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It won't be as hard as you might think guys, because wet dreams will occur regularly. Maybe not the first time you start, because you will be very focused on not doing it, but when you are out of the addiction, I guess your mind is open to it and will let the fluid out while having wet dreams (that's my take on it, maybe totally wrong). Unless you're a Zen master, you'll cum anyway, so it won't be that hardcore. At first it will be hard, because you'll have to go out of your porn and masturbation addiction, and since most guys relapse, it can take months, after that it will be easy as fuck, and at some point you won't even think of it anymore. Don't give up though, being free of porn and the craving of masturbation is very freeing, one of the best thing that happened in my life besides stopping my identification with thoughts.

You are less aware of your body because your awareness is more focused on other stimulus, which ultimately is also you (everything is awareness). That said, you can choose to remain focused in the present and see all these things more clearly, without getting lost in them, but that will require patience and will. Mindfullness work is required, if you can't be even be conscious in small tasks (shower,cooking,cleaning,walking,waiting), how can you expect being conscious when you're bombarded with stimulus (argument,noise,work etc...) ? Just do the task that you have to do without thinking, and when a thought come, be aware of it without indentify to it. With time you'll be able to be aware even in situations that would usually trigger you into deep inconscious behaviors. Nothing can take your awareness, because even when you're totally inconscious, that's still awareness. If you can think of a moment where you were totally inconcsious, then you were aware, otherwise there would be nothing to remember, it's just that you were identified with a thought/situation, which is still YOU, even if for now it's seems silly or crazy.

Awakening in a nutshell

Can't wait to be under the blanket with you watching our favorite movies together @Loreena Then I ain't just a sex toy to you ?

Bentinho, the sexy teacher

It's relatively true, because the day you awaken and see what other people really are, you'll start to talk and act very differently towards them. On the level of form it doesn't make any difference for sure, so people could think you're the same person since your form identity didn't changed, but like you said EVERYTHING is different inside

I'm all the love you need :3 @Loreena I'm at your door, please surrender. @Loreena I won't lull babies to sleep, it's your time this night. I promise you to do the thing I promise though

Not just sexual, it's just that at my stage of developement, I don't think I can be friends with a girl if I found her attractive. @Beau and @jse @Beau Well, you two doesn't live that much afar from each other, and you're both looks like nice people, so why not ? :3

Prepare notes where you write "You still have to function in this world, don't quit your job you dumbass" Place them everywhere in your house. You're all set.

Definitely a thing, I tried everything to see if I could turn into an extrovert, it is impossible. Some people might think they are introvert, but they are just shy and have social anxiety. It is hard to say if someone is introvert or not, unless they deeply explain how they feel during specific group meeting/while they are alone. Most people would never do that if they are shy or have anxiety, so only them can know that, by doing introspection. There is a lot of people who are ambivert though, which is the middleground. A book to read if you feel like you might be an introvert (just do some tests on google), it is so important for your mental well-being to read it: The introvert advantage Others books you could read about it : Introvert Power: Why Your Inner Life Is Your Hidden Strength by Laurie A. Helgoe (Jul 1, 2008) Self-Promotion for Introverts: The Quiet Guide to Getting Ahead by Nancy Ancowitz (Oct 16, 2009) Introverts in the Church: Finding Our Place in an Extroverted Culture by Adam S. McHugh (Oct 27, 2009)

@philosogi If you aren't confident and grounded, you'll have to deal with rejection/negativity from people. No one knows what introversion is, they just assume you're shy or arrogant, not that you function differently Even if you explain it, most of the time they think you're bullshitting them, that you try to lie about you despising them, which is not the case most of the time.

Meditation isn't an activity, it is a constant "doing". If you're only meditating while doing your sitted meditation, don't seek further, that's your problem. The only way to really increase your consciousness is to be mindful as much as you can throughout your day, even when you do something (and obviously when you do nothing). Unless you increase drastically your meditation to 2 hours per day or more, you won't get any huge gain from your sitted meditation, it's just maintance at this point. Tips

@Prabhaker I just want to tell you, it's not because I was hard on you that I despise you, quite the contrary

You didn't find new friends since then ? Why not ? If you have some money you could do some spiritual retreat (if that's your thing), you'll find what you need there (personally I don't have the money). Even if we lived in the same town, you seem way too cute for us to be friends

Thank you for your answers @Afonso Yeah, that's basically where I am, but I still can't socialize more than 2/3 hours without feeling burned out. If you don't feel this, you never were a introvert, which is nice for you now

