Sevi

@Principium Nexus you are lying but that's -somehow- okay. I just wanted to across my point.

Thank you @Shin I am in a very different place right now, that's right, it's all in our mind. Irritation disappeared right away since it was just masking sadness, then all the sensation was the pressure on my sinuses and throat, but when I was able put the attention on top of my head, I felt bliss

I don't think I can receive anything today, but thank you anyways. I lost my phone just before I wanted to start, now it's the end of it I'm starting, I'm really irritated right now, putting myself into cyber media like this has started to become alienating. Let's see where this gonna go. I am so irritated right now.

I'll be starting in 30 mins, I'm late today.

@TodImproves that's an excellent point, and I totally think you are right. I would actually be there in my life, more than that it is an inspiring motivation for me to do all the work. And to litmus test your states guys, and for you to understand the other end's point of view of such a scenario@TodImproves @Principium Nexus I challenge both of you to write down now, your real full names and your occupations then under it the most emotionally difficult thing to do for you in your current lifes. And of course doing it, without lying, with full honesty, giving the accurate facts.

I'm in both days.

Ok. I am re-writing everything again. I am quite annoyed right now. I'm gonna write as if an hour ago: I've just seen this thread, normally I would like to take some time to sort my ideas out to give a useful feedback, but if I write it spontaneously, This then will be a self portrait of myself. Normally I am a very reserved person. It is difficult for me to just write away such things because it is asked, I am forcing myself right now. I had to handle things on my own. I have difficulty to open up my weaknesses and ask for help. Likewise, I have difficulty to express my feelings when I am hurt or when I feel down or upset and ask for emotional support. The things make me stuck boil into my management of my sleep cycle which is related to two major subjects. 1) it's deeply related to couple of my deep-seated emotions 2) my passionate personality, meaning when I like something I focus on it naturally and intensely, I have hard time to give a break before I get it done. Then it burns me out. Which is recently connected to actualized.org. Because I liked it, now my almost full attention goes to that. Where I am feeling like handed a gift but very uncomfortable at the same time because of my poor management of it; so basically I am bad at managing this personality trait of mine. I am very sensitive to the emotional state of the ones that I care. Where I can be very psychic, it becomes a challenge for me to be an observer and differentiate myself from that. And disharmony effects my potency. (I had quite difficult time to remember this paragraph, -and accidentally I erased the whole thing- it is most likely that this was the part which was difficult to my ego) I don't know if this is a helpful feedback since it is just self analyze, but I will re-visit the topic again. Lastly I really didn't like the tone of this thread. It might be most likely because my ego feels very threatened but at the same time it feels very cold hearted -rather than being objective- to such humanistic questions. Leo, I am answering just because I have full trust in your caring heart. P.S. see it's almost 4 am right now and I am still writing this; this is very annoying for me. P.S.2 topics are running and changing so fast and some of them are really interesting, ok, I'm cutting it here. I need to limit this.

Now I have to write all the stuff again...

@Shin Yes, I can relate to that.. You are so funny

Yoda sends his greetings to everyone in Actualized.org, and says: May the 4th be with you!

@Shin that was beautiful! Thank you why is your bunny upset about such a good thing?

@Barna please don't smoke often..

@Shin anything else dear??

@Barna I have a theory: so, that can mean that we can concentrate on the gap between from now and the first thing into the future. So that, taste and test thus calm the fear of it might be possible. Since we would still be in now, but a little bit into the future part of that equilibrium.. ?

@Shin okay hon, no worries, go rest a bit.. See, I just can write like this, I cannot put the tag on here.. so I'm not mentioning you here, you probably can pass this..

@Sevi @Shin I do press the edit button! And the moment I click the user, to it in that editing, the user jumps into an another new session! I did it before, as you do, why it's not happening again?

@Shin Acting you are, as if not knowing it, serve you no more, he says.. Also, says he: Should you teach her how to edit the posts as you do

@John Flores oh, I see..Thank you very much for the share John!

@Shin awakened already you are and appreciated deeply, he says..

@aurum you can check "Epic of Gilgamesh" basically it tells all the story about the gods mentioned above. Actually in my very first play, I played the role of "Ninsun" the mother of Gilgamesh.. That epic is a summary of the Mesopotamian Tablets that @John Flores was referring to. @John Flores I didn't know that they were encoded in Torah, that's quite interesting! @Dodoster your business lady guardian angel says that she loves you so much❤?

@username yeah, he nailed it so well in that video! It made me think that he is a telepathic person.. Yep, agreed

@Seed why do I resonate with this ? I know you are doing this to make me feel home? I appreciate it, thanks? P.S Sorry for being off topic

I loved it! @Shin thanks :3 I can do this homework every day

@No-Thing I would say it was gender neutral writing, but more often we ladies put a lot of subjectivity in things; so when we don't see that trace generally we assume that it is something masculine? and I appreciate your kind words, that was nice to write to you.

@No-Thing that's very interesting, because, what I see is you are identifying yourself with your opinions (about the thread), which are totally two different things. Yes somehow I was opposing some of the points you made, but not 'you'; actually I liked 'you' because of bringing such a nice topic to the table which even made me wanna be part of. 'She always needs to be right' is such a good catch though? one of my very down falls. And I really had approved your clear good intentions and because of that I joined your thread. If I thought otherwise, I would have just passed it by interpreting that your ego is just reacting back to some uncomfortable truth. I would find unnecessary to write anything about it. But that's good to know, because I could have mentioned that while writing, I just assumed that you had already known how I thought, because in my mind, I was already actively responding which for me means that I already acknowledged your manifestation as a good one. Hmm.. interesting. Thanks again.