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@MarkusSweden If you make distinctions in those, you perpetuate your own illusion. They are maya.

Another way to go about this is to become familiar with the exact opposite paradigm.

@molosku ?

@electroBeam They had less ego. Give that some thought.

@Revolutionary Think What is it you could use some inspiration for?

@PhilGR He’s lost. Fooled him self entirely. You were better off trusting your Self. Stop expecting him to understand you and your seeking, it’s a shitty trap. Just free yourself by loving him.

Not groundless, just all relative to the inescapable actuality of love. Stop confusing yourself. All there is, is You, and you are love. When you create a “reality” of finite things, then enter it, from within, what you really are, seems as if it’s nothing. Fucking hilarious. Contemplate how you’ve completely bullshitted yourself into believing you had some idea of what nothing is - though you have never experienced it directly. You just use the word nothing like it’s nothing. Step off the mind fuck ride for a minute, and see the common sense and hilarity at play. You’re really somethin man. Priceless. The last place we look, is of course, nowhere.

You don’t. But it can be awesome. You’re limited by how you’re looking at things, due to your frame of reference. Get some better things into your frame of reference. Or live in a cave. It doesn’t matter.

@blazed Who dis? ?

@Epiphany_Inspired You sound clearly overwhelmed (overthinking). The only thing that helps is to sit and breathe and relax. Do your best to eat clean and get enough sleep at night. In times like these, we can often have huge spiritual break throughs, but you have to be consistent with practices, and you have to CHOOSE to relax. No one’s ever going to swing by and relax you for you. It’s days exactly like this that can often give us the message just the way we need it, and the message is slow down, relax - you’re in an ocean of joy, no more overthinking, missing it. Get up 15 minutes earlier (or more) everyday, and just sit and let everything empty out. Crying is ideal; tension out, love in. Ya need some kind of release, maybe a few. Be mindful to keep moving from the head to the heart. If thinking comes up (court, uncertainty, etc), put your focus on the much big picture, the real reason, the source of all your strength - the love for your child - and know with every cell in your body that you are loved exactly like that. We indeed are all God’s children. Emotionally.... Is this is running through your mind all day everyday, without respit ? Do you meditate daily? I know it’s like a broken record, but it does help tremendously. We all have shit going on, or at least I know I do. Meditation just simply works. The important difference lies between having a ton going on, even things with emotional triggers .... and not being triggered by means of doing the practices. They work. Also, don’t forget for a second, who you’ve become for all you’ve been through. That’s very important - not losing yourself in that way. You’ve always ‘got it done’, what needed to be done. You’re resilient. You’ve been through these things before, hang in there, you’ll see, like before, the situation is not the catalyst of the stress, the over thinking is. The situation is going to work out fine, you’re going to be fine. Pragmatically...Sounds like there is a no contact order, but there is contact anyways....? Confused. Sounds like you’re “not preventing contact” but yet attempting to move away from the ex, preventing contact? Either I am misunderstanding, or there is cognitive dissonance, or two opposing views you’re holding about the situation. One way to frame up stress, is zooming in & zooming out. I’d say you are hyper zoomed in, as in, you’ve been mentally over focused on this for too many days in a row. Like looking at a situation through a microscope for days on end, without taking your eye off it to look around and see the much bigger picture. So, do some zooming out, do some ‘just for you’ things. If you can, get away for even one or two days - it’ll change everything as far as your outlook. If that’s not possible right now, be on purpose with taking some ‘me time’ through out the day. Do things simply to have some fun, to loosen up. Music is great for this, exercise, go to the park, watch a funny movie - don’t neglect the fun. Also, maybe it’s going to work out just fine no matter what happens. Have you thought of it that way? There’s probably a best case scenario in your head, and a worst case scenario. But however the details unfold, your child has your love, and you have your love, that much is certain, and that’s enough. Focus there. Let it be enough.

@Nadosa Well, the ego hates silence & practices, but that’s exactly how and why they work so well.

@RendHeaven omg I can’t stand it, it’s like not being able to take my eyes off a train wreck coming. Don’t you wish you were in the yard nextdoor so you could yell over the fence “it’s You”!!!

@dvdas Try 24/7 mindfully breathing from your stomach, the thoughts will subside. Also, maintain vigilance on meaninglessness. Notice when thought arises, it brings meaning with it, don’t fall for it, just return your focus to breathing from your stomach. Keep all the muscles around your stomach, and all the way around your lower back, relaxed. Notice them relax deeper and deeper.

@Gligorije What’s the brain made of?

@Timotheus One outta three of those are real. Hell is a great example of the importance of direct experience, and what a trickster maya is.

@Gligorije Deep sleep - no thinking.

@Gligorije Maybe start with your reasoning for how consciousness is a product of the brain. That way we can meet you where you’re at.

@nethernalbeing It seems your awareness has grown and encompasses meaninglessness, but if you continue, you’ll see it encompasses creation too. “Turning to a lifeless husk” - that’s meaning, let it go. You were perfectly made to be you, so be you.

@cle103 Absolutely brilliant insights, worded so clearly. Practices really ‘paying off’. Great stuff man, thank you for sharing.

But what is appearing as gravity? And what is the nature of gravity?

@Jack River I can relate. It’s worth it. @Faceless ??

Ya but what if you have free will and there is no point so you’re free to do whatever and you do what you really want to do? That could be True, just yet unrealized (given the question). What if there’s no “normally”? What if some people have free will, and some actually don’t? What if you think you do, but you actually don’t? How could there be nothing (nonexistence)? What or where would it even be? How could it not be relative to whatever it is next to? Why (not how) does meditation make you feel better? What you gettin in there? Have the epic adventure of looking into everything you see, think, & believe and root out everything that’s false, or, not your own direct experience, because it’s up to you what matters, and Nothing matters quite a lot. You actually get to pick.

@Voyager I get the impression you might not be aware you’re adding an unnecessary sense of urgency, critical importance, and universe sized pressure on yourself with your awakening. Like you’re building a house, with a mindset you’ll only be happy once it’s built, so there’s no enjoyment in the process of building the house. Once it’s build though, you’ll see there is no point but the enjoyment of whatever you’re doing, right now, wether that’s watching an ant, or solving world hunger. The mind creeps in assigning meaning to everything, and all that meaning is relative to the ego. This is the very nature of the awakening you’re pursuing. Every moment, everything actually is ok. You’ll study, you’ll do fine, etc. Also, back to back psychedelics the same day might be taking a toll on you - and you’ll go way deeper alone than with someone, even if they’re awesome to be with.

@Pouya By beating up on yourself, you’re doubling, tripling, what there is to be let go of. Becoming aware means becoming aware of everything, so it can certainly be rough to become aware of unwanted habits, how we’ve handled certain things, etc. But don’t bring identity into it. Don’t say “I am” and then anything bad. That’s a whole different level. Try to appreciate the miracle that you can even do the practices. It’s a beautiful thing, waking up. For many people, beginning the practices, it quickly becomes the best part of their day, and the rest of their day follows into that spaciousness, that unconditional space. Be very on purpose with letting any self judgmental perspective go, and you’ll expedite the whole process, simply by being present. What you’re realigning with is not judging at all. Let judgment go. Let meaning go too. It actually does not matter if you practice or not, if you awaken or not. Doesn’t actually matter. So take the path just for the experience of it. For the fun. For the adventure. Just for you. Also, you are right on, in realizing you can not believe what anyone says. Only direct experience is reliable. Maya is always as tricky and as clever as you are, until neither are.