Ok ... So, this night, I had (2 times) what I would call "The door experiment". It was such a frightening experience, that even though it happened 3 hours ago, I'm still in fear, I can't sleep or stop thinking about it. The experience is simply your death, or to be more precise, God that ask you this question: "ARE YOU READY TO DIE ???!!!" How does that felt ? Well, it's impossible to communicate, but I'll try. What's gonna happen, is that you'll sense something coming from your field of awareness, spreading from the inside. This thing, I would call it "The Infinite Void", will spread, so FUCKING FAST and is so FUCKING PAINFUL, that you'll have only two options: - Have faith and surrender - Be so afraid that you would instantly back the fuck off (I "chose" this one without hesitation) There is no third option, there can't be one, this is so overwhelming and intense that even thinking about your worst experience X infinity isn't even enough to describe it ... This is heavy shit you're into now, and when you've experienced this, you know it's going to come again, and you also know it can happen at any time ... This wasn't intentional, It is not like taking some drugs, you don't have any control over it, you don't choose when it happens, and it doesn't give a shit if you're ready or not ... There is no coming back from this, it can't be unseen, YOU CAN'T GO BACK ! SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT ! Ahah, you're fucked

My mind is trying to trick me into believing all of this is just bullshit. This afternoon it felt as if my mind was in total denial for a brief minute. I knew this will come sooner of later, and I don't think I will identify with these kinds of thoughts, But just in case, what do you do that works wonder in this particulary case ? @Martin123 I don't feel epic, I can be pretty egotic sometimes (like when I call people sheep ). I also use the word "I" and talk about myself way too much, instead of directly answering the posts. I'm like far from being "epic" in my book

@Ether In my personal experience, this is what I had to do to come closer to truth: Accepting all my flaws, and working on them. Accepting to watch and deconstruct all my inner beliefs, even those who makes me cry and feel like I'm dying. Accepting that all the wants I had/have was/are flawed. Accepting the fact that I'm not important and never will. Accepting the fact that I will die, and maybe never find out what the truth is. Accepting that nothing is certain, and that I don't know anything (not really). Going to go into uncharted territory just because my intuition tells me too. Going beyond my fears just because my intuition tells me it has to be done. I had to stop judging people and myself. I had to stop conceptualizing everything. I had to stop labelling everything. I had to stop learning and studying just to know more things. I had to stop hearing news and tv, even if it means I will sound like a total weirdo in conversations. I had to stop all the addictions that I had, even if it meant doing nothing all day until I find something more genuine to me. Seeing my sense of self as a damaged "thing" that can't and have to be taken seriously . Dropping all my desires to have right or wrong. Dropping all cultural norm that my intuition tells me too. Dropping the mask and act as I feel I have too, even if it means no ones gonna like it. You basically have to make yourself feel miserable (in the eyes of the ego), then you'll stop indentifying with it more and more

See it this way: If you have to cut one of your finger to save your arms, what would you do ? Why would sex be an egotic thing ? It can be, just like anything, but if you just enjoy it and want to have fun/share love with someone very special to you, how is that egotic ? You can have sex without any ego involved right now if you want. It would be egotic if you use it as an abuse, or as a way of finding completion though, which is sadly the case of many many people.

Fucking troll Just some minor samadhis and one big with my ex girlfriend. Then this. This is interesting, because my fake sense of self tried lots of things in the past months, but it only increased "my" will to meditate and be even more present. Maybe he's desperate now

^^ This is the thing I like to do the most nowadays, it's just so funny how much people can't stand silence, when you're like "oh silence, NICE !" Silence can be the most beautiful thing in a conversation, because it's when eyes really meet, especially when you're with your intimate ones, such a shame so few people likes it.

That's only your mind using this piece of info as an excuse to act as a jerk. True masters are full of love and compassion, it's just they don't suffer from it, they just want to help. Just as @Lenny said, if you diverge from the path, sooner or later you'll start identifying with your suffering, so don't listen to the bullshit that your mind is feeding you, it just wants to go back, classical homeostasis. These two questions works wonderful: Where do thoughts come from ? What if I'm just an idea?

Of course, love and lust aren't the same http://www.drjudithorloff.com/Free-Articles/Difference-Between-Love-and-Lust.htm Watch out ladies, if one of these signs appear, you are in trouble: A little voice in your gut says “danger” or “beware.” You have a sense of malaise, discomfort, or feeling drained after you’re together. Your attraction feels destructive or dark. You’re uncomfortable with how this person is treating you, but you’re afraid that if you mention it, you’ll push him or her away.

Well, if you like being a parrot, be a parrot, I guess that's a calling. You could also tells in your own intimate way what you understand about a passage from a Master, without even reading the passage, and just using your intuition, You know that thing we each have in common, since we're all one. @Prabhaker The harm is to yourself. By doing that, you don't develop your potential, you limit yourself to be a simple parrot, instead of being a individual with its own understanding, its own preference, its own style. That also limit you in the sense that you glorify this master, but he's just a dude, like you and me. By putting him on a pedestal, you limit your own capacity to transcend, and to actually really understand what this guy was saying ... It is also feeding your ego, since you never quote your source...