Gladius

- Keeping 10 minutes of daily meditation. Will increase to 15 by next month. - No porn in 2 months. Last night, after a 20 day streak of NoFap, I had a wet dream. To avoid it, from now on I'll fap no more than once a week. - Still having phone addiction, but avoiding idle scrolling on social media.

@Krzysztof big enough to be a cluster in film production, so at least + 1 million people (in Europe). Nah don't worry, I wrote this post in a bad day. I'll stop bitching and keep working Thanks though!

- Keeping daily 10 minutes meditation. I feel I'm just observing my thoughts (which are a lot) during those 10 minutes, but still I'm feeling more focused during the rest of the day. - Still haven't watched any porn. I fap once every two weeks and trying to make longer stretches. - Still find myself wasting time on social media, but I'm more conscious of it. Overall, I do feel more energetic, optimistic and productive. Since I started this journal I also have been quite regular at the gim and I had not been this fit for a long time. Still have a lot of work to do but I'm starting to love the process!

@Krzysztof Thanks, but for my intentions I do need to live at least in a big city. Connecting to people is basic to succeed in my life purpose...

Update: - Sticking to 10 minutes meditation and working wonders. - No Porn watched since 6 weeks. My libido is very low lately. I guess it's a combination of cold weather, aging and uneventful times (yay...). I do feel more focused and confident though. - Struggling with idle social media, but it has decreased a lot since last year- - Following life purpose as much as possible. Looking for a more fulfilling income source in order to quit my job.

I have kinda good relationship with my family now but we had big issues in the past. I heard some therapists advice in some scenarios to avoid any contact with your family for a month or so in order to track limiting beliefs, toxic behaviours, etc. Did anyone try this?

@Shadowraix because I'm working on different shifts. That means I'm working different shifts, including night (from 10pm until 6am). That makes it difficult to have consistent productive habits. @VictorB02 In this case it's more about connecting with people, which I can barely do at the moment since I have no time.

@Rebec Thanks! I do get your point, and you're probably right. I understand happiness is a choice. I think the title I chose for this topic is misleading... I think I learned to accept that job, I'm just wondering now if quitting and using that time and energy for the training and projects I'm really burning to do wouldn't be wiser.

@Girzo No, I'm working loading containers on vessels. !00% unrelated. But it gives me some good money and more free time than other jobs. Thanks for the advice though, I'd say I'm already in that networking stage

@Be Yourself @Rebec The problem is I can't help thinking I'm wasting my time every second there. At the same time I don't want to be so naive to quit my job without anything secured yet, even if I could afford it for one or two years. @Girzo Screenwriting.

@Moreira So you come from the very oposite situation than me. I'm wondering how much real can this LP thing get. In reality it looks like we gotta choose, either money or fun

Happy new year everyone! Goals for January: - 10 minutes daily meditation. - NoFap. - No idle social media scrolling. At all. - Quitting job and following life purpose. (BUM!)

We are on our own guys. Leo has forsaken us. It's time to go out there, blink a couple times against the sunlight and conquer the world.

4 weeks. - Made it with 10 minutes meditation. - I didn't watch any porn this month. Actually I feel happier, more energetic and compassionate, and I believe this is a big cause. I realised in many cultures the word "wanker" is an insult. - Social media has reduced drastically. Not sure if it's 10 minutes, but it's getting definetely better. I'm keeping these habits for 2019. I'll post new goals next week, after New Year's Eve. For January I'm planning to quit my secure job and living up to my life purpose, so it's gonna be a fun year for sure.

Any opinion on this course by Jesse Elder? You can ask for refund if it's useless after completing it.

According to Tao, a man in his 20s should ejaculate only once in 4 days. A man in his 30s once in 8 days, and so on.

Three weeks. - Sticking with 10 minutes of daily meditation. - No porn. Only had to fap the time I mentioned so I could sleep (poor excuse, I know). - Social media still present, but avoiding just unconscious scrolling.

A few weeks ago I bought a new car, and rented a parking spot for it next to the building I live. A neighbour was using that spot for free until then, so I asked him (with nice notes) he should move his car somewhere else. He refused until I could park there when he was gone. This morning I saw my car has been keyed. I know what I'm gonna do next time I see his car. I'm just wondering what would you guys do.

@Leo Gura yup, it's all about fear. Fear, fear, fear... Thanks Leo, I'm going to keep that in mind for sure.

I've been single for most of my life. I understand I need to solve the big conflicts within myself before I'm fully ready for a beautiful breath-taking long term relationship. In the meanwhile, I find myself overthinking about women. Every relationship I had it was for me just to "practice", since I never wanted anything serious. On the one hand, if I'm truly honest to myself, I wouldn't date anyone until I feel I'm ready. Furthermore, some girls I have been with have been tremendously hurt, and I don't want to hurt anyone. On the other hand, I do have some needs... I have been long periods without sex, but then I'm afraid I will lack skills when it comes to sex.. Is it wise to have "practice girls" until I have enough social and sex skills to date who I really like?

Great insight, it's one of those things difficult to talk out loud.

That's the point, I haven't met any girl who is comfortable playing "fuckbuddy". Most of them only offer sex in exchange of a relationship...

To me it's been beneficial. especially if you quit porn. It also increased my libido and made me feel more confident. Wanking to porn is not the best thing for your confidence from my point of view.

Note: When I mentioned NoFap I meant NoPorn. Actually last night I had to jerk off. I was so horny it was not possible to sleep, so I did it for health reasons. I also felt my body really need it... However, I'm sticking to the challenge until NYE, then I'll renew the goals for January!

Two weeks! - Didn't fap. I do feel I got lots of libido back. - Keeping 10' meditation practice. - Struggling a bit to avoid social network, but still managing under 10 minutes or so. Now checking a lot Actualized.org instead PS. These might seem like small goals, but of course there's a reason for it. Most of my life I've been chasing huge ambitious unrealistic goals to compensate my poor self-esteem. Of course that only brought more pain and frustration, since I barely achieved anything until now. That's why I want to start small here. However, at the same time I'm planning to quit my job soon and to dedicate full time to pursue my life purpose. But that deserves another journal...