Gabriel Antonio

Dude, you are pushing yourself too hard. I can come up here with a list of all my negative qualities. The result? I will feel miserable afterwards. Sometimes we just got to allow ourselves to feel happy in the present moment, as it is. Yes, your past is horrendous and terrifying. But seriously do you want to really carry all that weight? I feel like you need some yoga. Or any activity that releases all your clogged energy, you know? I always give this advice, but have you tried psychedelics? Dude, you can't imagine how much you're missing on. I can see myself in you. I was like that in the beginning of this year. Anyway... I have been finally able to feel good, you know? The way we are supposed to feel. Happy with what life is bringing me. I thought that was unacceptable. "No, no, no! I have to check x, y, and z before I can allow myself to be happy." >> You always postpone life and feel unhappy. Remember: you are not guilty of anything that happened to you. You are perfect just the way you are. You might not want to accept this statement, but it is fucking true, dude!

@cosmicrays of course, it doesn't feel fantastic. tell me: does a salad taste like a hamburger? @Epiphany_Inspired hehehe, the Universe knows what it is doing @DoubleYou i am not a doctor. @krazzer yes, after a while, it becomes the natural, as you said it. but, sure, it is perfectly fine to take hot showers. it is just that... cold showers feel better when you acquire the taste.

Well, maybe you need some basic psychotherapy. But trust me, it all boils down to love as @Nahm mentioned. If you slay a head of your childhood hydra, ten new ones appear instead. Haha. So sometimes it is a matter of saying, "Ok! My past was a piece of shit. But let me live in the present moment." Btw - you do not know what God is. I suggest you watch two episodes: - Self-Acceptance (it is like a guided visualization; it's pretty amazing!) - What Is God (OPTIONAL)

Maybe All We Need is Some Old-Fashioned Self-Development Hey guys, So… the thing is: I feel like what most of us need is actually some good old-fashioned self-development. There is probably one area of your life that the situation is pretty terrible. In my case, it was related to self-confidence. It was a pretty harsh process… it still is. I have many mental beliefs that keep me stuck and has done so for over the last 10 years. It is THAT crazy. And some point… BAM! I developed this disorder. And I bought into the idea that I was “it”. I was the disorder. I became identified. So… maybe just being more kind, more considerate, and really more loving is enough. You know, what is True Love? It might be something totally different from the fruity version of love that you might have soaked in from the media. Anyway, let’s not forget not to skip so many steps. It is a simple path. Your only job is to stay on it. Yes, you will lose balance at times. But it ain’t about how many times you fall, but about how many times you pick yourself up. Seriously, with an attitude of a loser and complete victim, you can even reach enlightenment, but seriously it will be an incomplete enlightenment. It is like this: you have an extremely poor country and you give all the wealth to that country. Easy come, easy go… So, please, quit buying into the idea that enlightenment is something special and out-of-this-world. It is here. However, what is the worth of knowing that if you still have crappy relationships, is overweight, and feel emotionally childish? Throw away your hopes! Haha. But if you want to seek enlightenment desperately by isolating yourself from society, go ahead and do it. Let’s see if you’ll succeed. “I WILL DO IT ALL ALONE!” Ok. Show me all your force and resistance. Don’t do it. Seek enlightenment desperately. Be a dog chasing his tail.

@Santiago it is a matter of stop trying to figure out things by yourself, and begin to invoke the divine. dude, it is that simple hahaha

good! you are on a good track! maybe it is time to stop the psychotherapy, and become Buddha. have you heard of calling up Divine's Will? Do this 10 times a day, even if you do not believe in the power of this practice. When God (the Real one) starts working through you, Heaven is revealed. Enlightenment is very real. Just call on Divinity. Hahaha, yes, I do sound like an evangelical person, but, dude, it fucking works. I wouldn't be doing if it wasn't worth it. Things have become SO MUCH FUCKING easier. You do not have to correct anything.

