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What are you doing daily? What are your disciplines & practices?

@pluto ?

@How to be wise You’re confused. Need to find the separation between Truth & Love.

Point to life.

Start meditating 30 minutes twice a day. Start utilizing every resource available to you. Choose to. Start writing about how you feel, express and understand your emotions. Stop repeating the same thought stories. Meditation will slow your thinking down, letting the emotions out will also. Listen to Abe Hicks like @isabel suggested. Overall, your psychology will change, and so will your life. Whatever you focus on, you get more of. What Do You Want?

Yep.

Yes. Start meditating 30 minutes twice a day. Start utilizing every resource available to you. Choose to. Start writing about how you feel, express and understand your emotions. Stop repeating the same thought stories. Meditation will slow your thinking down, letting the emotions out will also. Listen to Abe Hicks like @isabel suggested. Overall, your psychology will change, and so will your life. I don’t believe you have noticed yet that you’re blaming other people. This is causing you to compensate by thinking you should inflict pain on yourself. Love yourself. Understand yourself, understand other people. Understand why people do shitty things. This is not a Commiseration Forum. It’s a Self Help Forum. Choose to. Forgive yourself. Forgive them.

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@Jordan Welsh Awesome! So glad to hear you’re doing well.

@Yuliya_Lei No, it doesn’t. That’s what “victim mindset” is. You don’t have a calling to “deal with confrontation”. It’s not your problem. It’s theirs. You don’t need to say a word. Do what you want to. If you don’t, you’ll resent them and yourself for it, not to mention stifle your growth.

@abrakamowse ?? Hard to go wrong with The Buddha.

Misinterpretation of reality having identified with a body & thinking. Emotions ‘tell’ the Truth, 24/7. That’s their thing. That’s what they do. It’s what they are. Feel them without avoidance, and this is easy & clear, and there is no overthinking, no doubt. Get sucked into a thought story...a cognitive narrative...and the trouble begins. Doubt is weaved. Identification is strengthened. Protection is increased. Vulnerability is further suppressed. Thinking protects you. That’s it’s thing. That’s what it does. Not knowing you were misinterpreting reality, and protecting yourself in the most subtle & clever ways....you then misinterpret the emotional response as well. When done repeatedly / chronically....thinking protectively weaves a narrative which makes it make sense (in the short term). But this “short term” itself then must be repeated to maintain the protection. This is a very taxing, energy draining, creativity zapping lifestyle. Typically the narrative thinking employs is one of two patterns: Life sucks.......then thought content is identified with / believed, emotions (truth) is repressed & avoided. or I suck....then thought content is identified with / believed, emotions (truth) is repressed & avoided. Bottom line is, you can not know about yourself at the level of cognition. So if you doubt yourself (cognitive level), then you are wrong (because you are infinite potentiality, not a describable finite ‘thing’) You then choose to continue being “right”, or, to be vulnerable & relearn the miracle that is your emotional guidance system (God). The first part of “relearning” is purification. Love flushes all your BULLSHIT out. This is triggered by willingness. The second part is contextualization of reality with the emotions involved, respected, and trusted. This is triggered simply by living life. The third part is bliss.

It sounds like you have somehow managed to wrap your meditation practice around thoughts. As if they’re the theme, or star of the show, to be “controlled / observed”, or focused on. Consider thoughts are stars, and meditation helps you to realize you are the night. Be aware of breathing from your stomach. Thoughts arise and you notice your attention shifted from stomach breathing to thought story...just return your attention to breathing from your stomach. If you feel overwhelmed, stop, breathe, relax, and write about the sensations you’re feeling on paper. Do this very slowly. Aim to articulate more and more refined. You’ll discover the commonality of specific sensations, and links to your past will be revealed. Links as in, sensations + memories are a match to the sensation you’re currently experiencing in the meditation. As you read, understanding is present, and mis-contextualized emotional responses which were overrode are released. Sometimes allowing the repressed emotions to surface can be scary - because thinking kicks in with a thought story. Your practice of stomach breath focus comes in handy...as the aim is to let the emotions out, without getting sucked into a narrative via thinking. Meditation is breath, focus, purification. Thought has nothing to do with meditation. If you go to the doctor’s with a flu, you go to be without flu. You don’t go to focus on the flu.

@Soul-lover 2020 Both sides of a duality are fully realized & seen prior to transcendence of the duality. You might say that indeed, Mohamed is your savior. Btw, I say that as a crazy person who truly doesn’t know.

Funny how the difference between Gura & Guru - is a u.

@Shadowraix Ditto. ?

@Leo Gura ❤️

@Shadowraix ??❤️ thank you.

@mandyjw Things are never what they seem. The power of love is a curious thing. Hang in there. “Stronger & harder, than a bad girl’s dream”

@mandyjw And sorry for repeatedly kicking you in the feels this morning, but....has it occurred to you yet, that.... God needs you Mandy? He does. Absolutely he does. It’s hard to see sometimes, all innocent & unconditional like.

@mandyjw I think at some point you’re gonna need to meet God more directly. In the sense...home & working months on end....”I need a vacation!”. Long days of ‘do nothing’ vacation....”I can’t wait to get home!”. “Play” is the paradox. We want God to take care of us, then you meet, and you want to devour the biggest, meanest fear you can find....”Cut my fucking arm off, and you’ll see what I’m really made of” kinda Love.

@mandyjw I know. It’s not easy. Swing your pendulum more towards effortlessness. State with absolute conviction “it is easy”. Your connection is strong, you can afford that. The ‘tryer’ Is getting in the way. Try on the ease, the knowing, the inner peace you’re being given. It’s generous now, accept that gift. You’ll need it. And we both know you’d have it no other way. You are so you. I think you miss, and fear, that you are instrumental. That is noble. That is hard to come into, so to speak. It’s like your theme song is an instrumental one. There are no lyrics to guide you. You have to feel every step. You can’t think a good dance. Have to let go. ? Anger is all defensive, ‘protecting’ you from getting hurt. But God knows the vulnerable so well. Armor only procrastinates. And God has never not been taking care of you. You can be the sheep too, whenever you need it. The trick if you will, is being willing to be the sheep, and being true & honest - as to when you need it. Everyone you know is your Sheppard. Up to you to let them.

@mandyjw Noble is what is arising within you - the unification of self. Love is purifying you, cleaning you out. Intentions rooted in simple pleasures and “self” gratifications, in both false protective psychological fortifications & physically oriented temporary appeasements, are gonna go. Your call is to give yourself to the world. Your resistance is against the realization that this is literal & whole. The resistance feels like one big ‘thing’, but is actually constructed of many seemingly inconsequential repetitions. A puzzle that is solved by surrendering it, rather than relishing in being the ‘solver’. No one is coming, and no one will make changes to accommodate your changes. You change, they don’t - your change thrives on your acceptance that they don’t. Time is a means for you to experience this. Memory is so you know why. Your vision shows you ‘where your at’ on your path. You are Happiness, that will never change. The creation is resistance, that will certainly change. The clocks remind you now is the time.