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The Russian economy is in the toilet. If the pressure is kept up and the Russian society collapses, Russia could fold their hand. And it´s also principle. If we let Russia have it their way, they will just keep on going. The same with China, if they see a weak US, they could invade Taiwan.

Yeah, I forgot to say that I was also was aware that I was perpetually creating existense. And if I remember correctly, I saw which chakra where it was starting. But it was really blurry. It was around 7 or 8 years ago. But after that day, I have never been afraid to die. I have tried 5-meo-dmt maybe 5 times. One time was close to breakthrough. But that was totally different. My body became light as a feather and extreme amounts of light energy was surging through my body. But as you say, 5-meo-dmt it a lot cleaner and not as much as a distant trip that is wavy.

I have for the most part taken LSD in regards to psychedelics. I have had ego death and no mind many times before where I have not been able to distinguish myself from my surroundings and seen the mechanical workings of my ego, time standing still, feeling totally alone in the universe etc. But one of the first trips I took, I had this crazy trip on an beach at an abandoned island with my ex girlfriend that was just on another lever. At one point I had no sense of self or being a human. I was just being. Existence was fully organic. Everything was alive. I "asked" or my counsiousness was focused on; how is it possible that anything exist at all? The "answer" I was shown. was a fractal. Its really hard to explain but it existense itself was glaringly obvious, I felt stupid for not have been able to notice it before. Existence can exist because of X and the meaning of existence is because Y, and there could not be any other way. It was like a waterproof mathematical equation with infinite underlines under the answer. There was more to it but I cant remember clearly. It was just a perpeptual loop that went to infinity and would never stop. I felt an extreme love and connection with everything. I was in awe. It was like finally coming home from forgetting what I was and that suffering will not be forever. It was like meeting a estranged omniloving parent that I have been separated from all of my life. It was like breaking out from being tortured in a jail. Not trying to be pretentious here, but its the only way to describe it. Is what I experienved god realization?

Trump administration is lost. Looking in the comment section on social media, a lot of Americans have this egocentric view thinking everybody around the world are dependent on the nation. If US withdraws from NATO, they need to close their military bases all around Europe and withdraw their troops. That is a big L.

Problem with access with guns is that it just escalates any situation to an extreme. Just look at Kyle Rittenhouse. Its laughable. Walking around with weapons is like holding a lighted match near a barrell of gun powder.

This is after cleaning it with a brush and soap. The black is non stick. I dont know, but I had a hard time getting stainless steel to work. But I am not a big fan of using to much fat in the pan.

Yeah. I know people are saying that you arent supposed to wash it, but I clean my pan after every use. This picture is from a pretty heavy wok which is scratched off.

I am using carbon steele pans. I have used cleared butter to "season" the pan. When I have used it over and over, the fat fuses with the steel so you get a black coating. My pans are almost as good as non stick. I have tried stainless steele, and they are a lot more sticky compared to carbon steele. What do you think about "seasoned" carbon steele pans? Are they toxic?

I did ketamine yesterday. I am really sensitive to energy. So I felt something was weird in the grounding under my feet. I went to the electric circuit breaker panel in my house pulling the electricty on and off, and when it when I turned it off I felt so much more relaxed. What do you guys think?

Hi. I am referring to this thread: I have felt off for a very long time. I thought my serotonin receptors was damaged. Or something fucked up had happened to my nerve system. I dont know. Something has been off. The psychedelic experience was huge turning point in my life. I have been in a search trying to fix this. I was borderline suicidal. This summer I have been doing thorough bloodwork at my doctors office. My prolactin levels have been elevated. I had a reference bloods done a couple of years ago which showed 140 on a scale where <400 is abnormal. I have several consecutive measurements now months a part in the 700-900 range. That explains a lot. I have felt like shit. No motivation, no energy, moody etc. Prolactin is the reverse of dopamine. If you have high prolactin, you conversely often have low dopamine. This explains why I have been so drawn to dopaminergic hedonism like junk food, nicotine etc. I started to use P-5-P (vitamin B6 phosfate), vitamin E and zink. I feel better each time that goes by. I am also getting my pituitary scanned. Does anybody have insight into this?

@Leo Gura I will try to get one. Will I feel it sober?

