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  1. Awww I love this! Here is my fun in this critical moment
  2. Hi everyone, I had a big realization lately and I would like to share with you cause it was a big AHA moment for me I'm aware that life will never be perfect and suffering is part of life/evolution, but lately I've noticed that much of this suffering is only sensations that are passing through the body, I used to call them sadness, guilty, anger, anguish, you name it, and I would not only label them but I would also assimilate the emotion to a person or a situation currently present in my life. For example one day I wake up feeling sad with a heavy pain in my heart, so I would right away look for a reason for why I'm feeling that way, maybe it's because someone was mean to me that morning, maybe it's because I'm missing my family, it was just an automatic search for why I feel the way I feel but in the past months I started to just watch those emotions, open up the space for it to experience itself without judgments and repression, and it's just FASCINATING, what I found it to be more intriguing is that life did not become easier, but my approach changed in the way that I'm taking more responsibility for what I feel, I have more compassion with myself and most important I am accepting of the flow of life that is coming/passing through me, and this brought so much joy and peacefulness to my life, I'm just watching the chaos from far, this awareness is so beautiful. I'm just thinking the way I suffered in romantic relationships, I would think they were making me suffer when I was just experiencing my lack of self love and my fear of being with myself, I wanted them to make the pain go away, and their rejection would just expose the work I was NOT doing for myself, while expecting them to love me when I was not loving myself, I know many factors are involved here but that's another realization I had, for example now if I feel bad I don't think my partner is responsible for or has the responsibility to help me, cause I am there, present with myself. Or when someone asks me how I'm feeling, if I say I'm not feeling good they ask me why, and instead of going on to tell the story of my life I just answer: I don't know why I'm feeling bad but I know it will pass, just opening up space for that emotion/feeling to experience itself. Matt Kahn always says that sometimes emotions just come and go and our only job is to experience them without trying to find a reason or understanding, he also says we have an amount of time that we are supposed to feel those emotions, after that right amount of time we are free, but our suffering comes from repressing and judging the feeling as bad and with that they end up staying longer. I'm guessing I'm just becoming more aware of how my ego (aka inner wild child) runs the show 99.9% of the time. I would love to hear your thoughts and experiences. Wishing you all love, peace and light in this transformative moment
  3. What do you guys think about CBD oil? I just bought it because I've been having chronic pain and from what I've read so far seems to be a good option. Here is some research if you guys, like me, didn't know the difference between CBD and THC. What is the Difference Between THC and CBD? Tetrahydrocannabinol (THC) and cannabidiol (CBD) are the two primary cannabinoids that occur naturally in the Cannabis sativa plant, most commonly known as cannabis. Both of these substances interact with the cannabinoid receptors found in the human body and brain, but they differed dramatically in their effects. CBD is non-psychoactive which means that it will not get the user high. Because of this trait, CBD appears more frequently than THC in dietary and natural supplements. What is THC? THC is the main psychoactive component of the cannabis plant. In other words, THC is the primary agent responsible for creating the ‘high’ associated with recreational cannabis use. This compound works, in part, by mimicking the effects of anandamide and 2-AG. These neurotransmitters are produced naturally by the human body and help to modulate sleeping and eating habits, the perception of pain, and countless other bodily functions. The effects of THC include: Relaxation Altered senses of sight, smell, and hearing Fatigue Hunger Reduced aggression What Are the Natural Benefits of THC? Research studies indicate that THC may useful in helping with: Side Effects of Chemotherapy Multiple sclerosis HIV/AIDS Spinal injury: Lessen tremors Nausea and vomiting Chronic pain Inflammation Digestive health What is CBD? Cannabidiol is one of the most critical cannabinoids contained in the cannabis plant. It exists both in agricultural hemp, as well as medical cannabis. While cannabinoids are present within several plants in nature, cannabis is the only plant known to contain CBD. CBD has the same chemical formula as THC, with the atoms in a different arrangement. This slight variance causes THC to create a psychoactive effect, while CBD does not. This fact means that when you ingest CBD for medical purposes, you will more likely experience a relief of your unwanted discomfort, with little or no noticeable effect on your cognitive abilities. What Are the Medical Benefits of CBD? Research studies indicate that CBD may be useful in helping with: Pain (neuropathic, chronic, cancer-related, etc.) Epilepsy Multiple Sclerosis (MS) Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis (ALS) Parkinson’s Inflammation Acne Dyskinesia Psoriasis Broken Bones Mad Cow Disease Depression Bacterial Infections Diabetes Rheumatoid Arthritis Nausea Anxiety ADHD Schizophrenia Substance Abuse/Withdrawal Heart Disease Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)
  4. I've never been lonely. I've been in a room -- I've felt suicidal. I've been depressed. I've felt awful -- awful beyond all -- but I never felt that one other person could enter that room and cure what was bothering me...or that any number of people could enter that room. In other words, loneliness is something I've never been bothered with because I've always had this terrible itch for solitude. It's being at a party, or at a stadium full of people cheering for something, that I might feel loneliness. I'll quote Ibsen, "The strongest men are the most alone." I've never thought, "Well, some beautiful blonde will come in here and give me a fuck-job, rub my balls, and I'll feel good." No, that won't help. You know the typical crowd, "Wow, it's Friday night, what are you going to do? Just sit there?" Well, yeah. Because there's nothing out there. It's stupidity. Stupid people mingling with stupid people. Let them stupidify themselves. I've never been bothered with the need to rush out into the night. I hid in bars, because I didn't want to hide in factories. That's all. Sorry for all the millions, but I've never been lonely. I like myself. I'm the best form of entertainment I have. Let's drink more wine! Charles Bukowski
  5. Paul Stamets cured his mom from cancer and his stuttering with the use of mushrooms, the movie Fantastic Fungi will be out tomorrow and you can watch it online, he tells his story. When I mean mushrooms I don't mean magic mushrooms, I believe he used Turkey Tail in his mom's healing process. I've watched in the theater and it's such a fantastic movie, not only informative but beautiful, the director Louie spend 13 years making time lapses of mushrooms growing. But answering your question, everything comes from the mind, I healed myself from auto immune disease microdosing LSD I also recommend this video from Matt Kahn where he explains why we get sick.
