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Yes, that is what I am planning to do. R-Mode engagement.

I still don't know what to do during the come up. I feel like if I listen to Max Richter during it I will experience something spiritual during the trip. But my main goal is focused on increasing my visual processing abilities, which I know I won't be able to focus on if I do the spiritual focus. But I also don't know if the melancholia wouldn't cause a bad trip. Maybe I should experiment the next time more and this time just see what happens.

That is the worst analysis I have ever seen, I could have made shit up and made a better debunk analysis, lol. I don't believe in it being a real body but holy shit are the arguments terrible.

I don't know if he is careful, in general this forum seems to view caution and common sense as secondary. I don't think we can just assume his phenomena are activations. It could be anything.

Well, if we were to enforce spreading misinformation, or framing ones own views as fact, I think most the posts in this thread would have to be removed. But sure, I will be more careful around such claims in the future. What is troublesome to me is that noone in here even cautioned this person to be more careful around using this substance, even though their reaction to it is definitely abnormal.

Well, whether or not it is a fact we don't know. I strongly suspect his usage of the substance was related to the episode of problems he had at that time. Either way, my greater point still stands that there is a risk involved and that these substances do cause changes in the brain.

I don't think his sleep issues were unrelated to his 5-MeO-DMT intake, and I do not think we can just dismiss such risks. You have no clue if these are reactivations, some spiritual mumbo jumbo, or his brain structures being altered in dysfunctional ways. People need to stop pretending they know what they are talking about, in my opinion.

I would be careful around this substance and probably recommend not using it again. We have no idea if this is spiritual or something in your brain. There is always risk associated with these substances. Martin Ball basically fried his brain using it, he was not able to sleep for a year or so, and I am not sure if he is any better now. But he took it daily. The fact that it gives you powerful experiences means it creates powerful changes in the brain. And it is not a drug designed for anything, it's literally just throwing something at your brain and it happens to have certain deconstructive effects. It might as well cause other changes in the brain that are harmful and make it unable to sleep. And maybe it causes certain changes in your brain that it does not cause in others. Whether or not this is the case, this is a real risk that you should consider. You could destroy your brain with these substances, especially if they are less researched.

Maybe your body being covered was one of the reasons why your body disappeared during the trip?

Did you ever do LSD or psychedelics while doing sensory deprivation? Like blindfolding and plugging ears?

The way you think about reality by default is the following: The world, outside reality, exists. In that world exist I and other experiencers, actors, who travers and interact in that world. The experiencers are not the world, the world is not the experiencer. The experiencer is experiencing the world through sense-organs, which create a subjective reality. Subjective reality is not consistent with the world, and unlike the subjective mind, the world remains constant. Therefore, the world is real and the mind us unreal, because the world is consistent, it is permanent, it is actual. This is the default assumption through which you look at existence. However, these assumptions are baseless, because you are positing two substances: Mind substance and matter substance. Inner world and outer world. Yet, when you point at the world, whatever you believe it to be, it has to be made of the inner world. As long as you are aware of it, it is the mind, and so any conception of the world you could possibly have is mind. But it is even worse. You assume there is an experiencer, and consequently, you confuse pure existence by the concept of experience. When you look at redness, at colors, at visual imagery, you call that perception. You believe there is someone who perceives the color. The color doesn't just exist on it's own, like an atom would. No, the color exists because you perceive it. And you the perceiver, the experiencer are fundamentally not experience. This is all false, and illusion. You do not experience anything, experience does not exist. Rather, everything you call experience, perception, sense data, including thoughts, emotions, colors, feelings, are all made out of existence. They are reality itself. There is nobody experiencing them. What you call redness being perceived, is nothing but redness existing. You have taken existence and labelled it perception. You took ownership over existence itself, and somehow claimed that you are the source and ground of existence. But you are nothing but one object of existence. You are the ego, a substance of reality much like the color red. It can exist, and it can cease to exist. Yet, it ceasing to exist will not make colors cease to exist. You can die, and yet, colors will continue. Feeling will continue, warmth and cold will conitnue, thoughts will continue. You have to set aside the above described construct and adopt a new one, which is: All the exists is existence. The universe is just existence. And the universe, is made out of infinite forms of existence. It is unified, it is one thing. Yet, within this Oneness are infinite forms, infinite parts. All of these parts relate to each other. Some of these parts relate to each other in certain ways. You can think of this as the atoms of the universe relating to each other. Now, certain atoms, parts of reality, form specific relationships. These relationships you call the brain, or brain activity. These relationships are what your human mind is. This is what would be referred to as dissociation or individuated consciousness. Within existence, relationships form, and these relationships are their own form of existence. Now, when you ask "So, if I am everything, why can't I control another body!", it is because you still are in the old framework I described above. In the framework that is accurate to existence, this question is nonsensical, and I will demonstrate how: If all of existence is unified, and that unified existences creates relationship between parts of itself, then all it is to say to be a human mind is to say that you are the relationship between certain parts of existence. And when you say "So how is it that I cannot control another body?", it is like to say "Why is this relationship within existence not this other relationship within existence?". It would be like asking, why is the moon not earth? Why is the flower not the rock? Now, here comes the second confusion: Because within the relationship of existence that is this individuated consciounsess exists ego and selfhood, which is a relationship between parts of unified existence, it is not recognized that existence simply is existence. Rather, existence has a structure that says "This is my, I am the perceiver, I am the one who is the ground of all of these other parts of existence! They are mine!". The reality, however, is that existence is simply existence. Once this relationship between different parts of existence dissolves, that's it. It dissolves. But existence continues. The "I" will be dead, but existence cannot die, existence is eternal, it is absolute. And that's all there is to it. All that exists is existence, and all in existence is existence. It could not possibly be more simple. Yet you are confused because, what you are, what the selfhood is, is a form of existence that is by definition confusion, illusion. So, to ask why you cannot control another ones body, is akin to asking why red is not the blue.

