Psychonaut

You have a particle collider?

Nothing new to me. What we know for sure is that when we look down there is something. Some call it body, that's just a fancy word. This body takes up some space. You put some food into it and its happy and grows bigger. After a while it has enough and you are dead. That is for certain. You can not smoke, eat healthy, exercise and stuff in the hope to make it survive a bit longer, but when you are dead and look back you never know if all that stuff to make you live a bit longer actually made you live longer. People wrote books and made up all these things they call religions and science to explain everything. But I don't really believe in that shit. I mean when you have huge particle collider in Zuerich and are crashing atoms into one another just to find some new particle and trying to tell me that you found something new. I'll be like cool. How do I know you didn't make all of this shit up? I hope you had fun with your particle collider. Because there is nothing. I'm here. I don't know why. I don't know why I am tipping this meaningless text. I don't know why anyone would read this. I don't know why anyone would search for an answer yet I'm here. I think that's just what the human mind is supposed to do at some stage in your life. I just don't know if everyone finds the same answer as I did. Yeah there is nothing. We don't know why there is something where there should be nothing. Just let it be.

Gardening is something that I will get into. If I could just go out in the garden water my plants every day after meditation, then after a few months pick my own veggies and make some great food. That would be really really cool. And then I can say for sure this is healthy, organic and blabla. Some of my friends will probably be like "you could have just gone to the store", but then I'll be like this is way more fun than going to the store.

Rooibos. I just drink Rooibos. In my town I can get a special "insert town name here" Rooibos. It's da bomb. It smells good and it tastes just as it smells. I find with most tee it just smells good, but doesn't taste as good as it smells. I don't really like green teas. I have some. In fact I could make some right now. But I'd rather just drink some roobois. Teas are cool. Way more cool than coke and stuff you can get in the regular supermarket. So many different tastes and it never gets old. Even my mum likes to still drink it.

Yeah. I like the style. Just give me something to eat, some music and I'm good to go. So cool. All this talk and talk. In the end of the day. You are still there right now in this moment. Reading my gobbled up nonsense. You know. Just be happy, go with the flow, dont fight it, just be. Enjoy what you have to the fullest. Just throw the money you have at things that you like and hope for the best. In the end of the day you have some more toys, some more friends which come and go. The difference between me and most of the people is that I'm still happy no matter what. I knew that all this knowledge and new toys isn't going to make me any happier. It's cool nevertheless. I mean who doesn't want a 85$ spinning top with a ruby ball tip. Yeah I ordered one. Gonna be cool to spin it everywhere. I'm running out of ideas here. Well as soon as you remove the chase, all the talk about nothing and focus on just being the actual fun begins. Just like a kid. They could've just left me playing there 20 years ago with my spinning top. I didnt really ask for all this knowledge and shit that everyone tried to stuff up my throat. Just to realize 20 years later that spinning tops are still cool. Just that they cost like almost 100$ now and I was happy with a 1$ top 20 years ago.

Does it taste any good? This is like so you dont have to eat food right? It's just some funny shake thingie? You know when I went into the shop a few hours ago. I wanted berries, like some fresh berries, raspberries and blue berries. I went to 2 shops. I really wanted berries. But well then I ended up with this thing. A juice. It was berries. Raspberries and blue berries and like 10 other berries. It had like all these fancy letters on it and so forth. But the juice was meh. They just threw berries in a mixer and called it a juice. They could've just given me the berries instead and I would've made a better juice. So I don't know. Food is something to enjoy not to throw in some funky shake so we don't have to eat. I guess I have a very very different view on viewing food lol.

I wouldn't bother thinking about good and evil. I think that concept is something very christian and not believing in it makes me feel very free.

I sit on a chair.

What are some good books on nutrition? I would like to learn a bit about it as I know very little.

I'm on day 12 now. Boy the dreams I have are so dirty and feel so real. Better than any porn I have ever watched. Prime masturbation material. BUT I can't masturbate. So I guess I just have to enjoy the show. It ain't getting any easier, does it.