  6. Today a 18yo boy with no pre-existing condition died in LA County, so I wouldn't be so sure of the virus being fatal only for older people. Also according to this article from Yuval Harari the virus is getting stronger, when it first passed from bat to human the virus was still getting used to live in a human body but with time it starts to thrive and becomes even stronger so I would say it's really unpredictable and we should be extra careful, old or young.
  7. @Serotoninluv Just started it, so crazy 1M people have enrolled, exciting
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  9. Why the focus on the orgasm? Good sex comes from the depth of the connection with the other person, when we focus on orgasm is mostly to feed the body, that’s why you get frustrated, your partner is probably looking for the moment you will orgasm and this is taking you both out of the present moment, I suggest reading about tantric sex. and here are some Good quotes from Osho on sex and relationships "That's why orgasm is becoming more and more difficult. Ejaculation is not orgasm, to give birth to children is not orgasmic. Orgasm is the involvement of the total body: mind, body, soul, all together. You vibrate, your whole being vibrates, from the toes to the head. You are no longer in control; existence has taken possession of you and you don't know who you are. It is like a madness, it is like a sleep, it is like meditation, it is like death. So really it happens that the more sexual a person is, the more inventive he can be. The more sexual a person is, the more intelligent. With less sex energy, less intelligence exists; with more sexual energy, more intelligence, because sex is a deep search to uncover, not only bodies, not only the opposite sex body, but everything that is hidden." “A religion without the priest, without the temple, without the organization; a religion which does not destroy the individual but respects individuality tremendously, a religion which trusts in the ordinary man and woman. And this trust goes very deep. Tantra trusts in your body; no other religion trusts in your body. And when religions don't trust in your body, they create a split between the mind and the body. They make you enemies of your bodies, they start destroying the wisdom of the body.” Talking about how it’s important to keep the mystery alive: “Forget relationships and learn how to relate. Once you are in a relationship you start taking each other for granted – that’s what destroys all love affairs. The woman thinks she knows the man, the man thinks he knows the woman. Nobody knows either! It is impossible to know the other, the other remains a mystery. And to take the other for granted is insulting, disrespectful. To think that you know your wife is very, very ungrateful. How can you know the woman? How can you know the man? They are processes, they are not things. The woman that you knew yesterday is not there today. So much water has gone down the Ganges; she is somebody else, totally different. Relate again, start again, don’t take it for granted. And the man that you slept with last night, look at his face again in the morning. He is no more the same person, so much has changed. So much, incalculably much has changed. That is the difference between a thing and a person. The furniture in the room is the same, but the man and the woman, they are no more the same. Explore again, start again. That’s what I mean by relating.” ~ Osho
  10. I’ve been diving deep into the fascinating work of Yuval Noah Harari and am curious about where he stands at in the spiral dynamics model. His first and most well known book Sapiens explored our history as humans, the second Homo Deus talks about our future as human beings, with technology, AI etc, and the most recent one 21 Lessons For The 21st Century explores the issues we are having nowadays. Past, present and future, speaking in a more broader way those books tap into big concepts we discuss often here like free will, consciousness and intelligence. I wonder what is the level of his content when thinking in terms of SD. Thank you! 🙏
  11. So I finally found a great community of amazing people who do ayahuasca ceremony, I love reading my trips after a while so I intend to post my experiences here, the sessions take place twice per month, so I'm guessing this is going to be a long and beautiful journey for my future elf to read. I've had several psychedelics experiences before this first one, being 3 of them with ayahuasca itself, but this group is really really structured, solid and fucking amazing. Seeing back all my experiences this one was by far the most profound and meaningful, I feel like I was exploring another random realities like a blind zombie walking around looking for brains, my search for truth started 3 years ago, and since then I've had tried LSD and its "cousins", mushrooms, nn-DMT, 5Meo DMT, ketamine, etc, but haven't gotten close to anything, I mean I don't see everything as a waste of time but I need to admit that I was walking in the dark, all my previous psychedelics taught me a lot but I was not always receiving the light, I was kind of lost and I totally see the danger of exploring psychedelics without clear intention and focus, all this to say that in this ayahuasca ceremony I was literally guided to the light. And I love how every psychedelic substance helped me but I found my thing