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@zeroISinfinity Advice can only point, transmissions can only help bring things held closer to the surface of release, so to speak. Nobody, no thing, no practice or substance has a leg up on Mind. Mind always ‘wins’. ??? @allislove Yes I think that would be ideal too. However, minutia here, but the ‘in & out’ so to speak of meo is so quick...I figured someone might have a little more time to ‘have a look around’ with the psilocybin vapor. Ultimately, I’m guesworking on this here. Tryin to help. Seems to be different for each one, given wherever one is at. Direct experience, yada yada.

It’s arguably the opposite. The more one doesn’t feel good and is experiencing “anxiousness” and “tension”...the more ready the body is to let go and release. That’s precisely what is being felt / experienced. Every one acknowledges beliefs when every one does though, and I do imagine adopting beliefs about oneself which do not feel good at younger and younger ages makes the clarity more difficult. All of it. Those go hand in hand. There’s no body, just love and conditions / beliefs held to the contrary, but I digress. It will help tremendously...when you approach that point of seeing through the beliefs and releasing - don’t quit and blame her! Lol. Keep going! I know right?! What’s with this guy and his four years?! You got this. You’re ‘doing the work’ already. Let go, let go, let go! Much love for ya man, always rooting in your corner.

@kagaria Still much appreciated ?? I’m pretty sure I’ve posted some songs three or fours times. Lol. Loving discovering so many new songs about ourself, and all the sharing everybody, thank you!!

@zeroISinfinity Bring it on. ???

My wife disagrees, but suit yourself. If you’re single that’s quite a wise production release. That is mastering relativity indeed. A month ago, had you even said six months, I’d have taken you up on a bet of any amount.

I’m assuming by hand of God you’re making a proper reference to one of Leo’s older videos. Well done sir. I agree, except that the development is apparent and is a want, rather than actual and a need.

@zeroISinfinity Indeed. Soooo without limit, it’s Actually yours. (I went capitol A on that for you.)

Fleeting-ness appears as long-lasting-ness. That is one thing you could never be sure of.

@meow_meow “Bamboozled” lol. Fits so well. ??

Arguably, the role they play is that of removing the ability or doing-ness of holding those beliefs (that you are flawed, irresponsible, immature, arrogant, self obsessed). Those might be accurate depictions of your perspectives, and even behaviors & actions, but perhaps the reason psych’s work well for you is because you’re unable to hold those beliefs while on them...thus realizing those are just beliefs, perspectives, behaviors and actions....that none of that is true about you. You, are fucking awesome. Any belief contrary to your actual fucking-awesomeness is self created & perpetuated, and an unnecessary hurdle (but I love ya & I digress). So, just a thought that came to mind...LSD is a bit of a long hall trip. Not saying I’m for or against it, but you might be ‘swinging’ from holding those beliefs about yourself, to more of a full blown trip & being without those beliefs, then as the trip fades, not noticing with as much nuance as you’d like how those beliefs reconstruct, or, are picked up / recreated again. The thought that came to mind...you might use dreamboard & loa, and or ‘put your feelers out’ on psilocybin (mushrooms) in vapor form. Compared to an ingestion which is quite deep and an hours long endeavor, the vapor is completely controllable in terms of incrementally dosing, and it’s effects are instant, and fade in less than an hour...maybe twenty minutes. It came to mind because that might be highly effective for you in being able to ‘see more’, in terms of clarity around the picking up and putting down of those beliefs / thought patterns. Might see right through them, and realize the how’s, why’s and when’s of where they came from, or, where they were initially ‘picked up’ to begin with. Just thought I’d share that, use it if it’s useful. Godspeed and much love ??. (Disclaimer for clarity...I’m not at all suggesting this instead of therapy, and I have no sourcing info.)

@Adamq8 @allislove ? ?

If you are pure void imagining up reality...you were imagining there was a you which was falling asleep, a you which the experience or knowing ‘hit’. That “nowhere” in this case would be you.

Well said! What do you think of Wavydude’s description? If one was to reframe perspective from exclusion, to abundance, what would that look like? Basically, what would be the opposite of those? How would one get there?

@kireet Awesome. ??

@wavydude That is an excellent & clear way to frame it up imo. How to ‘untrap’ then, right? Thoughts?

Awareness is aware of awareness. The observed is awareness. The observer is awareness. So there is no observer or observed. Just awareness aware of awareness. If you find something other than awareness, notice awareness of “it”. Then scrutinize how the two are separated (Awareness, and the thing awareness is aware of). Any ample inspection reveals there is no separation, just the thought that there was. Deep sleep is such a thought. Be sure to also ‘throw out’ all words and meanings, like “awareness”, “consciousness”, “nothing”, etc, as they were just pointing.

@Zak What would healed look like? What comes to mind from that question?

@allislove ??