@MsNobody Hahahaha! I was in San Francisco when I first started. Then, I got really good in Santa Rosa (1 hour North of SF). I thought I was gonna die hahahaha. But turned out only the true part survived. It is CRAZY! Hahaha! Combining cold showers with psychedelics is AMAZING!!! You are GOD ;D @DoubleYou try it out! it is a shock therapy! the power of electicity! @cosmicrayshere is the thing: i take hot showers in the summer. i forgot to mention that hahaha. it is like you do the opposite of what feels comfortable. it is what leo refer as the most emotional difficult thing as a lifestyle for "acing life." "Don't give up. You are not the only one." Peter Gabriel

20 insights I love making lists because it is a creativity incubator. 1- Just start. You will eventually get in the flow. 2- Setting low expectations is key for curing perfeccionism. 3- It is okay to do more than one thing at time. Please do not have the dogma of "having" to do only one thing at once. 4- Everything that shows up in meditation is a cleaning process. Allow yourself to think ALL thoughts 5- Do not be afraid of what is trying to enter your field. That is, your noisy neighbor is no excuse for not being mindful. 6- Be more selfish. This is actually called self-care. Supression is depression. 7- Practice voicing your thoughts. 8- Sometimes the best thing to do is just say: "Fuck it! Today I ain't doing nothing." 9- With a Sangha things become much more smoother. I doubt you can get enlightened all by yourself. Just face it: we need other people. 10- We do not need anyone in particular, but we NEED people. This is like a basic need. 11- It is no use debating. It is a complete waste of energy. If you are grounded from the within, everybody will love you, and you won't have to prove your point to anybody. 12- It all starts from within. If you are feeling wonderful with others, remember that it all started within. Personal development is the recognition of this fact. 13- Keep flowing. 14- Playing instruments, learning new languages, or learning a new sport are great ways to CIRCULATE the energy. 15- We need NOVELTY. New things, new food, new environments. Do not worry whether you like the new things you are trying out or not; the important thing is: you are doing NEW things. 16- Listen to weird-ass songs 17- 99% of the cases in which we say that a person or an environment is toxic is actually just a projection of our own low vibes. 18- We need groups. I cannot emphasize this enough. Meet yourself in different universes. 19- You are the miniature of the universe. It is infinite!!! 20- Sometimes we got to say STOP to all our spiritual practices and allow ourselves to be whoever the fuck we want to think, feel, and act. I trust you "You are heaven's highest desire. It only wants to enter you..." New challenge I love Jack Kornfield's vibe. it feels so relaxing, so I have started a challenge to practice self-forgiveness. I am kind of unsure if I really want to do it, but let us see.. Heheh... I always begin to do many things at once. But I will try hahaha. This is a clear sign of failure. Anyway, another idea that I have got is 5 THINGS PER DAY Wake Up To Action - Post new post on forum telling about the self-forgiveness challenge. And how I have been feeling. - Record a YT video - Type 20 songs for the Trabalho - Say Thank You to Marcos - Mensagem Lô Gratidão This is what I have done today. It is really cool. But, you know, I always get unsure about shit... Hahaha. So... until the rest of the day I want to decide which one of these two options I will choose. Self-love or self-development?

In Soviet Russia, people do not seek enlightenment. Enlightenment seeks people. This one is for Leo

Neuroticism is the excess usage of will-power, action, and effort. Facing problems 24/7 is really too much. Sometimes the best thing we can do is... nothing.

@Captain Flint i sometimes do that. i start with a hot shower then i switch to cold, James Bond sort of thing. But generally I just take cold showers and that's it. what I have found that helps is just the initial shock that the cold shower produces. so in a way, you can experiment taking a warm shower afterwards. the real important thing is those 3 seconds that you just do it. Yes. This is a huge trap. I get all excited and next thing I know I have 20 different habits hahaha. It is just a matter of being patient and consistent. I love Leo's video about Proper Expectations. You ain't gonna turn into Tony Robbins in two days, that's my point. The change is very very slow. But it fucking works. You can even have a huge progress in a short time, but... easy come, easy go. You simply won't be able to sustain that. That's why committing to implementing only one habit at a time is key for success. @MsNobody I started in California. But now I take them in Brazil, obviously. I always take in the morning because really it is no comfort zone challenge taking a cold shower when it is 100 degrees hahaha. In those cases, I take hot showers.

@Shiva cold showers boost imnune system

Have More Bad Feelings Be more imperfect, set lower expectations, hate more, have a worse posture, be more negative, make more grammar mistakes, make a fool of yourself always, exaggerate on whatever the fuck you want (drugs, food, sex are included), allow your mind to have weird-ass thoughts, be more disrepectful to people, be more selfish, be more careless, be more brutely honest, be more lazy, manipulate others, enlarge your ego, justify as much as you want, think a lot, resist negative feelings, be a "good spiritual student", regret, be more shy, be more depressive, do not value others, be pessimistic. be more of a scoundrel. cheat more. be neurotic about likes, be arrogant, criticize both in your head and out loud, make fun of people for pure self-amusement, fall in love with how awesome you are, recognize that it is impossible to make a mistake. everything is in harmony. (Be a fucking NERD!)

