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Today I will focus on my pattern of Discomfort as I said for a month, at least this "task" does not require anything from me, I just been very lazy and avoided anything that could include discomfort, or the slightest amount of discomfort, not consciously, its more of a habit which is not optimal. So, I didn't do anything today tried to stay awake allnight yesterday and stayed up till 09am or so till I decided I am going to sleep for 4h just to be on the save side, I am quite tired and will most likely go to bed soon. Will most likely wake up around 09 am as usual when I am not having a backlash and I am having a normal schedule for instance school, work, uni or even travel etc. I am grateful for having time. I am grateful for meditation to be effective I am grateful for my 7 month training in the gym i am thankful for my health I am thankful that nobody scolds me 3 traits of future self Creating a distraction free enviroment Performance driven / process driven Able to block distractions fully

Today I will focus on my pattern of Discomfort again this morning I took the comfortable route instead of facing discomfort and waking up early, even with the alarm clock and testing for iron deficiency, I stayed up till 1.11 and made the mistake to put the alarm clock in eye sight, so I was unconsciously blocked to sleep very well. I do a lot of things that contribtue to good sleep, meditatio, journaling, exercise, bluelight filters on phone and laptop, I installed one yesterday again, hot shower before bed. Now nothing seems to work very much, there seems to be a thing called CBT-I which helps with people who have insomnia which is you cant sleep or fall asleep for a long period of time 1h for instance, I have this since I can remember I am more nocturnal I never got out of this habit since I was a teen very much. Besides when I have to, yet out of my own volition, it's rather difficult. If I have to go to work at 09:00am no problem there, even when I am sleep deeprived since this is about survival, yet when it is not about survival. I want to experience comfort and my tolerance for discomfort is very low. Not sure what to do I went to bed at 23:11 my goal was 22:30 so I was happy with that. Yet, I was opting for comfort again by going to bed later than planned. I am grateful for having a lot of time.. I am grateful for being able to run at the gym with only one treadmill I am grateful for rainy weather and how introverted everything seems I am grateful for still doing work even with insomnia I am grateful for my computer 3 traits of future self Being able to experience discomfort more easily Consistency Humour

I love these mixes, I just had an idea to use different mixes during different times of the day. So, for instance I would listen to smth like this close to the end of work and in the morning I will experiment something more releaxed.

So, I am back from the gym. I will plan and structure my day differently, so I stop working around 17:00 this is usually where I get to hungry to work. So, I try to get everything done before that, the problem is still food. I am not sure how to solve this. Besides buying apples, yet all of this has to become a habit and apples are not even the best. So, again today I ran for 20 minutes and 15 minutes of this weird walking thing that is cardio, because there is only one treadmill NOT DREADMILL LOL ! So, I will wake up at 06:15 shower, meditate, eat and start my work day outside. I will finish the report tomorrow morning and schedule the day, I wont schedule mini tasks, but will put them on my to-do list for today, that I will refresh each morning. So, that is that. Otherwise. I am getting back on track, I did not do any shadow work. When I start working at 08 am with 1h break and generally every 1h 10 min break. I will be able to work for 8h out of which 1h20 would consist of breaks. Yet, I can continously work on a problem. I will test this, my new go to bed routine will just be a hot shower. My alarm clock is set and in 2h30 I have to go to bed. I will not use the flux app for now because the app is buggy on my laptop. Lets see if this structure works for now.

