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Ironically that is the only holistic game! That I know and never played.

This model is fundamentally used by large coperations to distribute and customize their products to consumers etc. We created for example storyboards&customer profiles etc. To craft a user experience that is more enjoyable. For me it's mostly personal interest and "whole spiral" like to give an example, I'd recommend checking the sources for ideas, the book from Yukai, has loads of player profile and mechanic ideas. This is for me with a somewhat holistic perspective: Stage beige: survival, gathering food, creating huts, exploring most fundamental basic aspects about nature, breathing of an animal, animations of characters, how real is it in contrast to real life? Physics potentially even just as a perspectie not implementation... Stage purple: Fantasy genre, Anime, Western Fantasy, Witches, Witcher, Card-Games with elements, I love elements! water, wind, etc. gathering shiny objects, Pokemon, tribe menatllity, feeling elite and special Stage red: Mechanics, combat fighting games, competition, glory, shiny objects, Stage blue: Family aspects and chill, community of my own, own farm, team oriented, my team v.s your team. Team crafting also if possible Stage orange: Points &Achievments, Elo score, How do I rank against someone else? How can I improve? What improvement mechanism are in the game? Can I upgrade my weapon? (Borderlands series) Can I customize my personal experience and improve my character with strength, agillity, wisdom, intelligence, endurance etc. Casuality focused, what is the most effective way, riddles, puzzles, Stage green: Farming raising a community, Sims?, community seen as diverse, diverse interactions, story telling focus, diversity and interactions, compassion and care, dysotopian themes! Post-moddernism, deconstruction, politics, intellecutal, choices Stage yellow: survival in terms of the whole spiral, include most elements mentioned above, intellecutal, non-linear dynamics? Stage tq: ??? Spiritual game would enable and facilitate ones own practice, peaceful? exploring consciouness actively, triggers to explore consciouness actively, engage in mind-brain technology, might not be doable with current technology and full immersion It's not easy. Would love to see different takes for example I feel Elden Ring/Oblivion/Fable/Divinity Original Sins, Baldurs Gate are somewhat tealish, with a red theme, just because of the vastness of complex interactions and non-linear dynamics. Hoep this sort of helps as a feedback. Beyond? My professor for example with 70 played cid-meiers evolution, because he loved strategy and he was well-off and had time. So yeah dunno. Yes, it's a huge time waste also.

@integral Stage red/blue fantasy seems for me to be a common denominator, the more "integral" a person is the more I notice they are interested in the whole game of survival, hoarding and playing. Also Green/yellow types of people like this a lot. I also personally feel psychology is missing out on this as a tool, there are a lot of wholesom inner child moments in video games, at a purple -> blue stage development, especially in more fantasy/rpg type games. For example: Terraria, Minecraft even, Subnautica, (personally divinity original sin2, baldurs gate series, oblivion (holistic orientation of cognition and depth) I'd check out this book: Actionable Gamification: Beyond Points, Badges and Leaderboards https://yukaichou.com/gamification-examples/ I bought and read it, it's quiet insightful in terms of personality (orange/green/teal) how to construct a game holistically, for example a red game under holistic aspects with whitehat and red hat gamification, as this is more of a design standpoint also... For me it's not easy it dovetails a lot with Sinus-Mileus: I know you speak German, so here I go!

@Razard86 What do you think about the following? During a meditation retreat I had a tiny peak into a state similar to what you'd call infinite intellectual abillity of some sort. It's similar to taking LSD and seeing all of the billions of connections possible. It was just not possible to stop it, the meditation teacher I talked to during the retreat told me IIRC that it's nothing, yet he also had difficulty identifying what I was saying. I practically had insights and thoughts based on just "collective consciouness" that I could re-trace on Wikipedia and found evidence, so to speak that what I thought was true. Mainly thoughts about humans have been created through biological evolution Yet it was so accelrated it was impossible to distinguish is this fantasy is this not fantasy. It felt like practically a higher dimension was there and at the sametime the delusion of the mind. Thoughts about states like this? I don't think "rationally understanding" infinity is possible, just with reading and working so to speak. Psychdelics and stuff is for me personally the biggest gateway into this. Anyway this was fully clean! Although I was in a deep state of depression I had visions sort of like this. https://www.science.org.au/curious/space-time/origins-life-earth About human existence without me having the proper input contemplating ancient cultures and the like, I legit found out what my second name means after years, and I legit finally want to test my D.N.A based on health reasons. I even received a MRT and they could not evaluate the data, ironically because more "medicore sized medical evaluation technology" was missing. I also was with a psychologist, nobody gave me an explanation, especially since I was forced to do ask the teacher publically, and he mentions in audioboks having NN-DMT like phenomena. IIRC. This is called Makyio in Japan which means something like gold&metal and your not supposed to speak about it. Although I feel times should change... Edit: I also had a lot of delusional thought and that was very intense, it was difficult to ignore context and just go on with the experience. The more I bought into the delusion the more schizophrenic I became. The less I bought into it the more revelatory was the experience.

