Adam M

Edit: And upon further thought... isn't the desire for truth just the Love of Reality? I love reality so much that I want to see her naked

Inside The Mind Of An Extremely Dis-Agreeable Person. Hey guys, I'm not trying to show off or anything... But according to this test here https://www.truity.com/test/big-five-personality-test: I score in the "0th percentile" on the trait of agreeableness. (that means that out of every 100 people... I am less agreeable than 99 of them) And my friends, family & I weren't very surprised to hear this... Why am I like this? Ever since I was young... I always had this vague feeling that everybody else is stupid. And this wasn't just once in a while... It was all the time. My parents would even call me "a grumpy bug" because I always had a stick up my ass about something. Why was I so grumpy all the time? It was a question that I asked myself a lot... "It's not that I'm grumpy! It's just that the way other people do things is SO STUPID!" After years and years of self-reflection... learning about psychology, personality types, my unique gifts and interests... and comparing the way my mind works to other peoples'.... I've gone very deep into understanding the essence of disagreeableness and I'd like to share it here: I doubt everything. I need to see & test for myself how something works before I just blindly believe what another person says. examples: "Don't cross the road here! You'll get hit by a car!" (oh yeah? what if I do it like this *proceeds to cross without getting hit by a car*) "Did you know that anteaters have 3 toes?" (oh yeah? cool! where did you learn that from? can you show me a picture?) "God created the Earth in 7 days" (interesting take... but wait a second... who made God? — I actually asked my kindergarten teacher this and she was dumbfounded.) I am always searching for alternative ways to do things If everyone takes the left path... I take the right path "just to see what will happen" this cognitive function is called extraverted intuition/sensing in MBTI and it is always asking the question "What if?" "What if instead of doing it the way we've always done it... what if we tried doing it a new way? What would happen? Let's see! This is an INFORMATION GATHERING function... I want to see a problem/puzzle from as many perspectives as possible to understand it holistically. I'm insatiably curious. I often walk around my neighborhood "tasting" the leaves from the trees just to see how they taste. I naturally take ideas and concepts and break them apart... exploring into all of their corners and nuances just because they're fascinating to me. I often find myself wandering into random corners and cubbies in my neighborhood just "to see what's over here." Inquiry The spirit of disagreeableness is inquiry... asking questions. What if? What would happen if? Is that the right way? What if you're wrong? Are you sure? Can we prove it? How do you know? I want to LEARN about how things work. Because somewhere deep in my soul I know that by learning about the patterns of life, mind, science, and nature... I'm really learning about the Nature of God... and how God manifests itself into Infinitely many forms in such an intelligent and ordered way. "I'm an agent of Chaos." A line from the Joker in Dark Knight. Something about that Joker character really resonated deeply in my soul... He wanted to CAUSE CHAOS to break up the status quo... because even though the status quo is safe and comfortable... it's one big fat delusional mess of bullsh*t... pretty much just institutionalized corruption... with a smiley-face sticker over top.... a way for selfish devil's to make themselves think that they're angels. The joker just wanted to EXPOSE the SELF-BIAS, and the SELF-CONTRADICTION and CORRUPTION in the minds of the criminals, police-officers and even in Batman. He didn't want money or status or fame... he just wanted to watch the world burn. The force of Shiva. The destruction of all constructs... (a metaphorical forest-fire that burns the trees to the ground... leaving nothing but fertile soil for new ones to spring up) Chaos is the thing that Order is trying to protect from. There's a forest near my house that looks like God put it into the washing-machine. It's all twisty and distorted and chaotic... with rocks and branches and trees strewn about every which-way. I LOVE that forest because there are no rules when I'm there... there's no norms or standards or organizations that I have to adhere to. I can just let my mind be free. And that's when the duality of Chaos and Order collapses into an incestuous Unity... because really... what is chaos? does it even exist...? Not really. There's only Order with a capital O. But you can only see the Order with a capital O by going THROUGH Chaos... not avoiding it. I hope that you enjoyed my contemplations on the idea of disagreeableness. Feel free to disagree with me in the comments below... because disagreement is how we get to the Truth... disagreement allows us to strengthen our ideas... and realize that TRUE "disagreement" stems from asking questions... from a child-like desire to just know Reality as it actually is. Because Reality is SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL that I want to know how it actually is. Because how it actually is is 1000000x more beautiful than any human-made pre-conception or story about how it is. How it actually is is too beautiful to put into words. That's why we break words down into their component parts... so that they're seen to be standing on a groundless ground. Every concept that you have about how you think reality is is just a house of cards that is glued together with spit and bubblegum. With just a little bit of inquiry... your house of cards quickly crumbles and you're left with nothing to stand on except Being. And oh my fucking God... Being is miraculous.

