ajasatya

this is the kind of phrase that differentiates true awakenings (heart included) from intellectual pride. ego is so sneaky.

in a very cold winter, a monk used a buddha statue to make a bonfire because there was nothing else to burn. he was feeling guilty inside and all of a sudden, as he was watching the wood burn, he couldn't see the buddha anymore, just wood. so he woke up to his true nature.

because you don't challenge yourself. your life might be too easy.

what a poor lifestyle. it seems like you haven't understood a single word of what leo's been spreading over the last 3~4 years.

find a way to live on your own already. are you 18+ yet? work hard.

deep peace of heart

@momo the brain is like a filter. if you mess with the filter, you get different results. but regardless of your state (drunk or w/e), there's still presence. unless you're sleeping! then things start to get interesting. how would it be like to sleep and never wake up again?

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almond milk is GODLIKE

@Saumaya welcome home!

@ExodiaGearCEO google "Complete Idiot's Guide to Tantric Sex"

data science / machine learning. this is what i'm doing for living.

Reality manifests itself as a tree, as a bug, as a dog, as a star, as a person, as another person etc. enlightenment is being aware of "what" says I AM.

those two are not mutually exclusive

live healthily

this is bs. if you were actually sincere about that, you would have become a monk long time ago. you say that you want absolute independence but there you are, desiring men. stop lying to yourself. you don't want absolute independence. you want to use men to satisfy your sexual needs, just like the vast majority of men, who just want women to satisfy their sexual needs. an intimate relationship is co-existing intimately. it's about sharing feelings, feeling vulnerable and contemplating the the vast mystery about who the other person is. if you want safety and individuality, this is not for you.

get yourself into a difficult situation. stop depending on your parents.

nah. just pick a name that reminds you to practice NOW. that's what i did. it's a tool.

i picked ajasatya, which means "unborn reality"

ask the dojo mentor about people/places he/she knows. maybe he/she knows about retreats etc. also, check this out.

get in touch with zen practitioners near you. are there zen centers? i live in brazil, but i only got to know about monasteries and such because i started practicing zazen in a sangha.

fruits and honey

i've done open relationships. the results were very little growth: few opportunities to face my fears (too much comfort zone) the same cycles of sexual neediness weak intimacy / superficial friendships

the Mind is a sharp tool. don't cut your own fingers.

i know