Yes, I wish I could contemplate this more it seems like also a lot of neutral space is yearned for and I am often as "half/black/white" forced into this over dynamic neutral bullsh*t and it's mostly already playing with both dynamics, and everyone knows this lol! That is why I enjoy the functional movement/branding of ideas in Europe with Northface etc. Quite clever imo, yet I am not a super-marketer...although it gives leeway to more of a neutral ground of understanding of identity which I find is great overall, as it's an re-occuring issue. Developing intuition is also rough, as working on concepts and contemplating concepts over and over coming to conclusions and non-conclusions is utterly painful, drawing conncetions is the fun part, yet get's one lost . I wish at times even in highly intutive enviroments there would be more intuition lol, yet many just don't see the practical implications of intution. Also defining intuition is just not the way to go, intuition is mostly imo lived raw and very vibrant regardless of it's a highly masculine intuition / an absolutely neutral intuition - secular epiphanies etc. / or a very feminine intuition, as well as all concepts associated with that. It's an experience felt, it sort of sucks that there is not more of it. The main issue is humans need orientation and scafolds, as well as levels to understand and realize this, IMO most don't endure the pain of not knowing long enough to even contemplate such topics and therefore don't get any insight into them. Deconstruction of old norms and re-construction of more healthy norms is a perennial, fortunately and unfortunately! I just hope I can start to contemplate more holonic structures and Yin/Yang symbols and some chinese history. This stuff is do deep and ancient it's incredible. Random side fact: Xi'an had 600 b.c 1million inhabitants as a city in China, the city being secluded and organized in a holonic, yet very compartimentalized way, I just wonder at times how many ancient humans have been woke/enlightened, similarly to Heraclitus. I don't know how big of a deal the masculine feminine thing is in America, in Europe it somehow died down most likely because of Ukraine and Russia conflict, so there is less of a discussion of more liberal hot topics it seems, that would engage the forum also more consciously. I dunno I hope for the best for both sides. Anyway I am out! David Deida has good stuff on masculine and feminine polarities I still find these dynamics crazy

That is a good one . True! In fact very true! These are mind made conceptions although with a reality I find it bothersome to be constantly pulled into either and or one direction and not be BOTH more in that sense, as both have important qualities, even when one is more dominant. Also dark feminity is not embraced properly as well as accepted like beign over-compassionate and super female etc. I found this to be interesting. As a counter-perspective as I get a lot of sh*t from women and I don't know why at times, with that I mean positive female attention. Understanding proper and healthy gender roles as a dynamic not a steady-state even for men is what an "integral relationship". Looks like from my notes. Men don't over-rely on masculinity and women don't over-rely on femininity. I find hyper-feminity more interesting as hyper-masculinity I can see that in almost every movie, even when I watch none. https://brandgenetics.com/es/human-thinking/how-to-appeal-to-women-a-closer-look-at-hyper-femininity/

It's classic power abuse in a way, I also don't know why this happens so often in America. I like the way he dealt with the situation he could have pushed him away, here in Germany we have "Jedermans Rechte" meaning "Everyones Right" sort of when I recall correctly, and it's allowed to publically push someone away without beign forced into some sort of violence, so 50 cent is kinda correct, although the weak shall topple the strong usually, when I just contemplate stuff. In that sense accepting his weakness and admitting the sexual transgression. Is also a way of showing masculinity and strength it's not only about protection it's also about passion imo. He was passionate about being a proper role model for society even when the circumstance was not in his favour, I do enjoy that. TBH I still wonder to this day what healthy masculinity looks like, without some gym role models and athlethes andd hero stories. The crux imo is providing protection and beign passionate about growth and raising the feminine compassion without demonizing the masculine, and I notice as many women became more masculine and many men became more feminine it's not easy. As an example I take a personal one, I end up regardless of what I do as 90% of the time as a leader in a group project, although I can be quiet feminine when I am feminine it's abused by men mostly and I have wo work myself up from a weaker position as a challenge. When I work with more "feminine men" creativity flows like crazy even as a flow state the ideas are just way way way better. It's similar in engineering now, I find the most creative growth stems from feminine energy in my life and chaotic circumstances randomly creating order, as well as sheer masculine strength to bulldoze through obstacles and being an absolute unit, gives way to a lot of doors/recognition/attention and priviledges, as many just enjoy healthy masculine men, as they "vibe" on the possible strength provided. Yet as masculinity deterioriates in this neutral spectrum currently a lot of arrogance breeds imo, as there is so much confusion with gender identity, most can't handle this "empty neutral space" of masculine/feminine energy and I struggle with this also, as I can be hyper-masculine as well as to neutral at times, as begin to feminine as a man can be a super-power as well as a weakness. This is hyper-masculinity imo at it's finest just grab the d* instead of the p* and stick the tongue into the other beigns mouth I can't holy predator, the guy who did this to terry crews is a psycho.