@Vitamine Water Hahaha! Great! The first time is always the hardest. Today, after 2 years, I feel pretty experienced. Some days are easier than others, but I always know deep down that I feel amazing afterwards. Sometimes I even take "half-ass" showers just to motivate myself to actually do it. Hehe, but then I always end up taking the full shower when I am actually IN it. @Afonso Hahaha! YES! It is a lifestyle. Not what most people crave for, but what gives true pleasure. @Joseph Maynor Awesome! Keep on keeping on! Cold showers are especially good to motivate yourself in days that you simply do not want to do shit. It lights that fire under your ass and get you moving! @Maine Hahaha! Thank you! That's very sweet! Just by you saying I feel it. Hehe, thanks for being awesome

Great job!

Insights Ayahuasca trip 1- stop pursuing enlightenment, and enlightenment will start to pursue you 2- you are Always right no matter what people tell you 3- some things must be Kept Just for you 4- do not be afraid ir getting emotionally involved in things struggling makes you Lear 5- Life is so fucking precious and we do bit appreciate it 6- Throw your insights out the window and start living 7- are you Bored? GOOD! it is part of the process 8- keep the flow 9- accept your weirdness , your nerdiness 10- i Saw myself as Trump. my face turned into his, and i thought, "HAHAHAHAH I FUCKING WON" scary shit but also funny 11- you are already IT 12- YOU do not need more spirituality. You nerd more of the CONCRETE. 13- You Can create infinitely 14- have Lots of projects, Friends and activities. Do place all your Money on Just one thing 15- Can you allow your inner child to mess up? Or do you only want to play it safe? 16- correct your breathing or else you will have a tumor on your intestine 17- CIRCULATE the Energy. Learn nem things, go to diferente places, and meet nem people 18- be yourslef 19- do not interrupt, do not correct, do not overdo. Give things time to marinate. 20- PLAY THE ROLES YOU WERE GIVEN 21- focus on self-amusement rather than approval 22- there were many improbably encounters that prove the existence of something else 23- ayahuasca is like electricity. use it carefully. 24- just live the present fucking moment. how long are you gonna postpone life? 25- improve your communication skills. for so long, other egos have run your life without even you noticing it. it is time to restablish the inner power 26- weightlifting has been helping a lot with self-confidence. not because of the muscles i might get, but because of the effort involved in it. 27- sometimes you do not make effort, and you do a brilliant job. sometimes you simply cannot do a good job. however, "the days that break you are the days that make you." 28- do not externalize everything. there are a lot of things that you gotta work out by yourself, i'd probably say 80% is on your part and 20/% is in the Sangha. 29- "Without a Sangha, we cannot go every far." Thay 30- People are already perfect and awesome the way they are. Quit projecting, and you will see the inherent beauty. 31- what a lot of people call "spirituality" is simply "emotional healing work" 32- fully come back to the body or else you will suffer in the long run. the ego is so fucking sneaky that you won't even notice that you are developing a disease, so correct what has to be corrected. do yoga, idk. 33- do not place 100% of your energy onto anything 34- just like leo, i have been having a hard time turn off my mind of creativity mode 35- just fucking live this life. it will end sooner than you think, and in a more unpredictable way that you could ever imagine. for example, i was taking a shower earlier today and i almost fell. i could have hurt my head and died. BAM. like that. 36- you need to have nothing to receive everything. 37- your tone of voice tells everything. if you're looking shaky, people will get that. 38- there is a moment to stop. there is a moment to rush. but please do not stop. like paralysing yourself is your worst enemy. 39- people's approval are like pennies that you crave for. but you have a treasure with you. (credit to eckhart tolle for this insight) 40- sometimes it is good to force yourself a little. DONE

Dude, you need another human being. You DO NOT have to cope with that all by yourself. Maybe a massage could help... Or really someone to talk and have soem fun. Numb yourself Seriously just relax. The world is still running despite your "big mistake". Done. Greatest trap: get paralyzed by all this guilt that really blocks the flow. Keep flowing ✌

hello guys and girls! i have learned many things the past few months. but i have not reported them here. Keep the flow dude, this is so fucking important. it doesnot matter if you make mistakes or not, what matters is are you keeping the rhythm?? because that is the most important thing! anyway, that's it for now, guys !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1SET LOW EXPECTATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

take it easy the greatest trap is to overtrain. just keep going, and you will naturally like it.