What type of music can you guys recommend for a proper 150mcg trip? Will the music I usually like work well for an LSD trip, like some Max Richter or the like? I usually use that to enter deep contemplative states to ponder the nature of existence, but it makes me very melancholic. I enjoy melonchonia, it feels existentially very gratifying, but I am not sure if on LSD it might not activate negative thinking patterns or the like.

But why relate it to the human emotion of love?

I just don't understand how 20mcg could make such a difference. I still feel completely in flow and in a meditative state. I feel like I could easily figure out the solution to any problem. So many egoic structures seem to be completely eroded or weakened. How long will this last?

If a spider species evolved that does not have psychological love for anything, I don't think it would refer to what you call Love as love. It doesn't make much sense, therefore it could be that the conceptual frame you use is tied to what you are as a human being and how you relate to the qualities of existence. I believe that is Ralstons point.

What would be the reason then? Would a being that has a different psychology to human beings refer to it as love?

If Love is acceptance, then it is nothing at all. Because acceptance is just a lack of resistance. If there is no resistance, which is an egoic dynamic, all that is left is existence. A pure existence is of something lacking resistance already is fully "accepted". It just exists, which is what it means for something to be accepted.

His point would be that if what we call love normally is a human emotion, and the Love you talk about is not that human emotion, there is no reason to call it, and refer to it as, Love in the first place.

I am worried that if I take a higher dose it might erase the subtle effects I am currently experiencing, and on the other hand I wonder if those same positive effects will be exponentiated. I expect there will be permanent and significant changes to my brain structure. With the amount of brain connectivity I gained from 20mcg, I am curious if 100-150mcg will actually be 5-7.5 times higher, or if some sort of peak is reached before that. I also kind of want to go with a lower dose before going higher, like first doing 100mcg instead of 150mcg. I want to do a 100mcg dose anyways, and I wonder if it will be underwhelming, or in fact not even as powerful, once I took 150mcg.

Wow this is only a week after my last post, but it feels like a month has passed. Was on a short family vacation, and I noticed a pretty significant yet subtle shift in my consciousness throughout. To keep things short, I feel like even just the 20ug did somehow resolved certain things I have been working on for years, or at least pulled me from a plateau. I am still much more in the moment and am far less prone to be caught up by certain habitual thought patterns. Usually I am kind of left-brain, intellectual minded, and I definitely feel less "autistic" in that way. My memory seems better as well. I also had certain strange hang ups that just kept me in loops because I just did not have the perspective to truly imagine possibilities outside of them, which now feels utterly silly. In general, I would say there is less friction in my life, it I am flowing far better. To be clear, my intention with these first psychedelic trips and the usage of 1V-LSD is primarily self-improvement oriented, and more specifically oriented towards my current life-purpose goals. My main intention is not spiritual, although over the past few days I have realized the two are not really as seperate as I thought. I will be taking my proper trip in the next week, and I can't imagine what it will do to me if 20ug seem to have already created such significant shifts. I still do not know if these changes in consciousness will just disappear after a while, I imagine that is possible, especially with bad habits. Also, I feel like people just became more attractive to me? Women just suddenly all look much more gorgeous and feminine to me, whereas before I had harsher criteria for what I found visually and socially appealling.

10mcg was much more subtle, could also be because I still felt in R-Mode flow after 3 days of taking the original 20mcg dose. I still feel super exhausted the day after though. I didn't get quite enough sleep, but it feels like I ran a marathon or something.

What do you guys think of prodrug safety? I have 1V-LSD lingering around, and am not quite sure what the risk profile would be. I am reading that it is pretty much equivalent to LSD, but at the same time it is obviously not a well-researched drug. Does anyone here have experience is 1V-LSD? Never used psychedelics before and I want to do my first trip soon.

How safe do you guys evaluate taking analogues of LSD in general? Do you guys know of cases where analogues caused some long term significant negative side effects, as opposed to normal LSD?

You can switch between R-Mode and L-Mode if you are familiar with them, this wasn't an exercise to find deep truth but just me testing out the substance and taking note of some things. In the notes you will actually find me talking about that it's probably better to remain in R-Mode during a full trip, which is basically the advice you are giving. Also, imaginary is just another word for existence, and you are partaking in existence when you say logic is imaginary. Anyways, I still feel the effects of the substance. I don't know if it actually changed something permanently in my mind, but I definitely still feel like I am basically in the moment. I am immersed in everything I do such that I do rarely have subtle anxieties that would otherwise kind of always be present in the back of my mind. I kind of lose myself in the activities I partake in, which to me is actually a tremendous benefit. I will take another 10mcg dose tomorrow to test how that will affect me, and then take a two week break before I do a full trip of 100-150mcg. I am curious to see how long-lasting the benefits of this substance are. I can see why some people microdose it to treat or dampen depression.

I'm not looking for a psychedelic experience with this trial.