I don't think he devalues them he appreciates them in context I feel when I watch him, maybe not so much the non-binary side for example, I am also not very well versed in that area I know homosexual people and my subconscious pattern because of a heteronormative society and now been namecalled like legit not even something about gender etc. and got first-hand insight into a post-operation man to female transition in terms of gender, while dating. From a very attractive human/person I call everyone person, which I don't already like. I feel for me it's also not easy sometimes because of projections as well as when I talked to the transgender person I inclined to date and "she" revealed a lot of intimate stuff, I was suprised like how can you even keep sanity, with this much pressure, check-ups etc. Then I just noticed damn, the person would benefit a lot from classic/normal personal development and a healthy stage Green circle. Like notice how kind and compassionate Green scientists are and then you have the hard-nosed orange "asses" who make life a living hell. Science is not easy regardless. Then I get name called because of sexual fetishism and trauma and I think to myself, I've done to much self-actualization work to re-kink myself with sex into traumatic cycles. Sexual energy is healing. I don't even as a "German-American/Black/White" guy have the privilege to talk about my identity properly I legit talked to my professor for sometime and he was ultra kind to explain stuff to me and not be like this orange a**. Omfg you **** don't understand this and that, he explained what he could explain and moved on. Science should also not be something for the elite imo, it should be open to everyone who has an interest and who can make it. This "call" to be elite is a stage purple drive. Also I notice people who only read papers become so arrogant and disgrounded from reality, it's a form of self-hate almost I saw this also during online-dating. It partially disugsted me and I am happy to see that there are scientist who'd prevent such stupidity. It's like their form of stage red power exercision, especially even so called scientist and high cognitvie abillity people from countries with low spiral development, often have close to 0 respect to people of color, even if they belong to that idea also. As they need to make themselves feel superior and act out their ego and classism, which prevents growth. It's basically a form of hyper-masculinity in a sense, it's important for people to connect and do something together and not be siloed incel type scientists, who are seeing the dark reality of humans as the only reality. Also a lot of eastern "scientist" and younglings think they are very holonic, while they have never lived in a holonic integrative western society, which western society is becoming more and more of slowly with flat hierachies and a more holonic and accepting reality. A lot of natural hierachies at stage yellow are in place imo, I just find it odd. For example how much power and assertivness I can assume and practically need to assume to survive. Sorry for digressing I appreciate your openess about gender&identity as a lot just take the priviledge to assume none and then you sorta have to play the no-game of playing the no-game & no-self game with them, as we are all so "equal". I just sometimes would wish society would take it a step slower with the technological progress and chasing after material success and glory of having a pretigous title and care more about understanding and developing insight. It's botherting to have science done by people who priviledge themselves with their science and then the ones who barely got any opportunity to do science the last 100-200 years are the ones who receive the strongest social backlash. Then you basically have to be superhuman to go beyond that, and most just want to see that like the classic "posterboy" ideals are important, a lot of people mean well, yet it's like telling your kids you are so smart! You are so intelligent and a genius! This just blocks development and the identity and not the effort of having done the work is praised (happened to me still have tremendous issues with this). There is a lot we can learn from each other I just find it discouraging, when you have people coming from cultures having seriously ethnocentric and not even secular viewpoints in terms of development. Basically judging and demonizing, attacking vulnerabillity and priding themselves over it, then you have a lot of well-intentioned secular people and they are misguided, as they would need more of the hippy green vibe and I feel a lot of black/african people develop very fast in terms of moral/ethical views, simply because of the amount of mental gymnastics you have to play. To see the bigger picture of it all. This is also similar in non-binary and homosexual people not so much in heteronormative people. Ken Wilber had some odd take on this, yet I am taking my own spin on this right now! So care! Thanks again for beign very open this gives me courage to go through my life, as I notice everyone has obstacles that need to be overcomen. I just sort of miss the old days pre-russian war and pre-donald trump where you could have had more "good faith" demoratic discussions about hot topics, as it would not give the perception of threatening democracy and good western values. Like equality/freedom of speech etc. I am not an expert etc. I can tell from experience when a white women starts to educate herself and this is mostly women about africa etc. They become super attracted to me and the relationship feels way way way more smoother. I don't even myself have time to explore this in profound depth, I just have a book about the contributions of blacks to western civilization etc, and it's quiet insane. It made me so angry I stopped reading it, as most would deny it because they pride themselves in their culture, I had to take pride in myself not my culture, as my culture basically has been raped and destroyed. There is the perception of that partially, yet many of the non-western and eastern types (I lived in China) have a shit load of stereotypes, and to call that secular and advanced when the cultural discourse threatens basic human integrity is horrible. I am sorry for not reading what you replied to before, I am so stressed from my studies and my injury, focusing on development is prolific, yet I see the need for safe space for understanding, hope this lengthy expression of mine helped. Some questions I feel should not be asked out of dignity and respect and this is missing in a lot of eastern people at times. This chasing after interesting things out of boredom is the ultimate definition of boredom and being seen as a playtoy, which I find disgusting even in science as some sort of testing object. Anyway here are my two cents. Again sorry for the rant. I am happy someone pointed out the ignore function.

