Nahm

Give The Six Pillars of Self Esteem a read, I think you’ll be glad you did. In truth one never feels the being called stupid, only the resonance of agreement (or not). When not, it’s readily seen as name calling; discord which belongs to the caller, never the called. Daily morning meditation to get some space around the thought attachment. Spiral Dynamics to understand the transcend-able ‘blue’ of ‘other than yourself’ authority.

If you consider what you’re thinking about (reality)… the very word definitively states… Definition of reality: 1: the quality or state of being real (1): a real event, entity, or state of affairs (2): the totality of real things and events (3): something that is neither derivative nor dependent but exists necessarily When you think about parallel realities, that which is real is the thoughts, not what the thoughts are about (there being parallel realities). ‘Reality’ is synonymous with ‘totality’ (not separations or separate things). Clearly you don’t like how these particular thoughts feel, and something within you (intuition & feeling) ‘says’ something is indeed ‘off’ about these thoughts. You’re attributing this ‘off-ness’ feeling to the possibility the thoughts are creating or could create or effect a “secondary reality”. To do so is to suppress the guidance within you, feeling. The thoughts feel off because: 1). Feeling & intuition (which tell you these thoughts are neither true nor accurate) are not other than the very reality you’re thinking about. Instead of ignoring reality (feeling & intuition) and believing the thoughts, let the thoughts go by discovering & listening to… intuition & feeling. Allow Source (reality) into your life (intuition & feeling, guidance). 2). The thoughts are creating your experience of this reality. By focusing on these thoughts, you’re creating the emotion of worry. Anyone who focused on those thoughts would create, feel & experience the exact same emotion of worry. Emotion guides us all the same, and the variable is wether one listens to intuition & feeling, or suppresses intuition & feeling. 3). Reality is another word for you. When you focus on “separate realities”, as the totality (though you haven’t realized this fully yet), as you are not separate of reality, you - reality - nonetheless feel the ‘off-ness’ of these thoughts about yourself. You are not “two”, “divided”, or “separate”, and feeling tells you so. Logically, clearly, there are not “two of you”, and clearly you have never actually experienced “two realities”, or “being two you’s”. If anyone ever tells you they do experience “two realities”, or that there are “two realities”,, simply ask them to show you these “two realities”. Further, you say you’ve had this for ‘quite some time’, ‘since you were a kid’. What can be readily noticed in this regard is that you’ve never experienced “a past”, only thoughts believed about there being “a past”. When you experience these thoughts, they are experienced now, and only ever now. You can notice rather easily that when you experience memories, these are also thoughts which are only ever experienced now. When you believe the thought that there is a past and this has been going on “for a long time”, that also feels off, because in truth, it hasn’t. Thoughts only ever arise now, and are therefore only ever experienced, now. Focus is now, and only ever now. What you are experiencing, is what you are focusing on - now. There is never an exception to this, because you are the creator creating creation - now. If you desire to create other than worry, it is effortless to focus instead on what you want… which feels good to you… because it is - what you want. Making a dreamboard makes this incredibly easy. Instead of trying to resolve this past, aka ‘your story’, notice there isn’t a past right now. That - ‘your story’ - is experienced only if & when you retell it. So essentially, you’re focusing on thoughts about yourself (reality) which aren’t true, and that is why it feels so off. You might consider, if this story doesn’t feel good to you, it also doesn’t feel good to anyone else, so, why keep repeating it? When you shift from thinking about yourself (reality) to what you want to create & experience, that feels very ‘on’, because that is what you came here to do. To experience, intrinsically & effortlessly develop preferences of what you desire, and to focus on that which you want to experience, and to experience it ‘in the flesh’. Tell, and retell, that story. Notice in the simplest sense that you will experience that story. Notice you are the very minute you do focus on what feels good to you…you feel…good. The evidence of this is that it is already the case in your direct experience. You are experiencing the story you are telling; the worry, the therapy, etc. That’s not what you want - and there is (something else) that which you want. (Not to imply at all that you should stop therapy… but to realize what yo do want. Therapy will most likely help in this shifting of focus and understanding why you were repeating the unwanted story). If you experience emotional resistance to focusing on what you do want, there might be a habit of old, a reoccurring belief, that you must first resolve or figure out this ‘problem’ before you can move on to focusing on what you do want - what feels good to you. Resistance to focusing on what feels good to you, often denotes ‘deeper’ beliefs of lack, shortage, not-good-enough-ness, or something-is-wrong-with-me-ness. This experience is also referred to as believing thoughts about lacking self worth, or self esteem. In the approach of ‘seeing for yourself what is true and actual’ - focusing on what feels good to you - what you do want - you will find that indeed, as unbelievable as many claim it to be (because they don’t check & see for themselves, vs just telling the same not-good-feeling-story), reality becomes it. Then, it is realized via your own direct experience, that the term ‘self esteem’ denotes our infinite self is very much like steam, in that it arises intrinsically of it’s own accord as, reality. That is - there is no effort or motivation required to feel good. As Esther Hicks says, this goodness, this creating of reality is unfortunately often like a cork held under water. Divinely, thankfully, wonderfully - do not need to ‘lift the cork’ - you only need to stop holding it down / under water (no longer focus on what you don’t want). Focusing on what you do want is ‘taking your hand off the cork’. When you do, reality, infinite intelligence, intuition, feeling - literally becomes what you are focused on, effortlessly. This is precisely why some people experience a life of fullness, enjoying what they desire to have, do, be and create… while others do not… and no measurements can explain this, such as comparing where someone comes from, what their iq is, what kind of family they have, how much money, education, etc, they do or don’t have, etc, etc, etc. It feels good to ‘pop these bubbles’ of beliefs… because the very reality thoughts & beliefs are made of is goodness. Goodness which is not, other than you.