I am done mostly with the report, I will need another hour to review and add some stuff most likely even two and check the format of what they want, this is the nr.1 reason why I dislike orderliness, its not progressive. Its just structure. Its important, yet I dont like it it does not feel like work and is rather boring, I certainly dont get a lot of joy out of this with "2" percentile in oderliness, my surrounding does not look like a bum quiet normal, I am just not very oderly by nature, therefore I can work longer and harder and be more efficient. I know that, yet lists and all of this stuff is pure hell. Like PHP. PHP is the devil. Its important yet I dont like it that much. I will go to the gym now and I have to hurry up otherwise I will not be able to study in a different room. I stayed at home and made myself some tea, that works, but to get started its better to get out of the house. I just want to move, the internet is crappy, since all students use it. I am not buying a new internet connection for 1 semester and the foreigners above me are loud. While even drug taking Germans are more quite, the chats in the chat room are as ignorant as saying. I eat children for lunch. While denying the obvious. A classic ? I dont know its annoying dealing with elitiesm in Europe, especially also people who want to improve. Maybe this is a side effect. I still like the advice from the audiobook have more than 5 friends and you are out of the cult creation zone. I approximately have 2-7 not counting in casual meet and greets. So, I am definitely not out of the cult zone and for me it starts with this eltiesm crap, that is horrible and I am prone to do this. Because I am rather an outsider. etc.

OKay, I am 25 minutes into writting my report. I write relatively fast, so time flies by yet sometimes I am just unsure how detailed I am supposed to do it and then I have to ask etc. It bothers me a bit, I received my key from the internship I lent it to the new intern because he does not have one yet, otherwise some old patterns start to re-emerge which I enjoy a bit to much so I have to do shadow work and stay non-judgemental. What else ? I am making tee now, and I will study for 50 minutes, then head to the gym and study again afterwards. What do I want to do to wake up early ? I was not able to wake up early because I gave into comfort again even though I went to sleep relatively early. Tody my alarm clock arrived lets see if this works, also I have to eat some meat ? Otherwise I have an iron deficiency, I will take one supplement that I have to see if it is maybe caused by iron levels, yet the iron amount is way way to much. So, i receive dirraeah most of the time. Tell me the human body is not complicated. I meditated for 1h.

Today I will focus on my pattern of avoiding discomfort. Why am I avoiding discomfort ? I often think I am hurting myself and that I need to practice self-acceptance instead of accepting the part that wants to experiences discomfort in order to grow. I often find this daunting ? Where do I experience discomfort ? When I wake up I want to stay in bed, when I go to the gym and run I want to stop, when I meditate I want to stop because I cant sit in a lotus. When I feel the pain of my scar during running I want to stop and want to be comforted. When I want to start working I rather want to be comforted by distraction instead of facing discomfort this often happens when there is no set routine, or some greater will, that planned something beforehand. I will watch this pattern throughout the day. I am grateful for having a journal. I am grateful for youtube. Iam grateful for my training habit and that I can run for a longer time I am grateful for Leos blog and his videos there. I am grateful for my professor and the internship being lenient. 3 traits of my future self Perseverance Love Strength

I want to try this and focus on one pattern for one month. Template: Today I will focus on my pattern of I am grateful for 3 traits of future self

It happend I went to the gym. I ran for 30 minutes on the treadmill and feel elevated and concentrated. I can't go to the building where I usually study, so I have to write the internship report here. This is what I wanted to do today, so I will do it ideally for an hour and finish the rest tomorrow, I already started somewhere, sometime. Otherwise, I will eat something now and I am 2h above my schedule. I did not take it that seriously, and it's fine to not do everything perfectly, I can try to do a to-do list on my whiteboard, since I saw that with a few other guys who use it, so I have a daily to-do + time blocked for activities. I did not think that the 12 week freeletics programm would train my endurance so much, I felt I could easily run further up to 45 mins and above even. I covered a distance of 4,8km. So, I will try to run with 10 km/h ?? Next time to hit 5k within 30 minutes, that is a relatively good time. I am physically above most people..... the point is your brain recognizes that because its part of status. So, I generally dont feel much competiton, yet people always want to compete with me. I like friendly competition, yet not I am murder you stage red people. Otherwise, I feel I am gettint out of my rut, I actually took my full stack of nootropics today. I never know if they work, yet sometimes I feel they do. It depends, I feel coffee is more effective in boosting me. So, I can test around more in the future, yet right now I am out of this productivity, optimization hype, and its more about meaningful networks and systems, that may sound odd. Yet, I would appreciate a social circle. So, today was successful to get back, I hope by the end of the week I am fully back and more importantly I start to care less about my egoic needs and wants, it's similar to a node in a network communicating with other beings, and or some void creature going about life. What else ? - To do list on whiteboard - new habit grid - Watch a podcast about sleep today. - take hot showers everyday before bed. - oh yes baby, I am doing a cold shower grid, this started everything for me when I was in China, I was in a horrible position, yet this is where I started PD, let's see how fast in can make click, if I can run for 30 minutes without any problems whatsoever. Or do 1h20 freeletics...

