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As you may have heard on the news there was a mass shooting in Texas yesterday and just today Ohio. I am feeling a bit of shock and sadness, especially since I am American. How can I (and others) console ourselves during this time. Also, how can this tie in with our spiritual practice to help us see through the ego’s labels of “evil”, “horror”, “death”, etc

Okay. I am going to organize my notes and work on contemplating these things and stop making grand assumptions at this time. I plan on not posting on the forum for the time being, whilst still dropping by to get some insight. This is until I get my mind settled and in a more relaxed place. I will start psychotherapy as well soon. I will PM you guys if I have any severe doubts or feel like I’m going crazy again. Any last suggestions you guys have for me? I might be asking the wrong question since I’ve already been given a lot of great advice... I just need to start acting on it seriously and reduce distractions...

@FoxFoxFox Dude thanks for the reassurance. I thought I was going crazy. And, yes, I’ve already scared off some people by saying some radical stuff without any absolute certainty. At least this has only been happening the past few months. I have a knack for doing stupid things, but something is always pulling me back to questioning myself (like I said earlier with scaring off people close to me, so now some higher wisdom is making me doubt more).

I drink matcha green tea everyday (i put 1 tsp matcha powder). I’ll take about a week tolerance break if I feel that it’s not giving me the same energy and focus anymore.

So everything is imagined? Are you imagining me? Are you just teaching yourself? I know you have alluded to this in a bit in your previous videos, but I’m starting to have a glimpse of this now. For example, when I’m walking inside a shopping mall, whenever I am passing by people, I intuit that there is nobody behind me, no stores that I’m actually passing by, etc. Whatever I am directly looking at and interpreting in that moment is what is. I still haven’t broken through the “who is the one looking” aspect, though... I’m so mindf—-ed right now, but I am so open to just letting it all go anytime soon.

@zeroISinfinity Yeah I think I just had a little mindf— episode. It’s like I’m confused about everything I thought I knew about myself and I love that I’m starting from scratch. I am sooooo ignorant. Damn!

Ahh shit guys. I’m not kidding when I post this live, but I went to do a self-inquiry session and less than 5 minutes in I realized that I am imagining all of this. But I’m so freaked out and can’t let go lmao!!! 5 minutes later: Okay, this is insanity. Even my addictions are made up? My obsessing thinking is made up? What? Someone help

@Aakash Dude, have some respect for @winterknight. He spent a great deal of his life working on his emotions and learned openly from the highest teachings (if you even bothered visiting his website to find that out for yourself). Now here he is sharing his wisdom and knowledge; even going as far as to answer every question on here individually and directly. How many others do you know that will do this kind of service, let alone online for free? You don’t have to agree with him, but learn to respect those who have walked the entire path.

Thank you @winterknight for recommending psychoanalysis and psychodynamic psychotherapy. More info here. Can anyone please share their own experiences if they have done this? I’d love to hear them.

Yeah my experience started happening unplanned. Like, I wasn’t by myself or intentionally self-inquiring.

@FoxFoxFox Yes I definitely had an experience of this. But then I quickly took ownership of it.

@FoxFoxFox Have you become fully conscious of this Love? Also, if I’m not awake yet, that is also Love? Do I accept this? What’s the difference between Love and acceptance?

Please make a video about honesty. This is something I’ve struggled with my entire life.

This is one of my deepest issues, hence why I’m very thankful for the resources you gave me. Because in all the years I’ve been in CBT, nearly all my therapists were working to stop my addictions full force without understanding why I was doing them in the first place, and of course that never worked long term. For some reason when I stopped trying to stop some of my addictions, they just ceased on their own because I replaced it with something else more in line with what I really want.

How is it so that one can fully surrender to their true nature while still indulging in their addictions? Couldn’t they simply realize that it’s not necessary for them to act upon it?

I had a similar experience when I took a large amount of marijuana which sent me into an ego-death, followed by intense panic attack. I thought I was dying, but that quickly subsided (by quick it was more like 2 hours, but in the grand scheme of things it was short). As I was sitting, I was trying to control myself from acting on the bodily sensations it wanted to express. Honestly if I just let my body do what it needed to do in that moment (with someone guiding the experience, of course), I think it would have been a much more pleasant experience.

How detrimental, would you say, is it for a seeker to be doing enlightenment work while concurrently still strongly attached to and feeding their addiction and survival needs? Let’s say this person is poor and can’t afford a therapist. Is it going to be impossible for them to fully surrender?

Can Leo or anyone else please explain the origins of the word “Love”? I am not sure if Leo has explained it in one of his videos.

OBE?

I guess a good metaphor for this would be like if you took a Star Wars geek who has seen the movies 1000 times, he may be shocked to discover something in a scene that he never saw the previous times he watched the same movies

What is the difference between past lives and reincarnation?

Actually he said Love is Nothing

@Truth Addict I remember being an innocent kid, even though I had attachment issues and all + anxiety. I went to a strict private school, and on my first day of kindergarten (I skipped pre-K due to developmental issues), I made a best friend instantly. We played peek-a-boo while sitting at our desks across from each other, and the teacher yelled at us to stop. That is my first vivid memory of suffering. Ever since then, my innocence declined and snowballed to the point of immense anxiety and depression, among other things. Fast forward to today, and I’m starting to realize that all I ever wanted and want is Love. And all along this suffering I’ve been searching for it in neurotic ways. I’ve lost friends, girlfriends, family members, opportunities, you name it. I’m here for this guys. I want to be conscious of this Love that I always knew before my innocence was “lost”. I want to be free of this bondage, and not separate myself from others anymore.