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You are right. But at that moment it did not look like a mere thought. Looked like by detaching from that, i would kill my loved ones and abandone them and above all myself. The fever and Kundalini really fucked me up.

Thank you very much my man. I will let you know. Bless you. By the Universe, i mean knowledge from the unconscious obviously. Don't think that was too hard to understand now was it? Messages from your intuition thrown at you . You should try to develope it. Cool story about the distant galaxy though. Very creative. And trust me, if you'll ever reach the point that you have to detach from the most important thing in your life, then you can come and talk. It literally feels like dying and abandoning everything. Kundalini is no fucking joke.

Thank you very much. I will get things checked out. Bless you. How i feel now? I think i'm gonna take a break from meditation a while now. I can't have that energy going beserk again. My body was/is under immense stress. Lower backpain kills me now.

Thank you for your reply man. I hope all is well now? How are you dealing with your situation? I could not move all night man, one little movement triggered the energy system immensly. As if you'd throw gasoline on a fire. Fucking torture man. Just starting to get back to normal again. @Arman my man you've had experience with this before didn't you? How did you handle this? I can recall you warned me about this. I did nothing unusual to trigger this. Meditate an hour a day and just got "sick"

I've started meditating exactly one year ago. Trust me productivity is one of the many many many things it can add to your life. It's important to keep educating yourself about the different techniques and so forth. And not only meditation. You might want to work with your emotions and do some research on that. And who knows you'll path will lead you to non-duality one day. Leo says that the real benefits of personal development will be seen in 5 years if not 10. My mind is completely blown by this. Last year has changed more than i could imagine. What will 5 or 10 years be like? But only if you take this very seriously.

Not a single word is needed to touch your "soul".

Leo, I've read many many times that desire should be put aside? That by wanting something so bad you cannot be in a state of being? Or is this something for before the breakthrough?

Have you ever thought of doing n,n-dmt to discover those other realms? What do you think of those realms? Projection of your subconscious mind? I've seen an interview of Martin Ball with that Rali dude and he called that utter bullshit, if i can remember clearly. He called Terrence Mckenna a complete nutjob who has no idea what he is talking about.

I've been practicing mindful labeling for over a year now. And since recently i've stopped doing that. I'm now fully emerging in my sensory world without putting anything into words. Alan Watts in 'the limits of language' describes this so beautifully. By putting reality into words, you are altering reality. You are missing information by expressing the reality in lanaguage. Since i've stopped labeling the progress seems to skyrocket. I'm kind of a rookie on this personal development path. Does anyone have any tips on how to avoid the limits of language better? Or how to surrender better to the sensory world? Peace

Thank you Leo! Just started contemplating and was already mindblown. Immediately experienced how language triggers thoughts and builds concepts. Great advice.

Yes! By letting go the urge to put everything in a linguistic framework, I also automatically let go of expectations and seem to flow with the moment. Thoughts seem to come up less also. Good one! Yeah, I think i've read about the evolution of human communication slowly moving that way (i could be wrong, not so sure about this). Watts speaks of certain Shamanic cultures where Shamans are not allowed to speak for 1 year. This shifts their consciousness. They see reality in a completely different way.