@Zedman Haha sometimes smart people like listening to other ones that reflect their smartness back to them (but not me! heck, I don't even know one thing! )

@Epikur Hehe <3

Excellent! Yes, as an ENTP it's not that I have NO REGARD for other people's feelings... in fact.. the best debaters are able to "slide" their ideas in there in such a charming way that the other person doesn't even realize that they are being disagreed with! You can't change somebody else's mind if they feel that you are against them. It's important to be able to relate to the other person's feelings so that you can argue your POV "from the same side of the table as them" so to speak. Plus, at the end of the day... everything I speak about and "argue for" is all about helping to improve other people's quality of life. All I care about is helping other people... and when I hear bullsh*t ideas and philosophies that aren't very empowering or helpful... I'll tear them to shreds. For the sake of others overall happiness and well-being.

Maybe I'm so disagreeable that I disagree with being overly disagreeable. Not really in the mood atm. Maybe another time

Keep in mind... being a little bit psychopathic is not technically a bad thing. Sometimes you need to say "screw how other people feel... I need to do what is right for ME!" That doesn't give you permission to HURT and RAPE other people... (as an extreme psychopath would) Because if you're being truly HONEST and AUTHENTIC with yourself... You'll realize that hurting other people isn't what you actually want. If you think you want to hurt another person... that's just because you haven't realized yet that that action hurts yourself. But sometimes you need to STAND UP FOR YOURSELF. And solve your OWN NEEDS. You'll find that sometimes asserting your individuality and not taking other people's bullshit is actually a very helpful thing that can inspire and activate others to take care of their own needs and be more independent.

Thank you for asking. No I don't want to be a psychopathic terrorist. I don't even kill insects because I have a very high regard for Life. The reason why I related to the Joker is because of his desire to break apart the status quo... I don't need to burn down buildings to do that... I can do that in a civilized way (such as making YouTube lectures that call into question common assumptions and false beliefs of culture). I gain enjoyment from exposing other people's self-biases (and of course I am always interested to see how I justify my own biases to myself). You can actually do someone a huge service in their life by helping them to question and break apart old limiting beliefs and negative thinking patterns that keep them stuck in toxic patterns and habits in their lives. Destruction is not a negative force. It can actually be a very positive thing (relative to your survival agenda) to have old outdated ideas DESTROYED so that they can be replaced with more helpful and true ideas. There's positive and negative manifestations to each of these extremes of personality traits. The negative extreme of being 100% agreeable would be "So you just want to be a spineless doormat that allows others to manipulate and deceive you with their own bullsh*t agendas? You don't want to be an individual with your own unique needs?"

Thanks for sharing this... Perhaps I'm using the wrong technical definition for the trait of agreeableness... But I don't really like how this chart describes agreeableness as someone who has "a great deal of empathy" ... I really enjoy serving and helping others... and I also feel pain when others around me feel pain. I think it would be more accurate to say... Are you willing to sacrifice someone else's feelings for the sake of truth? Or are you willing to sacrifice truth for the sake of someone else's feelings? No right or wrong answer here... there's pros and cons to each temperament. Edit: And upon further thought... isn't the desire for truth just the Love of Reality? I love reality so much that I want to see her naked

@Leo Gura Thanks!

@fridjonk Thanks for share this is great.

