so there is no need for me to do anything. Again I might be thinking of this from a selfish ego perspective but, I guess until I can have an ego less experience I worry about these things.

@Rocky what actions is he talking specifically that seem passive aggressive?

@Arkandeus It sounds great in theory but, I'm worried about practice. Let's say that during WW2 the allied powers had this kind of mindset... Let's say if they thought about turn the other cheek and loving everything. What would compel them to fight the battle against the Nazis? They'd think to themselves like oh people are dying over there and genocide is being committed but, there is no point in doing anything about it because it wont bring those people back... Or let's say you're in a situation where someone in your family is getting death threats from a known criminal. What would you do? Of course these are hypothetical but, I'm concerned if showing kindness to cruel people is being cruel to their victims.

@Arkandeus Does that mean murderers and people who do those kinds of things shouldn't be punished? They should just be able to roam free among the general population?

Well life is just as much as an illusion as death. I mean when I think about it I don't know what I was before I was born...

Day 3: Yesterday was quite the emotional roller coaster it started by going up I did a focus group on cars and got a check for a good amount of money. Then I'm so nervous about if I won the video boot camp I was in so I could get a mentor ship with the creators of the program. I told myself if I can finally get that mentor ship I have success in life in the bag and I can finally get my amazing and inspiring content out to the masses. So I come home from the focus group to see that the minute I get on the group discord chat one of the admins is congratulating me that I was one of the winners. I am so happy for my life I finally have a chance to work with professionals. Then other people come out of the woodwork and congratulate me on winning. Then what sucks is that the only reason they thought I won because I didn't is because the winners of the program are in green but, if you search for someone on the spreadsheet their name turns up in green (go figure). So it turns out that I actually didn't win so I was really disappointed. The unfair part about it was the way the bootcamp was set up was that some people worked alone and some in teams the people who worked individually with a score of 23 or higher for their video ended up the winners. Unfortunately for me my video got a score of 23 the exact number I needed to win if I were working individually but, unfortunately I was in a team where people ended up with sub-par scores. The team that won the highest score was a 22 but, the average of their team was higher than the averages of all the other teams. The thing I hate the most in life is when what other people do effect you and this is a fine example mind you the people weren't doing anything bad but, their level of work was way below my level of work. In this Universe though sometimes it's the ugly truth like when a mother has AIDS the offspring gets AIDS or if the mother decides to smoke and drink while pregnant the baby that's going to be born ends up suffering for it. I dislike that fact about life so much but, I have to find a way to accept it and for it not to bother me. The silver lining in all this is that they still haven't seen the last video and will be handpicking more people to individually mentor so I can just cross my fingers for now. The other thing is there is a chance I may not get picked but, I'm not going to let that hold me back I will do my best to find a way to make my name known on the internet and spread my message. In other news I'm taking a trip down memory lane and reading from a Journal that I wrote in 10th grade. I feel comfortable sharing the memories here. One of the most inspiring things I wrote down is this. "I have a power like electricity but, how to harness the power is difficult to find out. The power can go against me, be neutral, or really help me. THE POWER OF PUBLIC SPEAKING! Like the power of electricity when you put it in water it has a negative deadly effect, when it's used on wood it doesn't do anything a neutral effect, and when it's harnessed with technology and light bulbs it has a very good positive effect that as of now it benefits the world. That's the same correlation/parallel that I want my public speaking talent to have." So anyway the overall gist is that the negative effect is speakers who use their skill to pump up people's ego and make them feel that they are superior to others and their country deserves to rule the world, the neutral effect is speakers who speak but, don't exactly inspire people, and the positive effect is speakers who inspire people to be better people and make more of their lives. I have the talent to do that but, don't know where exactly to go. I tried toastmasters I did well although it doesn't really feel like it's making a difference so that's why I did YouTube. Anyway looking forward to share more of my thoughts, and ideas on here in addition to meeting like minded people. Oh and I did 20 minutes of meditation Today with a metronome don't really know how it helps you but, I guess Leo said you see the results later.

