Adam M

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  1. I believe in his journals published in the book "One Taste" he describes oscillating through periods of "research" and periods of "writing." During his research days... he would usually read 2-5 books per day. If he found a book that was particularly important he might spend the whole day on it... or even multiple days... re-rereading it and highlighting.
  2. /imagine prompt: mystical nature fantasy, twinkling lights, alien jungle
  3. Hey guys, I wanted your opinion on this... My girlfriend is a very smart and spiritually connected girl... she's very stage yellow to be honest and moving into turquoise! We are a very good match in most aspects... Except for that she despises when I watch porn. She says that she can feel how my sex energy is being put into pictures of virtual women on a screen. She feels like it's cheating. We've had plenty of arguments about it...and I've tried quitting but to be honest I kind of don't want to quit. Keep in mind, it's not like I watch porn every day... I usually do it once or twice in a week. She doesn't want to have sex w me when I've watched porn in the last few days and then she complains that we don't have enough sex. And ultimately... she said that she'd break up with me if I don't quit watch porn forever. Soooooooooooooooo what's your opinion on this matter? Should I break up w her? Should I quit porn forever (even though I don't want to)? Granted it'll might tough to find another girl like her (even though I do have good game and plenty of options) I'm so confused...
  4. Update: After lots of pain and suffering and arguing my girlfriend and I finally reached the realization that there is absolutely nothing wrong with me pleasuring myself to porn. We were literally on the verge of breaking up because I refused to give up masterbating (because it would be me feel repressed). And after I finally decided to end the relationship... she had a long deep think about her own bias and selfishness and completely realized that there is absolutely nothing wrong with me watching porn because I'm an awesome guy and I love her. And it doesn't even detract from our sex life... She literally admitted that she was being a selfish fuck. And her mind was filled with overly-idealistic fantasies from stage green social media content talking about "divine masculine and feminine energy"... mainly talking about how "real men" don't watch porn.... but eventually she realized that truth that "real men" are so God-realized that they are free to do whatever the fuck they want because reality is all Love anyways. So the moral of the story is guys... do what feels right... even if other people make you feel ashamed or guilty for doing what feels right. Just do it and trust that if you genuinely enjoy something and it isn't directly harming other people... just fucking do it.
  5. Thanks everyone so many amazing answers and so helpful to get your opinions on the matter!
  6. @assx95 It does help to masterbate less when doing pick-up. Your natural masculine energy willcome through more in the interaction. Beware of the trap of basing your self-worth on how much cum is in your balls. I've had states in my life where I would watch a TON of porn and then go clubbing the same night and still be confident, free, and in a great state! Do what works for you.
  7. Thank you I will explore this deeply in myself. Now it feels like I have less freedom to kind of do what I want... slowly... the appeal of porn to me to getting lesser and lesser... but I do feel like I need to burn through this karma naturally... Quitting porn because someone else told me to won't ever work long-term... When I do go for periods without it... I do it because of how it makes me feel. It is my energy after all and I like to feel free to do what I like with it.
  8. Yeah I totally get your point of view and I also get her point of view as well. She feels like I'm wasting my precious sexual energy and putting towards the image of another woman... But I don't think that women fully understand that men's brains are literally wired to desire sex with many different women. Women biologically want 1 man to love and fuck them as deeply and fully as possible... Whereas men just want to spread their seed far and wide... Where I'm at now... I generally don't watch porn that frequently... my life energy kind of ebb and flows towards periods (of a week or two) of no porn, no video games, just pure focus and work... And then every once (after a week or two) and I while it feels natural to play some video games and if I haven't came in a while... it feels good to kind of "get the energy out"... It helps me be less on edge when I'm not full of semen. As for why don't I just have sex with her? Well, for one, masturbating alone is a completely different experience than sexual intercourse. Having sex requires tremendous focus and energy (for the guy mostly) and if I feel very tired... lazy... and just want to cum... it's a lot less pressure and more relaxing for me to just masturbate on my own. My girlfriend says that she "feels" when I've masturbated... which is pretty obvious. My energy is slightly less. That being said... in Tantra... partners would masturbate themselves before intercourse... so as to lessen the tendency for pursuing selfish gratification and focus on gratifying the other person. So... sometimes, when I have less cum in my balls... I find that I can actually have better sex that lasts much longer. So, obviously I gotta talk with her about this (which I have) it just feels like asking me to NEVER WATCH PORN EVER AGAIN is kind of a big ask... and I'm a 22 year-old guy is not realistic. I like masturbating to porn sometimes... big fucking deal. It feels good when it does and when it becomes excessive I usually just naturally end up quitting for a week or two. But for her... she feels like she can't relax and surrender fully because she doesn't trust me... but... maybe she can just try surrendering even if I watch porn? Is porn cheating? Such a weird topic...
  9. Yeah I'm 22. After I go 1 week without cumming I start humping the walls (figuratively of course)
  10. @Thought Art She's psychic and feels it energetically. It's pretty hard to hide.