Hey @Leo Gura! There's some really cool parts of Reality that I've been exploring and I think that they would be very useful to include as part of a holistic understanding. Some of these ideas have great explanatory power for understanding different levels and realms of consciousness, collective energies, manifestation and goal-achievement, life purpose... etc. I share this just for fun. I think that Leo may enjoy having his worldview challenged in a way that isn't completely retarded. Also, it's good practice for me in persuasive writing. I think that Leo has a pretty fantastic grasp on the Nature of Reality/Infinity at the really big-picture level... and even has some excellent takes in the more "masculine" realm of relativity (politics, psychology, science, philosophy, getting results, etc.) However, there's a lot of wisdom from the more "feminine" realm of relativity (which I'll elaborate on) which I feel is left out... *The distinction between masculine and feminine realms of relativity here is just used to get across a general vibe* DISCLAIMER: I have absolutely NO IDEA what is going on in Leo's mind. Everything that I assume that he knows or doesn't know is based completely on my own fantasy of what I think Leo does/doesn't think about based on his posts on the blog, videos, and forum. Let's just begin: Astrology: A powerful language of symbols, energies, and archetypes that helps many people around the world communicate with Intelligence. It's every beautiful to observe how certain qualities and flavors of God are observable in our solar system. (and it's also very useful for many psychics and mediums to read the "astrological weather" which is an interesting way to predict "the general vibe" of specific days/weeks/months etc.) Astrology is so complex and convoluted with so many interwoven variables that it's difficult to "pin it down" with any sort of epistemological rigor. But even in spite of that... it's beautiful and often scary how accurate it can be (it has personally helped me tremendously to discover my Life Purpose and navigate my relationship). Astrology is such an accurate map of personality (and ... and people who disagree are usually too lazy to study it with any serious open-mindedness. (and plus it helps you flirt with spiritual girls! so it MUST be true! ) JK. Channeling: I know that you're well-aware of the phenomenon of channeling (and I even read a transmission that you channeled yourself!). And recently you mentioned in the "Next Steps For Actualized . org" video that you're moving into a stage in you development that requires immense deconstruction of "human" ideas. But are all ideas "human" ideas? Some ideas can be channeled from beings that claim to be existent on higher densities of being. Like, for example, Bashar (a 6th dimensional entity that is channeled through some guy) has some really fantastic descriptions of Reality that I think Leo would agree with. And he also has some really profound takes on manifestation, past civilizations (like Atlantis which apparently did exist in the Caribbean around 12600 yrs ago and was destroyed by 2 decades of meteor showers) So the point here is... I guess ALL ideas are transmitted THROUGH a human... FOR a human audience... so it still could be considered "human ideas." But I'm just so blown away by some of the illumination that I receive into the nature of reality via the descriptions from these "higher density" beings. Spirit guides: my girlfriend is able to channel beings in the form of dance/movement. I tapped into it slightly and it's almost like she goes into a trance state and moves in such a way that allows her to "open portals" and "create realities." Indigo children: You mentioned in a recent blog post that one potential reason for why humans aren't very spiritual gifted nowadays has to do with society selecting for more "business-minded" people. I see the sense in that... but that perspective doesn't include the possibility of "new souls" choosing to incarnate on Earth... a much greater than average amount of children being born into the world nowadays are considered "indigo children" by some shamans and psychics who are able to see energy. They can see that the children have a distinct Indigo hue in their auric field. Something that wasn't very common until recently. So the whole "evolution selected for business-minded people" argument doesn't really include the perspective of advanced souls choosing to incarnate on Earth. This "souls" perspective bypasses the whole "genetics" thing. The point is: Just because society selected for unconscious sheeple that follow the rules... who's to say that a new wave of "woke souls" can't just choose to incarnate tomorrow? Levels of Energy: I wrote another thread about this topic here. Densities: I don't fully understand how to explain this but basically consciousness manifests in different densities and there are different realms of consciousness like hell and heaven realms that have been described vividly in pretty much every single religious tradition (talked about in detail in Fred Dodson's books "Journeys Through Spectral Consciousness." Apparently, these realms actually exist and one can experience them for oneself by intending to... with the caveat that if you're not open to receiving these experiences then they won't be shown to you. So I don't really have this list quite complete yet... I have some strong intuitions that there are some more ideas that I need to explore in the "New Age" area of spirituality... especially some of the channeled ideas from different galaxies and dimensions. Earth isn't the only place here! But I'm still a total newbie in this area and I'm pretty ignorant about how this whole "reality" thing works. The more I discover the more I realize that I don't know. Note* None of this information contradicts the realization of Oneness/Infinity... it just explores different aspects of God that can (and probably should) be included into a holistic understanding of relativity (which is Infinitely unfolding in ever-higher degrees and dimensions!)

Your mind brings you good luck by believing it is so. The object becomes imbued with your own power.

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I thought that God is so unconditionally loving that He even loves you when you choose delusion over Truth? God would never try to force you to awaken even if you'd rather be lost in the dream... God loves delusion... it's a masterpiece of retardation! And by the way, Leo... if God was able to lead you to the mountaintop... I'm sure that He can similarly help others there as well... but their path may not be a straight line. Sometimes someone has to be super deluded about their own spirituality because they have to experience first-hand what reality is NOT so that they can have a more clear picture when they finally realize what reality IS. (I get that if someone is trying to put words in your mouth that you didn't say or to twist your teachings into something that they aren't meant to be... it's important to have strong boundaries held up by a bit of healthy stage Red)

I understand where you're coming from... I have a similar drive to grab someone by the hair and shove their face in the Truth... But I also remember that everyone has a right to be completely delusional. What if they like being a silly spiritual ego? Who am I to ruin their dream? If someone wants to understand and is open... then guiding them is easy. If they are being stubborn and closed... you can try the "grab by the hair and shove their face in the truth" approach but it's a risky one that doesn't always work... At some point you can just let another person be deluded knowing that that is their wish. Honor their delusion as their choice (if it cannot be helped).