@Julian gabriel Yes, me too. I thought of spirituality basically like SD green ish, but also kinda thought it was dumb from my atheistic pov. I thought Richard Dawkins had a ‘right view’, and Einstein was a scientist talking about physicality. This was after years of studying regions, the teachings of the Buddha, and quantum mechanics. ??‍♂️

“What is the difference between being the bigger person…. The recognition you’re experiencing the adjacency of your own thoughts with feeling…. and being a door mat?” And the belief you’re feeling theirs.

What else has the property of being aware? The tree? The bird? Nahm? The sky? Of course not! Only awareness is aware!

Body is not separate. Consciousness is not separate. The thought ‘reach such states’ upholds the falsity of a ‘separate self’, we might say, ‘the reacher’. Fear, separation, anxiety, death, worrying for your family, potentially leaving the body, oblivion, figment of imagination, of consciousness…. These are all narratives of thought employed just to uphold that one belief.

The thought feels terrible. Not you.

@Zigzag Idiot Sounds similar, but my connotation of ‘sensational guidance’ is really more along the lines of discovering what I’d called ‘feelings’ or ‘my feelings’ had been infinite intelligence all along. That-there-is-sensation is always ‘guiding us’ via how our thoughts, perspectives, ideas, etc, feel.

@Thought Art

You’re more powerful than you think… you imagine, and it is so.

The characters in a movie are convincingly concerned, but the screen just be’s the movie and “characters” of no concern.

@EmptyVase Yeeeep.

@roopepa Likewise, thank you.

"The Heart Of The Matter" I got The Call today, I didn't wanna hear, but I knew that It would come. An old True Friend of Ours was talkin' on the phone - said you found some ‘One’. And I thought of all the bad luck, and the struggles We went through - how I lost me, and you lost you. What are all these voices, outside love's open door - which make us throw off our contentment, and beg for something more!? I'm learning to live without ‘you’ now, but I miss you sometimes. The more I know, the less I understand, all the ‘things’ I thought ‘I’ knew - I'm learning again. I've been trying to get down to the Heart of the Matter, but my will gets weak, and my thoughts seem to scatter, but I think it's about - forgiveness. Forgiveness. Even if, even if - ‘you’ don't love ‘me’ anymore. These times are so uncertain, there's a yearning undefined, and people filled with rage. We all need a little tenderness, how can love survive, in such a graceless age? The trust & self-assurance that leads to happiness, they're the very things we kill, I guess. Pride & competition cannot fill these empty arms! And ‘the work’ I put between Us, You know it doesn't keep me warm. There are people in your life who've come and gone, they let you down, you know they hurt your pride. You better put it all behind you, cause life goes on. You keep carrying that anger, it'll eat you up inside. I've been trying to get down to the Heart of the Matter, but my will gets weak, and my thoughts seem to scatter - but I think it's about forgiveness. Forgiveness. Even if, even if ‘you’ don't love ‘me’, anymore. I've been trying to get down to the Heart of the Matter, because the flesh will get weak, and the ashes will scatter - so I'm thinking about forgiveness. Forgiveness. Even if, even if - ‘you’ don't love ‘me’ anymore.

