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I dont know. But it is the shittiest feeling that some other person is responsible for causing me harm over profit. But at the same time, it was stupid of me not testing blotters. Have never had any problem with psychedelics before. Have done psychedelics for over 10 years.

But you are sure it is not possible that it destroys serotonin receptors? Isn't it neurotoxic? But if serotonin receptors are destroyed, will they come back?

I had them under my tongue. I have read a lot of 25i-NBOMe trip reports, and what I experienced was very similar. I have taken LSD hundreds of times. I am 100% certain this was not LSD. What I have read online is that since it is a very strong agonist (95%), it could destroy serotonin receptor sites. Could these receptors rebuild if I stay away from drugs?

Before I write, I just want to preface that I am sorry if I am not allowed to ask for help for a school paper. I am studying in university to become a psychologist and we are about to write a paper in social psychology class. I have always been into spirituality and I have been really interested in spiral dynamics since I first was introduced to the concept from Leo. The paper will be termed "Why do we get cultural clash from multiculturalism?" The main theory will be spiral dynamics where I will talk about it´s background, empirical method and theory, and tie it to under-categories of social thinking, social influence, social relations and group processes. What I think is really relevant for the paper is to explain what purpose the different levels of development serves for our species. Why do we go through the different levels? Why is it adaptive for human as a species and in an evolutionary standpoint? What is it´s function? Is there any source about this that would work in a empirical written paper? I would appreciate relevant topics I could discuss in the paper that is tied to social psychology.

So I had this terrible headache from a meditation session about 8 years ago (you could read about it in my older posts). I have been doing a lot of stuff to get better. Holotropic and LSD therapy have helped me a lot. When I have used those methods, I have started shaking a lot in my pelvis. I though the problem with the headache was that the energy was stuck in the head, but the case has been that my lower energy centers have shut down. I think I might have disassociated from my genitals and lower chakras, so the energy have no place to go resulting in headache. I was wondering if somebody knew any techniques I could use to open up the lower chakras so the energy could flow through the body easier? I am open for everything

Right now I dont know what to do. The past year has been very hard for me. Earlier I had severe problems with drugs and alcohol, and I remember that I thought I was going to become a drug addict. When I started meditation, my life turned around. Suddenly I did very good in school which got me into one of the top 5 universities in my country. I started to work out, eat healthy and shed all of my bad habits. I meditated 1 hour a day. There was almost none resistance to life. About one year ago one of my meditation sessions went very deep. I felt some pretty bad emotions and a pressure came in my forehead. I thought of quitting the session, but in the end I decided to just sit it out. After this session everything changed. When I tried to meditate, it was very hard to do it. The flow I usually felt 5-10 minutes into the meditation session for the past 2 years disappeared. 1-2 months after this session I had a hard time meditating for more than 20 minutes. The pressure was in my forehead constantly. Sometimes it felt like something solid was stuck inside my head. I also had a headache where the skull meets the neck. Slowly I fell back to the person I was before. I started to drink and smoke weed. I had a very hard time studying and got very bad grades as well. Life became very depressing. I have read very much about this topic and have tried many different things the last year like: the dissolving method, taijiwuxqigong, reiki healing, acupuncture, energy therapies and massages. I feel like it has gotten some better (like the headache is almost gone), but the pressure is still there and I am still struggling with my meditation. Right now it seems like I am going to fail many of my classes at university. I feel like the life I am living right now is not worth living (I am actually thinking about what ways to kill myself). There is a battle in my mind. I get it that meditation is not always a walk on the rainbows and that it has its ups and downs, but one year feels like a bit to long and it dosent seem like it is going away anytime soon. I also know that I should not want anything from meditation and for long periods I have tried it, but it never worked. I am thinking about quitting school and travel to meet people who can help me resolve this issue. I preferably want to live with a master (for free would be good) in the US or maybe China or somewhere. Does anyone know how I could do this and if there is any good masters out there? Does anyone know about this problem or know some books about this problem? (I have read Tao of letting go by Bruce Frantzis)

It kind of feels like the problem is in my eyes. The first time I experienced the pressure I felt a pressure in my eyes. It was like the lens in my eyes fell out of order or something. It is hard to describe. Does anyone know about this issue?

The pressure is there 24/7. I have been to a doctor and taken several tests, but apparently there is nothing wrong with me. When I stop meditating for some weeks the pressure slowly disappears so I am pretty sure it is linked to meditaton. I know that you get used to the way meditation affects your life. To me it is just that meditation stopped working like it used to one year ago. I struggle to sit 20-25 minutes a day. Before, I could sit for over an hour a day easily. Before I had no trouble doing school work. Today I barely do what is obligatory. It feels like I am walking backwards.

What kind of psychological reasons could it be? I am trying to accept it and I have gone 2-3 months thinking positively about it, but it still is/was there. I know that life have its ups and downs but with the pressure comes a kind of thought spin. It is like I cant observe my thoughts. It wasnt that I was happy all the time before, just that I could observe my negative and positive emotions. I did not fight the reality before, but now I am.

I know that it changes and I am watching it. But it has never stopped once the past year..

I am not freaked out by it, but it starts to frustrate me and it has lasted for a long time.

I read the different stages, but I cant find pressure in forehead. Where it says energy: high and energy: low, is that the energy you feel in your body? I just think it is weird that I have been on this stage for almost a year.

The title is maybe a bit misleading. It is just that meditation dosen't work like it does on 95% of people, and I dont know what to do about my blocked energy. It makes me very depressed.

Yeah, I know all about that and have done that with a therapist for over 6 months. To me it is more important to get my energy unblocked How do I read these maps? What are the meaning?

Yes. I want to find an experienced meditation or qi gong teacher to guide me. What is daniel ingram maps?