Here’s the thing: most people worry too much on the Divine Feminine, but what about the Divine Masculine? Here are some insights I got from an ayahuasca trip: - There is always something to complain about… >> HUGE TRAP! This is a classic way to run away from the present moment. There will always be something “not quite right.” This is Ego 1.1. For example, in the beginning of my trip I was heavily thinking about food. “DUDE! I NEED EAT NOW!!!! Or else… I won’t strength.” This is all bullshit. Think about the many excuses you come up in your daily life to justify not being present. Ín my case, my mind was in “complaining mode.” If it wasn’t for the food; it would be about something else. When I was able to let go completely, and forget myself in the present moment…. The magic happens. - Use your body I live in Brazil. A popular religion here is called Umbanda, which has African roots. I love there, because you can really be yourself. As Leo mentioned in a psychedelic video, you just don’t see how much more natural you can be in your body. This “european” style makes us too rigid. We got to loosen up…. Hahaha… How can you do this? > Weightlifting > Breathing exercises > Yoga There you go. These three practices are enough to get in touch with body once again. But it all starts with the breath. If you have a poor breathing, you will feel poor. Shallow breathing = Shallow life - Bear Boredom During the trip, I was practicing mantras. However, there were moments that nothing “special” was happening. But I did not shy away from those moments; I actually stayed present even when it was emotionally difficult. This is the true meaning of resilience. - Go Local I got this idea from when I was living in California. I live in a very large city, so sometimes I wanna go places that are so far away… However, there are so many great things that are happening in my neighborhood. I hate travelling long distances to take ayahuasca, so from now on, I am gonna focus on the place I have been going to, which is a close to my house. Even though the “local” business might have problems, it is just so much better than giving your money to those crazy corporations, which is very similar to the ego structure. It just wants, and wants, and wants…. Never good enough… Always more…. Never satifisfied… So, from now on, I will choose things that are near my house. The closer, the better. __________________ Overcoming shyness... I have been heavily working on developing self-confidence. As a consequence, I got lots of insights about this topic! - Forget everybody else and focus on your body This is for the people-pleasers: we generally focus too much externally. But the real thing is internal. Remember!!!!! Nothing is that personal. Just because someone caughed, this doesn’t mean that person doesn’t like you. Don’t help so much Sometimes I want to help others so much that I end up wasting my energy. So, from now on, I will help people, but on a very small doses. I hope I remember this. Be OKAY with mental discomfort Most people shy away from conflict. But conflict is what make things memorable. When you are emotionally involved in something, you are vulnerable. However, in those moments, you will be part of something. In other words, even if you’re shouting at your mom, this “fight” can make you feel alive once again. PARTICIPATE in the CRAZINESS of LIFE I love meditation and psychedelics. I love entering those deep states of peace. But what is the point of having all those “divine” experiences by myself? From now on, I committed to meditating LESS. I just don’t need that much of protection. As Ram Dass said: “WE DO NOT WANT TO BECOME MEDITATORS. WE WANT TO BECOME FREE.” Do not BREAK the flux A lot of shy people just get lost in his or her head. If you think of something, go and actually do it. IF you can’t at the moment, IT IS OKAY!!! Just don't get fixated. Just forget about it. Oftentimes I want to do something “courageous”, but then I resist naturally becuase it is too much out of comfort zone. Then… I start ruminating. Cut that shit out! Become present again. Start slowly I am also working hard on dating and sexuality, and let me tell you: START SLOW! When you start to open yourself up, you will want to have sex crazily. Like you want to make up for the lost time. As Leo said in a video, “Neediness repels people.” I have made the mistakes taking things too quickly. I almost got into fights because of that. One time I asked a friend of my friend about his relationships with drugs. And… man… he started to get aggressive. “YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW ME, DUDE!” But anyway, you need to lose the caliber sometimes. Maybe you need some rejection, some criticism. IT IS FUCKING HARD, but it is WAAAAAY better living your life with contamined energy in your body. _____ !!!Come back!!!!! Planet Earth is Calling!!! When I get into high stages your consciousness, I want to stay there forever and ever. But life is calling you. EARTH is calling. This is why I wrote Awakening the Divine Masculine. What lacks in our society is not necessarily the feminine energy, but a HEALTHY MASCULINE energy. “Oh… I want to maitain my high vibes, so instead of interacting with people, creating material; I will sit alone in my room for as long as I want.” >>>> HUGE TRAP!!!!!! WHen you release your energy onto the world, you receive tenfold. CREATING ABUNDANCE - MAKE MORE COMMITMENTS