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Danielle replied to Danielle's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Thank you Leo, I'll work on it. -
Danielle replied to Danielle's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
@Stoica Doru I actually overcame all of my addictions (at least I thought) in last 6 months and was free of them until post awakening. I guess that's what Leo calls ego backlash. I'll check out the video. Thank you, much love -
Danielle replied to Danielle's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Thank you all so much! I'll do my best @Shin yeah I see what you're saying. I am aware when I'm doing the unconscious behaviour that i am actually running away from myself. It's painfully obvious now. -
Danielle replied to The Universe's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Definitely The end of your world by adyashanti. In my opionion it's the best no bullshit, straightforward nondual book out there, especially when you're feeling confused and disoriented. -
Danielle replied to Leo Gura's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Be careful not falling into this trap because loving everyone because they are you is based on an belief and not on actual experience. (I'm assuming). Then it will be the easiest thing in the world. -
Danielle replied to Leo Gura's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
He said he's retired, but maybe he'll continue on when he feels ready again. -
Danielle replied to Shin's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Glad you're making progress man! Btw I think Rakesh deserves a nobel prize for those thumbnails -
Danielle replied to Barna's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Yeah "you" might! -
Danielle replied to Barna's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Stop wanting and it will be shown to you lol -
I wanted to share an experience I had last night. It was around midnight when I started to meditate and it was really hard. I felt frustrated and desperate. I kept opening my mouth and screaming silently and like punching my fists on my pillow. I just thought: I can't do this anymore, fuck this enlightenment bullshit, this is stupid, i will go insane etc. And then I started to cry, i just couldn't handle it anymore, I crossed my hands like I was about to pray and then kept shaking my head saying I can't, I can't and when that didn't work I just let go, I surrendered completely. Then, it happend. OH MY FUCKING GOD, OH MY GOD, OH MY GOD. ITS ALL ONE, ITS ALL ONE, ITS ALL ME,ITS ALL ONEEEE AAAA. Those were the thoughts I had for 30 minutes straight and my perception changed, I can't explain it,it was all oneeee!!! Like literally, that chair I was looking at was me just like "my" body. There wasn't a difference between the two. I lost myself totally, there wasn't any "me" thoughts, just "its all one" over and over again .I started crying again out of pure love and gratitude because I recognized I was never truly alone, I was never seperate. I never felt that kind of intimacy in my entire life. After crying my eyes out I started to laugh my ass off because it was so obvious! So obviousssss that all of it is one, all me. It was so hilarious that I thought anything else. I woke up about an hour ago and I feel really different, my perception shifted, i can't explain how but it when I look at objects, i can look at them as they are, there is little to no monkey chatter. I feel really confused and just in awe. I had no idea what "all is one" meant. I had no idea how frustrating and painful self inquiry is. I had no idea how deluded I was and still am. I had no idea that I was responsible for everything, all of emotions, all of my suffering. I had no idea what I was getting myself into when I started doing this. I had no idea how closeminded I was and what love actually meant. Thanks for reading. Has this happend to anyone here? Have I gone insane or am I on the right track? I feel like there was a dropping of the ego, but that's just ego talk
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Danielle replied to Danielle's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I tried it but it didn't go deep enough into my subconscious, so I quickly switched it into croatian. -
Danielle replied to Danielle's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Lool Just 9000 to go http://www.kristisnyderllc.com/how-to-be-patient-while-waiting-for-a-spiritual-breakthrough/ There you go -
Danielle replied to Danielle's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Hahaha yeah. To be fair, I'm not the only one, if I'm not mistaken @Sri McDonald Trump Maharaj and @Azrael had those enlightenment experiences and they are pretty damn young And how am I supposed to transcend my ego when you give me such sweet words? Lol -
Danielle replied to Danielle's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Sure. I have been meditating for 10 months, mostly SDS combined with self inquiry, which I started only 7 months ago,it was hard to convince myself I have listened to a few audio books and that's it. Getting too lost in complex spiritual ideas and doing mental masturbation seems like a waste of time when I could be actually looking at what I am. I only learned about the fundemental things by watching youtube videos and satsangs so I can leave some space in my mind I haven't done any psyhcedelics because I think I'm not mature/ready yet. I'm 18. I feel like I have to lay the foundation first-at least a year or two of meditation and inquiry. Yes, I know what you're talking about, I experienced it too. No worries man, you will get there. Be patient and it will deliver itself -
Danielle replied to Danielle's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
It happend to me before, but it wasn't so intense. So true. And what really gets me every time is how obvious it was, the degree of deception is just mindblowing. -
Danielle replied to Danielle's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Yes they were, the terror and bliss weree amazing, there is no way to understand it if you haven't experienced it. Imagine the happiest moment in your life, now multiple it by 10000! It is not happiness, its bliss, but even bliss is a weak word. -
Danielle replied to Danielle's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I wouldn't be so certain lol -
I will once I finish and when I have enough free time. Probably in june lol
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Actually i've been rewatching all of them and taking notes everyday hahah I don't know what I'll do once I finish, it'll be my last addiction to overcome
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Happy birthday Leo, thank you for everything!
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Danielle replied to Memeito's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
What @Prabhaker said , on a more relative level, Shinzen Young said strong determination sitting and I can confirm it's the fastest way to see big results, but it's also really emotionally challenging. -
Danielle replied to nightrider1435's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
I feel you man, this spiritual purification isn't all rainbows and butterflies! I never thought I carried so much anger inside of me, its unbelievable. Let them be, express them (not on anyone-check out how to deal with anger thread) and like @egoeimai said,accept them. There is no point in resistance, see anger asit is, temporary ego bs which will actually leave you more peaceful and grounded and won't matter in the big scale of things. Good luck! -
Go somewhere where no one can hear you, a forest perhaps, and scream. As simplistic (or crazy) as it may sound, it really does help with anger And when you get rid off it, you can enjoy the nature
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Danielle replied to sujith's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
Looks worth checking out, thanks for sharing! -
Danielle replied to Kevin Dunlop's topic in Spirituality, Consciousness, Awakening, Mysticism, Meditation, God
True freedom is to be free from the desire to be free from anything. Adya