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I'm sexually active for a year, and I still don't know myself sexually ... If you knew what you want, you wouldn't ask on this forum, and certainly not about this topic. You don't have to be all "slutty" to get to know yourself sexually, just don't repress it if something happens, and definitely get to know more people of the opposite sex. A contract is a piece of paper, or a mental note, it means nothing and achieve nothing. My uncle and aunt never married, still they never separate and raised 2 really adorable and smart child.

Rest in peace

Maybe it's the killer answering ...

Could be anyone, and I doubt Leo ride bikes.

Without psychedelics implies some kind of enlightenment experience. You need to meditate a lot, be conscious 24/24, self-inquire a lot, spend a lot of time in nature (alone), practice self-love and allowing yourself to be vulnerable and open to others, follow your intuitions. If you do all that, it will happen in some months/years, eventually.

Instead of just entertaining the desire to commit suicide, inquire the feelings and thoughts that makes you think you really want that. It's only scary the first few times, after that you will see it as a joke. If you don't, you will likely be sadder and sadder to the point you would actually, for real try to commit suicide, just like every people who fear to inquire within. It's just a perspective, as hard it may feels, it's a temporary feeling that will fade away in due time.

A singularity experiencing itself. What we think or not is irrelevant though, untill you experience it for yourself it's just mental masturbation past the concept phase (which so many people are stuck in for life). @Amit Just take 5-meo.

That you and Jesus are the same, therefore you are both always alone and not at the same time. The concept of loneliness doesn't even exist if you realize that, you can't be alone if being alone is all there is ... If you already had a deep lucid dream, it's the same deal, every person you meet is not someone else, it's you, except it feels and acts like someone else. Reality as you know it, is just an another dream, except you forgot about it, which makes the dream too serious, and therefore you suffer because of this ignorance. You may think it's not, because a lifetime feels very long in this reality, but remember that time is relative, and the reason you think a "regular dream" is short is because you wake up in this reality again. Your brain register that you were asleep for a few hours and then makes you believe that this reality is more real because of that. I have nothing to back this off except personal experiences, but to me it is very clear that dreams are experiences of others realities/dreams, and not a intra brain experience. When you sleep, your brain just daze off and "you" are randomly (or not) channeled through an another parcel of infinity.

It's hard to catch a fish, when you're the fish itself.

Typical mind awakening. "Nothing matter, nothing exist, I DON'T CARE !"

If your mind is telling you that you already know everything and there is nothing to do anymore, it is a big trap. It's both true and false, but your mind will use this statement to go full inconscious again most of the time, backtracking on everything it can. You have to trust your instinct/intuition, not what your mind says. It's easy to know which is which, in the first case you have a deep sense of peace and you seem to be aligned with life, in the second you become agitated and full of doubt.

It's the substance of everything, in reality there is no boundaries between anything. It's all the same consciousness/awareness/whatever. There is no difference between a piece of paper, a bottle of water and your hand, you are just blind to it. Even saying that you're blind to it is not quite true, because you are seeing it right now, you're just not paying attention.

Be happy it's just that, it could be way worse ! Like feeling that a certain portions of your body (or the whole body) is dying/disappearing, or when your mind go insane and can't be stopped, or infinite fear coming from all directions etc ...

So funny that this post is made the second day I'm starting to get back to 2 hours meditation a day AND that I was thinking the same thing.

Because it's filled with drama, rape, murder, sex, violence and political stuff. It's not bad, it's quite amazing actually, but for a very neurotic and egotic person, it just feeds their heads with more drama that will activate more drama and so on, just like any show/news ...

I just meditated for an hour, instant bliss :3

Huge waste of time. You will find more wisdom by listening and reading from spiritual master in 1 month than studying philosophy for the rest of your life. Peter Ralston, Eckhart Tolle, and the Buddha (Siggarta) for example.

The fact that you think you have a self-image is the reason of all your sufferings in life. Better realize that first, everything else is secondary really.

When you wake up in the morning, assuming you slept enough.

One of the last addiction I have, is video games. It takes me so much time, and I've tried for at least a 100 times to stop. I play since I've 3, so this isn't just a minor addiction, all the last pieces of my identity are into it. I want to stop because I have to clear a lot of room for other stuff that I need to do If I want to come closer to my goal. I don't think it's stupid or brainless or whatever, it's just an entertainment, and there is nothing inherently wrong with it, just that It takes me too much time and that I know that I'll have to drop it one day anyway. I struggle a lot with that, I know that it could take a long time, and that I I'll to put a lot of energy into it. I already have some success with these kind of work, for example it's been 4 months that I didn't watch any porn or fantasize about women during masturbation (and only masturbate at the very max 3 times a month), so I know it can be done, but quitting porn and masturbation was easy compared to this. What helped you the most ? What habit or knowledge did you find useful ? I'm already going to take a serious investigation on that right now, but I doubt I'll got all the juicy sources and advices that you could come up with. For those who have the same kind of problem, these videos helped me a lot clearing all the other addictions I had. If you don't have a goal, it could just be enlightenment, to be free, totally free.

Can you be aromantic and still love everyone ? Like, you love everyone but just can't feel it ?

Well, I've come to the conclusion that I need to stop doing the shitty and highly exhausting jobs I was doing in the industries to gain a lot of money. I was saving to not have to work for the first year of college, but I almost already have all the money needed anyway. I think I'll go to mc donald and do something like 10 hours a month, I'll still have double the amount I needed anyway, and could focus on getting the habits I want and have lots more energy to resist the bad ones. Sounds like a good plan !