Me also I prefer changing my username I would even pay for it lol.

Health cults are a classic I've heared a couple of stories from "muslim" type health cults in Germany where there is a lot of abuse and young people fall for it, it's almost comical. Take the first 4 stages of development and you practically create a cult. Beige, Purple, Red, Blue at orange it get's decent and at Green there might be some scandelous stuff, that in the big picture is not that harmful. At least not directly, more indirectly like Culadasa although trauma is a different thing. Also all of these communities don't practice shadow work mostly, stuff will and can happen. Prevention is basically an angels work lol.

Spirituality has been big in Egypt and the Nile delta, although there is seemingly less interest and it's not easy to find reminents I believe of that. Most cultures had shamans. Leo sort of tailors his episodes towards the majority of his audience I don't know if he specified a target group. He could make a video about himself for example worst aspects about Leo and following my teaching. Similar to Shinzen's video why I am a lousy teacher. I like it for example that Shinzen includes way more cultures in his descriptions, yet keeps it secular. So I resonate a bit more with that, I dislike the term pure philosophy a lot intutively, although I like 100% of it's content. Anyway thanks for taking the time to answer my comments!

My bad was not intentional. Can't change it also. Wanted to share a opinion on UI/UX design and the ignore function and give an example about conscious drama, I mean the theater exists so does conscious drama and actors in that way. Anyway my two cents.

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Yes, I love the poetry/insight type stuff as well as beauty and art appreciation. Also the mid journey a.i stuff was dope!

Humilty and putting in the work would be very cool. Most I feel do care about your development I feel you come of as egotistical, as you don't think about others as much which is extremely off-putting. Thinking about more other holons would be cool etc. That fundamentally includes us.

That is a nice perspective, dopamine also from the newest Huberman Lab is the happy molecule, so in a way these apps can give you something if you are not coming from a super-holistic place, as most are quiet sanctimonious about this aspect to beginn with. Most don't even share their drama to learn from it to strive for the best. I enjoy drama from time to time, it makes live intersting and spicy, I can be a drama king in that sense and I would cause more drama for fun, I frankly love it. Most are not conscious enough. To give an example I've been to a story telling work shop with two gifted americans who went to a gifted drama school program, seen that kind of trained and deliberate conscious drama changing into animal figures/characters instantly like a super-actor was amazing. Drama can also simply be a discussion, I appreciate the ignore function as not every input has as much value as perceived and can be blocked. I would not want to have stage red hells angel members as my neigbours for example, as this would threatn my survival. The ignore function is good imo, I did not even know it exists. I dunno why this would be a bad UX design , I'd say it's a mandatory feature of every UI/UX to block certain features clearly...I did not even know it was here, yet this is a science for itself. I certainly would appreciate to stop certain cycles and feedback loops, that cause damage in that sense a block and ignore function, certainly is a high lvl UI/UX desgin from a stage yellow perspective as you can stop individually, the excessive self-interest of others. This is more or less obvious.

