Shin

Leo improved a lot this past year. It's not like he is not aware that he can be arrogant or insensitive at times, it is impossible not to be conscious of that and want to work on it at the construct-aware/unitive stage(s). Also, the way his mind works can be very different than yours, and even when it feels like he is arrogant or insensitive, actually it can simply be a misunderstanding about what he is trying to say from your part (by the way he is saying it, or simply a total projection (since your mind works differently)). If you really want to help people, I don't see how Leo sometimes acting like a jerk (from your pov) is a problem. It's like saying you will stop to hug your spouse until a different president is elected, doesn't make much sense

As if there was something I really don't want to know will be realized. Yeah "places"

The concept of 3d is seen through when I had those experiences, it's like it's there, you understand that in this dream there is space between objects, but only has a human projection. In reality, it's like a painting that constantly changes the scenery, and 3d or space is something you created to be able to have more experiences. It felt like walking inside yourself, with a spectral body that is a total fiction, and only exists as long as you think about it (or think you experience pain or body sensations), otherwise there is no body at all. Same thing with the mind, as long as there is nothing to think about, and no self reference even with something else than thought, there is no self at all, not even relatively speaking, it's just purely a scenery. This definitely can work, I tried for like an hour, and for the last 30 minutes there was a lots of distracting thoughts (usually quite thoughtless while walking), and also lots of looking away that I couldn't control, also fear and uncomfort at the very end. I think it would help to do this from time to time at places we never walk, like that your mind has a harder time to project a sense of reality cause it won't know where he is relatively to your home or your school/job etc. Thank you very much mate

I'm super fucked yes, cause I had several awakening in dreams (apparently that doesn't count ) and it was exactly like you're describing it. Nothing really moved, I was static, but the scenery was moving (the body counted as the scenery).

If you're totally fine when you go back to the illusion of ElectroBeam as a self, then what's the problem ?

Be more gentle to yourself, you are literally coming back from a different reality (relatively speaking to your ego as of now), that must feel really scary and uncomfortable. It happened to me only in dreams, and even then when I was waking up, it was really messy emotionally speaking for the whole day(s), so if it happens in the waking state, I can't even begin to imagine how much more harder it might be. So what I would do at your place, is to be really gentle with yourself, cause you're judging yourself a lot for having a difficult time. It's kinda telling yourself that you're stupid for going into a specific street because out of the blue 5 bullies beat you up. What would you do if your best friend were in a situation like this ? You would try to cheer him up or being super nice and non judgemental no ( I hope so ) ? Do the same in any situation where you find yourself having a hard time

My favorite hobby is to walk, sometimes several hours a day. I'm fucked lol Thank you

Is the shift/insight a radical change in perspective in your reality. Like one moment everything is normal, and then you really feel like everything is immaterial and/or in your head, or is it an insight in the sense that "I got it" conceptually ?

Read this https://www.amazon.com/Way-Superior-Man-Challenges-Anniversary/dp/1622038320/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1602328564&sr=8-1

Worse, doesn't understand what anxiety really is

Leo being salty about being bald I presume ?

Didn't say the contrary, how could I know anyway ? It was just to emphasize the fact that you can't use your mind to get what enlightenment is, as you can with many other things usually. Either you're woke and understand, or not, and that's it

A wise man once told me that to awaken is like becoming lucid in a dream, except the degree of shock and wonder is infinitely greater. I cry like a little bitch whenever a lucid dream is a bit too intense.

If you were serious about infinity you wouldn't talk about it, you would contemplate it until you become directly conscious of what it is :3

Is necroposting allowed ?

And more importantly, Tacos.

In one of the biggest backlash I ever had

Do you really think a tacos will answer you ? ? You're delusional ! It's all in your mind ! You are God ! WAKE UP !!! ?? Thank you ☺

What do you mean ? ???

When you walk in a forest, you probably aren't disturbed by bird chirping. So don't worry, thoughts are at best a very persistent bird that follow you everewhere and shout in your ears. That doesn't happen very often, unless you live in the trees and forgot there is a road to walk below ?

Such choices, much freedom, wow love !

That was more questions in order to contemplate rather than to answers to someone on the forum

@LfcCharlie4 How could you be how you are now without everything happening the way it did ? Would you even be you if just one percent changed ? How do you know your past isn't the best that it could ever have been for you to be as peaceful as of now ? How do you know those people aren't exactly where they are now so they can later find whatever will help them to find peace ?

Think about you 10 years ago, do you feel sorry for your younger self ?