Principium Nexus

@QandC Yeah LDR is pretty hard, especially because you cannot be physically there if someone is sad or has a great experience that they want to share with you. Good to hear it work out for you

Nothing worked for me, I gave up.

@egoeimai Thanks for your advice Oh and congratz on your 1440th post, maybe sounds weird but 144 is a very special number regarding to cycles in nature.

Are we just observers of the screen of reality, are we the screen or is the existance of an observer as the observed an illusion? And how would enlightenment and derealization relate to this phenomena? From what I have experienced, knowing that you can look at reality like it is a movie screen give great insight, but this is not preferred for long periods because you can get the feeling of watching a movie instead of being in the movie. I think enlightened persons do have insight of knowing that reality can preceived as a screen, but come back to actually being present in the play. They as to say in direct experience of what they do, not reflecting upon what is happening in a second perspective. I feel being distant of direct experience is excellent for conceptual thinking and imagination, whereas being in the experience leaves imagination out the picture (then you are all that is, mind and body). How do you experience this? Is experiencing one or the other more preferred or is it about balance?

@zazed You know this reality is pretty crazy but very funny at the same time ? We are all dressed up monkeys running around on a rock flying through space. What a joke, if there is a creator he certainly has some humour hahaha

@zazed Do you think most people are being hijacked by thoughts as to speak? ?

The ego asks, to justify its actions. The non-ego just does, because it knows it is the right thing to do.

@Leo Gura Is enlightenment the emptyness before one tries to grasp/construct/attain a perspective based on presumed labels that are not the things they resemble? You made a very nice example regarding the picture box with pizza. I realize now that this symbolic material representation also applies to mental symbolism (which are concepts/things). What I see now is that most people who try to get enlightened, try to eat as many pizza pictures as they can, but never actual eat the real thing. Thoughts and thinking is only symbolic, direct experience is truth, when one begins to understand this one has stopped seeking.

@zazed Thank you for commenting. I know the truth deep down, because I am. I know that all is nothing, but it is the mind that keeps making up questions to answer why it exists. For me this will be a life long battle to surrender and tell myself to shut up, that I cannot and will not understand why I am here and that this is also the reason why I am here. I know no specific technique or philosophy is needed to achieve what I want, but I would like to know which philosophies you like the most. I would like to read about the most common ones and expand my understanding why people believe those things.

@Shin Very wise words, I like it. @IVONNE He is just projecting his frustration on you. If you try your best like you said, it is not your fault to directly know how to do everything for someone's position you are covering out of the blue. Compassion is key.

@Leo Gura I have experienced a complete ego-death, which showed me all that is arises from nothingness. However, I have difficulity putting this knowledge into actual practical use in the ego game. I think trying to explain/understand what it is on a intellectual level will only make me walk in circles and will do the opposite of becoming enlightened. Isn't the purpose of self-enquiry ultimately to understand that one should stop seeking? Like going full circle to realize one already is and that all external theory will bring you further from the truth? Or is there no such thing as truth at all?

@Joseph Maynor I were to ask, what then is truth, but then my mind became silent. Truth seems to be the most prominent when completely silent, because only then the mind is still and fully present. Thanks for your reply.

@zazed Well said, I fully agree with your statement. One thing I do not fully understand is how we can give identities to other things if we are all one. If we are all one, for example the oceaan, why do the waves still act or think they are seperate from the whole? What gives rise to this illusion of seperation? Is it because we fail to comprehend that we are reality itself? If someone can answer the question, why do we feel seperation, one would have answered why whole totality exists. Is there any enlightened person why can answer me?

@Voyager But if nothing exists how do you explain the experience you are now having? Even joy or anxiety, why would you be able to percieve those feelings if it is all nothing? I know your mind is grinding on some very tough existantial questions, but you have to find some peace of mind to evaluate these things in a calm and objective manner. Don't draw conclusions too fast. Life is a paradox, I think most people can agree on that, but how much does that matter? I feel we are all here because the universe is in balance. I enjoy the act of being alife even while it feels like the most crazy irrational thing ever. What you have had is an ego death, a very prominent one. To asure you things will become more normal again, I have stood in your shoes 5 years ago. You probably feel like reborn at the moment and that you have been thrown back into this world after millions of years. You will familiarize yourself again with the ordinary things you do in life but it does cost effort. You have had one of the fullest ego deaths one can experience, which is the most enlightening but also the most unsetteling. Try to take some rest for all the theories you are having, go chill, experience your senses with awareness, let the sense of you slowly grow, but this time differently! You have to chance to fully rediscover all the mechanisms behind action, which no normal man ever will learn. It will only help you to come close to the truth, to seek it and to find it and live closed to your heart. Try to cover all the basic understanding which human society has generated so far and question its validity? What characteristics of reality can you identify, what forces do you feel, how would your perfect story of how things would work look like? Those are some questions you have to answer. You feel like a long way from home but you will get there

