Shin

... Because we are lazy ... After awakened from the dream of thoughts, the only reason why we still seek is either because: We don't do self-inquiry enough (30 minutes a day is not too much to ask). We don't "practice" presence/awareness enough (it has to become a second nature) We let our mind wander too much (bad diet, bad sleep schedule, no/volatile meditation habit) We let ourselves be too inconscious instead of having an iron will to discover the truth (relationships drama, too much video games/shows/tv) If we've really awakened, our thoughts doesn't matter anymore We know it can't be an experience/state of mind, and we clearly see through the illusion of what is called "future". If we remove all this shit, it comes FAST. FAST like months or even weeks ... It's all up to us There is no traps except our own lazyness at this point.

The monkey mind likes to think the big shift will occurs in a epic retreat in the mountain, sit on front the valley, tears of joy and shit. When in reality, it has much more chance to happen when you're on the toilet taking a dump ...

Now you get a healthy diet, you stop the addictions that takes you most of your time and replace that by more time spent in nature/meditation, and you just be.

Your true self and the ego, can be seen in both ways @Natasha I've talked with Leo (your brother), he told me he won't sell you for less than 42 sheeps and 7 camels. Unfortunately I only have 12 and 3, respectively

Do you realize this is the mind creating this excuse/rationalization ? The only way to know is to experience it for yourself, just don't follow the good excuses that your mind gives you. Don't listen to it, and just force a samadhi/no-self experience, and you won't believe your mind anymore when it tells you such negative bullshit Don't believe this fucker !

Your #1 priority is to get the fuck out of this house/appartment and be at peace in your own. @HypSandar I'm not a medium dude, just specify it next time Depending on your country, you can do that I think, just check the legal stuff.

I doubt that someone who's still addicted to porn can do that. Tantric masturbation or whatever you want to call it is not for someone who just start trying to quit porn and masturbation+ejaculation.

Do both. No porn is kind of useless if you don't stop masturbation altogether because you'll still fantasize women in your head while fapping. Even if you don't and just focus on your pleasure, it's still a waste of time and energy, so there is no excuses.

Read this (whether you're a woman or a men doesn't make any difference): https://www.amazon.com/Way-Superior-Man-Spiritual-Challenges-ebook/dp/B004A8ZWM4

I just dreamed of Leo being fat, having a huge weird dark beard, with glasses, and a cool hairstyle ! He was dancing and using anime memes, talking about enlightenment, his appartment was filled with weird emo posters. After that I dreamed about an hardcore version of "The Wisperer Of Darkness" from Lovecraft, was way less funny ... @Natasha I was kinda joking, I live like 5000 km from where you work you know

You don't know that, just as the op don't know if its claim is real or not. These are just thoughts in your mind, you actually really don't know if Jesus lived, or the Buddha, or even Gandhi. You don't even know if your president is a real person or not, may be a total fiction, just like you don't know almost anything in life (as everyone else). Most of the things we think we know is just beliefs in our minds, with no first hand experience to back it up, it's just stories. This is critical to understand if you walk the path, because everything, and I literally mean EVERYTHING you didn't experience for yourself, is just a story.

https://www.trinfinityacademy.com/courses/enlightenment-1-part-2-person-wakes-up-to-presence/lesson-6-presence-is-unobscurable-already-present/ https://www.trinfinityacademy.com/courses/enlightenment-1-part-2-person-wakes-up-to-presence/lesson-8-everything-confirms-existence/

The first few months I was meditating 2 to 3 hours everyday, so every 2 weeks or so I had a samadhi. Most of them I didn't even search for, but it was kind of easy to force it by watching into a dog or a cat eyes for more than 5 minutes. I don't think you need to meditate that long everyday to get one, just do a hardcore week end with 3 to 6 hours per day in long sessions and try on some peaceful and stationary animals like rabbits or cats, or your girlfriend/wife (if she's patient ). Now you talk about short glimpses of Samadhi, but those samadhi I'm talking about lasted for like 2 to 3 seconds, but it's enough to realize spirituality is no bullshit. Same thing for a no-self experience, it's just about doing nothing in nature/meditating for a very long period of time, and it comes naturally. @Captain Flint You might not even need anything else than trying, it's not like you're a total newbie.

For how long did you search ? To say what you say, that means you didn't even get a samadhi or a no-self experience, which aren't that hard to get You can have those easily in the first weeks/months.

Drop the need for better conceptualization of the truth, and do some affirmations of "There is nothing to seek" untill it sticks inconsciously. It doesn't matter how much you understand it conceptually or how much you meditate/self-inquiry, because as long as you think it's something to get or to grasp, it will stay out of reach. Sooner or later you'll have to do that, so do it now, saves yourself years or decades of unnecessary seeking.

When you're close, but life says "LOL NO BRO"

I want her number. For experimental purpose, of course :3

It feels like I'm trapped into this body. This must be the most ingenius joke ever

You got to keep doing mindful activities like hiking alone, sitted meditation, meditation whatever you do, life seeing (like you just sit and watch what happens without thinking about it) etc Basically you just be without seeking anything, the mind can't transcend itself by itself, that's why we say that "there is nothing to do". There is nothing to do on the level of the mind, that's why most of the posts in here are basically mental masturbation, which is the exact opposite of what you're supposed to "do", which is simply nothing else than being fully alive. Thoughts/Mind aren't a problem in themselves, they are at the beginning, when they don't know they are the obstacles to what they want to attain. When they understand that, they will be more and more cooperative (in a sense) to be your "slaves", instead of you being their slave. They won't be an issue because you will just see and hear them like you see or hear a car passing by, or a bird singing.

My mind keeps telling me there is nothing I can do. Interesting.

Are you saying that I'm a virgin ? I thought this was handled SHHHHHHHH, plz don't, I need my fun