Hi guys, I'm new here and have been following this forum a while now. Thought this is a good time to sign up and share my experiences. Especially my latest experience with LSD was quiet interesting. First a little background info.. First enlightenment experience I've had my first 'enlightenment' experience 5 years ago. Didn't know anything about enlightenment, spirituality or whatever. But always had an idea i've had access to a certain deep truth connected to consciousness. So somewhere in 2011, in the middle of the night i had this experience. On this same evening i've been doing Magic Truffles. When i went to bed, i had the urge to be 'philosophical' about life. I've kept asking myself the question: what is reality? At a certain point i knew it! Different bright flashes started to occur in my sight. I knew the secret to life! Everything was possible! Everything was connected! Infinity, infinity, infinity! When leo did his first 5-meo-dmt video i even started crying, because i remembered this night again and the few seconds i had access to this divine knowledge. I knew i had to take action from this point and start searching for this truth. Unfortunately i did not know where to search. Never even heard of spirituality or whatever. So as time passed i almost completely forgot what i had experienced, until later.. How I rolled into personal development I have always been a shy dude. Always felt different from the other kids with my immigrant background. I think that played a huge rol in my anxiety problems i experienced and still experience these days (to a much lesser degree of course). This decline is thanks to personal development. I started to do research and learned that meditation is key. Where to learn that better online than at Actualized.org? I started this path in january 2016 and I'm very thankful for this. But how little did i know what this personal development path could bring.. More enlightenment experience So as the year passed i could clearly see my consciousness 'rise'. I've had different 2 different enlightenment experiences. The very standard symptoms as: everything is 1, everything is emptyness also ocurred. I also have meditated 2 times on magic truffles during this year (before Leo even mentioned psychedelics). I don't really like fancy words like Kundalini, but there is no other way how i can describe this energy that has started to grow in my body. From the first time i meditated i could feel a certain energy being released in my body. And this energy developed itself and started to grow stronger and stronger. Later i had a third enlightenment experiences during my LSD trip. I directly experienced how my different senses (taste, vision, sound etc.) were all 1. This week i decided to do LSD alone and start meditating on it. My last crazy LSD experience So i started to meditate once the acid started to kick in. I put my headphones on and started to meditate on binaural beats (theta waves and gamma waves). This was by far the most craziest shit i have experienced thus far. This Kundalini energy was almost going beserk. I noticed i was very fucking horny, Since my first enlightenment experiences i noticed i got some homosexual thoughts even though i am defnitely not homosexual. A certain pleasurable energy started to emerge around my anus, with these thoughts. This happened again on this trip. Only this was unbearable. I needed to come. The urge could not be resisted. So i started to beat off (no joke guys). I haven't masturbated in ages since i have a girlfriend. So once i came i felt a big release of this energy. And then 15-30 minutes later it happened. I think this was a full blown kundalini awakening. It started with me getting uncomfortable. The more i let go of control, the stronger the uncomfortable feeling. At a certain point this feeling turned to complete terror in my body. I could feel this terror from my little toe to the top of my head. Every cell of my body was filled with terror. I did not resist it. Immediately this terror turned into a pure ORGASM. I had a full body orgasm. Once again in every fucking cell. Different waves of terror turning into heavenly body orgasms. What the fuck was this about? My body started to make crazy spastic movements as if I was possesed. I could not control it. It looked like some satanic form of epilepsy (LOL!). It felt as if my female energy and male energy merged into one. I was a woman and a man in one enjoying a crazy orgasm while being fucked by the universe. I don't know any other way to describe this. This is some crazy ass shit. I think this explains the homosexual thoughts i've had earlier. Maybe this has to something do with a deeper knowledge in all of us. That the male/female gender is an illusion in a certain way. This merging of male and female energy gave a very exceptional feeling of an orgasmic darkness. I did not panic for a second though. Because i knew this process was going to do me good. This feeling of darkness has this taste because it's very contra intuitive and not because of a certain demon entity some nutjobs would suggest. The days after I feel like my consciousness has definitely "grown" (even though this is an egoic thing to say). I am definitely on the right track. LSD helped me big time. If you guys are planning to do 5-meo-dmt, then LSD is a very good intermediate. Though you should be experienced with self realization to some extend. LSD is certainly not a joke. What do you guys think about this experience? Has anyone experienced this before? These crazy spastic movements in combination with orgasmic terror? Peace

Thank you! Just let go of control if you encounter this terror feeling man. Let me know how your shrooms trip was Thanks for the advice my man. That's exactly what i'm doing. I'm meditating more than one hour a day. I used different techniques throughout the year (strong determination sitting, do nothing meditation et cetera) so i will not get used to any of it. Am tripping every 3 months or so. And indeed. Let the energy flow without you trying to control it or you attaching to it. I've read some very horrifying stories about people who did exactly the opposite. Edit: this trip happened on the third of December Cheers