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Sounds like you're lost in your own bullshit. Now is time to do real work. Find a life purpose, put in the hours. Watch Leo's old videos, they are more practical. Spirituality isn't sitting on the couch doing psychedelics but it's the everyday grind of figuring stuff out, building a life worth living, learning, trying stuff, falling and getting back up. Everybody else is doing something, what makes you so special? This generation is too soft.

Are the sensations I feel during meditation always there and I just don't notice them? Or are they created during meditation? Sensations are mainly energy points in the body and general pleasant feelings from under the skin.

Nobody knows this. I always ask questions in this sub that nobody knows.

@Hojo @Raze these are nice suggestions but not realistic or relevant at this point. He's likely going to be diagnosed with Korsakoff syndrome. This period is interesting to me. After the anger came sadness and acceptance. It's also quite interesting that now family and friends of his hear about his alcoholism for the first time, in a sense that gives validity to my perspective.

This was daily life for me between age 11 and 18. The worst part was that to the outside world, he looked like a victim. His alcoholism enraged me as a teenager so I'd throw stuff and unleash my anger just to get attention. To the outside world this poor single father was the victim of this out of control teenage son. Disgusting. This made me never feel sorry for an adult man in my life, get over yourself. I've given up on this a while ago. But after his last hospital, it appeared that he was really making an effort. Part of me still wants to see that human side of him. But it didn't last very long. Besides, I don't know what's real anymore. Was everything just appearances? Who knows. I've done this on multiple occasions. Go without any contact, and I moved abroad twice, which I later realized was probably related. Good luck with your family member Michael. I think the best position to get to is to not let is effect you any longer. To me it no longer sends me into a tailspin of anger but it still can make me regress into overeating, watching porn etc.

I would love to ignore it entirely. I've noticed how thinking about my goals all day, raising my frequency and meditating, working on my business, that's the sort of thing that makes me feel fantastic. I've been able to ignore everything in this way and I take pride in my ability to be so independent and focused. Making this journal and giving it any mental space seems like a stupid idea. Why would I hypnotize myself (napoleon hill calls it hypnotic rhythm) into something negative? I should be brainwashing myself with positive thoughts, like I've been doing for these past weeks. And then this happened. But in my physical reality this situation is un-ignorable. So I'd like to ignore it vibrationally, if that's even possible.

I posted this yesterday but I would like to turn it into a journal thread instead: In this journal I will write some thoughts about my dad. I've already gone through years of blame and hatred and anger and I'd like to think I'm towards the tail end of this but that took me years of personal work. I'm building my own future where there's no room for guilt or negative feelings about this, but at the same time I must allow feelings right now to transscent it in a healthy way. I can't hurry his physical death. I think the test is to stay on track with my goals and in tune with my feelings, raising my frequency, while still acknowledging the situation as it is. Or am I wrong? Because what I've been doing lately is simply ignoring all of my current circumstances in favor of the feelings of grattitude of my future circumstances, and that system has worked tremendously for me. My dad being in the hospital was the only physical situation that was able to pull me into this ego backlash. Actually there were other situations too, but I simply removed myself from them. Here, I'm not able to remove myself from the sitaution entirely. The situation will keep reocurring until perhaps after his funeral. So it is up to me to deal with it gracefully. My only responsibility in life is to raise my frequency. But at the same time it would be nice to deal with the "unwanted" gracefully. But this might be a bit of a fantasy. A story where I tell myself "everything in my life was going perfectly well until my old frequency came back in the form of my dad drinking himself into the hospital". So, my dad passes and life is all roses? No. Then there will be something else that triggers me. It could be an intimate relationship, it could be the ignorance of lower spiral stages, it could be evil in the world seemingly directed towards me. So the trick is to deal with this. Comments are welcome in this journal.

I've decided to turn this into a journal thread:

I did the Sky is Always Blue exercise from Leo's "What Is Truth" video with ChatGPT. We came to this, but I'm sure I could go further to make the statement more accurate. "The sky on Earth often appears as what humans label 'blue' during the day to people with normal vision, not wearing sunglasses or VR glasses, with access to natural light, and living in environments where the sky is visible, under clear weather conditions. 'Blue' refers to a specific experience of light perception that is understood through human language and thought." https://chatgpt.com/share/6758d187-7f18-8004-b5ff-8678f3d3cf4d

So I wanted to take notes on "The 9 Stages of Ego Development" but I found it too packed with good lines. Like every line is valuable, how can I take notes from that? Then there's videos like the "What is Truth" where the whole video works up to one or two core concepts. So there I didn't feel like I had to take notes because I understand what he means (I hope).