Okay, now I talked with the guy that I wanted to talk with and basically all sensory experiences are doorways, which will allow me to enter stream-entry, so when I produce to much effort let go etc. All the stuff Leo talks about, the important thing is that I want to be careful and that I even get some therapy maybe, yet I talked with a therapist once he said everything is fine, people keep telling me that so I dont know. There are surely some hidden issues, that are going to unfold in relationship especially in the commitment part that are more behavioural. I felt a bit embarrased asking the questions, also my accent becomes very strong when speaking to native english speakers besides brits. I dont know why, so I sound like Arnold Schwarzenegger. This is a bit odd, yet its fear speaking and I want to do things correctly, because I am a bit neurotic about this. Otherwise, I do think I am doing very well ? Yet, he could not give me the answer that I was seeking besides that these experiences are doorways and that people behave weirdly around me. Its like they actually get to some form of Green, because I am the embodiment of multiculturalism, especially when talking english etc. Yet, some just dont give a fk, so they cleanse that vibe and whats left is orange/yellow at best. Anyway. I will play 1 game and then go to the gym and run and then work on the report. I only did 25 minutes of meditation today, so no full hour. The warm shower worked, and otherwise I dont know why people get so angry with me sometimes. I felt the facilitator that I spoke with felt angry, while I feel this weird energy again in my solar plexus. Maybe its my brain signaling higher status etc. Since it actually keeps track of that.

Okay, so I wrote down a PLAN ! Now, I will follow that plan and ask questions this time ! I will see if I can run for 30 minutes without a break on the treadmill, endurance is by far my biggest weakness. Yet, i can run 5k with breaks in 31-36 minutes. I just run automatically a bit faster because I am tall and have longer legs etc. i dont know any technique. So, I am hyped !! The hot showers work. I will write down my evening routine to get to bed and will make a habit tracker again. The point is 100% commitment what does that mean. When I fail I get back up and try again, if I failed the first day I was for sure not 100% commited. So, keep re-committing. I schedule also a study session. I will try to write a report, also with meditation. That will be fairly soon.

So, nothing worked I keep feeling comfort when I do not have wnough sleep I wont wake up beides my cortisol Spikes for some reason people bring to loud etc. I am u sure if I should get out of the appartement earlier, when I use my Phone in the morning I also stay awake when I watch a Video or even type this. This is the longest Phase of lazyness I had without feeling depressed, yet I feel the burden to do smth. Like I am guilty towards myself to do smth. I want to Explorer These emotions with Meditation. My dream today Was weird it was about bei g a double agent in a demon/spirit World mostly playing out in the human releam and I was actuqlly a 7 year old kid with a friend who could change his age. So I was working for a a police type Company. My Boss did not seen to know (female Boss) that the Spiritual World exist and I some body stole a tracking device from ne, because I was about to visit a large tournement in the spirit World. IT was odd to many time lapses

I will go to the gym EARLY TOMORROW. What pains did I usually endure that made me stronger ?? Cold showers. Stretching exercises. Gym Studying. My Nr. 1 enemy is currently comfort. I want to make a list about and tomorrow report, pains and comforts, old friends and social life.

