AlwaysBeNice

I've been having really good results with Zen/Self-inquiry. First notice there is: -Feeling/Consciousness that is baseline Then notice there is: - Mind activity on top of that based on identification with the thoughts. You meditate on the baseline feeling of being/awareness, when every you become aware of having become lost in thought think 'I' and see that you come prior to the thoughts and meditate on that again.

You are used to suppressing emotions, that's what's causing the struggle. You simply need to stick to it, go deeper and feel what's there to feel and allow yourself to cry like a baby. Try this meditation

@Leo GuraWill you do a video on your process ?

Mortality rate should be (much) higher for serious practitioners then. Unless they are all so much less enlightened than the guru(s) claiming this. How fortunate for their teachings.

Albeit it's negative look at the way things are, it's still one of the most soul filled video I have ever seen and spiritual in it's own right. Some musicians really nail channeling their souls, it's actually what music is about, and in sense it's very shamanic because it can really help you heal by connecting with these now open and bare feelings in a pretty deep way. Also isn't it amazing sound can be universally connected to emotion. What is the 'evolutionary purpose' of that? -

I've been through so much madness, depression etc. and recovered quite easily from it through self inquiry, mindfulness and meditation within a year, that was around 3 years ago. It's not as a big deal as people make it out to be, believing you are crazy because of the body is probably the biggest hinder you can face, because then you might stop taking responsibility for your beliefs/thoughts/intellect, the ability to still the mind, to do introspection and heal. Madness is simply fear, the delusion from the fear that you exist as separate that can die, be damaged, lose happiness, that it can find happiness from the validation of others or some experience etc. That might take extreme forms, often because one is filled with hurt and trauma and feels terrible and is terribly afraid of others, so it's desperate for (false) beliefs that seem beneficial for that person ('I am more special than others', 'I am such a helpless victim', fantasies about reality and the ego to feel better etc.).- And of course reality is much more special than we ought to think and awakening and mystical experiences are just part of the ride, just stop attaching unnecessary beliefs unto them because of your hurt ego and you'll be fine; find the truth of your being.

Yeah that's the thing about talking about the ultimate, you can't even speak about it, too simple and too complex. God's little joke for the all the eager minds wanting to grasp it; don't even bother and just be quiet

http://bidushi.com/link-happiness-meditation/ https://www.reddit.com/r/Meditation/comments/2i875y/meditation_will_improve_your_life/ http://liveanddare.com/benefits-of-meditation/

So funny how the east has doven balls deep into reality relatively so often, and here with are in the west balls deep in arrogance and ignorance. Then you become more of God, and then you become more of God, and then you become of God, and then the All That Is becomes another All That Is. woooooo-aaaaahhhh-wooooo

Yes, it will come. Meanwhile just keep meditating, any second you do it you make some progress, even if it's enduring and becoming patient with having seemingly no progress. You have been conditioned to look outward 24/7, it will get easier over time, just keep going, stay consistent with doing it every day some practice, even if you start with 2 x 15 min, that's a good start.

P.O.D so fucking good

You don't have to hope, just be happy. The outside world is just a picture, including the people in it, a neutral illusion. The fear you feel is just a creation from the indoctrinated traumatized mind from the silly world, now you can take response-ability to know yourself again and get over the pain and become true and peaceful again.

There was a reason I asked you how much you meditated when you said you wanted to try 5-MeO, and you didn't answer. I asked because the typical average mind has a lot of shit in it it's denying unconsciously, if you had a consistent practice you would have had a clue about that. But no need to worry, you are always safe and part of a perfect process and you can actually be very happy it's getting to surface now so strongly so you can get it out. So start meditating a good amount, be honest with pain, open up, cry, and return to stillness and repeat. You'll be great.

Ah that was really nice

Afaik the experience of Samadhi is absolute awareness, not no awareness. There is no person there as an artificial construct, but you are very much present. Also there have been many reports of yogi's being aware of their deep sleep. Also, Martin Ball speaks how some people completely do not remember their 5-MeO breakthrough, I belief he indicated that it was because it was too much of a shift, whereas other remember it very well, it seems to be a matter of consciousness evolution.

Fear ain't shit. It just requires more consciousness and honesty and you will purge out that trauma or negativity and replace it with trust and peace in the Self.

Great way to connect with people and come into the moment.

That depends doesn't it, if you understand life is but a projection in consciousness that you decide how you want to feel about then you know 'shit' to be a thought. I think it really happens in the childhood years and then somewhat in the teenage years mostly though, where you tend to be so loyal to your environment/parents/friends/culture. Later in life, when a girl friend leaves you or what ever it just triggers the emotional pain hurt of not being good enough you already started to belief in as a child: There is a very clear distinction between a happy 4 year old playing and being absolutely himself as apposed to the older kids trying to look cool.

According to near death experiences, who have very real experiences of God, infinity, total bliss etc. You are met by loved ones and God/The light; bliss; being home. Then you have life review. Then you stay there for a while. Because we learn about it via NDE experiences people are sent back, or chose to go back for what ever reason. I belief 'being sent back' is not really a choice that is made separate from you, because ultimately you are God, but if you haven't raised you awareness enough it made seem like you are being sent back by it, but for your own best, because at a higher level you like to evolve further in the game. - So I think you can do everything, another incarnation, staying in heaven, creating what ever you imagine, being with other souls, incarnating in other planets, dimensions etc. But if you have a low consciousness and thus lived a selfish life, you might decide from the higher consciousness to go back and raise it further; become closer to spirit through your own evolution first, and perhaps experience some balancing because of some choices you made because you like the idea of karma and it serves your growth. You might like this site by the way: www.evidenceforthesoul.weebly.com

Sri Anandamayi Ma was once approached by someone in doubt whether to join the Ashram or not, I don't think I can give up all the pleasures of my wordly life and she said: 'Ahh, you are a true renunciate. You are renouncing the infinite bliss of God for those few crumbs? ' Bliss or Hubris: You Choose ~ Shunyamurti https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mwaUr9qfInY

Conversations with God by Neale Walsch. Doesn't matter if you belief it's God or not, the book is amazingly insightful and intelligent, also all free to read and it was on the NY Times best seller list for 137 weeks: www.universe-people.com/english/svetelna_knihovna/htm/en/en_kniha_conversations_with_god_1.htm

Being normal in our society is a sickness you need to get rid of ASAP. Quick, find that toad, squeeze it and snort that.

Terrence was told the same