@PhilGR Colloquially speaking, yes… but scrutinizing the ‘inner world’ a bit more, no. That ‘this is achieved’ implies this is not already the case, the actuality, or truth of the situation if you will. It implies there is a future which you are not right now, creating… a future in which you will feel better upon ‘achieving something’. Notice, feeling is never in a future, but is ever present always, now. As an example… “Feeling lost and unproductive.”… If you were to employ, use, the emotional scale… you find that lost & unproductive are not emotions, but are self referential thoughts. That is, they are thoughts, about ‘you’. These thoughts ‘loop’. They arise again & again, you might say, ‘looking for truth’, ‘seeking to be resolved’ somehow. The resolve is found in feeling… and the carousel of self referential thoughts goes round & round until this is willfully acknowledged, usually as the result of ‘I’ve had enough of this suffering’, or, ‘I’m done being stuck, the desire to create the life I want is too strong to bear resisting anymore’. These self referential thoughts are the activity of, the appearing of, awareness. So yes, definitely meditation is the way, as meditation is fundamentally deep relaxation of the body mind, and the quieting, or settling, of the very activity of awareness, which is veiling itself, by being thoughts that it is someone, or, other than awareness. Through the emotional scale lens… instead of ‘I’m lost & unproductive’ (thoughts about a ‘you’)… ‘I’m experiencing…the emotion of… discouragement’. Now the experience is no longer turned away from, or veiled by self referential thought, and is instead honored, acknowledged, and feeling is invited to the party. There is likely a solid reason you feel discouraged. Maybe something that happened, or something you said or did, or someone else said or did, that ‘stuck’, or, is hanging around in your vibration. In expressing blame, you release the ‘stuck ness’, because instead of focusing on thoughts which are energetically oriented inward, about a ‘yourself’… a shift is felt to outward, or, your experience. Then things start to make sense at the deeper level of feeling, deeper than the thoughts carousel. Insight arises… when I think this way about myself, I blame, and it doesn’t feel so great, and that leads to worrying about the future. When I worry, I find I doubt myself, I doubt how my future will go, I doubt what I’m capable of, what I can create, and I feel the discord of this, and indeed, it is disappointing. The more I focus as such, the more overwhelmed I end up. Something’s got to change - it’s too frustrating, and I’ve had about enough of the irritation and impatience. When I experience those emotions… I find I end up experiencing pessimism, discordant outlooks on my life. Paradoxically, I got the energy, I feel the desire… but I actually end up experiencing the emotion of boredom. What to do? Analogously, we are like rockets. We have dreams within us, and we want to fly high and realize these dreams. The chief desire is to create. To experience, to realize preferences, and then to experience those preferences ‘in the flesh’. The unfettered rocket, free of the resistance of self referential thoughts - is pure joy. Again, what to do? Counterintuitively - no ‘doing’ will help… yet. First, as a rocket of desire, if you will - the dead weight must be dropped. The discordant thoughts and beliefs in terms of identity, ‘thoughts about myself’, can be let go as the flotsam & jetsam of living, of experiencing what you don’t want and what you do want - so that more of what you do want is focused on, and as such, manifests. To ‘drop the baggage’ is to drop the conditions. The perspectives held which are preventative to being - to feeling - the peace of now, of this moment, just as it is. This is ‘getting out of one’s own way’, by letting go, grounding, relaxing, centering, being here & now, presence. Without the dead weight of the baggage previously carried, you feel better. This goodness of feeling is the source of all that is. It’s quite literally appearing as the whole of experience, as ‘reality’. And when you’re connected, feeling the power of source within you, outlook changes, in the sense, perspectives align with this goodness, and you get pretty optimistic pretty quick. It becomes easier to drop what you want to drop, and focus on what you desire. Consider a hamburger & fries, and relativity. If one is feeling down, the chemically engineered short term pick me up feels relatively good. But if you’re already feeling the goodness - the last thing you want is the lethargy of a hamburger & fries. Hell no. Nothing ‘tastes’ better than clarity & the intrinsic inspiration of it. This goodness is enthusiasm, eagerness, happiness… this goodness is the creator, ‘who’ came to create! You came to create - that’s the whole idea, the whole point. This inevitably leads to discovering more unique talents, desires, abilities - life purpose. LP is very connective. Deep profound realizations ensue as to how you fit into the whole of us, how we really need you to discover this goodness & bring the very best of you into this place. It’s like a reality size puzzle which just isn’t the same without you on the path & creating, being the creator you truly are. At this point you’re tapping the grail, you’ve lit the fire of truth within you, passion. From there is basically a joyfest, a celebration of creation, as creation, for creation, for that goodness, of that goodness, as the goodness that is. Freedom. Love. Empowerment. It’s all within you, and we want it. World needs this love within you. Every bit you can muster. Paradigms flip in previously unimaginable ways. ‘Nobody understands me’… psh, that is a joy - my source understands me. My source loves the bejesus outta me, who cares about ‘understanding’ & being understood - they have source too. They can understand that, and you can live the joy of knowing this, and contributing to this. We can’t write enough book about that - it’s the ‘daily bread’. How do I fight unproductivity? I don’t create it in my mind. I don’t adorn the lens. I don’t abide there. I haven’t focused on self referential thoughts in so long… and I know & feel the guidance of emotions so profoundly…that so much momentum is at play, that I don’t even honestly remember what it feels like to focus on that. (Not me per se, speaking hypothetically here, but make of it what you will?). Understanding & connecting with people…psh… understanding we have a source, connecting with that - we understand & connect with each other just fine.

