Paulo Barbosa

You guys are amazing! I got all the answers I could wish for. Now it goes down to me "doing" the work. Thank you so much for your pearls of wisdom.

@Nahm Thank you Nahm. That is precisely what I mean to do.

@Leo Gura Thank you Leo!!!

@Leo Gura Thank you very much Leo. The thing is, I have no easy access to psychedelics and in all honesty I am not sure that is the path I want to take going further. You are probably right that to put your fears on the line through the use of psychedelics is a much easier process but something tells me that my path lies elsewhere. Or maybe that is just the fear talking and I am confusing it with my intuition. The fact of the matter is that I have taken 12 mg of 5meo (twice in a row) out of despair with my previous life situation. In that regard I came out of it with a fresh perspective and the depression is now a thing of the past. However I feel stuck in my "progress" and I feel that fear is the gatekeeper. If you, or somebody else knows of other methods or techniques to "overcome" fear please let me know. I have yet to watch your most recent video about yoga and something tells me that I will find some answers there.

@dorg Thank you very much for your answer. I believe I know what you are saying, even though it is still an intellectual grasp an therefore of no real value. In the matrix movie they say: "do not try to bend the spoon... it is impossible... instead just realise the truth... there is no spoon." This is more or less the gist of it right? That trying to let go of fear is just another layer of control?

Hello everyone, I have just opened a new topic elsewhere, but this one seems really proper for me to piggy-back. I recently took 5meo-DMT and was able to go through the gates and experience the state of oneness. However that came with a price... I had to die first. I fought the feeling of losing control and took me a while before I finally surrendered. The thing is, after the experience passed some sort of channel got open as result and now I am able to relax to a point where a similar type of experience kicks in. But because the experience was not only beautiful but also very traumatising, I usually get afraid and the sequence gets stopped before it truly starts. However, there were a few times where I am able to ease it up at the beginning. Then what happens is that I feel again that I am dying (not to be confused with a panic attack, which I sometimes have but on different occasions) and through fear I eventually break the sequence. I am practicing not to get overly identified with anything in my life so I can surrender when I have such an experience but it's not working out. I still carry a big fear and anxiety and getting to a place of no preference is still a bit of a pipe dream. So my question is, how can I let go of fear (gradually or not) so I can start to experience the eternal without the use of any external substance? I have read the brilliant responses on this topic so far, but maybe you could shed some more light into this issue. I fell that there is no way back for me. All I want now is to be able to re-connect with that that lies beyond space and time and through it break the chains of suffering. Thank you all so much for your input! Paulo

Hello everyone, I recently took 5meo-DMT and was able to go through the gates and experience the state of oneness. However that came with a price... I had to die first. I fought the feeling of losing control and took me a while before I finally surrendered. The thing is, after the experience passed some sort of channel got open as result and now I am able to relax to a point where a similar type of experience kicks in. But because the experience was not only beautiful but also very traumatising, I usually get afraid and the sequence gets stopped before it truly starts. However, there were a few times where I am able to ease it up at the beginning. Then what happens is that I feel again that I am dying (not to be confused with a panic attack, which I sometimes have but on different occasions) and through fear I eventually break the sequence. I am practicing not to get overly identified with anything in my life so I can surrender when I have such an experience but it's not working out. I still carry a big fear and anxiety and getting to a place of no preference is still a bit of a pipe dream. So my question is, how can I let go of fear (gradually or not) so I can start to experience the eternal without the use of any external substance? There is no way back for me. All I want now is to be able to re-connect with that that lies beyond space and time and through it break the chains of suffering. Thank you so much for your input! Paulo

@Aware Maybe if I take a 5MeoDmt shot as Leo did I get to see things from a non dualistic perspective. Until then, my logic mind will try to find out what the heck is going on. Thank you so much for indulging my questions and I wish you a very good life!!!

But that denies one of the principles that God is both all-good and all-powerful. Either He cannot or He will not cease suffering to exist. And that to me is a paradox.

@Aware And the question: why would an infinitely loving God create a world where suffering exists?

@Aware So, if I get it correctly you are saying that: 1. We are all one; 2. Attachment is the root cause of suffering; 3. Karma perpetuates that suffering; 4. The only way of escaping suffering is by achieving perfect awareness; 5. The only way of helping others is by achieving perfect awareness and spreading that teaching to others. Please, do correct me in the point where I am wrong. Also, even if I settle for the Karma explanation, it does not answer why was this world created with these rules in the first place. Would you be so kind to share your views on this subject: why would an infinitely loving God create a world where suffering exists and where only through "purification" can one liberate from it?

@Aware Thanks for your answers so far. I used to think that the world was completely random and with no intelligent principle behind it. Within that view, suffering was perfectly normal. But more recently I have started to watch Leo's videos on enlightenment and 5MeoDmt and I became convinced that I was probably wrong. The world has to have an architect. Now my problem with that new worldview of mine is that I am having trouble to fit the suffering with a work of an infinite loving force. I always thought that because the world was so twisted there was nothing I could do in order to make it better. But with my new way lenses onto the world I started to be more compassionate and started to make some changes in my life, like becoming vegan and supporting causes with my own money and time. And now I find myself in a situation where I am as confused as ever. Many proponents of consciousness liberation seem to advocate that you take care of yourself and let the world go round. But my gut feeling is telling me otherwise. I don't want to go down that road again where everything seems to be senseless. That is a game that I cannot play anymore.

@Aware But why does it have to be this way? Why all this suffering in a world created by a force that many call "Love"? Because these so called physical garments do suffer you know...? The question is not how I can be free from suffering but why does suffering exists in the first place (especially in the realm where creatures can't do anything to escape from it)!

But why does it have to be this way? Why all this suffering in a world created by a force that many call "Love"?

@Aware What is that even supposed to mean? That is the same as saying: because it is the way it works!