Loreena

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  1. Thank You. I will do it.
  2. So this means that a person will experience freedom and bliss while his body continues to degenerate physically and there is no actual recovery from the specific health problems but a disconnection from the experience of pain. But this apparently looks similar to drinking your problems away but not actually eradicating or solving them. The problems continue to remain or even get worse. But the experience changes. How does this bring real benefits
  3. So this means that a person will experience freedom and bliss while his body continues to degenerate physically and there is no actual recovery from the specific health problems but a disconnection from the experience of pain. But this apparently looks similar to drinking your problems away but not actually eradicating or solving them. The problems continue to remain or even get worse. But the experience changes. How does this bring real benefits.
  4. Maybe I will start with jogging. I am not sure if I can do those cardio workouts. They look tough to me. So I might have to start with something simple.
  5. Thanks. I will do
  6. I didn't get. You mean to say that there is no benefit or relief from suffering even for those who meditate for many years.
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  8. Let's say a person has a severe health issue. Let's say his organs aren't functioning properly, and he meditates everyday for long hours and he achieves samadhi. If he develops strong psychic powers, how is that going to help him with his health problems. How can he reduce his suffering and pain. How does meditation benefit him.
  9. But I don't feel motivated.
  10. Yeah I do. But I don't do any exercise.
  11. Thank You so much. I will do this .
  12. Emotional issues. Emotional healing from childhood issues that happened and Hyper sensitive personality. I get offended very easily and find it difficult to feel strong. And lack of motivation and focus resulting in self-sabotage. It's a chain reaction sort of a thing.
  13. I did a lot of this...in different ways. I don't have cuts but I did other things. I sometimes went on a fast for days so that I could die, and I lost a lot of weight and collapsed many times. I oded ...I overdosed on pills last year..After taking the pills I was taken to the E.r where after a week I had tremendous blood loss. And the effect continued. The side reactions fucked up my periods and I started getting heavy periods and I bled heavy during each period. I still get lot of blood loss during my periods. So you see how dangerous things can get. I was taken to psychologists but I gave up because it didn't help. I am pretty much fucked up because of all that. My brain is fucked up because of what I did. Now I suffer. Once I did bang my head on the wall and it was pretty bad... Solution. I just try to flow with life. People like me need tremendous emotional support but I won't get it. And I know that.. but I try to manage somehow, anyhow. It's tough with your emotions always fluctuating so much. I have suffered depression, massive....... It's hard. All I try to do now is love myself more. This forum has helped a lot to serve as distraction. I also love the butterfly project. That means, you have to just draw a butterfly on the spot where you get a tremendous urge to cut. I do that sometimes especially when I am in the bathroom. Sitting on the bathroom floor helps a lot. Sometimes I bend over on the sink and start crying and sobbing for hours. It's a release mechanism. But don't do too much or else, you end up feeling very weak and drained. Crying is also a release technique but should not be overdone. The best thing that helped me avoid going into a depressive episode was to tuck under the blanket(more sheets if you want ) bury my head under the pillow and keep silent or start humming for some time to take my mind off of whatever is causing the pain. Sometimes when I cry I suddenly stop crying and begin to feel better. I don't know why that happens. I couldn't talk about all this to my parents or friends, too embarrassed to do that. I have difficulties opening up. So I keep to myself. Don't listen to heavy metal especially when you are emotional. I did that during the early stages and I used to get head zaps and collapses due to extreme stress brought on by the emotional music. Try not to be very emotional...emotions fuck up a lot...just a lot...emotions play games with our heads. These days I watch comic flicks, videos on YouTube and sometimes spending time on the forum serves as distraction. Distraction is a very important technique as well. Worked for me. Other thing is going out for a walk, especially just before the urge starts. Huge stress buster. I also drawing, sketching and scribbling... draw a line first. Then draw a connecting line. Then make it like a branched tree... keep drawing different combinations of lines and dots.. helped me to calm down. Other thing is mantra meditation...I say "love" and then breathe in and then say "over" while breathing out. Listen to happy songs. Please don't listen to sad songs although the emotion urges you to listen to sad music but your emotions are just playing with your mind, don't give in to them when you are most vulnerable... Good luck..take care. (If I have more suggestions, I'll continue posting here.)
  14. I want to be able to do it.
  15. Socrates is a Dumpster Diver! he digs through heaps of trash to separate the trash from the recyclables.
  16. @Shane597 The kind of guy that you are, you'll probably not get a mate on an online dating website. This world too complicated for that. And I figure they are just playing games or something. On online dating sites, they're usually looking for more sexual fun, because of the privacy and anonymity over there. So lot's of folks are sexual there. Happened to me and I was a bit surprised. Didn't expect that. But these sites are mostly for fun. Lot of married people use these sites too with no intention of actually taking the relationship forward but just for ways of spending time and sexual fun.. So not recommended for soulmate searching..but you can have fun too for a short while, gain some experience in learning how to gauge people on the basis of their reactions, over time you can become an expert at having interesting conversations, doesn't hurt on the pocket and you get to learn stuff and no actual risk. Just be aware of risks because lot of catfishing, don't meet without prior verification, and be safe... If they're looking for a guy to fuck, it may not necessarily be their expectations out of a date ....you know they could be looking for someone to pay money for sex..like escorts, prostitu## you know what I mean...you can never figure out their intentions without actually meeting them...plus some of them could be gold diggers looking for something easy you know...so don't take that shit seriously and don't think that everyone around is like that...maybe the wrong kind of folks are on that site! Stay safe and take care. Not your fault. You just want deeper connections before getting sexual and that's normal. In fact, I would be wary of a guy who immediately wants to get sexual even before getting to know me better. Who knows what he wants.He could be one of those online predators you know. So don't take serious. Work on yourself on the side and keep meeting people and extend your circles. But focus more on meeting people in real life...after all virtual is virtual.. people may not be what they pretend to be online..but meeting in real life doesn't carry the risk of mingling with the wrong folks....you know what I mean....you will have some clarity when meeting in real life.. So take care...and no you're not being wrong, just normal. It's absolutely fine.
  17. @Loreena how to upload images on this website twimg
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  19. yeah, got it, thank you so much. I already pinned it in my diary for reference. Will read it.