Nahm

@Elisabeth Just one person’s opinion, don’t give it any weight beyond that, but just weighing in as someone who has experienced jobs, a ‘career’, and self employment too...the most fulfilling of all experience - in my experience and opinion - is family.

@Someone here Freakin love ya and I hear you. All I can say it live & let live. Let everyone else ride their ride, and, if interested, plunge deeper and deeper into yourself & far less what anyone else says. You essentially have to pick your intention...is it debunking someone, or realizing the answer to your inquiry for yourself, even if every person on earth says you’re wrong and an arrogant prick. Lol. ‘Who’ cares. Love will indeed wash it all out in any & every case. You might consider (not trying to stir a pot lol) in the physical regard, it’s not (presently) possible for you to ‘quantum entangle’ from point a to point b 100 miles away. Yet, in regard to metaphysical realizations, it is possible (with psychedelics) to be at point a and be at point b, but not experienced the 100 miles that were in between. This is nothing personal, on anyone’s behalf. Just some guy’s two cents.

@Someone here I think this is a particularly beautiful thread, and it has aided in sort of ‘kicking up’ some surface level ‘feeling baggage’ (in general, not specific to you), and in a way that’s really what it’s all about. It might be ‘written off’, dismissed, idk & I love you and also idc to ‘be understood’ lol...but I will said it again, these couple marbles clankin in our brains are not intelligence. Feeling is ever present infinitude, intelligence, so to speak. Some sit with projection, frustration, claim after claim, non-claim after non-claim, parrot after parrot, while intuition is saying no & a mouth and ‘mind’ is saying yes and projecting... and some sit with siddhis and just look. Notice, likely even now this arises, and if one is willing to let go of all ‘layers’, much is seen. Personally speaking, mad props to you for pushing the inquiry limits like ya do as of late. It’s a new place in that way forum wise and I am really enjoying it. Hope ya have the best day ever brother!

You’re not ‘having a realization again & again’. Gotta swap that lens / distinction. That particular perspective isn’t resonating with you. A thought which doesn’t resonate is not a ‘realization’. Realize points more like ‘actualize’. Realize your dream for this life, allow it to be actualized. We can not hold in mind what doesn’t feel good, while legitimately expecting...to feel good, and ‘full’ of our being. Make a dreamboard. Soon it’ll be filled with lots of what you love, and it will be realized the feeling of desire is not per se for ‘things’, but for the thrill, the ‘aliveness’ of now. More pragmatically speaking, the entirety of your life experience, in using the dreamboard, will paint itself a picture of a most fulfilling & most ideal specifically for you vision going forward. Thinking about ‘doing’ that is not the direct experience of it. Gotta do it and see. Money is made up, by us. We are Happiness. When that perspective arises...try out other perspectives. Feel them, and feel your way in the reaching for a more resonating better feeling perspective. See perspectives are like shoes, but feeling never comes, and never goes. Live & abide accordingly.

@Someone here I love you too, and nobody’s ‘woke’ here, and I respect you too! Lol. To whatever extent you can or want to, and anyone else interested, let that projective perspective ‘Nahm’s frustrated / cold’ ‘Nahm’s thinks this or that’ go and notice only what is being said. This is literally ‘you’, saying something (refer back to Mr Snuff comment) that ‘you’ could not possibly have come up with, and that is the only point being demonstrated. I am with you on what you are saying (op). You’re right & I’m saying ‘here’s a literal example’. ? Watch that ‘just dismiss the entity’ trap. Likewise, I am not a mod. Also...communicating in love isn’t quite the same as flirting. @electroBeam Oh I know. Lol. I’m dying over here. Also just housekeeping. Some people take a certain mix of crazy & funny yet existentially sound...as personal.

What appears as light need not travel it. Just sayin.

@28 cm unbuffed Well, sense is all there is ultimately, so, yeah.

@electroBeam All right all right. Let’s play nice. Two wrong’s don’t make a right.