Sin is the belief in sin, just like a thought is really a thought. Believing in sin is self-judgement, the very denial of who you really are, the root of all discord & suffering. If there is no sin, and no judgement, you’re absolutely free.

The relationship attraction is the law of attraction. Could be called the law of love, or the love of attraction. If you embrace the ownness of what you’re attracting, you start shedding some skins and you begin attracting what you genuinely desire. Aka, guy (or gal) you really want suddenly just pops right out of the woodwork… but don’t focus on the getting of the guy, just focus on the getting ready to receive what you want. Go prior to the friends, the job, the search for the significant other… to the lens ‘itself’, to focus. ‘Win’ the alignment of thoughts with feeling, the source of all that has been mentioned here, and everything you are wanting starts ‘showing up’. (It’s already showing up, again & again… you might say, teaching you this.) If you notice thoughts arising on behalf of others, in regard to ‘more or less conscious’, consider what’s being said here instead. Try out that lens. ?

No self, no problem. That ‘self’ is just the thoughts. Learn to spot em, see through em, and you learn to trust in yourself.

If that’s step one, step two is making a dreamboard and seeing it come to life right out of you, step three is prostration ?, and step four is living the manifestation.

@ivankiss Oh snap. My mistake. I was thinking of a video I recorded on thought, Reiki & Siddhi’s that I haven’t posted yet. It’s not in the one I posted yesterday. Sorry bout that. Coming soon.

It is ‘a thing’… Reiki symbols… like in the movie Arrival, whole new communication happnin.

This.

How do you explain unicorns (or lack there of) as a truth? As a belief, in unicorns. One appears as two. The assumption is that consciousness is a property or product of a person. Imagine water appearing as fish, then believing water arises from fish. Look for the joke and the punchline. Water obviously doesn’t arise from fish, and consciousness doesn’t arise from people. It’s ok to spot the absurdity of it all. Might realize an insight, or connect a dot or two… Solipsism, Nihilism & The Dark Night of The Soul

@Javfly33 And so good at it, it transpires effortlessly.

@Javfly33 I concur with feeling which ‘tells you’ this, by how such thoughts tend to feel, indeed. Your op / realization is pretty ‘on’ imo.