now, and I'm beyond happy to have found this amazing little plant. I take the tea, 5 minutes in I'm already in outer space seeing all the cells of my body disintegrating and every time I try to zoom in I realize they are infinite, I see all the colors that exist in the world, rainbows, shapes all infinite, I see all the parts of my body, my cells, my atoms being rearranged, rewired and put into its right place, my whole body is vibrating in a high energy and it's so difficult to maintain my shit together, so I realize why reaching and MAINTAINING that frequency is difficult, a lifetime of meditation to prepare the body/mind to receive all of that, much respect for the work. The more I resist the more I suffer, whenever my monkey mind wanders, I feel like throwing up, so I surrender to the plant, and I'm reminded of one of the most basic teachings, the more you surrender to life the better life will treat you, the more faith you have in the universe, the better the universe is gonna treat you, but the ego is a bitch and wants to control, so my work from here on is mostly to relax and take my ego out of the way so the plant can do its job, and man when I finally relaxed, omg my body started being covered by a sensation that I can only describe as HOME, like a million hands were over me, hugging me and giving me love, and I later recorded the same sensation described in the book DNA cosmic serpent from Jeremy Narby, where he says "when the plant takes over, she embraces your whole body, like a snake tangling around you, covering every little piece of your skin" and I felt so protected, all the lack of love I had not received in my life and specially childhood were being given to me right at that moment, like a blanket with love, unconditional love, I've never felt so safe and protected in my whole life. At that moment I knew I could surrender because I was being taken care of, it was divine love, and suddenly the image of Jesus came to my mind, a vision of Jesus in his little crib with all the masters around him, giving him unconditional love, and I saw so much light coming out of him, a gold light, it was so fucking beautiful, no words to describe but before I get all religious let me clarify that I'm not a religious at all, I'm actually kind of against it because I was raised in the catholic church and had so much guilty, shame and fear growing up, so I would say my view on Jesus was terrible and I would even say I'm somewhat traumatized, but yes I saw baby Jesus and gosh, so much love coming out of that little creature. And after that I had another vision of a little naked baby, learning how to walk and it didn't matter if the baby would fall or no, cause all around him there was the energy that was covering my body, and I thought for a moment that the baby was me, and baby me didn't receive the divine love and neither felt safe, and there was I experiencing all of that light and love, it was one of the cutest things in the universe, it reminded me of a vision I had once on al-LAD, I asked the substance to show me god and it showed me, an imagine of an old man in a cabin in the woods, holding those old pens with tint, he dipped the tip of the metal pen in the black tint and was bout to touch the paper, then the image froze, and I got the message, that exact moment was the clear representation of god, which I read as an empty canvas, where everything is possible, any idea can surge, any word, any person, any story, oh gosh, it's actually this reality we are experiencing here right now, thats why we are all so different, shapes, colors, textures, smells, sounds, that moment before putting the pen on the paper was the precise definition of god, an emptiness where everything is possible. So this was the initiation and the most beautiful part of my session (we call it session not trip) I had several visions of old people, like old grandmas, like the Oracle from Matrix, they were all working on me, it was a mother energy straight out of nature, taking care of me. One thing I noticed that differentiates ayahuasca from other psychedelics (if I were to compare it with LSD for example) how both work with body and mind but LSD is amazing for the mind, I see my habits that I want to change, I THINK a lot while on it, have ideas etc but ayahuasca was working mainly in my body, it was rewiring everything every little inch of my body, all my cells, all my muscles, the buzzing was crazy, oh talking about buzzing, my goodness, from 4 hours of the session, 1 hour was only for the bees, I knew bees were important but man, the bees are the thing, but also ayahuasca is very junglish, I saw so many animals but the bees were working hard in my visions and they were EVERYWHERE and I was it, very fascinating!! So yes, ayahuasca really heals the body, that was one predominant difference I had not seen in other psychedelics, the power of healing. I think that's it for today, just wanted to write down so I don't forget anything, and as I write it reminds me of things I forgot, amazing. Can't wait for my next session of mama medicine. I will keep working with my LSD microdosing too, it's great for my awareness in the daily life, and since aya does not build tolerance I think I will be fine, oh talking about tolerance there was a pregnant woman taking aya too, and an old lady, even kids take it, sooo cute, what took me so long?
  12. lots of mansplaining here, I’m out 👋