I would attend a course by a professional in terms of just getting the skill you search within yourself to communicate with the world, I think you are highly empathic, although most would be unable to appreciate that. When Leo endorses you on the blog, he does it for a reason I think, and most members just act highly developed and are stuck in scientific thinking. I certainly would say you seem to come of as partially aggressive and over-direct I have a similar issue with my "inner choleric" and beign healthy and assertiv (been to a trained psychologist) just looks and feels different. Although you are quiet assertive. Focusing on principles instead of subjective experience would be cool in general. Comment could be to generic, so I dunno. More empathic communication and assertivness could be a cool combo, I could also enjoy that chill pill for a while lol.

Discord to real life meetings(including Leo Gura) would definitely be cool, yet no idea. I'd actually wanted to purchase coaching from you, yet coaching does not exist anymore. A discord server for accoutnabillity would be nice, as a test run. Never seen a good discord server tbh. I mostly leave them. Less stage red bullyteaching more healthy assertivness and energy projection if possible. In the sense of duty beign noble in a sense (quickly skimmed thick face black heart). Ban f*ing incel type meme sharing stupidity and v-meme creation that is to toxic, some of it can be fun. Also to sterotypical memes without the purpose to explain/destroying stereotypes should be banned. I mean I have a sick humour, also yet all of this energy stems from anger and frustration mostly. Discord server should be tailored to psyches and self-actualization and work, so you don't legit get any killers to many of these incel type tech people and the worst of the worst could happen, and this should be done in a somewhat esoteric/exoteric mix way. As an example this would be great for me in terms of accountabillity, as it's difficult to find someone who is that interested in PD and Psyches, as well as just simply enjoys conversations and sharing knowledge/information. Isolation can be rough. This also could be good for game and meeting women/relationships and dating, yet I am unsure this is more a dark area, when I visted various discord servers, that fantasy shit might be dope, yet it legit scares me how dirty ppl can be, so no idea. A relationship/community section could be great also, I am unsure what is possible in legal terms with the current LP of yours with alien intelligence. It would also be cool to stop demonizing meditation as this seriously evokes a lack in motivation to practice, it's fine to mention pitfalls and criticize it, yet I legt miss the logic here and it feels like just justice and vengance at times. Also less member favoring, I sometimes hate it personally when people garner the grace and benevolence of the guru, and it's nice to just appreciate you for you, even if that is not easy via an online-plattform. Depends and you how would you like to see actualized.org evolve? Sometimes just more technical clarity and explanations, it's difficult to keep up with the material and human beigns are so different, exchange can be neccessary to further growth imo. I learn a lot from discussions and asking questions for example. There could be more ideas, yet if the interest to run a spiritual community exists, discord could be a good first step. Although I have doubts about serious members, yet serious members should lurk in discords and do the work and not be to crazy with da work also. There is so much value in the last years epsiode, just talking to someone could help solidify the knowledge as there are a lot of obstacles in life.

That is true, although I'd have to say it is how society has often worked, I used to get a lot of more shit and I bet a lot of black people to in terms of stereotype threatening that has stopped, it is correct society is evolving and we are part of it. There is more openess, although I find it has to be included with the value of strength/beauty at one point, as seeing others as weak has certainly major pitfalls, like the hyper-masculinity drives of many. It's funny when I go through RSD content how a transgender person could benefit from that and social engineer society, even from a high leverage point in HCI, yet that would be very high-end anyway. Especially in terms of internal value. Where I also sometimes struggle iwth.

