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@Michael569 Thank you for those pointers! Not especially high I think just 3-5grams. I take some vitamins and minerals but not very much/small amounts hmm.. they were mostly for the heavy metal detox protocol, no other meds but thanks for bringing that to my attention. What kind of meds like to interact with mushrooms? Not sure yet haha, I have mostly been sticking with Golden Teacher, and tried one other strain. I'll have to experiment with this some more, I've just been loving GT so much. ? Okay I'm going to try drinking more water next time and see how that goes! Thank you everyone for your helpful suggestions.

You can find out everything from within yourself. Don't feel bad about experimenting and still being on this self-discovery and growth period of your life. Don't feel bad about yourself even if it seems like you're the only one feeling a certain way about how you currently want dating and relationships to look like. And of course being open to change and evolution as you're experiencing and learning from them. Yes, others may not like it so much when things don't align with their desires and values, and are most likely not in a state of experimentation/questioning/discovery to accept what you might say. But so long as you communicate openly about your feelings moment to moment you can't really go wrong here.

@Bandman Welcome. Yes you can do both!

@Bandman You gotta keep digging where that anxiety is coming from. I used to suffer from a lot of anxiety, it was from my relationship with my biological parents, it could be something like that or something else for you. Keep digging. Lot of depression, anxiety, and stuff like that is a more relative problem than a spiritual/absolute problem. Don't skip those steps.

Being able to suffer through things or not experience as much "suffering" is independent of having awakenings to your true nature. One does not need to light themselves on fire to awaken to their true nature. This is actually quite toxic to promote, idolize, and judge others on and not coming from a place of absolute love, and therefore away from truth. In terms of suffering, almost inevitably if one didn't skip steps (this includes lots of shadow work which often gets overlooked), and does the integration work, awakening to God is the best thing ever, and almost certainly produces more baseline peacefulness/love/equanimity. But it does not make one apathetic and not able to feel deeply (probably just the opposite), which can include feelings of "sufferring" being one aspect of this depth feeling. Ultimately it's one's preference to choose to have these feelings or not. Nobody's gonna stop you if you want to be unattached and remain an observer in the dream for the rest of your life.

Haven't tried the others yet but definitely yes with mushrooms.

Yeah I remember that quote, can't find the exact video But ones that come to mind that are related to that are the "Motivational Speech 2021", "What Is Love? - Advanced Spiritual Explanation", "Self-Love - The Highest Teaching In The Universe", "Life Advice for Young People - Part 1 & 2". Have fun digging! LOL.

If it doesn't yet resonate just leave it there for now. Do what does resonate with you right now! Working through where you are at right now will all contribute to your awakenings. Don't shortcut anything just to be on the same page with someone else. Awakening doesn't seem to end and you have to leave some open mind about "new possibilities", new insights. Don't just take someone's word for it until you can verify everything for yourself. Always have some room for doubt/not knowing until verification, aka direct experience. Don't take anything on as belief/truth until you verify/directly get it for yourself. You may even get insights that aren't being talked about yet. Until then, it's a map/message to let you know what may be possible for you. Last thing, paradoxes are a common theme and words have limitations.

@Leo Gura Got to hand it to you for being able to articulate all this in a clear, "objective-ish" way... if I were to describe my trips on this "mystical union" stuff it would come off as very personal/airy-fairy. My trip report would turn into a "love letter" to do it justice or some love song (and I know partially that's the filter I have.. and that it's "my creation"). They have mostly been quite personal and intense, and more difficult to share as a result.

Well... it's possible to get to a point where you really don't care that much about your physical life/death. It can be freeing to be that, but hopefully still able to make sound decisions about your health and practical stuff like that.

"Stockholm Syndrome" to me means you are less conscious of what happened and haven't worked fully through the healing process "apart" from them, and you still have to defend them perhaps in part because of survival needs (which includes emotional/social/approval etc). Here any "love" you have is probably less stable and there's still a desire for wanting them to change. Whereas the love that comes after is fully acknowledging and accepting the way they are/were after you've gone through the self-healing journey.

