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@mandyjw yes I have heard about certain meditations and rituals that are aimed at charging and cleansing the Crystals so that they may be used as a tool for healing, meditation, etc. They seem to be popular in New-Age circles but I still feel that it is very gimmicky and also very easy to be influenced by capitalism. I have seen people buy hundreds of dollars of Crystals because they are marketed to have certain amazing properties such as attracting love. Personally I have trouble buying it.

When u catch yourself lost in the content of a thought...just ask yourself "to whom is this thought occuring?" Keep doing that over and over again...the point is to keep your attention focused on the sense of "I"

So turquoise and so amazing...

Lol if one was that neurotic all day about contributing to "evil" then one couldn't practically live in the world.

Overview This has been my most powerful and profound trip to date. Including the closest I have got to any type of awakening experience. Yesterday morning I did 5g of magic mushrooms at around about 10am and locked myself in by basement bathroom in complete silence and darkness until 4pm. I had hundreds of profound insights about the nature of mind, reality, vibrations, energy and creation...including my first glimpse of the magnitude of infinity. Preparation In the days preceding my mushroom trip, I consulted these tarot cards that I have about whether or not doing this trip was a good idea. I gave myself a reading with the tarot cards and I really like this method for judging whether or not tripping at a particular time is a good idea or not. It's like how Terrence McKenna says in this video: Where he consults the oracle. (skip to 15:50) But anyways I got very good signs from my reading that I did on myself and one of my girl-friends who is a reader also agreed that the trip was a good idea so I decided to do it. I chewed 5g of the mushrooms on an empty stomach and preemptively took a ginger pill to handle any nauseousness. Then I filled up my bathroom in my basement with cushions and blankets and covered the windows so it was as dark as possible. The Trip Begins I sat down cross legged in the dark and meditated as I waited for the shrooms to come on. I set my intention to receive insight about the nature of reality and conciousness. After about 30-40 minutes I began to feel the familiar shroomy feeling of wavy energy enter my body and I allowed my body to sway with the energy as I tried to stay anchored on my breathing. My breathing began to feel more full as this energy pulsed through my body and it felt amazing. For about an hour I was enjoying the climb up towards the peak which was filled with the energy beginning to work its way into my mind and creating long and profound thought chains about the ego, survival, and creation. At one point I called my friend for a couple minutes just to tell him how awesome I'm feeling. I'm a Millionaire Recently I've been reading a lot about affirmations and the law of attraction. As the energy was pulsing through my body and becoming stronger I got visions of how reality creates itself through vibrations at every second and I felt the urge to affirm "I'm a millionaire." over and over and over again. At this point I also started recording myself (in pitch black but I captured the audio of me talking). As I continued affirming "I'm a millionaire" I got super happy as if I had just won the lottery. I realised the power of affirmations and for a good 20 minutes I was in ecstasy at the idea that I am actually a millionaire. I fully believed in the affirmation and I was able to See the vibrations beginning to manifest millions of dollars in my bank account. This is when I got many profound insights about the process of creation and how reality creates through no mechanism but through direct consciousness and that if I can focus my attention on those positive vibrations of "I'm a millionaire" then I will spontaneously create a million dollars. Ecstasy Again, I have this whole section of the trip recorded and I would describe this part as nearing the peak of the trip. I began writhing and rolling around on the floor as the energy invaded my body and brain and it felt fucking amazing. I am just yelling "Holy fuck, oh my God, Holy fucking shit this is amazing, what the fuck is happening to me, holy fuck the vibrations are just creating every second." for like 20 minutes straight as I'm swimming through the cushions and blankets in a complete full-body orgasm. At this point I feel like my whole body is being healed and reborn which was actually predicted in my card reading that I gave myself earlier. At this point I'm laughing and crying and rambling and having the most profound experience of my life... I also had the insight "Being is vibration." but idk how accurate that is but it made sense at the time. "I'm not seeing anything but I'm being everything." Side note: I watched the whole video back and even