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Nono, I mixed up my post before editing correctly When I talked about Adyashanti, he talked about different types of awakenings. You could experience infinite (heart) but no nothingness (mind) (or vice versa). The way he phrased it was that you could be enlightened from the mind for a long time (so you only see that reality has no substance and you are it), then you open your heart and experience infinity too (divine love and deep connection with everything you interact). It corroborate with what Rali from Naked Reality said in multiple videos. @Shanmugam Doesn't answer my question though

I don't see how we could really know that no enlightened dude feels special, you only have your own experience right ? Event if it look stupid and impossible when you are it, you can't really know for sure right ? Adyashanti talks about the mind vs heart awakening, so in a sense you can't be right, you could still only partially experience the truth, to a large degree, no ?

One of the more important thing shouldn't be too get too cocky once you get enlightened ? Like thinking there is nothing more and you got it, and you're so special ? After all isn't possible to become only partially enlightened (mind vs heart) ?

Yeah, that will happen sooner or later, but you may have more important things to do now I don't personally think it's a good idea to have some deep realizations if you struggle with your psychology, because it will make things even worse. Some people become completely crazy because they didn't care about their psychology before doing this kind of work, they've gone too far too quick. Too much psychedelics, too much retreat etc ... At the same time I don't like saying things like that because it can be used as a defense mechanism to not do anything towards it.

Not really, but it will

Well I talk to them, but to me it's like there is just a physical appearance using words, but I don't fundamentally feel like it's an another person. There is a glitch in the matrix, if I fully felt it it should be enlightenment from what I know conceptually.

I don't understand what you're saying (no joke)

Just googled Shibari, well, I guess I'm in for a long jogging

lol It still doesn't feel like you really exist, just like the people I saw this morning and even my mom. But I'm still helping you

@Charlotte I don't know, that's precisely why I'm doing shadow work on that. I don't want to limit myself and others out of fear by bullshitting myself. Probably not the case, but until it does not trigger me at all when I think deeply about it, and when I actually talk about it with the gf, then there is no real decision you can make, because if there is fear the decision/preference is biased. Don't go too far too quick though, start a session of 30 minutes every week, that's already pretty intense if you do it right with a fear that really holds you back.

You basically go down very deep in you and find your hidden fears and face them in your mind, again and again until the fear dissolves. Well it dissolves in your mind but in practice you will still fear it at some level. For example one of my fear is to be in an open relationship, and even though it doesn't makes me feel bad when I think about it, I'm pretty sure that when I'll actually do it, there will be plenty of fear. So you'll get almost never triggered when you talk about those fears, which is good because it means that in lot of situations you'll act more consciously, without being a reaction robot. @Charlotte Everytime you get triggered, note the situation with some key words to remember what was the discussion or event. Then when you are calm enough and have some time, you force yourself to realize what is the problem there, and imagine a situation where you live that.

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He's a teacher that speaks from a place of pure love, way more than most teacher.

The only thing news does is to fill your mind with subjects to debate. There is zero substance in them ( it's just beliefs, you don't experience any of it), and you never need it to have meaningful conversations. People will think you're weird, but who cares ... I stopped one year ago, and I've never been happier. Your choice.

Be persistent and go see all the employement agency of your coty once pa week. You'll find something at some point, just don't give up

Whether or not there is really something that is doing it or if it's automatic here doesn't really matter. You can definitely focus on it, it's a choice, or at least appears like a choice. Just gotta practice more.

Trust me, you really don't

I think there is some truth there. My ex was a person that has been beaten by his brother all his life until 2 years ago, and had things like this very frequently. She was also very afraid of the dark, couldn't take night stroll and her own, even then she couldn't go where it was too dark.

I'm glad you made it

I'm sorry dude What is your job situation ? In such a case your first priority should be to have your own place.

I know that conceptually, but I try not to think of any concepts anymore, which apparently is working @Key Elements Can't do that, it's way too cold outside, I would just get sick. I definitely walk a lot though. @Leo Gura The word depression was too much I know, but it is just so strong and I forgot it could happen. Too cocky, get dickslapped by life

There is so many girls out there, you don't need her specifically. Just dump her if she continue to see him after you were very clear you don't like it. From what you've said she could already cheating on you, she just is very good at making this casual, so casual that she tells you about it right in front of your face.

Do they actually harm you physically ?

But when I write stuff like that, the words just come, nothing is from me. It just feels great when there is no mind to try to get some identification out of it, but you can't praise anyone for it. So what the fuck is amazing there, I need to investigate.

The body is really weird. If I'm not lost in an activity, It's like my energy body is all there is (physically speaking). It's empty, wet full, and I started to notice it moving by itself very elegantly, as if it was moving by itself (even though I still think I control it).