Briefly, I enjoy the perspective, race is an invention by Blumenbach we are 99.9% genetically identical. I don't know how good your German is, yet here is a good article. There is also a good book explaining this based on research and other articles pointing to that relative truth. https://www.uni-goettingen.de/de/650077.html 100% most humans are in denial about their biases, for their survival agenda and group-think and sheep heard mentality. They are not threatening their need to belong and are incapeable often of including a larger belonging, as the group dynamic changes. Yeah, this is so common also the Asian hype-train of white guys chasing asian women, I find this partially disgusting even bi-racial, bi-national people because of white beauty standards and fundamentally Blumenbach, this is why I hate also the term pure philosophy from Leo as it evokes this whitness agenda again in my head. I like all the philosophies in them, I just think the term "pure philosophy" is not good. Because it evokes these old historical concepts, mainly beign focused on "eurocentric white" stuff. I am no expert nor do I have time to dive that deep into this area, and I've been attacked from all sides, that I just focused on beign integral. It's funny how I basically clown them, as there are studies showing "bi-racial" faces are more beautiful etc. According to new public perception as it basically became a norm in the 1990's to date interracially. A term that is also not very good imo, as race is an invention. You could say intergenetically, and it's still sorta not good. I just focus on holonic beauty asymmertically and symmertically, there are so many beautiful aspects about an individual. What annoys me is the greed for apprecation for these, even in myself. I do believe the core value of this is having a nuclear family without these, it's impossible and you would make evolution a sheer scientific perverse endeavour, having a nuclear family is a good agenda imo. Most humans don't understand drives and needs, listening to Maslow a transgender human can easily evolve like anyone else there are other obstacles that for sure deny needs, for integrating a self-actualization perspective. Most and me included at times are vigilant about corruption, so I dunno the youth is quiet open Gen-Y to alpha and are more acceptant instead of tolerant, the social dynamic although can be quiet bothering ngl. I would like to know more about my biochemsitry to cope at times. I mean I've been raised with gay and lesbian people basically when that was a tabu, and my existence has been a tabu for many. So I get the picture, the point is you are a cultural creative similar to me and everyone else, and some will go against that strain. It's survival unfortunately! I don't have the time to answer other stuff in depth. Might answer later.

I find it odd and sometimes to stereotypical, it would be cool for instance if I could associate my identity to a country and not to my phenotypical expressing and laughing about the "stupidity" of ethnocentrism and instead I am forced more or less to think I am part of the group black. I could not laugh for example about the prejudices and ethnocentric behaviour as I frankly don't know which country my black family stems from, from Africa. I can easily laugh and empathize with German stereotypical Memes and Stereotypes, I mean I can watch Hitler in his original language and I legit have empathy and compassion for the guy, as he simply did not knew better, and I frankly just think he is funny. In terms of also German society beign idiotically compassionate to that idiot. With that I mean sometimes on the forum things are not appropriately associated, there are no "white memes" making fun of "white people" as a group, there used to be some mems and videos that invovled black people doing smth. stupid and fun and it's associated often to blacks. It's not like oh that is so sterotypical "italian/russian" and you can laugh about the cultures and manners, I mean it's implied, yet I often felt and saw it was blown out of context. Every black person is a stage red macho-jerk. I saw that a couple of times. Also the subtle nuances sometimes I experience as a black person. It could just be me, also gaslighting these experiences is so common, when I talk with black friends they listen first and at one point might tell me, oh that is garbadge or smth. To show me I am lost in my perception. I mean I have close to 0 mistakes in the implicit association test. etc. It's just as far as I know the issue of human design for example the doll test, where even black kids choose the white doll, I don't know if this is priming as well as if Ukranian Roma's have darker skin color. There are just more strong negative associations with the color as well as perception of black. https://www.verywellmind.com/the-color-psychology-of-black-2795814 You can also see this in the beauty industry which is an annoyance sometimes to deal with mentally, as there is legit a secret hierachy created, which can be an annoyance and definitely shapes my perceptions about dating. I just wonder why at times, as so many humans/people are beautiful. I just don't find it easy sometimes to appreciate so much bias in a sense, as well as it's also just stupid at times, when westerners want darker skin to show they are rich/well-off know it's a beauty thing, as well as simply enjoy the tan! It's sometimes annoying to see lower stages beign heavily impacted by that. For example a couple of my old friends even black said they would not appreciate dating a black skinned girl caus ugly, in simple terms. I find this laughable, and I am the whitestest of them all it's so stupid. That is interesting to design such a competition would sound interesting to most I think, as you could design a fair obstacles course for all and then so people would even be more exposed to it on the media under what people deem normal conditions, I mean you have even mixed events in Olympics, I bet you could design a fair competition although it would take time. I would personally just think that is cool and gives people purpose as well as more access to friendships and a shared culture. Like sports and anything included under that umbrella. Also the idea of restoring black culture is so far off from me here in Germany, maybe in France and England I could not even imagine what that means in terms of Europe in America I can simply see that a majority of them are dominating culture and that has an affect in europe in terms of music and television displaying black americans. Yet we legit have more Africans here, so it's an issue for me personally to relate to others. As cultures are enormously different. I can share a personal story of wanting to date a transgender person, she/they then namecalling me and I thought well this is just stupid I am beign very open and vulnerable here and it's beign massively abused. Now I am pretty much confinced to not date transgender women? anymore because I don't believe anyone is healthy enough to keep up with my normal health routine from the transgender women I dated. As well as none of them really have been very spiritual and a lot of them like me? As I seem trans? Because I am "bi-racial" , "bi-national" that already evokes the picture seemingly of openess. It's difficult to not make it about looks and more about character and beign interested in the women, as this can involve a lot of shocking details, I did not know. It's crazy for a heteronormative guy to consider all of these worries. Although interesting! Sharing what I experienced. Find it odd how many free passes I get from transwomen/gender people online. Unsure if bias. Just sharing, would be curious if others have the same experience. And yes it's about the individual! Not the group. I frankly don't know I would even have to pick myself on things, based on the nuances on the forum sometimes beign ignorant I find it odd at times, that sometimes black people don't receive an answer, as well as seemingly black people don't receive an answer on elaborate writtings etc. I for example prefer using a white picture of smth. I like as it evokes more positive associations for others, as soon as I take a black smth. People are not acting usually as innocent anymore, that would be a "stupid" like chess double standard for me where black begins and white is second for fairness. It's not easy to come up with examples. Also for example when I am with my aunt, my aunt as a white women beign adressed first, when I would be a skinny tall white dude, they would adress me first. It's not easy to describe these perceptions. Anyway I am out! Would take to much time to explain and write it all. It's easier for me to talk about bias, as I mostly engage humans. Although some stuff is just stupid. Ignorance on this subject is very big and just speaks for "majority/white priviledge" and systemic abuse at times.