? Just because you haven’t yet realized what is being said, doesn’t mean there is a miscommunication or frustration ‘somewhere else’. @Someone here explained it pretty well. Not sure if he realizes what ‘I’m’ ‘showing’ ‘him’ yet either. Love ya both. Enlighten up! Lol. Stop thinking and look at what is obvious. Simple.

It is me, by loving you.

So hasty! Right. That is the point of the absurdity of the comment. It is obviously entirely outside of your psyche, frame of reference, subconscious, whatever. (Your op)

@seeking_brilliance

Oh heck no. I tried that already & failed. Rules are all yours.

? Me too. Not for fasting per se. I think my overall food theme is nutrient dense & lower calories now that I think about it. Juicing is a neat way to make some delicious new flavors every time, while getting the ‘turmerics’ etc in there.

You are you wherever you are. Why can’t you be your blissful self in school? Who’s stopping you? Obviously you’re going to do what you’re going to do, and I’m not attempting to change your mind at all. I do think your inquiry however is kind of an impossible ask. In a way, you’re asking how do I give up a diploma, a residence / address, and make money - living in a van. Relative to income, van life is more challenging generally speaking. If you’re going to remain in Sweden anyways...why not have a diploma and an address to put on applications? Odds are you have like, eighty years, to go. Graduating high school seems kind of fundamental, and voluntarily choosing homelessness / van life seems, odd. I’m in the US though, and there is surely bias at my end. In the Us homeless unfortunately tends to equate to some pretty horrific situations of desperation for money. For all I know though, in Sweden it’s a joy ride.

@SirVladimir The ‘loophole shake’ was basically kept nice & simple to make it easy, both for me and in recommending it. The only adjustments I tried was lots of peanut butter in the beginning, and none after a while. Occasionally two bananas to make it really creamy. Of course, there are countless protein shake recipes. Sometimes I make a berry oriented concoction with vanilla powder, org vanilla almond milk, blueberries, strawberries, etc, but I always end up back with chocolate. Have you tried juicing? I found I had to keep an eye on the sugar levels, but otherwise whipped up some pretty delicious potions. This particular website proved to be a staple, as you can check the boxes of what you have on hand, and it then shows all juicer recipes you can make. Pretty neat.

@SirVladimir ????

@zeroISinfinity One of the beauty’s of the dreamboard situation is ‘what to do’ is already answered, already there on the board in terms of things you can do & focus on that you enjoy, and on the other side of the coin, the purification is therefore already unfolding, Big Love is already cleaning out the house (yeah bamboozled sorry, got me too, whatchgonnado). You don’t have to ‘do’anything sans maybe let the habit of doing something about it go. You just chill, and re-chill, again & again, breathe from the stomach and feel it, and let Big Love clean you out by fillin ya up. Non-doing in that regard...non-thought-narrativing, non-avoidance, non-blaming, non-roping someone else into it, non-kicking-dog, etc, is enough. Just ‘staying out of the way’. Also, I know you know we know yada yada so I’ll say it this way.... Big Love is the creator. You are the creator. You can be on purpose, you can expedite and ‘meet in the middle’, by creating purposefully. Turn pain into beauty. Doesn’t have to be some Momo Kapor level. Simple sketching, writing a short story, planting flowers in a vase for ya lady, etc, anything creative will do. This is closing any gap (not to imply you are not 100% legitimately fully completely “enlightened”) of creator-creation, and This is always non-past, non-future, non-self, non-other, so yeah, some emptying may indeed occur. In hindsight, it’ll just be all the baggage you were done carrying anyways. One notion from di that I think is helpful to hear...whereas before I’d create an emotion in discord not realizing I did and it’d last for days....then eventually it was just hours...then I saw how I was creating ‘them’, and didn’t anymore. Sending you the ‘vibes’ best man. You got this. (By that I mean keep giving it away). Shload of love to you ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️? Also came to mind...writing some, any, agenda the day before is a game changer. That way when you wake up during the purification period days (also good for regular old days), there’s no call to thinking. Creation at the ‘us’ point begins at the supposition, so even just one single good feeling relaxation oriented thought can change the course and tone of the whole day.