@kireet Be ‘where you’re at’, and let all the judgment go. Especially the judging of yourself. You meditated for a year and that calmed the mind. That’s perfect, you’re perfectly, naturally, organically, ‘on track’. Refrain from judging yourself so readily, as if you’re missing something, as if the actuality where something to get to. Actuality is here now, and is ‘unwrapped’, not somewhere or something to get to. When you do that, you’re going away from actuality, into abstract thought about some other scenario which doesn’t exist, and subtly, sneakily, comparing ‘where you are’ to ‘where you should be’. You are where you are, which is the only actuality of ‘where you are’. Don’t believe the comparison, and more so, notice intently the feeling of that comparison, and the resulting feeling when you think ‘I’m not there’ / ‘where I should or could be’ in realization. Let all of that go, and ‘point’ attention / focus back inwardly so to speak, back to you, back to what is knowing the direct experience of right here, right now. Hold your hand in front of you and notice there is perception (seeing), and the feeling, or sensation ‘inside’ the hand, and notice “hand” is a thought, a label you learned. Take a minute to dial into, or focus intently yet effortlessly on each of those: the thought “hand”, seeing, and sensation. Then hold your hand behind your head, and notice the thought “hand” is just the thought. Notice there is no perception (no seeing a ‘hand’). Notice there is still the sensation. Then move your hand back ‘in front of you’...and notice the experience is only: the thought “hand”, the sensation (that there is feeling), and perception (that there is seeing). Repeat all that, but this time notice in perception, in seeing...there certainly appears to be definable specific ‘edges’ of your hand. Visually, it is crystal clear where your hand is, and where it ends and the air is. Then hold your hand behind your head again, label it garfenkus (instead of the label you know, ‘hand’)...and notice / focus on only the sensation of ‘the hand’...notice, in feeling, there are no discernible ‘edges’. Notice the edge-less ‘fuzziness’ of sensation / feeling. Now close your eyes and relax a bit, and notice the entire body is filled with sensation, or, that there is feeling. With your eyes closed, focus on feeling the entire body, and notice, there are no discernible ‘edges’ of feeling. Now notice “body” is a thought, a label you learned, and that is all it is. Now take a good 360 degree look around. Notice how many labels are being believed for all the “things” you’re seeing. But notice, there is no separation between what is seen, the seeing, and the knowing of the seeing. Notice the thoughts arising as labels, and the knowing of the thoughts and the seeing, are not separate from ‘eachother’. Really scrutinize to find the separation between ‘objects’, the seeing of, and the knowing of the seeing. The more you scrutinize to find the separation between ‘objects’, seeing, and knowing...the more clear it is that no separation can actually be found. Notice each time it seems a separation is found...that was only a thought, which was being believed. Notice the “trick” is you convincing you that there are “separations”, only by believing the thoughts, that there are. Notice you’re using thought, perception, and sensation, to “trick” yourself...to convince yourself of this...when the actuality is that experience is one invisible whole. Now notice, whoever or whatever ‘you’ are, you are that one indivisible whole. ‘You’ are not separate, and no ‘thing’ is actually separate from ‘you’. Do that: ‘objects’, seeing, knowing collapse anywhere, anytime throughout the days. As you do, you’re going to experience feelings about this. As you do, over and over...dial into, or focus intently yet relaxed upon feeling. Frame this exercise up as the “point” is to stir up that response of feeling, and focus on that, letting go of attachment to seeing and thinking. You might also contemplate that you were not made. Notice, people have sex, and that could be planned. You could write a whole outline of how it is to go, what’ll transpire, who’ll do what, etc. But...nobody can make any actual plan whatsoever of more literally, how to create you. As people we can claim to do the sex, and we can plan to have babies...but not the actual creating, of another person. It’s a total cover up, a mirage. Then try to think of one single example of anything whatsoever - which isn’t actually just a state of change. If you leave an apple in the sun, vs in the refrigerator...it’s very easy to notice the variance in change. In sunlight, an apple is going to decompose faster than in the fridge, but the apple in the fridge decomposes, changes, too. Carry that out to rocks & boulders. The state of change of rocks is slower, but over enough time they ‘melt’, change, or decompose, too. Begin to notice there is no “thing” which isn’t actually changing. That there are “separate things” is illusory, do to the slow rate of change, and relativity to your seeing and experiencing of all the “things”. Notice again, experience is one whole, of apparent changing-ness. Body wise, you too are an apparent changing-ness. “Cells” dying, cells dividing, etc. Always and only changing. Notice the profundity of that it doesn’t seem like it. Notice how perfect that is. Totally seems like there are solid, separate, individual, “things”. But there isn’t. You’ve just been believing there is. Now contemplate, ‘you’, or rather, the body you previously believed was a “separate thing”...is sized ever so perfectly in the middle between an atom, and the earth. What are the odds of this? If there were billions of years of random evolution, and an eternity of who knows what prior to the “Big Bang”...what are the odds that all of that led to you just happening to be you, right now? Then notice, “odds”, is only a thought. There’s no “odds”, that is only a thought. Then contemplate that you, “physically” speaking, as a “body”...are actually an apparent changingness. Now let all that go and recall that you have ‘something’ in experience which is unique and is not experienced anywhere ‘outside of you’, ever, and that is your sense of humor. Now consider how ridiculously funny it is that the cover up, the means of you convincing yourself you exist as a separate body or person, that there is a universe and physical reality...is the Big Bang. Notice, this is really just a reference to something “your parents” did. Notice they too, are changingness. They are only, apparent. Keep this in mind anytime you notice any uncertainty or fear in life. Collapse the objects, seeing & knowing, leaving only the knowingness...and have a hearty laugh at “fearing” what is only changingness, inseparable of, you.

@justfortoday Beautiful. ??

@Heaven We love you! Heaven’s kinda easy to love, but still.

I’ll post a video about it in a few days.

@Amit ??? Touche’! How many egos you figure there are? ?

@Galyna ?? Appreciated, honestly though, all credit goes to mahāsamādhi. @Amit LOL! So true.