@Voyager You went through the eye and came back, I know what that feel like and it can be both amazing and confusing. As long as you are human, you cannot escape from this conceptual world that is hold by all ego's. We all together keep this matrix of thought alive, it's so hidden because we don't recognize it is this "way" of thinking that imprison us, which doesn't have to be bad by the way! Psychedelics dissolve boundaries, the ideas of absolute concepts, that things are separated. We are not, you are not. We are all one. Now, the logic part kicks in, OH MY GOD, but I still have a life to live. This is where you learn to integrate and transform this god experience by doing mediation, it's the vesicle you will use your entire life, to find balance in between. The greatest artist/visionaries are made by learning to bridge these two worlds, in the form of paintings, music, writings, etc. The only thing you can do is learn to live with this, try to find balance between knowing the divine and living an ordinary human life where most haven't even had a glimpse of the knowledge you had to experience. Psychedelics are no joke people, only for the toughest of minds! Namaste

If you have watched some videos about Walter Russel's work you have no doubt he was a great thinker. The following website (which I discovered today) contains a lot of his work, which can be viewed as pseudo-science, but resonates deeply with our spiritual teachings about non-duality. How the many arise from the one, in a more understandable rational language. Check it out! You will definitely get some new insights, I'll promise The website doesn't cover all that is written in his books but gives a great summary of important highlights. https://wikischool.org/

@AleksM Hey you should really look up Walter Russel! I think you will enjoy his study and books a lot! He was a genius and also talks that space-time/energy radiates/pulsates by contracting and expanding in some sort of quanta. His book the "Secret of Light" is probably his best along the "Universal One". There is website I just found and it seems to have all this interesting reads: https://wikischool.org/universal_one

@oysterman I want to add that this are just the first few days you experience this, so the detached feeling is more profound now. In the future you might be able to conciously shift between being "fully" in your body and being an observer. If you learn to conciously enter your bodily sensations you will perceive them in an heightened state. You could see it as calibrating a sensor to a black background or void of stimuli. It's a very good exercise to get full control of you minds focus. Basically you opened a hidden box and should learn to live with the insight you got

@Prabhaker But what has this to do with atheism? Or religion? I mean some savants like the rainman also have superhuman abilities, maybe this man has a very unique eye for reading patterns so he can predict faith. It certainly is a very mystical experience!

You doing good, your are on unfamiliar ground thus learning a lot about the nature of reality. That fact that it stuns you means you had a deep realization. This insight will be there your whole life, so you better try to understand and work with it. Events like these can be key to initiate the path to further enlightenment

Being able to count on each other in any relationship is not bad. Sexual relationships with a partner are so much more than an egoic act, if you meet the right person then the ego literally melts away. The whole idea of being in a relationship is about sharing, not only taking! If this is out of balance you might speak of egoistic intentions, but then you idea of a relationship is completely wrong or you just have met the wrong person. Love is anything but ego.. Fear to love is the ego, what could you possibly get out of it, right?

The ancient civilization were so much better at contemplating, sadly we have kind of lost this or it's only done in academic setting. @Loreena Very true! I think this story kind of applies to what you say. So basically five years ago a friend of mine had a pretty rough experience on psychedelics. He had a pretty rough youth, his mother left in his teens and he didn't really have the support he needed. Because of this he was easily turned to drinking, smoking and doing unhealthy things to hide away the problems he was running from. That day where he had a very bad experience or basically was shown everything he has been doing wrong was a clear turning point in his life. I compare this experience to early PD because the earlier you begin to see you own behavior the better you will be able to adapt long-term. Nasty addictions or destructive behaviour can be very hard to get rid off, so early self-awareness and setting clear goals is golden.

We cannot escape from physics, everything obeys its rules. But you can escape social conditioning, start to learn how things affect you. How you can optimize your response or do things differently, in that manner there is free will in some degree. Human life is exactly in the sweet spot, you neither have absolute control nor no control at all. This makes life worth living, it enables suprises, wonder and makes the story much more epic! Don't worry too much, it doesn't help you any further. Question how you can empower yourself by learning how these systems work. Then you can become a little bit better in writing your own story

Have a nice day everyone!

@Anna1 You are the dancer that is guided by the whole. You are both the dancer as the whole. The moment you see that you are dancing with yourself is where you self-realize and will be living the truth