@en-el hak Not sure if that is meant in a mocking humor. Pretty funny if so. ...but I think it had the word food in the title. I googled and couldn’t quite find it, but one came up called “Slaughterhouse” which is on YouTube. From the thumbnail, that one probably packs a bigger punch anyways.

@SpaceLaika01 I’m at like 99% vegan. Still working out that once or twice a year occasion something has meat in it and I just go with the flow at a Holiday thingy or whatever and just eat what mom or mom in law made. But you’re right, at least in my regard, when I do it feels like I ate toxic sludge for the rest of the day compared to what I normally eat. Which led me to mention...I ate meat like a sleeping king for decades until I saw a documentary where they showed the inside of the meat processing facilities. Wish I could remember which movie it was. I was fortunate that the timing was right in the sense, it hit really hard at a time I was ready for change anyways. But that alone didn’t inspire the change. It was googling, and discovering the countless benefits of physiological & psychological well being, not to mention collectively speaking health premiums, resources over allocated to treatment programs and hospitals, losing people prematurely (relative to more agreeable diets) etc, etc. Anyways not trying to grand stand, just wanted to say that I think you get more bee’s with honey, and sharing information in the ‘what’s in it for you & our well being’ approach. Not to imply any judgement, I really don’t care what people eat, but from direct experience, and I bet you can relate...if you’re interested in helping others make that change, you have to recognize you’re addressing people who are very easily triggered about this subject already. Especially in this covid present situation, it’s like a trigger pressure cooker. Maybe you’re ‘going for’ an aggressive approach and some shock-wake-up responses, idk. More power to ya either way and Godspeed. If anyone is interested, this was an easy game changer for me. Maybe give it a try, love to hear back if so.

@afy355 Sounds like you have a good view introspectively, and it’s growing by the minute. I did want to mention, psych’s can go either way. Sometimes they ‘show you’ exactly what the root or core is. I may have been overly cautious. Also may have helped ‘center the pendulum’ so to speak. Only you can know, and I wish ya infinite clarity unfolding. I know what helped me release a ton of childhood baggage was writing songs. Not even songs anyone really will hear, just the process of it. I’d basically write one or two with someone & our relationship in mind. Utilize the many talents and outlets you mentioned of course, just wanted to mention that because there something to vibrationally connecting between source & music. Might just be me. Now I’m just beating a dead horse, and sorry...this is why the focus is always on direct experience. Can’t know what something tastes like without eating it. Give it a taste. 5 minutes each morning, increase as you go. There are really no words for how profoundly life changing meditation can be. Totally understandable that prior to the direct experience of a few weeks and months, it would seem like it couldn’t possibly have significant effect because you’re just ‘sitting there doing nothing’. But in a way, No Thing is what’s needed when ‘things’ are a bit ‘numb’. Worth noticing imo, all feeling arises within you. It doesn’t come from anywhere else. Some of the greatest artists, song writers, movie producers, novelists, etc, swear by daily morning meditation. Now it seems like I’m selling meditation lol, but it’s even beyond right ways and wrong ways. Imagine a different world where people have cold, sore feet, because shoes haven’t been invented yet, and you invent them. In hindsight, it would seem incredibly obvious. Meditation is like that. It is what is present, but always remains unseen & unheard. Once ‘tapped into’, it is very difficult to imagine how it was ever missed. God bless and be sure to notice, this is already you ‘doing the work’. This is already ‘having a look at it’, this post. ??

@peachboy

@abrakamowse Sweet. Thanks for the nudge.

@seeking_brilliance So weird! I swear I was having the same dream! Crazy.