Shin

The Power Of Now is all you need to awaken.

Yes and no. https://www.eckharttollenow.com/new-home-video/default.aspx?shortcode=vx6itm

When you help someone, and they ask you why you did it.

To me, the lyrics are about reality, not women

Quit porn first, simply brute force yourself to not watch porn and masturbation altogether. You don't need to masturbate, you'll have wet dreams every 1 to 2 weeks, your body will do the job all by itself. Don't add or supress anything to your life untill this has been dealt with, otherwise it will be quite easy to backslide. You can do it in one go, don't listen to people who says you can't (If I did it, anyone can ). Why quitting masturbation too ? Because every time you'll masturbate, you'll think of porn, this goes together in your mind right now. Even if you weren't addicted to porn, you should stop masturbation anyway, cause it sucks you A LOT of energy (and like I say, the body will ejaculate when it needs to anyway). Overthinking is dealt only after a long sitted meditation and mindfulness (watching your thought and trying to be present at least 5 minutes a day) streak. So do that after having dealt with the above addictions

Everytime I start a meditation (you=god):

Such nothing Much nothing WOW NOTHING !!!

... You just have to believe in it. It's that simple. If you don't believe you deserve happiness, you won't. If you don't believe you can ace that test/job/career, then you won't. If you don't believe you can be at peace, right now, you won't. If you don't believe you can be attractive/confident, guess what, you won't. If you don't believe you can start a successful business, well, you won't. If you don't believe you are already enlightened, yeah, you got it, YOU WON'T ! NOT IN 10 YEARS, NOT IN 1 YEAR, NOT IN 1 MONTH, NOT TOMORROW, NOT IN 2 HOURS, NOT IN 1 SECOND

I don't know what to do anymore. Seems like the only thing there is to do is to have faith and ask silently what we are until we know. I don't care anymore, if I have to sit all day doing nothing, so be it. @electroBeam Don't worry, it has nothing to do with my level of happiness/peace, I'm just being pulled by it, and there is nothing else that feels interesting enough to pursue than this anymore

For those who would argue that "If I was enlightened, I would be aware of it, I would see everything as me, everything would be spacious blablabla" NO ! This is not how it works, and this is why past and future are an illusion too. There is nothing outside of the present moment, except that you've never been there before ... All the meditations, retreats, whatever you've done, you've never been in the present, Because if you did, you would had an enlightenement/awakening experience already. Do you realize what that mean ? That means everytime you meditate, or be mindful, you're not present. You don't, you think you do, because there is no thoughts, nothing, but even there your mind is running the show ... It is still there, inconsciously trying to get "there". Even when you're very "present", there is still a tiny bit of it, seeking, or manipulating your experiences. SO HOW DO YOU DO IT ???!!!

Use the belief to realize that it is true, then drop it. You don't need to believe in something you know it's true, it just is. Of course that requires a certain "level" of awareness, otherwise you'll just go full neurotic as you said.

Yes it is. The more addiction you overcome, the more you'll start to understand why people are the way they are, you'll be more and more accepting towards them and reality as a whole. When you overcome an addiction, you realize that your mind can't be what you are. You can't overcome your mind with your own mind. Something else is there ...

You have to watch them without getting lost in them. If you do that, at some point you'll begin to laugh at them, and they will start to disappear

This is a stage you have to go through. You can't become still without seeing the madman in you first. Even when you'll be peaceful, the madman will still be there, the only difference is that you'll know the madman isn't you. So you won't care if he scream, fear, or is unhappy, in fact you'll be grateful to feel these emotions, cause at this point you'll know they are only signs. They'll point to which beliefs you have to transcend, in order to free yourself. Fear is one of these emotions, so you won't fear to go through fear either

Gotta believe that you can drop your beliefs first. So you have to believe that you can't believe. That's how fucked up this all thing is.

@Sevi Yes I did, one of the best meditation session I ever had.

I still can't focus for more than 5 minutes too, and I have no particular problem with my brain. I guess it takes (a lot) of time.

Depend on the individual. Some will like guided meditation, some will dislike it. Some will appreciate group meditation, some will prefer solo meditation. Now, don't rely too much on guided and group meditation, most of the time you'll have to do it by yourself, alone. Unless you're in a monastery or rewatch the same guided meditation over and over of course. I don't recommand this though, meditation is about making the inconscious, conscious, and having to deal with emotional trauma/existential crisis, and this will happen much more if you meditate alone.

Sounds like your ego is using spirituality to get lazy. The joy of doing these things will come back in time, you'll just be detached from them (except the ones that weren't authentic) You won't search completion in them, and in the end you will enjoy them more

It's gonna take at least a few weeks of intense work, probably months. Be patient and don't forget to forgive/love yourself in the process

This will be your face when you'll realize how pointless judgments are (for real) @Annetta Yes, that would be a nice thing to do. You will be so PEACEFUL when you won't judge anyone (even yourself) and anything anymore. It's like night and day

This Come back, I'm ready now ! I PROMISE, NO LIE !!!