Leo said in a video to do less shit. The advice for me is the opposite: do more shit. I have an extremely hard time being unproductive. So I am proactively allowing myself to have ZERO practices. Just be… DO NOT RUN AWAY FROM RESPONSIBILITIES It is actually a joy to become an Adult (the capitalized “a” is intentional). Many cultures do not prepare children to be independent adults, but co-dependend half-child half-adult. It is really twisted. A matured adult loves responsibilities, because he or she can CARRY it. We are strong enough. So, projects out of your comfort zone (e.g., performing on a play for needy children) can help you stay centered in your life because there is a higher vision in your life. You can say to yourself: “It’s okay if I am not feeling good at this particular place because there is a lot going on in my life. ABUNDANCE = DO SMALL AMOUNTS OF MANY THINGS I work, I practiced yoga, meditation, weighlifting etc… But I do all of them in small amounts. I do not place all my bills on just one thing, but on A LOT of things. We can really get lost if we focus on just one thing. My point is, “seriously, why do FIXATED on getting approval?” Other examples include dating, money, and academics. It is okay if you are not doing very well in a particular area of your life. But, PLEASE, DO NOT START 20 different HABITS. "That ain't gonna work." Newbies often do this mistake over and over again... too many commitments... That's how you create new habits You do them, and then you forget about improving anything for the rest of the day. You let go... Trust... Your subconscious is the one responsible for the big changes in your life. You know one habit that could change your life completely in a matter of months? Daily cold shower first thing in the day. And bam! The rest of the day you will not focus on anything. SET PROPER LIMITS This has to do with the divine masculine. Establishing energetic limits. Gandhi once said, “I do not allow people to place their dirty feet on my clean mind.” As you spiritually purify yourself, people will start come up with even more projections. The trick is: CUT THAT SHIT! Learn how to defend yourself. “Oh you are too selfish.” > fuck that! "Oh... you are being ruthless" > screw it "Oh... you are not kind anymore" whatever... You probably care too much about others. This is a dysfunction and has to stop. It is extremely healthy to be criticized. Bear it with fierceness. Your little ego hates that. But it needs that. It needs to get desensitized! MAKE A COMMITMENT TO DROPPING THE ROLE OF "NICE GUY". Expect people to criticize and not like you. When you start against the grain, and doing things that your mind is resisting, then this is the beginning of your Liberation. As Leo said in a video, "even your ways to be authentic are very inauthentic." Authenticity is freedom! The thing is I sometimes feel guilty to be direct to people. But this is fake kindness. It is much better to practice some old-fashioned masculine compassion, and BAM! The problem is not gone. Did you have an enlightenement experience? No, and I don’t even want to. Life is calling me. My LIFE PURPOSE has been presented in an ayahuasca trip two months ago, and NOW I know that enlightenement will happen anyways when I die, so I want to LIVE this life. Work my ass off you know? But obviously with consciousness. ALl this idea of enlightenement seems very obvious. I really don’t need that. I need more basic self-development. That is, lots of affirmations, visualizations, and meditation. I don’t need an extraordinary experience of unity. I am already it. Whether I want it or not, I am heaven’s highest divine, as Matt Kahn says. So why looking so muuuuch? You are already enough. (a.k.a. you do not need other people to be happy) We always something else to make our experience “better.” But the trick is to train yourself to be your own entertainer. You don’t need external circumstaces to dictate how you feel. Yes, I am being serious here. The world can be collapsing before your eyes, but you are as intact as a rock. Vipassana = Best meditation technique ever Hehe, I am generic here. WEll, to me is the best one. Vipassana basically is body scan. You do not cling to any “pleasant” sensation; nor do you get aversed due to uncomfortable feelings. In Vipassana, we train ourselves to be good scientists. We analyze our bodies. And this technique is a lifestyle really. For example, if you got a noisy baby, you can recognize that feeling of anger, or whatever you are feeling; BUT YOU DO NOT PLACE ANY SPECIAL ATTENTION ON ANYTHING. You keep analyzing the rest of the body. That’s it. Analyzing… Seeing… Scientific LENSES. No perosnal belifes, just the merely act of seeing as it is you already summoning awareness to the physical problem or mental problem, and that’s it all you really need. Seeing as things are. I LOVE BEING A NERD For some reason, I repressed “nerd” side. But this is actually so fucking good! You want to gain more knowledge about everything. There were others before you. Being a nerd is having a deep desire to know more things. To learn. To understand. Ignorance is not a bliss, but the source of all suffering. WORK = Pleasure Seriously, the only way to get real pleasure in life is through work. And by work, I mean anything. It can be cleaning your house, meditating, or really anything. However, it is better when it is something that you actually