though its pitch black at certain points you can clearly see white "snowflakes" floating around the screen as if the camera was picking up the enormously high amounts of energy that was invading my being. (coincidentally the power also went out in my town around this time but I didn't notice until later) A Glimpse of Infinity After I turned off the recording I was continuing my orgasmic bliss exclamations of "Holy fuck Holy fuck" and my thoughts spontaneously began to move into even more profound territory. These weren't regular thoughts because they were very vivid and I could feel them more fully than normal so I would feel safe saying that this was closer to direct consciousness than just regular thoughts. There was one particular thought chain that I do not fully remember that basically lead to the realisation that I am nothing more than energy and that I am made of the same energy that everything else is made out of...At this point I felt my sense of ego begin to weaken more and more and I was beginning to contemplate the idea of dying and how it wouldn't be a problem at all because I'm just vibrations...At this point I became aware that I was very close to total ego death but I was not able to go fully over the edge...probably because I haven't done enough spiritual practice or I needed more substance.... Then there was another thought chain that showed me the magnitude of how infinite reality is...I feel like this particular thought chain was very "grand" and it was very charged with energy and I was having direct consciousness of every cell in every life form on Earth and how each cell is its own organism that wants to survive and reproduce and I realised "Its infinite! Its infinite! Its infinite!" and I was completely blown away and at the same time I was on all fours with my head down and I felt the energy spontaneously leave out through my feet with several violent trembles. And then everything was still and silent. Aftermath There was a huge contrast between the loud and energetic thought-chains and the silence that followed. My whole body was buzzing and trembling and I just lay down in awe for like 5 minutes and my mind was very quiet and still. Then I sat up and began to look around and this is where the feeling began that I was not in control of my movements at all and I was just the observer. I looked around the bathroom (my eyes had adjusted to the darkness) and I was tripping out like "What the fuck just happened? Am I enlightened? What the hell..." I was on the brink of tears and I was so gracious to have had the opportunity to glimpse even a little hair on the tail of the ox. (Which is what I think it was) I felt a very weak sense of ego still residing so I knew that I wasn't enlightened but I was definitely closer to ego-lessness than I have ever been. After about 20 minutes the sense of self began re-forming again but I still maintained that sense of being the observer and not having control over my actions. I just sat in awe and silence for another 30 minutes and then my Dad came home and I turned on the lights to realise how distorted and shroomy my vision was...I took sooooo much shrooms. So I just buzzed out in the bathroom for another 20 minutes and then I tried to go up to my room to rest in my bed because I was exhausted... I couldn't sleep and I definitely couldn't get comfortable but I just tried to relax and allow myself to come down from the high. Around 6pm I was feeling a bit better and I was interacting with my family in a semi-normal way and we ate dinner together and stuff and everything turned out well. That night I had a piercing headache that prevented me from sleeping restfully. I'm feeling an ego backlash coming on but I'm just chilling out and not working too much so that I can recover fully. Takeaways - I have a lot more consciousness work to do but idk if I'm ready yet at this point in my life...I need to handle my survival first. - 5g in silent darkness is definitely an amazing way to do mushrooms - Thoughts manifest into reality - I'm a millionaire - reality creates itself every second without a mechanism - reality appears to be infinite - shrooms are a powerful tool for consciousness growth - consult the cards Thanks for reading!

@Rigel @Leo Gura yeah I'll think about it...idk what to expect yet on the lsd trip so I'll have to do more research and then I will decide where to stay

Vipassana retreats are challenging at times yet highly rewarding! You will definitely grow a lot and will definitely raise your conciousness! Go for it dude! Good luck!

Awesome! Good luck dude I'm gonna do lsd soon I just need to a find a suitable place to do it...since I dont live alone i may consider renting an airbnb for a day@kieranperez

Did you expect to hit the gym without being sore the next day?

Great video with fantastic animations! But notice how it explains conciousness in terms of the behaviours of organisms...which doesn't really answer the origin of conciousness or the mind/body problem.

