Ananta

That doesn't sound true, at all. On that note, time to lock it up.

This is close enough-

Not really, red pill is toxic ideology. You are free to go to "Red Pill Reddit " and discuss it ad-nauseum. From urban dictionary (first paragraph of definition)- Red pill "A small fundamentalist internet subculture of angry, thirsty, mostly white, conservative males who blame all their romantic and social failures on women."

I see, it seems you are trying very hard to compensate as best you can with the issues. Do you still need help with the resume? What type of jobs have you been applying for lately? Do you look the interviewer in the eye and shake hands, speak fluently when asked questions? Any problems with that kinda stuff? So, a few thoughts, if you don't want to try again with the teaching, which I don't know if you do or don't, but if not, what else could you do with the bachelor's degree you already have? Could you change majors with the masters program? Have you looked to see if you'd be interested in anything else? If you want to continue, then maybe you'd do better next time? Not sure, but like someone else said maybe a job doing teaching, one on one (tutoring) or not in person (on-line). You may have to get creative. Like I said earlier, I also had to get creative, because I couldn't tolerate floor nursing. I had to almost beg for my first home health agency to hire me, because you usually need to be a nurse a minimum of one year in medical/surgical and I had only 4 months. After my interview, I called every week for 3 weeks, until they said okay. After about a year in home health I had to start case managing and doing visits and I had a very hard time. I had a nervous breakdown basically and did something really stupid. I don't want to see you do something stupid, because of a job/career. I know you've put a lot of time into this and have money invested in this specific career, but you may have to find something else. Change gears altogether... Personally, I wish I would've been an accountant!

Thanks? Oh, I didn't know that! Wow, you've lost a lot of weight! Good for you. Did you exercise to or mainly diet? Sorry if you said that already. If ppl have ever tried to lose more then 5-10 lbs, then I'm sure they realise it's hard, its damn hard! It's hard to get started with something that will actually be effective, then stay with it. Yes! It's a mind set and ppl still addicted to the goodies don't like to see ppl that aren't also indulging. Same with smokers, last thing you want as a smoker is for your smoking buddy to quit the cigs. Btw, I quit cigs/vaping 3 1/2 years ago. It was a life long battle.

@Spiral I changed my pic. I think I look older in this one.

49 and proud of it. I take some decent pics, especially in the morning after some beauty sleep.?

Well, personally, I've been in the same relationship for 32 years.

@Roy Nice post! One more thing about my bus comment. Not that she really got hit by a bus (still never know tho), but about 20 years ago my mom was on her way to work and was crossing the street and "literally" got hit by a bus! She was laid up in ICU with a brain bleed and until someone cared enough to call her work they were probably thinking bad things about her not only not showing up, but not calling either!

@Arcangelo Cool beans!

@Arcangelo Maybe she got hit by a bus, ya never know.

That's hilarious?

Sorry to hear about this, its sounds like you are trying so hard too. ? Sometimes we have challenges that we just can't do much about, except roll with the punches. My career has been a major challenge also. I'm an RN. I couldn't hang with being a hospital bedside nurse. It was just too damn hard, so went into home health. Anyways, I feel for you. When I was at a college in the nursing program ppl were dropping like flies (getting kicked out) like crazy. Started with 43 and 2 yrs later there were 11 left. One lost her mind when it happened to her, she started stripping at a club and doing hard drugs. She died of a heroin OD 1 year later. So, sad because she allowed it to completely destroy her. You have gotten pretty damn far education wise (in a masters degree program) to just give up. Keep fighting, if it's what you want to do. Keep searching for ways to help yourself improve. I know nothing about that career, so can't help with specific ideas, sorry. However, I am curious, when you say this- "Even at the hospitals I volunteered, they thought that I've was becoming a liability to the patients I was assigned to help." Why did they say this? Perhaps it will give some insight to a behavior that needs tweaked? And this- "I've already been rejected by several jobs that I just recently applied for." Do you think it's your resume? Or a behavior ppl are seeing? I honestly am only asking to see if I can help. If you don't want to explore it, then I understand.

Jealously

Nameste?

Yes and no Yes, because all there is, is you. No, because dreams are illusions in the mind that occur during what we call sleep, so there is no conscious thinking. No, you didn't, because you didn't consciously choose to cheat and sleep with another woman, even if it feels like you did. When I was a kid I was plagued with terrible nightmares and occasionally woke up screaming. I definitely didn't choose those dreams.

Today is one week. My official weigh in and I lost 4 1/2 lbs this week. I'm sure you can't lose more then 3 lbs fat, so the rest must be water?? I was successful at cutting out sweets and junk for the most part, etc. This IF is super easy and once I got over being ill from the diet change it's been all good. I'd say I eat 1/2 normal foods and 1/2 salads and other veggies. I try to eat them together at my 2 meals. Also, portion control of course with my normal foods. Thanks for the help and motivation everyone!?

@iKokomo To get over nervousness picture your audience naked. At least that's what my public speaking teacher told us when I was in college. Lol. Didn't help me much though, because I'd forget to do it.? Anyways, ppl always sound more interesting if you talk like you're telling a story, if the material allows or stop and interject a short story or joke.

Okie dokie, was just trying to help ya out with this- " I have been rejected like 200-300 times so far." But, guess your happy with it.?

To clarify, I'm not saying anyone should do this, in any absolute way. I think I made my point pretty clear that I'm just saying it might increase the chance of a woman responding positively and therefore increase the odds of success, but do what you want. Doesn't matter to me.

Hm, that's what I use to think about cigarettes and vaping, until I realized it was killing me and it was just the addiction talking.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/dating-and-mating/201606/should-you-date-out-your-league

No, just ego wanted itself to die, so it didn't suffer anymore . ...6 months later I found Eckhart Tolle.

If you can do 20, maybe you don't really need it?

Thanks, I didn't, haha Someone brought in cupcakes to work today and left them out on our main table all damn day long. I didn't touch them, but damn, I love pastries, hehe