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Okay, so I did it. I cleaned my room. I re-created the trash outside, there is still one classic I still do not understand. I listend to Leos video on the blog. I am unsure what to do besides doing the practices. Playing video games makes me happy. Working makes me happy . WHY NOT DO BOTH ?! Now what is left to do is actually it's a secret. Prepare my bag. Its utterly ridiculous. NOW MY OLD FRIENDS GET INTO PD ???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!???????????????????????????? When I quit contact. Maybe its just my bf. So, I enjoy that. I wish no harm. Still, tomorrow will be the day, where Ill get out of the rut. and work on the tasks that are neccessary. What else ? I want to take cold showers again, I will order a new shower head. There is one guy who triggers me so I want to do shadow work. I want to do another retreat in November. What do I have to do to make sure, even if I am not getting enough sleep to wake up at 06 am ? Put my phone away, no audiobooks to fall asleep. OH YES I WILL ORDER AN ALARM CLOCK. Order an alarm clock, never use your phone again and even if, as I said I could easily fool myself, but if I dont take action on tips, then I am fooling myself even harder. Maybe I need a coat. Then a goat, and then I summon satan. The mascot of our hometown team, I am not kidding. The devil is our mascot. So, that is that. I will plan my day, schedule my free time workout 5 days a week again. Starting from tomorrow, you heard it hear first. I also will do one shadow work session I dont like this reoccuring pattern of high orange sht kid tolerating green because he thinks he his higher, but does not WORK AS A SYSTEM. Cognitvely yes I have to admit, but I doubt this yuppi cares that much. I think I actually meet tourquise people before I even started to think about this this is so sso freaking different from GREEN AND I CANT SEE THEM WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I would cry laughing doing this in real life, and I would do it lol.

So, first of all I am bullshitting myself so hard currently, yet at the sametime I really enjoy working. The number one problem is have is as so often getting up in the morning, I am way over the time where I would usually go to bed. Yet, I cant surpass this resistance of wow, I wake up work and die. So, what did I do today to get out of a rut ? I cleaned my appartement and my shower, the sink, and cleaned up in general my room. I will prepare my bag and hang up some clothes now that I washed. I will download the video game I deleted, and will make a plan, and again prepare my bag to go to the gym. My arm is still not fully healed, yet I can go for runs. Now, what else ? I cleaned my sink and the dishes in the appartement not the bathroom. In my king sized room. I found a new way to get rid of the 10000 liters of milk I use for protein shakes etc. Because drinking them with water tastes so cheap. So, the only problem I have now is not committing 100% and the distractions. So, what are distractions ? Or rather the opposite of which distractions I did get rid off today ? - Dirty appartement - Laundry That is it. I applied for the gym, I did not go since two weeks approx now. Because of rut and my mind making excuses. My productivity tips that I read do I take action on them ? Some of them. Bullet journal, time boxing, journaling, reflection. What else ? Now, its very important to schedule my time and programm, so getting up early in the morning and getting work done is the most important thing in my life. The biggest distractions I currently have is simply. - Sitting at my room. I am not productive here. - On the weekend I would need to head to the libary. - I could ask others where I could study, I am tired being stuck on this stupid hill. WHAT ELSE?! I reviewed my LP - Notes very shortly and I noticed I did not implement the habits, I achieved some goals. Yet, the habit section is the most difficult for me apparently. I can delete and build new habits. Which I did before, yet I am not committing to one habit currently. Which would still be GO TO FKING BED EARLY ?! The NR.1 culprit for not going to bed early is video games and or watching videos on YouTube or watching streams of people playing video games. NOW? Can I just reduce it ? I often say to myself, oh yes I dont need to cutback on pleasure. So, I can just do it. But, I am not doing it stratigcally, I did not try that, when I actually scheduled my video game time, I was more inclined to go to bed and stay with the flow because I enjoyed the schedule and the time I spent. So, instead of cutting down on this. Why not take the thing that I like to do late and combine it with before I go to bed "ritual" ? With a key few other things. For instance taking a hot shower to be tired. I will try this today. So, I am taking care of my laundry, will plan my week and or ONLY day. And start to get out of this rut by the end of the week and go full on into productivity I want to create and live my life purpose mode. TOMORROW MORNING I WILL REPORT THAT I DID MY MEDITATION OF 1H EVEN THOUGH IT IS NOT GOING TO BE EASY. I AM HOLDING MYSELF ACCOUNTABLE TO WRITE A POST. A GET OUT OF THE RUT REPORT.