While I was travelling Thailand I often had no choice but to do meditation in public areas... I practice a type of vipassana that includes walking meditation and it looks very odd and many people would stare at me but honestly who cares lol...I just observe myself feeling afraid of being judged and then the feeling passes like everything else.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JYHp8LwBUzo You can be everything! Narrated by Alan Watts too! Its a trip I'm gonna buy it for fun lol

Continue to meditate and you will clearly see that they are bringing you down. Over the last couple years I have been gradually replacing my stage orange friends with more stage green and even yellow people that I meet and know.

Finding stage yellow is a little difficult but I think that finding stage green is a lot easier and you have higher chances of running into yellow beings that are mixed in with the greens. Meetup.com can show you - seminars - drum circles - psychedelic meetups - meditation retreats And such

I feel like there is already enough content on this channel so that if Leo never uploaded ever again...I would have all the necessary tools for self actualization...

@NoSelfSelf hes got videos and book list recommendations...and you have a source of infinite info on your fingertips

@Paul92 you are missing your full potential! If your fulfillment level are a 5/10 as a non-self actualizing person, your happiness levels as a self-actualized person is 1000/10.

I'm ENTP-A... I would consider myself very logical and stuck in my head but I love discussing ideas with people and bouncing my ideas off of other people... I'm a classic debater and I often start arguments for fun.

thanks for keeping us posted! appreciate it! Feel better dude

Hey guys I was sniffing through the bible in search of some holy wisdom and I came across some great quotes about ego death so I thought I'd share. Luke 17:20 The Coming of the Kingdom of God 20 Once, on being asked by the Pharisees when the kingdom of God would come, Jesus replied, “The coming of the kingdom of God is not something that can be observed, 21 nor will people say, ‘Here it is,’ or ‘There it is,’ because the kingdom of God is in your midst. Luke 17:30 It will be just like this on the day the Son of Man is revealed. 31 On that day no one who is on the housetop, with possessions inside, should go down to get them. Likewise, no one in the field should go back for anything.32 Remember Lot’s wife! 33 Whoever tries to keep their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life will preserve it. 34 I tell you, on that night two people will be in one bed; one will be taken and the other left. 35 Two women will be grinding grain together; one will be taken and the other left.” [36] [e] 37 “Where, Lord?” they asked. He replied, “Where there is a dead body, there the vultures will gather.” Add to ur commonplace book

I couldn't agree more and I enjoy reading the Upanishads and the Gita as their explanations of God (Self, Brahman) are more straight-forward and to the point. But I also love to see how beautifully twisted the Bible can be in the hands of the ego-mind. Now that I can see the biblical teachings through the lens of nonduality, they are much more powerful and clear. Here is another beautiful quote from Job 33:6@Big Guru Balls "I am the same as you in God's sight."

Read a book for a while...not something too technical but something that will relax you before bed like a biography or a spiritual text such as the bible or the bhagavad gita

they're the same

Hey man, I've never plugged a substance before but I've washed my asshole w/ water jets many times and I'll tell you that there's nothing to be worried about...in fact it feels really nice. Also, pretty sure 5-meo dmt is illegal in many countries and there are no cultures that I am aware of that have openly accepted the use of powerful psychedelics like 5meo for spiritual growth. I have never tried 5meo but I just wanted to point out that your excuses for NOT doing it are not justified...just trying to help.

Yes. Almost all people identify with their beliefs about the world. This literally means that if someone believes that God exists, and you disagree with them, they will get defensive as if their life is being threatened. This is because this belief has been merged with their self identity. Therefore, by attacking/disagreeing with someone else's point of view, you are literally attacking their very identity which results in defensiveness and can lead to lashing out in anger/fear. This is why it is so difficult for a self-actualising teen to share some of these ideas with their parents for example. Many of these counter-intuitive principles that Leo and other teachers teach are in direct conflict with the traditional beliefs of your parents. See: The Mechanics of Belief, and How Ideology Works for a more in depth discussion about this.