  11. That's a classic Along with "Hey Leo! Can you have sex with my wife?"
  12. A friend of mine tried 4-AcO-DMT and said it wasn't much like shrooms. I haven't tried it so I've no say. Yes, shrooms strains have different effects... If you wanted precise clinical dosages... then maybe shrooms aren't the best because they are less consistent (the stems often contain less psilocybin then the caps). That being said, I still think that for many people, having a shroom trip that is at least in the ballpark between 1g and 1.5g is good enough for having an awesome trip. Also, I've been experimenting with this shroom tea method and it's been extremely effective. This method extracts the psilocybin from the mushroom and helps your body uptake it more evenly and more quickly. I highly reccomend this method if thinking about taking mushrooms. https://youtu.be/F833VNmhrhU Edit: There could also be some benefit in just exploring the different effects of the different strains?
  13. https://www.medicalmedium.com/cleanse-to-heal.htm This is the best diet advice on the market today. This guy is so far ahead of our time it's truly remarkable. Anyone who purchases and reads this books will gain an understanding of diet and nutrition that is just not available anywhere else. All of the info is channeled from Source and is extremely accurate. Before studying Anthony William very closely, I was completely in the dark about so many things. This guy re-invigorated my passion for nutrition, and using his techniques and recipes makes my body feel likes a million dollars. All of my bodily functions run super smoothly as a result of following his protocols. Spectacular info. My highest reccomendations!
  14. A great video! Green washing is so obvious to me....
  15. I thought this was beautiful. A very deep scene from a movie with the premise that everyone in the world doesn't know how to lie... and Ricky Gervais' character is the first one that "invents lying" ... everyone believes every word out of his mouth... so he chooses to use that power to tell his mom that she's going to a beautiful place after she dies... "It's just love" And the best part... it's not a lie :')
  16. My girlfriend had a live call with her and told me that it was just a very genuine conversation between two people. She never pretended to be an "enlightened teacher" and just spoke to her as an equal. My girlfriend got a lot out of the call. And her message isn't just "neo advaita garbage" it's just reality... and she likes to express in an authentic and poetic way. Even if it guides or helps 1 person to awakening... I think that's just beautiful.
  17. I just got the trademark ™️
  18. By background is Italian so naturally I always go for Italy. But I don't think that Italy qualified this year... However... CANADA has qualified for the first time in 36 years!! GO CANADA ??
  19. Leo is sooooooo INTP... Don't be silly. Go watch the "what is paradox" video. Pure INTP gold. INTJ's are more focused on efficiency and mastering one domain of life. INTP's are more interested in experimentation for the sake of Truth. Even the way Leo tests all these psychedlic substances is literally the purest INTP. Anyways...
  20. Definitely one of Schmachtenberger's best... I can't believe the level of depth and nuance of his thinking... I think that this is one of his best and most clear talks... I feel like I've been yanked up 2 stages of development just by listening ?
  21. I just watched Leo's new Ketamine videos! A very interesting talk! I wanted to share my comments. I just wanted to point out that there are many different types of Buddhism. The Theravada Buddhists are more traditional and mainly focus on discipline, conduct, freeing oneself from suffering, and the classic kind of "cessation" or no-self awakenings. This path is seen as "the narrow path." This is where Vipassana meditation comes from, and I agree that many ppl can spend 25 years doing Vipassana and only have such a narrow experience of spirituality. That being said, there are certain branches of Buddhism like the Vajrayana that involves some very complex visualizations and symbolism. The goal of the Vajrayana practices is very Tantric, in the sense that it isn't only about abiding in formlessness. But unifying form and formless, to the point where it's very very difficult to "pin down" what the Varajayana path is even about. It is almost like a nature mysticism mixed with a nondual formless mysticism. I would not say that the Vajrayana path is only about "no-self" or "cessation." It seems like the traditional Theravada forms a kind of ground or foundation for the radical insights of the Vajrayana. I would say that it's more about developing "power" "purity" "clarity" and "compassion." But even to say this is a complete bastardization. That being said, even the Vajrayana must still be missing the radically profound insights from peak 5meo trips. In conclusion, there are thousands of different kinds of Buddhist meditations... and granted, many of them can be very narrow and rigid. However, some Buddhists (although admittedly more rare) can be extremely loose and open, embodying more of this spirit of "consciousness experimentation." Which I personally admire. So to me, it just sounds a bit weird when Leo is making a (very valid) criticism about "Buddhists." The criticism definitely applies to the Theravada traditionalists but less so to the Vajrayana pracitioners. But I agree that all of them should just suck it up and do some fkn psychedlics... even if just for the spirit of experimentation and exploring new territory. P.S. As someone who is also very creative and has a very active mind... I would just like to report that Buddhist meditation from different traditions has helped me A LOT be a lot more grounded. And even to use my creativity with more sharpness and compassion. And... psychedlics (Shrooms, LSD, and 5MEO) have also been key players for me.