A very well-known channel named Darryl Anka channels an extraterrestrial being called "Bashar." Bashar has some really excellent personal development and spirituality advice that has helped me immensely with understanding the laws of reality creation. Here are some of my favorite videos of Bashar: It's really really good stuff. Explore it for yourself... or ignore it if you're not interested.

No. I respectfully disagree. I like it exactly the way it is. It's perfect. It doesn't bother me... in fact, it resonates even deeper because that's how I authentically speak in my own mind, too. Great job, Leo... continue to speak however it comes out... and sometimes it's okay to be a bit "over-the-top." Because that's what adds flavor and juice to the topic. What's the point of communicating these insights if they're just going to be translated into some stiff-dry format for the sake of not hurting people's feelings (which, frankly, if you can't accept that stylistic choice... and it 'bothers you' that is 1000% YOUR PROBLEM.)

It's pretty obvious that the "random mutation" model of evolution is pretty limited. Just natural selection of randomly mutated traits is waaaaay too slow and stupid of a process to be the ONLY factor that determines evolution. An alternative model that I've been contemplating is the "evolution via intention" model. It states that "the organism's conscious or sub-conscious intention participates in the process of shaping itself and its offspring." For example, for Darwin's Galapagos finches... the ones with the long beaks evolved because the flowers on their Island had nectar that could only be accessed deep within the flower's stem... So according to Darwin's theory... the birds with longer beaks were selected for... which makes sense... but the question is "what is the source of the mutation? Is it really random?" According to "my" theory... the subconscious intention of the birds literally causes their beaks to grow longer (over a long period of time). Imagine that you're trying to reach into a flower to eat the nectar... subconsciously wishing that your beak was just a bit longer... Over time... your beak would actually grow longer. At this point ... there is so much scientific evidence that proves how intention affects cell-expression. Practical examples of people healing their illnesses with by using visualization alone. Your thought-energy literally shapes the physical expression of your body... See what Dr. Joe Dispenza, Dr. Bruce Lipton, and Rupert Sheldrake talk about... Bruce Lipton has a book called "The Biology of Belief" that goes into a deep mechanical explanation of how thought-energy determines gene-expression. So that's my new theory of evolution and it's based on pretty excellent evidence... it also would make more sense in the framework that reality is made of God's consciousness.

I LOVE this!!! Thank you for confirming ❤

I like the insights about alien love. That makes a lot of sense to me. There is so many accounts of alien consciousness contacting humans in channelled states and it's so clear that they're way more advanced in so many degrees and dimensions. I'm going for alien love on my next trip.

Never mind. Everything is my Mind creating reality.

The quickest way to enlightenment is fully accepting and enjoying your life exactly as it is. While not suppressing your natural desire for growth and development. Just enjoy the journey, man... Don't rush to "enlightenment" ... because you might miss it along the way. Why are you in such a rush? Where do you think you are going?

11:36 "We're looking at how this whole game of 'bullshit' is played. It's a very sophisticated game. We're saying something very precise here. We're not just bad-mouthing people in general. And the trouble with this game is that the way that it's played is like this: everyone sees the bullshit in everyone else except the bullshit that they themselves spin. And then they make exceptions and excuses for their own bullshit." Honestly, at this point. If you don't understand where Leo is coming from. Just fucking leave. We don't want your crybaby complaining here. We don't need you to police Leo for calling out some bullshit here or there. Isn't that his fucking job? What's the point of having someone like Leo in your life if the second he calls you out... you curl up in a ball and cry. Isn't that the value of a teacher? To call out the bullshit? Give me a break, guys.

Honestly... I found Leo's expression here pretty enjoyable and entertaining to read. Great insights and pointers for my own consciousness and awakening. The 'rudeness' is actually totally warranted considering the depth of egotistical delusion. Consider it a stylistic choice. If you have half a brain... you can see that he's expressing from a place of trying to help you awaken. It's not like he's personally insulting people just for the fun of it. Plus, at the end of the day. He's right. And sometimes Truth > Feelings.