Very relaxing. His other mixes are also very good. This has been my study mix for years. I know it by heart.

For me the "No Bullshit guide to meditation" was the most important. It was also the first one I watched. It made it look easy to meditate, which ultimately made me try meditation.

I try to build it actively by doing things like leaving a chocolate bar on my table and only allowing me to eat one piece a day. I used to be able to eat two bars of chocolate in no time. Sometimes one bar was already finished before I had walked back from the store. Meditation and lots of the activities people do on here build discipline. Checking every 5 minutes if there is a new interesting topic does not. Noted.

I really like it. It's like 5 double espressos. You are awake and it saves a lot of water.

@The Alchemist Go to Aldi if you think you can't afford fruit and vegetables. It isn't organic, but you can get a bag full of fruit and vegetables very cheap. That is the only thing I go to Aldi for.

I have been doing this for years now. For material things "if it doesn't have a function and just takes up space" it won't be bought and if I have things I dont need I throw them out or sell them. I don't buy anything ever that I can also have in a digital form. I don't have books, CD's or DVD's. I have removed almost all activities that don't serve me. I have to still find some other activities to have a bit more variety. But I mostly just eat, sleep, shower and do stuff I really want to do. Like programming and modelling parts to 3d print. It makes you really appreciate what you have instead of just trying to accumulate more and more stuff. Fe. I printed a spinning top a few days ago, I'm playing with it like it was the greatest thing ever. It's a bit distracting if you spin it all the time and have to spin it every 30 seconds. But I think most people would get bored after a few spins. Maybe I'm still a child inside a far too old body and maybe I'm still a child, that shouldn't have gotten an iPhone for his birthday. Who knows.

There are already 3 threads on psychedelics.

You can't make a video about raising a child if you don't have a child.

69

Sleeping 2 hours more in the night is not the same as sleeping two times a day. Google biphasic sleep. I don't have a rigid sleeping cycle, but if I am tired during the day I sleep. There is no point in trying to force it through and drag yourself down by being tired. You cant be as productive. But not being tired by just sleeping enough during the night is also fine. You just have to find what works for your daily time schedule.

If you are tired, sleep a bit in the afternoon. When I sleep for 1-2 hours in the afternoon I wake up fresh. It is like I have two days in one day. I am also a long sleeper, but I get a lot more done if I consistently wake up earlier. When I get up at 11am it's about 1pm till I have showered, meditated, cooked and eat. Then I do something and it 4pm, 6pm, day almost done. Eat, time flies by, its dark and puff day is gone.

No, it doesn't interest me. If the news was actually news. If it was factual, well researched and multiple perspectives I would be more interested. But it is just one perspective, which varies depending on the country and the newspaper. On top of that most of the news can be classified as entertainment and not news, where they choose to report on whatever gets the most views.

Am I the only paranoid guy in here that doesn't want to share his location?

