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That's a long phrase to say, I hope your spouse already know you're kind of crazy, otherwise she might ask divorce (if you don't die on the road by saying that everytime a dick cut you off)

How many minutes do you meditate, and how many minutes do you think you're aware of your thoughts everyday ? @Preetom No, dysfunction is brought to you from your increasing awareness, it has always been there. This is why so many people after picking up meditation, declare an increase of dysfunctional behavior/thoughts after a certain time. The thing is, nothing really changes the first weeks/months, after a certain point you suddenly can see all your bullshit, and THEN you start to really act towards them. You can't act on something you don't even know it's there

First you think it's a concept to grasp Then you think it's an experience Then you think it's a state of mind Then you think it's the "meditation state after XX time" Then you realize this "state" is always there Then you deepen it whenever you do nothing Then you deepen it whenever you do something Then you deepen it whenever you talk to people Then you deepen it whenever a critical situation comes into your life ... PROFIT !!!

@Afonso You don't identify with it, but the emotions are still there, so technically he could still be a pussy. It's not because you don't identify with a certain emotions/thoughts that it doesn't scare you, you just know it's not you talking to yourself. It doesn't really change anything to your life (practically I mean), if you were a pussy, you'll still be a pussy, that's something you'll have to work on enlightened or not.

This morning, when I awoke, I was just starring at my window, fully present. At some moment I woke up and touched the thing to open the window shutter (don't know how it's called in my own language ). I saw that thing rising itself, knowing that I was rising it, without actually doing it physically. I was seeing the scene from my bed, as if I was still laying down, but I could feel that I was doing it, that my "body" was there too ... At first I thought I was in some sort of partial dreaming, but when I finally could rise from my bed (I've tried many times), I didn't wake up again ... Don't know if it may be related or not, but before that I had a huge burst of energy in my heart, it wasn't physical pain, something different. What was that ? Astral Projection ? MAGIC ?! :TLDR:

Oh boy, here we go

Bentinho Massaro Thoughts will stop, in the sense that you realize there is no point to think most of the time. Past/future and judgments thoughts will be perceived as irrelevants, and since those thoughts consist of 90% of our thoughts, in a way, we can say thoughts stops. I guess it is possible to only have insights and no traditional thoughts at all when you're really really deep into this. There is no necessity to that though, even if you're full of thoughts, if you can be aware of them instead of being inconsciously identify to them, no problem.

I'm starting to get very interested to try shrooms and other substances now. It would be cool to mess up my mind even more about what reality is or isn't I've realize that if you take this all thing less seriously, by just being curious about it (doesn't mean you stop being disciplined, that's different), it's way smoother and you get better results @Nahm Care to explain more plz ?

The first 5 minutes are enough.

http://www.consciouslifestylemag.com/mindfulness-powerful-exercises-peace-of-mind/ Read the entire article.

But "all the baggage you're still carrying around" are thoughts too ... Yes, be patient and don't skip your meditation, and be more present whenever you can, and it will all be very clear. You don't need the ""ultra orgasmic "rare and difficult" enlightenment shift"" to realize this. It's way simpler and easy to feel than that.

First, pursue a girl you're really attract to, and not just physically. You need to like most of her personality, and sensing that you have some kind of chemistry between you two. If you can feel a girl makes you feel this way, then it will happen one way or another, don't overthink what you need to do, just go closer and closer to her, both mentally and physically. Ask her more personal questions, be more intimate with her in that way, and don't hesitate to touch and play/flirt with her too. It will happen organically if you do all this, she may even do it herself based on her personality

Do you realize that the statement "life is meaningless" Is just a thought ?

"If I am in control, why can't I stop my heart beating ?" LOOK AT YOUR HEARTH BEAT AND YOUR BELLY MOVING ALL BY THEMSELVES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"What if I'm a thought ?" "What's seeking ?"

That looks like way too much theorizing, do your homework, OR I WILL SLAP YOUR FINE ASS ! "Fine, enough cuddle, go back to the kitchen female !" @electroBeam LoL no, not gonna waste years just to be rich, I already know it's an illusion ^^ If it's not concepts in your mind, then it's just a phase that will pass, nothing to worry about

I don't think you're more depressed than before, It's just that you cannot hide these feelings with porn and self-pleasuring anymore (which clouds the mind a lot). That's actually a good thing, inquire on why you do have these emotions

Try to get a samadhi experience after long hours of meditation. You can't really go back after that @electroBeam Peace, bliss, love. You don't need a goal to have/give that to people you meet/know. You'll most likely have a goal if you start to tap on that though.

"Stop running from your pain, and embrace your pain"

@WaterfallMachine What do you mean by that ? Are you just annoyed by those emotions, like it's not pleasant but you let them be, and you just try to understand why you feel this way ? Or do you hate and/or judge yourself for having those emotions ? That's the distinction that changes everything, because in the first one it doesn't really matters what sort of emotions comes, you won't become them and they won't impact how you behave. If you want to work on anxiety, the best exercice is to think about something that makes you feel bad, by bringing awareness to it (if you get lost in the emotion it won't work obviously), repeatedly untill it doesn't trigger you. It's challenging and totally counter-intuitive, because that means you intentionally wants to feel pain, no "sane" mind would want to do that @WaterfallMachine If you start to embody that judgment and running from your fears is counter-productive, and it starts to really happen in your life, it's a huge step. When you'll embody totally that, nothing will be able to stop you anymore

You could be fat and ugly that you would still be able to attract good looking women, it's all about how confident/humorous/detached you are from them that counts, not how you look like (which is not an excuse to not take care of your health/body ofc). You may think looks matters, because almost all good looking guys are confident/humorous and detached (or at least appears so), but they got all that BECAUSE they think looks matters, you see ... You gotta work on your self-esteem and your detachement first. So start a meditation habit, 20 minutes per day, and read this book, and this one.

Do you expect to never have any "bad" emotions ever again ? Even if it was possible, that's not what you're looking at, you're looking at what you're experiencing right now. Which is the space that engulf everything there is, without thinking it's good or bad.