use your body. We need that. We have had enough of theories upon theories, Now let’s start LIVING! Do NOT hold insights so tightly Here is the greatest insight: be present. Haha. I know, the ego hates this idea. Why? Because the ego thrives on the past or on the future. If you are absolutely present, there is no ego. You become like a river. Chances are, you inner river is very polluted. But there is always hope haha. You gotta start cleaning that shit. Move, shake, connect. I am making sure I am writing down all the insights I got, but it is okay if I lose one. MANTRAS = EXTREMELY POWERFUL WAY TO SHUT DOWN THE MIND Mantras can guide you. In the beginning, it is boring (like everything healthy), but after a while you will see how your mind silents. Let things marinate I just got out of the trip, and the thing is: I want to feel like healthy young dude. It is incredible how attractive I am seeing myself. And this is pure. It’s not ego stuff. I am actually doing things in this world. And that makes me feel so good about myself. Love, you know? So… I am learning how to make stategic pauses between my daily self-development practices so that I can be raw, as I mentioned here it again. Apologize Less I have discovered that most of the times I say “I am sorry” to others, I -- as an ego -- am actually craving for the other person’s approval. If you feel like saying sorry, ok, but let go seriously. Things aren’t so seriously as you make them to be. So keep the flow. Mistakes do not define you, and trust me: people are so busy in their daily lives that they forget what you did to them. And let’s get straight here: we have a very short live here on Earth. It looks long, but actually it is just a matter of perspective. Life is like a blow… An inhale and an exhale. So, forget the past, and start living the present fucking moment. I don’t mean 5 minutes ago. I mean NOW. See? The Now is not possible to grasp. You gotta live it. Mental masturbation is endless Life is filled with problems. We came here to EVOLVE, to DEVELOP ourselves. Mentally, physically, and emotionally. Do you have high tolerance from discomfort feelings? Or do you shy away from them and try to fabricate a “positive” experience. Right now, I am giving you permission to drop your positivity bullshit that you listened in the past. The thing is, the real problem with negative self-talk is when it becomes an obsessive thought pattern. You ruminate it. You keep repeating to yourself something so many times that you forget that you are Human being. We are awesome, dude! We conquered the world. We do not even have physical advantages (expect for our beautiful thumb, which gives us great advantages). But somehow… we made it. How? Using our brain. Train your brain. It will be discomfortable, but it is fucking worth it. Let me tell you: if your meditation sessions are very cozy, cut that shit out. It is supposed to be uncomfortable. And when there is no other way but to be strong, You begin your true Brilliance, and unlimited STRENGTH and Energy. Remember your basic needs!!! I am in state of such deep energy that I forget to eat, simply because I know that I don’t really feel hungry. So… I keep not eating. HOWEVER, this is very detrimental to my mental and physical health in the long term. So I have decided to allow myself to eat more than usual, since I am in a moment that I am getting kind of bored of food, but it is necessary. If I fuck up my basic needs, all my “higher consciousness” desires will go to the thrash. I deserve, and you also deserve, to be attractive and have a decent-looking body, and also have good communication skills. Seriously… you deserve that. You deserve to have enough strength to challenge and face the world HEAD ON. Be brief and dynamic If you want to get a lot of audience, keep things short. If you want to get a specific, niche audience, allow yourself to take long. Most of us want the prize right away. However, it takes time to have amazing insights. That’s the thing I about it. For example, I have not seen the two episodes about absolute infinity because “they’re too fucking long.” That was my excuse. I am likely missing a lot of good stuff, but at the same time I refuse to “force myself” to watch something. Trust me: the right moment always comes. THINKING A LOT? Drop that shit you're thinking about it. Not important... You can never lose It You are It. Whether you are dreaming or whether you are Awake, you are an angel. As I was on the bus on my home, I was noticing how my body was contracting. I was being pulled into lower-consciousness physical posture. People have terrible postures. However, you can use this as counter-examples. Remember the video “How to Exploit People” You are only feeling extremely bad because you living in forgetfulness, as Thich Nhat Hahn puts it. You are suffering because you are recreating the suffering of your past. Cut that shit. Haha. You see? This is the masculine. Cutting shit out. No more weeds... Time to WORK! Time to BUILD like a fucking ANT! Be an example of dedication and conscious work. Work hard but in relaxed matter. I think those are the main insights. Mainly, I am focusing now on expanding my comfort zone. And really develop my own inner voice. What do you I really want? Do I agree with what this “authority” said, or am I just following it blindly? Where is my authentic voice? Am I able to voice my needs more frequently?