I like all of these topics, it's just sometimes impossible to talk about this openly without an expert coming up with factual data and historical data, that is not skewed in anyway and being open about the possibilities. I left the forum basically for 2 years because of discrimination subtley and tracked the accounts and they got banned. I recentely just posted in my journal some discriminating stuff, as it was playing in my mind and one person I presume also got banned for promoting this kind of discrimination. I do believe most of these conversations should be held in a manner of acceptance and openness and not rationality and truth seeking, to simply implore and explain the concepts often. For example I know and meet sometimes a lot of homosexual people and my aunt is homosexual, so I know the dynamic basically since birth, so I am not the traditional cishet man (cis-gender hetero) . Then considering spiral dynamics and beign fair and accepting I don't sometimes see the level of development appropriate and there are a lot of resentments I don't fully understand, for example I still believe a white homosexual women has more priviledges than a black hetero male in our society, just by sheer observation and knowing my aunt etc. I don't believe she as well as other homosexual men/women are nearly as often discriminated as me as a black person for example in Europe. I for example am beign discriminated by immigrants based on their development seeing me as a "dumb african" when I am German-American and black and white. As a lot of religious cultures are of very early and low development and act morally superior, which I frankly don't like which makes modernity and neutrality as well as rationality again very important. This is missing from the left. Acceptance and rationality basically without the social justice warrior resentment as they are usually the higher stage of development! When a person is white and benefits from the majority priveledge and a lot of people simply enjoy the energy of homosexual people (me included), it's just sometimes very obvious, how hard I need to modulate myself to a culture I simply don't resonate with. Rock music, a lot of beer, a discriminatory history and then to love it all! Is super-counter intutive and frankly even if I can love it. I find it horrifyingly boring. Then when they modulate to what I resonate with within my culture for example rap music, black history and culture in America, discrimination and even just global history and development. Mostly these topics involve vulnerabillity and resistance (grit), people would need to share stories and even simple things, as people avoiding to touch your hand, as they believe your skin is dirty and stuff like this. I find colorblind racism by far way way way worse, currently, if you are a person of color discrimination is basically 10x applied regardless if homo/hetero/non-binary etc. This also goes for immigration and immigrants, and I never witnessed also so much arrogance from immigrants regardless of which country. It's insane. I would like to know why. From what I saw from him I don't think so, he is just intersted in fairness and the "ethics" that govern trans people, as he just loves all people he might say something stupid. It's like saying is Joe Rogan racist? Because he said the n-word and he loves black people imo, it's simply bad timing and all humans are vulnerable. It potentially was to much at the given time. I don't find it funny anymore either. I prefer watching Dave Chapelle or smth. It would be more interesting how trans people can shape society in a way where it is less discriminatory for them, as well as a lot of cishet men to consider their priviledges and reach out to others. Practically, this won't happen as people conform a lot to a fear morality. Which centeres around stage orange/blue, so their are open and neutral about it, and tolerate it as well as conform ethnocentrism, the appreciation and diversity of it simply is missing. In a more holistic perspective Joe Rogan airs a lot of bullshit that a single trans person can do for example in Olympics to destroy fairness, I mean if you get two humans of different genders, biologically and biochemically to a similar level it might be fair, yet for a biological male to have an advantage in physical strengths, even without beign a scientist it's obvious this is true. I dunno aired my opinion, for example I don't like to feel grouped in this minority spectrum of beign a symbol for diversity because of my phenotypical expression, yet there is nothing I can do about it. It's annyoing. We could share examples of discriminations even smaller ones to make it more evident, to simply reduce bias. To add a little more without these conversation stigmas, and bigotry would not be revealed, as well as solutions should be the orientation of these discussions at best multiple. I am no saint, double-standards should definitely be discussed. I also believe the forum is moderated very well, although there are some nuances, where I'd love more transparency. I witnssed a lot of double-standards, so yeah that could definitely be a good talking point/juxtaposition. Having multiple judges is great also.