How old is Leo now?

@sgn That thing brings back memories. Really really old ones.

@aryberry Well there's two ways we can go about this stuff right now. We can either look back and feel sorry for ourselves and look at the present and the future and be glad that we learned from the experience. Even though I know it's not healthy I sometimes look back and ask why it had to be me and why it couldn't be different. I ask what I did to deserve such a thing but, we all know that the Universe is indifferent to that question and the Universe has existed for thousands of years with out us. I too find myself looking for inspirational content online that makes me happy and gives me a sense of hope and purpose. The problem is though once the video ends I'm still here in front of my computer staring at a screen and nothing has really changed in my life. What I really want is to get in contact with that person who's talking or giving that piece of advice or information once I contact them I can explain my own situation and get something specific from them into how I can change it. I think that the best thing that can be done right now since this forum hopefully has some high consciousness people is to somehow put our heads together and help each other out. For example in this post I talked about the negatives like the de-actualizers and how much of a pain in the neck my past was. So I think I'll switch gears and talk about something uplifting. For example my whole life I kind of wanted to get my name out there and turn myself into a brand I wanted to change the way the system works through that. My first step was to create a YouTube account. So I just didn't sit there and just think about it in my head. I had that YouTube page for about 9 years now. The problem was it wasn't getting any attention so I decided to join a program very recently the start of this year to help me go viral. It's been an interesting journey and this program had a bootcamp with specific things to do. I did those things and did em well and low and behold my graded project for the bootcamp got an exceptional rating and just Yesterday everyone was telling me I was among one of the winners. Then after that I got so happy and overjoyed I got the mentorship I was ecstatic. Then after that I found out I didn't win (mind you this happened Yesterday) turns out the reason I and others thought I won is when you search for your name it turns up in green (that's the color of the people who won) and one guy who searched for my name saw it in green that made everyone else search for my name and me and those other people saw it in green. Anyway I eventually found out I wasn't picked so I was annoyed. The good news is that they'll be picking more additional people to get mentored than just those people who won so I still have hope. Even if I don't get picked my content is always improving and getting better. So as you can see I'm trying to switch gears here and maybe I'll open up a whole other topic on where we are in our lives and the tangible steps we can do to take action that sometimes we are too scared or lazy to take. This really should be going on in the schools as well. Anyway watching Leo's stuff is inspiring and all but, I think that this forum would be where the real change happens because when Leo is talking I can't talk back to him (although he anticipates that when he says that we'll say well oh Leo...) so in that case since I got all my frustrations out there and can put in what actions I'm trying to take, what happened when I took them, what I learned when I took those actions, and strategizing for better actions in the future. What do you think? / @Arkandeus and @Leo Gura Does this video explain all the stuff you encounter with psychedelics?

Day 2: I put something in the Self-Actualization channel that I should've really put in this journal but, I'm hoping people see it there and know my story. The more people who know about my story the better. So anyway Leo has tons and tons of videos that are so long sometimes too long and I find myself so interested in the things he has to say but, a sense of dissatisfaction when the video is over because I don't know how to make the words into action that can actually do something for my life and the worksheets seem boring though I have looked into them and done some. I think the best thing I did was actually do a meditation where I sat down and tried to concentrate on an image. I did it for 20 minutes and it was alright but, I really didn't feel a thing just bored really and I tried to stop thinking and concentrate the best I could although that seems impossible because when you think in your brain "not to think" you're still thinking about not thinking so how is that supposed to work?? In other news my petition got 13 votes and needs 87 more. This is the way I'm trying to become a hero. This nasty and sinister education system isn't working for young people these days and I feel it's actually working against them. Getting mentors into schools will be a huge step in the right direction. It's funny how everything is forced upon you at a young age and yet they call this place a free country. I'm going to try my best in the coming months to kick my YouTube channel and blog into high gear figure out more ways to get more people interested and join my cause. I hope to find many like minded people on this forum in the days and weeks ahead as well as getting to know Leo I'm glad he pops in an out here once in a while.