@Truth Seekah EXACTLY! People give way too much attention to the minute detail. Life is pretty much a joke, so why do we keep on taking everything so seriously? @Afonso Yeap! It is all an energy game. Words don't matter that much. People like you more when you're truthful.

Background Pretty attractive guy, but always insecure inside. Nobody could see how nervous I was feeling, but I was. And, let me tell, my mind would always race whenever I was interacting with anyone who was outside of my comfort zone. In other words, I could only be me with myself and my mom. Haha, ain’t that ridiculous? How I Did It - Most Important Insights Exposure therapy. Sorry to break it to you, but the only way out is through the continual exposure to social situations. If you are able to bear the uncomfotable feeling that arises, you will gradually become stronger. You don’t need to force yourself to talk. What I am saying is: Talk Bullshit People don’t really care about the minute detail. They care only about the energy behind what you are saying. Words aren’t that necessary. When you allow yourself to talk in whatever way you want, BAM! You instantenously demonstrates relaxation. People will like you when you start ALLOWING Do you overanalyze a conversation? NO! Cut that shit! It is all about the flow. Don’t criticize yourself so much, just take it lightly. Seriously, get comfortable with talking about things that you never heard before. You will be amazed! Just listening to people is NOT enough You need to start VOICING YOUR THOUGHTS WITHOUT FILTERS. Ok? So you got to train the follwoing speak, act the first way that comes your mind. This is called spontaneity. It is amazing when you have it Energetic Boundaries So, here’s the thing: DO NOT allow people to “throw up” shit in you. Seriously, guys, I used to do that. So whenever I am interacting with someone that is being disrespectul, rude, clingy; I make sure to SET LIMITS. Ok? Because many people are energy vampires. Where do you think the idea of “vampire” com from? So… make sure to say: “Hey! My time to speak.” Voice Your Needs Are you the type of person who always say “I am fine” to the question “How are you?”. BULLSHIT! Some days we are simply tired. So, start practicing being more sincere: “I feel like shit”, or “Well, it’s not one of my best days, but it’s okay!” Do Not Pretend That’s the thing people do. They don’t understand shit of what they’re listening, but they don’t interrupt. Dude, debates are formal shit! DO NOT LET PEOPLE BULLDOG THE CONVERSATION. If something like that happens, make up an excuse and exist the closest door. Practice Yoga or Weightlifting (Release Emotions...) Your problem is very likely physical. If you do not feel good in your body, you will feel terrible in social situations. That’s it. By correcting only your breathing, you will release a lot of emotional baggages you have been carrying. So…. Take a deep breath IN. . … . . .. . . . .. . . . . .. . . . .. . . . .. . . . . .. . . . . .. AND OUT *all the way through... Socialization is extremely easy. If you allow yourself to let go. If you can’t do that, practice some relaxation breathing exercises. And BOOM! You are back to normal. I want to program this into your subconscious mind: the more natural you are, the better. If you are forcing, breathe deeply. Your breath will correct everything that you try so hard to correct. Haha. It is that simple. Comfort Zone Challenges NLP did not work for me. Hyponisis triggered in me the insight that “Oh… I can actually step out of my comfort zone.” But, after the first session, I didn’t feel this effect again. So, I quit hyponis also. However, comfort zone challenges are the fastest way to become more confident. It is down-right exposure. But it fucking works. Please, you do not need to do anything “wild”. For example, some comfort zone challenges are: 1- Enrolling in skateboarding classes 2- Learning a new language with a native-speaker. 3- Travel (It can be around the city) 4- Make a random comment to a cashier 5- Start making fun at people. You know, very silly jokes. (For example, there is a girl who always wears black, and then I told her yesterday that because she wasn’t wearing black, something would happen. Obviously, in a relaxed manner.) So, you see? Small dosages but REMEMBER: BE FUCKING CONSISTENT TO GOING TO SOCIAL THINGS. Stay more in social events. Go to your local church or yoga studio. Talk to your neighbor. BE PRESENT in a conversation. If you are in your mind, BAM! Get out. It is sorta meditiation. If you are stuck in your mind, BAM! But, above all: Be Authentic. - Do whatever you want, and don’t apologize for how you feel, act, or say. In essence, be more “selfish”, “cocky”. I warn you: people will criticize the hell outta you. Your world will start to collapse when people start disliking you, but then you notice that: “Huh, they have forgotten about what happened.” Trust me: people forgive much more than you think. It’s okay to lie. It’s okay to manipulate. t’s okay to have negative thoughts. It’s okay to judge people It’s okay to gossip It’s okay to be negative Seriously, try them out. They have terrible aftereffects are nasty. On the other hand, you will quickly see how good being truthful is. However, you will notice something: if you are present, you cannot judge. Because there is not enough space! If you are present, your whole being is in the thing you’re doing. If you are not totally there, then you will miss the opportunity of gaining true insights and instead engage in mental masturbation. And, in a way, people will like you more because then they will have the opportunity of being themselves also. Remember: socialization has a lot to do with being light. Follow-up Questions Do you take everything personally? Do you take everything seriously? Can you allow yourself to gossip? I don’t know about you, but I would feel very guilty to do that. I used to NEVER gossip, but I admit that very rarely I do out of my unconsciousness. And it feels dirty. Yuck! You did not came here to be perfect, you came here to real Just speak your mind and follow your breath. Well, these are some tips. But, please, if you know you suffer from Social Anxiety, remember that Experience is King. In other words, you have to be okay with making mistakes. Just don’t break the flow, you know? That’s how to have a good conversation. You are inwards but at the same time you are sharing. All we can do is sharing. You live in a different universe than I do. We need your uniqueness. People are not trustworthy. One day they hate you; the other they LOVE you. It is ridiculous. So, if someone insults you, understand that they are simply telling you "I am in so much pain!" In a way, we’re kind the same (but just different) The trick is to be half-inwards and half-outwards. <o>