Micro-retreats are also quiet fine, if you are serious to meditate approx 8-10h on a weekend, multiple times and then take real retreats + do psyches, that would basically be "overload" . I can average around 6-8h on a strategic weekend retreat per day. 10:45h is how long a goenka retreat goes per day. Talking about meditation and yoga definitely is motivating, to even do it strategically. For example a 4h sit on the weekend and doing psyches etc. I still love my 8h sit on LSD was fking mind breaking. Also very disgusting in terms of working through my heavy ego. Just talking about this stuff defintitely gets my hyped to continue with my schedule, this is insane. Dunno from all the DMT research I heard it's the most profound experience in terms of realizing what is god possible. I just hope that Leo can teach it in a way where more "average" humans can achieve it with patience and dilligence, as there are billions of roadblocks and I notice how my life purpose might dovetail into this, ideally. I just hope I don't shoot myself into the foot, as I was unable and I am unable to twist myself to a pretzle. Doing some kriya yoga showed me how powerful all of this stuff is. Just reaching mild god-realizations makes the effort worth it 100%. Hope I can finally use the NN-DMT I bought without negating my life purpose to heavily, I am pretty sure doing online-retreats with psyches is also quiet effective, I did not try it yet, although I did it once for a 4h session and it was quiet nice. Definitely being a psychonaut is worth it with experience. Love your work Leo keep going! I notice I was fast asleep because of human bullshit, hope I can get out of it soon.

This is way to overblown . I've meet a guy who did something similar at a zen retreat and was before at a swedish yoga retreat, he was ISTP by my guess kind guy! Some culty stuff does happen two guys told me (the ISTP guy included), I went to a more rural area, so it was close to impossible as all eyes are basically on you, because the area was so small and integrated into society. Farmers and pedestrains passing by etc. Unsure what happens out in the wild. Ngl crazy stuff can occure, I'd definitely check the video from Leo how to recognize a cult. This is why I prefered Zen at the beginning, although it has culty elments to with the repression of sex and teachers abusing women etc. Media is overblowing it, if there is no full coverage life like Osho on fox.news or smth. so it's more dirty insight shit that can happen. At least one guy told me that the zen monastary in France I went to the sister monastary had some sexual condcut issues lol. The center I went to was very clean seemingly, they even allowed to drink beer and I presume some normal acceptance with excessive practice just counter-balances a lot of culty shit, and obviously somewhat clean members. Most would not even join a zen monastary for life. The second head of the monastary I went to opened up his own dojo, I presume as they wanted to spread and they created a new dojo. It's kinda beautiful, he was also seemingly clean, yet everything can happen like the Culadasa incident. I don't think any space is 100% cult free, and tbh it's also kinda funny if smth. like this happens. Although not to crazy hopefully and traumatic. Most won't really have the cognitive line mostly, because the experience would be fully stabilized as a structure-stage and not a state-stage, so dunno hope this comment is useful. At best it's funny drama. I don't have any ama's just wish you the best for your experience!

@Danioover9000 No idea what happened as I don't like following this drama personally. My relationship experiences have been rather odd, so dunno. The ideas in wild nights a book from David Deidra helped me to play with the ideas more. Although ultimately socializing and being a good/decent human being is more of a goal to me. I dunno I am so battered physically, I wish I would think less about sex with testosterone at times. Wild nights has some good stories about this lusting/chasing of experiences in a more conscious fashion. It has good lessons.