Everyone is different, everyone reacts different to drugs, situations and external stimuluses. That is what psychedelics are, stimulants for the mind that can provide experiences that feel like they are out of this world. For me psychedelics are similiar to taking a trip to a new town, a new city etc. You see something new while still being able to stay in your comfort zone at home. For me this gives value to psychedelics. I think you have to believe that psychedelics can provide you something for them to give you anything. Otherwise taking them will just harden your believe that drugs are bad and useless. I have tripped 4 times on LSD with a good friend of mine. I feel I have gained a LOT more from it than he has. This saddens me a bit, but shows me that psychedelics aren't for everyone. Let's give you a quick rundown of my 4 experiences: 1. time: 300ug LSD (not recommended for 1st time) This was a 24h rollercoaster, up down. I had to face almost all the issues I have. I couldn't run away. They were there and verrrry real. I thought about many things and discussed lots of stuff with my friend. It was generally a very positive experience and a turning point in my journey. What I learned: - To ask questions. - That my thoughts produce emotions. - That I can control the direction of my thoughts and by that I can also control the emotions I feel. What I changed after that: - I started to filter my emotions into good and bad and suppressed the bad ones. This took tremendous amounts of energy. I had a watchdog in place that was similiar to out of control police killing of all negative thoughts. More on why this approach didn't work later. 2. time: 75ug LSD This one was kind of useless. I still had an overcontrolling mind, was absent and didn't let go. Showed that my approach to controlling all my thoughts was flawed and I had to let go and not overcontrol my mind. ... Some time between my 2nd and 3rd trip I found Leo's channel. I was especially interested in meditation and tried to figure out what it was about and if it would be useful for me. 3. time 200ug LSD This was after a long travel, I was exhausted and tired. I will never take LSD in such a state again ever. In the first half of the trip I felt really dead, no life, no energy. I have never felt so dead ever before. I didn't have suicidal thoughts, but I just felt like this trip was absolutely pointless. I had no weed either and my friend had a similiar experience. In the second part (the afterglow) of the trip I got an energy boost and thought about things that have bothered me for quite some time. I thought about going vegeterian and deleting my porn collection that I have spend hundreds of hours on collecting. Changes I made after that: - following day I started my daily meditation habit - deleted my porn - a week later I went vegetarian 4. time 200ug LSD + 60mg 2C-B (my tolerance is very high ;-)) I had the time of my life, I threw in the 2cb just for fun. I had followed through with my daily meditation and meditated before starting my trip. I also had bought lots and lots of fruit. Raspberries, blueberries, 2 kinds of grapes and oranges to enjoy on the trip. I was at peace during the whole duration of the trip. I had zero negative thoughts and no aggression for the first time on a trip. I was insanely happy, enjoyed my fruits to the fullest. This was not the kind of artificial happyness that other drugs provide, this felt real. Something that I created by making all the changes I made in my life because of the previous experiences. Changes I made after this: - 2 days later I started #nofap Tldr: I gained a lot from my experiences in a short time span of about 6 months. Psychedelics showed me the things I had to change and I changed them. Through good input from Leo's videos I changed lots of important things that affected my every day life in a positive way. Psychedelics showed me a slightly higher level of happyness/consciousness that I tried to reach after my experiences. If I hadn't gone out and tried to look for ways to achieve higher consciousness it would have been totally pointless. My friend which has joined me on my trips has gained a lot less in my opionion. I can not look into his mind, but from interacting with him not much has changed. He might be a little more positive, but he hasn't made any of the changes I have made. I talked to him about meditation multiple times and the benefits I have gained from it. But he hasn't started meditating yet to my knowledge. He doesn't have to and that's okay, you can't force people. He has a different mentality towards psychedelics, he expects a lot more from them than I do. I think he puts too much value in it and that limits the gains he gets from it. I'm not saying that psychedelics are the only way. People experience life changing experiences in different ways. But I am very thankful I'm still alive to tell my story and for all the gains I got from psychedelics. If you are here in this forum you are already on a path to higher consciousness and probably don't need psychedelics. I'm only here because I took psychedelics :-)

I'm interested in what people have stopped doing on their self improvement journey? You can also include what you started doing, but my list of dropped things is much larger ;-). I wonder what the ratio of stopped vs started habits is for other people. Here is my "I dropped it" list: - About 10 years ago my parents got rid of our TV - When facebook was new and cool I never made an account because I thought it's kinda dumb - A few years ago I stopped watching most of the TV series I watched online. The only series I still watch is Southpark - About 4 years ago I completely stopped watching news. I stopped reading about it, watching or listening to it - A few months ago I heavily cut down on the amount of videos I watch on youtube. I hardly ever watch a video directly. What I'll do is add it to one of my watchlists. I have a list for self improvement, one for entertainment and one for music. If I want to watch something I only watch it from my watchlists. The good thing about this is that sometimes I remove videos from my watchlists and don't watch them at all. I find this strategy helps me not watching video after video for hours. - A week ago I stopped watching porn and masturbating #nofap "I picked it up" list: - Started swimming about 2 years ago. This is the first sport I really enjoy, so happy. - I have been meditating for a month every day - Have been on a vegetarian diet for 3 weeks