Exactly. Exactly. This guy totally got me. I am contemplating if I shoud buy one of these journals. Since, this is not working out. Yet, I want to take some time to remind me why, yet first of all the biggest lie of all time. I will clean my room appropriately. Maybe sarcasm works ?

I cant fully watch the new blog post of Leo, I watched parts of it during my break. I am not sure what to reflect about this is more a post out of accountability. Now, I went to bed very early yesterday and deleted the video game I play the most so I am more inclined to work, because I am bored. Otherwise, I will apply for my bachelors soon, and hope everything will work out. I sometimes still feel very depressive and just left alone, like I receive no attention at all. Even though I constantly receive it, yet tbh I need a lot of it and the sametime none. Its very odd. One person told me once I have a very high "treshhold" for serotonin and I often for instance just when playing video games receive all the attention without even wanting it. I am just quiet and someone has to crack a joke and I have to laugh so hard, or I become so hyped that I start making jokes and all of a sudden all eyes on me, its like they are greedy to see me perform, and that is what I feel in general. Its insane what people sometimes write. Even just in a game. Yet, in reality its also a bit similar I often tend to uphold conversations because I value them. So, I keep asking questions or generally apply "How to win friends and infleunce people" in a non-manipulative way. Now, I want to invest in my future and dont forget change, maybe Ive been resitent to change, because I was trying to change so much the whole time. Yet, its more of a setback its stupid listening to other people all of the time or even just often. Sometimes I just want to get out do it try, fail and learn. Its odd how often it seems for me that I "have" to repeat these lessons in order to create a stable scaffold that I can work with. At the sametime, what about mastery ? Did I loose all passion for coding ? Or for learning ? I am feel odd, because I still think that I can learn anything and most things and know everything in a sense, yet its not possible I forget so much. Which just prompts me to think about this subject more in terms of "oh its not worth it anyway", why do it ? RIght ? So, I am not driven to read since most things are so technical which is very interesting, yet this blosters my ego immensely because I feel superior to others because of some random thing I know that others dont or i feel that others are worthless because they dont know what I know and dont seem to know anything in general. Other times I feel knowing or knowledge is so stupid why even accquire it ? I just do and thats it. Yet, I lack an order of importance and priority. Its normal to constantly not like something for ever. Yet, when the passion re-kindles I should not ignore that and follow it. Especially, stay with the subject its similar to Leos LP reading list I read most of the books or have the audio format. The book from Cal Newport so good they cant ignore you is bascially screw passion. You will get adjusted to it and it will grow as a passion. Now, its similar with my favorite video game, I played it and was utterly destroyed and did not play it anymore because it was just not fun being destoryed so hard, then I got better and sooner or later it rather became an addiction and still is partially. Just because of this strive to become better or of exellence and performance I can see similar tendencies in the gym, not yet with my work though. So, thats that. Gratitude journal: I am thankful for my mom. I am thankful for meditation. I am thankful for shinzen and the micro-retreat. I am thankful for kind people who tell me interesting stuff and I can learn. I am thankful for every kind no matter how small I receive!