The best players generally didn't want to teach as much as they wanted to work on/excel in perfecting the craft aspect. The ones who are/were both best player and best coach are usually ones who have reached their "personal peaks" with their craft and then decided to step back and coach others, but they still have to have a passion for teaching or it won't be as good as their playing.

LOL shit, I had a similar experience... This was one of the reasons I wanted to keep "tripping". There's a mystical union I have felt in a couple of my trips, but then I was like.. shit I can't confirm it... or maybe I can.

@Raptorsin7 Yeah okay, I know for sure I am way more intensely focused during trips coz I easily get alot of rapid insights about various things, and almost always wish the trip was longer..

@Raptorsin7 It's not during the trip but afterwards. Almost like exhaustion in my head haha. But yes I will try to be more relaxed about it, wasn't an issue until recently.

@Adodd Sounds good I will definitely try that out, and keep you posted here soon!

@Adodd Thanks for responding! That's very possible I can "forget" to drink enough water at times. Maybe it's like a mini-hangover..

@Someone here Ok here's the thing.... it might be weird but when I was in your shoes years ago, I also found vaginas to be gross to look at (at that time I had also felt embarrassed about my own). Fast forward to when I actually experienced sex and felt accepted for all of my body parts, that was when I also started to change my feelings around the vagina. And similar to what @Seed was saying, nowadays I do find the female body to be very attractive/appealing, but I'm not bisexual or want sex with women (maybe in very rare circumstances with a butch kind of girl who I had chemistry with but that hasn't happened yet).

Lmao that's a tricky one isn't it. Sounds like it. I am already feeling kinda bad for whoever the first girl you're gonna be with

It sounds bisexual leaning. But only way to really know is trying it out with both sexes and then see where you stand. Sexuality is also a spectrum. Yes to multiple. Lasting few minutes, not for the "peak" generally speaking. But one can be pretty close to the peak by just having penetrative sex. So in a sense I'm always having the "high" when having sex (with the right person who knows what they're doing) and I don't even feel like the peak is necessary as a result. ?

Sounds like you're asking about "unconditionality". It's okay to have desires to be a certain way, preferences, maybe coz you even take joy in it. Like genuinely expressing yourself to the world. But self love ideally should be unconditional. That's the most freeing, loving way to be. It's usually "other people" who want us to be a certain way "for them". That's also a preference. But it sure does not come close to unconditional love, which is also absolute love.

Depends on what you're more attuned with... Some people absolutely hate that environment like it's revolting as hell lol and that's aok if that's how things end up going for you. There're still plenty of other ways to meet women. Maybe taking a more well rounded approach would work better for you.

Um.. well.. yeah that's really hard and I can sort of relate. I think it's okay to hold onto the love you have for as long as you need to, because it means so much to you. That's just me though I can't just turn something like that off in a short time either.. It will most likely affect your dating life until someone else comes along that you feel so strongly about. That's the price of the "hopeless romantic" . Some stuff you could do to help with this: - Get to a point where you see yourself to be as whole as possible. - Be open to allowing other people to come into your life. - Talk to someone about it. Try to find closure, in time.

Is it not "fun" for you before you reach orgasm? Something's wrong there. ? I have plenty of fun even if not reaching the "orgasm" it's not what really matters for me in the end or the only thing that constitutes "good sex". Nothing wrong with bisexuality. I've met a pretty hot bisexual guy once who was also slightly more into women. He seemed to be a lot more sexual than most straight guys I knew, and know "his way around" even though he hasn't been with a woman before me surprisingly, more than most guys I've met anyway. And he was definitely more masculine than most I've met (with a touch of the feminine). Don't let that make you feel emasculated. That's all construction in your head! Actually now that I think of it... one of my favorite artists is also a bisexual man... and he's super hot. ?