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Only an illusory self could be transcended, only an actual self could be actual. Don’t ask me though, because I’m the illusory one. Which there isn’t.

If the finite mind were a hand, and you were to look into the actual cause of the earthquake, and the cause of that, and of that and of that, eventually that hand would appear to come from the other direction and slap your face. Because of course, the hand is your face. The knower tries to understand and make sense of what the knower knows, because a knower can not know there is no knower. The Humpy Dumpty trap, trying to make a whole of pieces.

@Kalki Avatar Not that I disagree, I get ya, but I meant there isn’t even anyone ‘there’ ‘selling enlightenment’, let alone a ‘regretter regretting some thing’. A ‘regret’ is really inspiration ime, like an yet-unwrapped gift. Much like ‘the manipulator’ and ‘the liar’. Whereas desire and motive for a thing works, regret & no thing is inevitably consciously creating. The ‘new’ feeling meets the old thinking / lens. As if God’s love makes anything and everything God like. Go figure. Lol.

The checkmate of dumbery. @Godishere Infinite perspectives, as in an infinite number of or unlimited amount of perspectives… vs… infinite perspectives, like, lego houses - what “a thing” (“perspective”) is made of. And there is not, two. (Infinite and perspective…me and my perspective…me and infinite…me which gets realized…me which is imagining, etc)

40 days seems to be the ideal. From now till then I wouldn’t think of what you’ll do, I’d think of the retreat as the ending of the doer doing. Get all the doin in now, let it go altogether then. Empty out first few days. Ideally through an expressive creative medium you enjoy. Music, specifically singing is best ime. But whatever you love most is best. Then trip. Then do nothing. Be aware of thoughts arising, the old story. Don’t buy in, don’t resist. Be the awareness. Which is not a doing of course. Notice all doing is arising as thoughts. Stay ever curious of perception & feeling. ‘Do’ only and every thing you love. All things you enjoy. And be mindful of the fact it’s happening, but no one is doing it. I’d also have (only) two or three of these a day for three days prior to the retreat, to clean out and wake up the bodymind systems. No starving or hunger, just not too little, not too much. I‘d also suggest having that throughout the trip but contingent on how you feel after the three days of it. Been solo retreating in airbnb’s for years and love it. Camping was great but somewhat unpredictable & thus potentially arduous, especially tripping. Houses are ime not really that trip enhancing. So it narrowed down to log cabins and there are a ton out in the woods. Secluded, on the water, and nothing but wood & stone is the ideal trippery ime. It’s nature vibe wether you’re inside or out. No earthy materialism ‘stuff’ (such as in houses) to bring any thoughts to mind, and thus easier unwinding & untangling. As to when, ime a few days every month (or whatever is feasible) is best.

@Alfonsoo Go prior to what’s required for the the report, much, much deeper. When you mention nondual it’s intuitive. When you add ‘riddled’ it isn’t, it’s self defeating. Contemplate why people are talking about pro life and pro choice and never getting anywhere. Since when is that even a thing, as in a topic? How’d the first word of it arise? Why? As you contemplate, when some thoughts or perspectives feel off, probe deeply into feeling… what feels off and why exactly. Don’t settle for the debating.

They didn’t break any laws though. Brought this to mind. Formidable life purpose.

@Javfly33 I would call that true quality of life as well. I see who was in quotes. What’s a state? I have a wife, three kids, three businesses and am three months into creating a fourth (business lol). I have absolutely no control over anything. Indeed blissful. Wife used to get weirded out & a bit annoyed by me waking up in the morning while laughing. Now we both do. What’s survival?

Going Prior. It is easier to thread a camel through the eye of a needle, than for a beautiful woman to enter the kingdom.

@Strangeloop If there’s a chance you’ll harm yourself or someone else, seek help immediately. Choose non-doing over doing anything you might regret. Breathe & relax. Beliefs about yourself aren’t resonating. Has nothing to do with her or abundance. Abundance is the default, it’s what is. There’s nothing you can do to get what is. Let beliefs go and you end up there. Which is here, just, minus the beliefs. Next step with her is no step with her. Take some time to express and understand emotions. Untangle yourself, and when you love what you’ve got there so to speak, go share it with her. Amid so much complexity, distraction and never ending potential for confusion, see one thing clearly - you are only ‘dealing with’ your beliefs about yourself. No more, no less. Not saying it’s easy, but it is simple. A temptation of rebuttal to add complexity highlights the importance of daily morning meditation, or simply, slowing everything down. Godspeed. For a relative glimpse of how fast you been goin, watch a tree grow.

I could tell you what I mean and infinite wouldn’t know that either.

One possibility is that it is a belief which is un-digestible, and that belief might be that stomach sensation is not kundalini related. Could be a hamster wheel or loop, sort of bouncing back & fourth between the belief & the discomfort without realizing / exiting the loop. Go poop, essentially. Spiritually speaking. ?

War is actually peace.

@Godishere Perspective is a finite label, which infinite can not know. Likewise, my dream. Whenever it is said ‘from the absolute perspective’, or, ‘from God’s perspective’, you can therefore be absolutely sure it isn’t. From God’s perspective there are infinite perspectives.

Sure is.

Universe helps you let go of beliefs. Does not have to be difficult. Resistance is futile really, as it only perpetuates & procrastinates the letting go. Doesn’t matter if you think it, or someone else says it to you - doesn’t feel good cause it’s not true about you. The universe is learning things aren’t personal / remembering itself. It’s good. Two things you will never change in this place no matter what you do: everybody gets to say whatever the fuck they want, and nobody has to listen.

There is no reasoning behind it. If reasoning was applied one wouldn’t harm oneself.

@Zeroguy Nobody’s selling enlightenment with regrets.

Like remorse? You had an intention, an intuitive feeling… yet didn’t proceed, act or choose accordingly with that intention, and did something else? That happens, but there isn’t a you and a past it happened in, just this now, where you now know more what you want to do, be, have, experience. Not always having good intentions is part of the underlying inescapable betterment of well being. It’s all good, and can not nor should be any other way. It’s perfect. You’re alive, still going. Live. Has nothing to do with enlightenment.

? My mom thought for sure I’d be a lawyer too. But there’s a much bigger case to be made in this place. You bring me to tears my man. Thank you.

@Ontology Science is somebody’s idea. You want to know what you are and what reality is, without any doubt.

Yes it is.

There is no which one scenario. That’s the confusion. Realize what you’re realizing. Don’t settle. Eradicate doubt. Say it will be, and it will be. Stop believing in responsibility, such as a separate self and a thing it’s responsible for. Then response ability can not be missed, when confusing thoughts arise such as that.

Actuality vs an idea. Can’t find an idea. Can’t escape actuality. Purpose is Being framed as a thing somewhere another thing (you) could or might find. Doesn’t work that way. (Not two). Comes out of you, like every ‘thing’ else. Been comin outta you for a while now. But you lookin for that idea. Jack & the beanstalk situation. Things have purpose. Things are no thing… happiness. Doin everything you love, lookin for life’s purpose, can’t find that dream. Real head scratcher.

Nothing would be different.