Now, I will do a short reflection. I deleted the video game I play the most on my pc and will apply for the gym today, and ideally go for a run my arm is still not fully healed. I am still amazed how power driven normal people are just to maintain their status quo and their comfort. I noticed in my meditations that my comfort definitely induces dullness and therefore people I figure become generally non-caring. Otherwise, the positive meditations are a bit weird. I feel more happy in generall, yet also more vulnerable I seldom fear something besides its a very old fear, like fear of being exposed to the public etc. Yet, I can handle it still very well. So, far I am a bit tired of productivity and the best thing is to act, even though I feel i could burn out at one point. Yet, I am not interested in making this a self-fullfilling prophecy. I will rather like to manifest. I did not watch Leos new video fully about an hour or so in. He definitely showed some insights that i had, yet to no where near to his or this level of depth. For instance also channeling that is intersting in hindsight, also that Shinzen mentioned it weirdly in the retreat over the weekend and chuckled weirdly. So, what now ? I would like to write about something interesting, I also want to change my profile picture. For new motivation. Otherwise, I am not sure what to do with other peoples ego. Since, mine is still intact, yet it feels very weird. I am not sure if my training is sufficient or even good. Because of some bad habits such as lookg at the clock while meditating, or not being able to sit in a lotus. So, I try "nano" hits through out the day. Yet, overall I feel sometimes very sucidal, such as if this does not work why not kill myself, there is no one around me where I feel cares a lot about me and generally steadily creating purpose and drive is not easy. So, this thought pattern scares me sometimes from actually doing it and considering doing it questioning my sanity. Or trusting my more rational voice saying this is because of the stressful circumstance and in general family situation that you are in right now. So, there is no need to worry. Yet, the rational and dispassionate side of people is cruel. Its very difficult for me to enjoy survival and to have fun that way when so many are power and ego driven without knowing or acknowledging it and using it for good. Also, i feel that people make internally fun of me I dont know why and I feel quite powerless, besides physically. Overall I whish I could delete a few people completly out of my memory and out of my life.

The retreat is over. I certainly dont think I will become enlightend as a stream-entrer during a weekend retreat, I dont doubt that it can happen, yet generally this approach that I am undertaking is more gradual. There was one embarrassing moment where I unmuted myself even though I did not press anything, normally I have to press * and then the number 6 on the phone to unmute myself and speak. Yet, I just clicked on the button and I did not think that it would unmute me tbh neither Shinzens nor Chô did. As far as I understand and know anyway, there was a german girl speaking I could tell because of her accent and something just rubbed me the wrong way and I said I could puke, meaning I could puke listen to her. Because she does not understand her own bias. To be a bit more deeper about this. And ta-da. I was unmuted, after that I just heard muted and I thought wth just happend and went away from the phone I was embarrassed, yet I had to laugh so hard since my intuiton on this is seldom, so seldom wrong. I would lick a DMT-Toad and not become high. So, that was embarrssing otherwise two people reacted a bit more positvely now after a short interaction normally people dont greet me, yet one of them did and the other one was quite positive. Retreat wise still some of the old problems with sitting for longer periods my mind becomes a bit dull and I become tired. Also, not being able to sit in a lotus and having to use a chair is a bit annoying mentally, a burmeese position I cant maintain for to long without moving much and hurting my limbs etc. Because I get to that point and it hurts a lot. So, I afterwards for instance I am not able to walk for 2-5 minutes because my legs hurt, I am not very flexible, yet still very fit. So, this is another ego trigger for me. Next, I had a very clear more upacara like "samadhi" experience I was very highly concentrated so that I felt my brain this time not the cerebellum with a lot of flow, yet the prefrontal cortex ? definitely the upper part of my skull near the top. So, that was quite intense it felt at one point similar to dying ?? Again... And otherwise it was just intense concentration more in the upacara not moment to moment awarness so single pointedness of concentration. That is about it not sure what I will reflect about. For this retreat besides that I am still not very familar with more advanced concepts that Daniel Ingram also uses. Such as arising and passing and Shinzens expansion and contratction. I mean I do get it, yet its like "Pustekuchen" the english translation is weird. Meaning fiddlesticks. So, anyway besides shitty turquoise intuition and wanna be manifestations that I completely do not understand and Id rather have some explanations for this from my family. I am very much inclined to go the the gym again. I constantly hear raven sounds to specific times, that seem way to odd. Similar to my intution detecting peoples failure in sticking to unagreed behavioural conduct. Yet, this is more now observing SD. Its insane how accurate it can be. Especially considering now third tier. Makes a lot more sense about strong intuitives and hatred for the world at least a bit lol. I wanted to also write about one of my friend who strives in his LP, since he released his first paper and was invited to speak at the technical university in Munich in front of 200 people. Very normal , but interesting character. Anyway. That is about it for today. I still have a lot of stuff to do and organize.