Excuse my ignorance because I'm not a psyhonaut and I've only tripped a handful of times, but are psychedelics just a way to feel what death is like? Or is it "more" than that? What "more" could it be? I've felt the come-up of a trip, and the most intense one was on an unknown substance and it was death, and death was fantastic.

Hello @Leo Gura I can't remember you ever talked about working with mentors, but many self help teachers do say we should work with a mentor. So does a online mentor count? What are your thoughts on mentorship? In the book Mastery they talk about the apprentice phase but surely that's all happening at home with YouTube now.

Iman Gadzhi is a make money influencer with over 5 million subscribers on Youtube. I was never a fan of this guy but interesting video:

Did you really just say this? Really?

Look at African countries that went from Purple to Red to Blue, an absolute bloodbath. Look at Europe going through the middle ages or Roman times (purple to red), again just pure horror. Why aren't there any examples of a clean progression from Purple to Orange? God just loves death and decay?

Bro there's like 3 people there and the audio is bad 😂 what does she say?

Grandiose Narcissist: What if grandiose narcissists are nothing but Master Manifestors but because your frequency is so low you can't do anything but hate? Like those trolls who always say RSD videos are "staged" because they cannot comprehend such a thing is possible from their POV. Just a though. ChatGPT says this, hmmm, very interesting: Although I get what it's saying, on a metaphysical level I guess there is no narcissist. Rob Van Dam: Now it's time for Rob Van Dam!!!!

This journal is about manifesting, The fact that I'm not a millionaire yet proves to me that I don't fully understand manifestation yet. My "goal", or better said my "interest" is to fully understand manifestation, and be an alchemist in my own reality. Journal rules: Rule #1: Only talk about personal experience and relate it back to the theory.

State = Everything This game of manifesting is fairly simple: think the thoughts that feel good. In other words: think the thoughts that raise your vibration. What if you dropped all labels, and just do everything in life to raise or maintain your frequency? Drop the label of "work" or "hobby" and engage with the world in a way to raise your frequency. That's what a true alchemist does. Why do stand-up? Because you lay your vibration upon the audience, getting back what you put in, and raising your vibration even further. You use other people to raise your vibration because you understand that the world around you is nothing but a reflection from your inner world. "Success is 95% Mindset and 5% Strategy" ~ Bob Proctor So when a true alchemist walks into the room, he understands that smiles and hugs and all-around positive energy are going to boost HIS state by law of the Mirror Principle. No true alchemist would therefor walk into a room and be depressed or have self-limiting thoughts. This is what the pickup guys meant by "boosting your state" and is also an NLP tactic. I have been around enough successful people to know what this looks like. They understand. If you don't think highly successful people understand this you're out of your mind No Condom Real men fuck the Universe raw! That means, remove the condom aka close the gap between your desired reality and your current one. When the gap between your desired reality and current reality is closed, you are living in your desired reality, until once again, you choose a limiting thought that makes it not so. THE UNIVERSE IS ENTIRELY MENTAL ENTIRELY MENTAL yuh feel mi? Not mostly mental, no, ENTIRELY MENTAL. Once again that means your physical reality is nothing but a reflection of your internal world. Only without the proper awareness could you think otherwise, and believe that your physical reality is "real and objective" and now you are worshiping false Gods, going in endless circles of suffering. You must flip the switch and understand your vibration comes before everything else.

This channel is great:

For me definitely 2000 - 2005 ish. They had a fantastic roster with Randy Orton, HHH but I really enjoyed the entire roster. Rob Van Dam, Jericho, Christian, Edge, Test, Rey Mysterio, Rikishi. These were the times bro.

I was just at it. Pause.

You are so sweet, I was just joking.

Would another way to phrase this be: "Knowing trumps over Believing"? And also are you saying that by having clarity you essentially know the future?

Just look at what happened to Britain: And now look at all these populists being elected who have Nazi and Putin ties. This whole continent has gone to shits. If you'd like to live a digital nomad lifestyle you can live a much better life for 1/3rd the cost in other places: These are the emerging economies. They include Malaysia, Thailand, Georgia, Vietnam, Colombia among others. I will be going to these places over the next few years while paying 0% tax. There are enough places where you'd be relatively safe from WW3 and The Great Reset. I'm not saying that there will be a global war but I think the chances of it happening in our lifetimes are above 25%. Usually I'm the last guy to fear monger, but if you watch the channel I linked you find that the wealthy ($1m - $500m net worth individuals) are moving their assets out of the West entirely, including their homes and passports / nationality. That should be reason for concern. Edit: don't take this thread too seriously, but these are the influences I've watched over the weekend and now it just seems grim to me.