Nahm

@Jack River I’d offer anything help wise absolutely, but I do believe there are other people on the forum who know better.

“Dreaming” does stop at a point. I suspect dreams are attempts of the brain’s self reconciliation.

@Jack River Hey, for what it’s worth, the “9 - 5” is really an old perspective / projection. If you dropped the identification with “not one for the 9 - 5” you might be pleasantly surprised there are lots of ways to financially support yourself otherwise, and lots of people available to help you.

@OneWithAll You are infinity?

Physical environment is a thought, that there is a separate you (we) “in” it, is a thought. Discovery of life purpose is wise, but wisdom is relativity, “within” The Self, immeasurably beyond these thoughts. The map is not the territory in either case, thought is a thought and only seems true because ‘you’ are so convincing. Thinking about what people think of you can be limiting. Our deepest fear comes to mind. The appearing paradox of fear / God & self is really worth contemplating. Hopefully this comment reaches you in love, and not fear. The intention is for your awakening - I am a fool and know absolutely nothing, and don’t think you should take psychedelics any time soon. Like @Serotoninluv...20 years of daily practices and still there was the belief in a physical me & reality, Zero truth. Thinking Chinese turned out to be a thought, a map. It’s shocking how sneaky the mind is, how convincing “physical” is. It would be next to impossible to open up emotionally and spend a half hour or so contemplating what he said in this thread, but just one opinion here, do whatever it takes to do so. Relativity, the younger the better. At the very least, contemplate that Nahm, Leo & Serotoninluv are all in agreement. Value that or don’t, again, the intention is opening the mind & awakening, not saying you need psychedelics. It might be hard to hear, but is worthwhile, that the answer to the question is that your answer is still no. Can you imagine knowing, and not having that question? @Serotoninluv The way you reference the unexplainables, the patience there, is sooo appreciated. Thanks. The Spanish / Chinese analogy is so simple and effective, it’s like it was right there all along! Nice!

@OneWithAll Inifnity is other-than-you?

@SQAAD ??

@corndjorn That’s interesting, thanks!

Keep calming the mind in meditation, and keep self inquiring, watch videos by a handful of teachers for different techniques, approaches, tips & perspectives. There is a sensible reason you can’t find certainty, and why people use the word ‘absolute’. Checking out some videos on qm’s & specifically superposition might connect some dots & aid in calming the mind too. When this arises just inquire, ‘what is aware of this?’, ‘what is aware of the science?’ ‘What is aware of these thoughts about science?’, and whatever answers arise, ask, ‘what is aware of that?’’ Also look to direct experience; There is awareness of thoughts, but notice you can’t think awareness. Notice that too is a concept. You don’t have to believe that one anymore than the others it references. Careful looking for magic. Ordinary reality as it is will blow your mind just fine. Take ownership of this. No one picks your perspective for you. No one ever did. There are as many positive examples in and of society. It might have to do with what you’re putting in front of you. The mind likes to condemn violence and play GTA 5 later that night. That kind of thing. Any time you notice you feel someone or something has “affected” you, turn the attention to inquiry into the aspect of you which is bothered. Ask, why does this bother me? Does it make sense for me to be bothered by simply observing? Am I doing that? Am I adding meaning which then makes it relative to “me”? It could turn out to be that conditioning is itself the worst possible scenario. (Speculating)...there might be some uncertainty from childhood, which was identified with and therefore not as easy to ‘see’ and let go of. Weird how what holds us back can be so difficult to release. Counter intuitive might be the way to go. Simply inquire again. It will be less needed, and quicker / more effective the more it’s done. Given the majority of people are held back back by unwillingness to experience all of their emotions, I hope you feel good about the work you’re doing. Keep at it, sounds like you’re doing great!

@Vaishnavi Doin the work. Nice. It’s the release of endorphins from the detox. Your inherent nature of healing and happiness. Your brain’s getting upgraded too. The parts of you that were rejected aren’t and you’re experiencing your wholeness. Keep rockin.

You need to express yourself, a lot. It might take a while, but it will work, you’ll begin to feel much better. Therapy? Your friend? Any form of art will do, poetry, drawing, singing, painting, etc. Doesn’t matter how “good” you are at it, the experience of expression, opening up a little, is what helps. You can pm me anytime, don’t hesitate. I was suicidal when I was around your age. I know it can seem like it can’t get better or things won’t change, but that’s just a perspective. You will change, situations will change, life will get easier. You don’t need any one to accept you. You can accept and love yourself. I have love for you, and I don’t even know you. I think you’ve been carrying a lot of mental weight, for a long time. You probably dont realize it, and feel lost because you don’t realize you are carrying the weight. It could also be the case that you live with or spend a lot of time around someone who is just negative and has a negative perspective, and that may have ‘rubbed off on you’ for so long, that you aren’t recognizing it. Again, I was ‘there’. I was diagnosed as manic depressive. But I found there is no depression, without thinking depressive thoughts, and holding depressing perspectives. You get used to them, and don’t realize your perspectives are depressing - you get used to it, and actually think your view is accurate, realistic. It’s not. The feeling of depression, is what you should take as the only sign you need to get clued in that the depressive perspectives are not true. The depression you feel is the product of two ‘things’: You (Truth / Love), and the perspectives you’re holding. The Truth / Love (you) is and will only ever be, The Truth / Love. So, you must listen to The Truth / Love (you) and begin to change perspectives. Stop being stubborn. Take great comfort in saying to yourself and out loud, “I don’t know”. Again, pm me anytime. You will feel better, I promise. Hang in there man.

You are. There’s no subject / object, no causation. To master emotion retrace every sensation to what you did, you are the catalyst, there is no assertion. Practice story telling. There is no face.

@AlphaAbundance You can not escape yourself.

@Mikael89 Never heard of him.

@Aakash You’re not in anything. You can’t get out of anything. There is no in or out. You contain everything, and everything is your illusion. The thoughts about a loop are illusory. The point you’re trying to get accross does not exist, and there is no one to get it accross to.

@Aakash That nothing is happening is your own illusion.

@Aakash There’s no mechanism.

@Aakash When you realize there is no you realizing, that is illusory also.

@Aakash Your direct experience serves to realize your direct experience is illusory. When you realize your direct experience is illusory, that realization is illusory.

@SoonHei The void is you, one, alone, no two, and what is said about it isn’t it.

@Aakash That you see what I mean, or are talking to anyone is your own illusion.

@AlphaAbundance You’re completely fooled and you think this is half assed?

@Aakash That that is where you’re at is illusory.

@Aakash Awareness is illusory. Absence of awareness is illusory.

It’s because you actually are the whole & complete One, so any experience must be an illusion, and must be of duality or twoness; night & day, alive & death, me & you, energetic & tired. Without the duality, there is no illusion. No duality = no experience.