I want to write more and think about my current situation especially social life and be a bit more frank and upright about it. I struggle with my old friendships and cant seem to let go of them because I lack options I do have a few friends, yet I dont like their life situation. I also dont like how I am at a disadvantage for this type of stuff, let alone because of skin color and country. Its very important for me to meet progressives like Joe Rogan for instance how are also very down to earth. I am tired of this latent weird thinking that I have to endure based on the average consciouness of low consciouness dirt. This elitism of europe also tends to piss me off, its annoying and makes people very unappealing and generally lets me feel like I am left out. Yet, this is even more apparent in the internet culture more on this stuff soon.

So first day of the retreat is over I meditated in total for 9h that day. I had some weird brain twitches again this time at the neocortex ? I am not sure how large this cortex is it was definitely at the top of my brain, it felt as if a massive shift could occure and that someone would massage a chord inside my brain, that was during my regular practice the do-nothing practice. Otherwise, Shinzen told a story why he is mistrustful of NLP because the founder fked and killed a prostutited and used NLP to manipulate at the court. So, that was interesting and one of his students was at the trial. Otherwise, the modality blast was very good to learn all techniques besides the pain algorithm, definitely helped me with flavours of concentration. I did not ask any questions yet.

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How to be less influneced by the unconsciousness of others ? How to be consistent in a given field ? What not to do to succeed in life ? What not to do to achieve enlightenment ? What is a reaonsonable amount time to meditate each day ? How long should a retreat last ? What are alternatives to retreats ? What about pleasure ? How to pursue it healthily ? What about meditative pleasures such as jhanas ? How neccessary are they for life ? For instance when people want to maximize pleasure ? How to build a more conscious social circle ? How to stay consistent for years ? For instance body building, reading, creating etc. without relying on passion alone. How to be better at survival ? How to spot devils ? Which meditation practices are more of a dead-end ? What is an alternative way to build habits, instead of cue, routine, reward ? Is there a process which would facilitate enlightenment any tool ? brain machine, teacher, guru, group, exercise, book, combination of practices, brain wave and states etc. (Besides psychedelics) How important is concentration for life and increasing it as a mindfulness skill ? Why cant I achieve my goals how to train resistence and persistence ? Why do I sabotage myself if that would lessen my chances for survival ? Is saboatging oneself due to unconsciouness ? What is the difference between unconsciouness and habit forces ? What works for cleansing chakras or producing kriya experiences ? is it shamanic breathing and kriya yoga alone ? Mindfulness also worked once. How important are cleansing practice how long should they be done, or should they be done in short and intense burst. For instance 2h on a weekend or on retreat ? How to lessen the effects of psychdelic backsliding ? How could you impact politics without having a major in political science ? What is behind jealousy, anger, fear, etc. What are their opposites ? For instance anger comes from the eng word to agress which means moving forward towards a goal. What about third tier according to ken wibler ? Are they neccsassry for survival ? Do they exist ? How would they impact my life ? How to not burn out while pursuing career and enlightenment ? (or LP) Why does intuiton warn me and I cant detect what it wants to warn me about ? Hope this is not to much or seems to weird or personal.