Haha I am not on any medication. I have cleaned up my diet, which didn´t help. But I can feel the difference with taking P-5-P Is this better than doing P5P? I am currently doing that while taking multivitamin which also contain B6

I had a fucked up experience doing 25I-NBOMe sold as LSD. It was a nightmare. I have gotten over it though. Haven't seen a lot of symptoms of brain damage, but I have lost a lot of appetite for food. I almost don't crave anything. I tried doing LSD past week, but it was a very mild trip compared to before. Something felt very off. Zero introspection or magic. Almost no visual stuff going on. I think I might have done some damage to my serotonin receptors. Does anybody know if I could do somthing to fix my problems? Is there any psychedelics I could use to stimulate or kick start my serotonin system? Is there some kind of supplements that helps with brain health and serotonin receptors? I am eating vitamin d, omega 3 oil, multivitamins and exercising 4-5 times a week. Also eating a healthy diet. It also seems like people who have been on SSRI´s experience problems with their serotonin systems. If they have been on it for some while, psychedelics dosent work on them anymore.

Hahaha. Communication skills is probably not your strongest side😅 Have anybody before told you that you are a bit arrogant and condescending? If you are trying to convince somebody, invalidating other their opinions and experiences is probably not the best way to go about it. So no people haven´t died of 25i overdose? Have you read any of the studies about 25i or are you just talking out of your ass? Seriously. Brain damage, cns damage, whatever. There is at least something. Read between the lines and dont be so litteral.

To be honest, it seems like you dont know what you are talking about. 25i-NBOME is highly neurotixic. I know it was some kind of NBOME because of the metallic taste. Look up studies of people getting problem with their CNS. Heartproblems, hypertension etc. When I talk about brain damage, I am not necessarily talking about brain tissue dying, but something in my brain have changed and become abnormal. When it goes for the chemical modelling of the brain, we don´t really know what is ACTUALLY going on with it. We have rough hypothetical models, but these are not precise. There is a gazillons of interactions in the brain we have zero knowledge about. Humans are not some constant variable either. Some people react differently than others to different drugs. I have taken a lot of drugs in my life, but I know something went south when I ingested this substance.

A little update: After reading online I ended up buying Lions Mane, NAC and Acetyl L Carnitine. This has really helped a lot. I have got a lot of the sensation in my stomach back. I also recognize I start to notice a lot of my creative thoughts have been coming back. I think that Lions mane is the most impactful nootropic in this regard. It is supposed to increase neural growth factor. I have also bought some Cerebrolysin. It will probably have a lot more effect with its brain-derived neurotrophic factor, glial cell line-derived neurotrophic factor, nerve growth factor, and ciliary neurotrophic factor. I am thinking a dosage of 10 ml 5 times a week with 2 days break for a month. Will report back with results!

Thanks <3

I just saw that he had like 4.9 rating with 100s of reviews, so didn't think about it. Of course now I feel stupid as fuck. Never going to do the same mistake again..

Hmm. To be honest, it's hard for me to assess your situation without knowing your whole history. But I think that depression often happens because a person have supressed a lot of emotions either through childhood or later in life making them emotionally numb. Processing and integrating these feelings could lift a depression.

That is the million dollar question. I have been reading on forums on people taking ssri´s. It seems that it does something to the receptors. My understanding is that we got a serotonin and dopamine emotional energy system. Dopamine is pleasure and drive (distinct energy) while the serotonin system is attachment and love (distinct energy). Women have higher estrogen which makes them get higher serotonin then men and vice versa. That is why they are more caring then men. I think that ssri´s could fuck up the serotoninerg part of the emotional energy system, making people emotionally numb. Its probably poison.. If you just google long term withdrawal symptoms ssri after quitting, there is a lot of anecdotes. We have actually very little clue about how the brain and nervous system precisely works. There is probably a LOT of interactions happening that we have noe clue about.. One anecdote was of a guy who used one form of ssri. It worked for a while, I think some years, until it stopped working. They ended up trying many different medications which didn't work. He became suicidal with Anhedonia.. His symptoms got ten times worse than before starting medication.

No, it was really stupid of me.. I really fucked up... I have had a really good experience with the dark net places upon that point. Buying good drugs for probably 10 years. But these days it just seems that the drug markets are flooded with fake drugs. Just look at all the fentanyl, fake benzes etc. Its really fucked up..

Ohh, that's cool. Maybe its some genetic thing, but some people have tripping destroyed for life after taking ssri´s.

No problem. The LSD was sourced at a dark net marketplace. I never thought about fake drugs, but It seems like its starting to become the norm, sadly...

Problem with NBOMe is that's a full agonist and have a high neurotoxicity. It literally felt like my brain was frying. It felt like I have ingested poison into my system. It just felt really wrong. If this was actually happening or something I was imagining, I don't know..

It was back in the start of January.