@Ry4n Hahaha, no! But I bet that must be great. What has been helping A LOT is some deep breathing exercises. People with social anxiety just don't know how much of the problem is stored in their bodies. As soon as you free up that blocked energy, BAM! You feel relaxed once again. And when you feel relaxed, people start to love you. And when people start to love you, you rediscover the meaning of life. SHARING!!! IT IS NO USE HAVING A TREASURE DEEP-DOWN IN THE OCEAN. SPEAK UP! THE WORLD NEEDS TO HEAR YOUR VOICE! Again, people, stop being so passive and actually do something. That's the way to break free from your mind. Move your body. Shake it. BREATHE!

Dude, I feel for you. I can sense how serious of how a situation you're in. Remember: Every being that has a lot of light also has a lot of shadow. So, in a way, you can use this suffering you've been carrying as a way to summon your inner phoenix. Leo has already made a video about a similar topic: Abusive Relationships. Compassion is not always fruity, sometimes it means cutting ties completely. You are being mentally and physically abused. This is a dysfunction and has to stop. You haven't mentioned how old you are, but have you considered moving to a Buddhist monastery? Seek some sort of help. You can even do it in smaller doses. For example, have you ever taken yoga classes? You need to find a community. You probably has a lot of emotional BS stored in your body. So, yoga not only will help you release tons of emotional baggage; it will also help you find a sangha, a community of friends. I feel very sorry for all that you have been through. You might have scars that won't heal in this lifetime. Another thing to think about for the future: psychedelics (done with RESPONSIBILITY). They can help you extricate yourself from this huge quagmire of shit you're in. I wish I could give you a more direct solution, but I simply don't have one. You have gotta start your own healing journey. Psychologists are psychiatrists are not needed. The trick is: become your own psychologist. Breathing exercises are the bomb, and you can learn them in yoga. Wish you all the best!

@Wormon Blatburm YES! Get out of those forums. When I was 17, my hair was shedding. So I started to search about that in forums. WORST IDEA EVER! Hahaha! The people there were filled with depression. The thing is, don't take your social anxiety too seriously. Just be with it. Don't place too much attention. When I was trying very hard to beat it, I would get virtually ZERO results. However, when I started to practice yoga and tune in to my body, BAM! I naturally started to become more social. As you said, social anxiety comes from a desperate ego, an ego that wants to maintain a perfect self-image, which is a complete waste of time. Be criticized. "There are three way to avoid criticism: say nothing, do nothing, and be nothing." Aristocle