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@Charlotte There was no time during the experience right ? Also check this, it will help you: https://www.trinfinityacademy.com/courses/enlightenment-1-part-1-introduction-course/ It's from that course that I started to see that everything was made of the same thing as me, and seeing the "soul" of everything

How did it feel ? Were you conscious of the body ? Or were you totally out of space, like in a sort of totally empty field with just consciousness being conscious of itself ?

Can you sense one coming ? Because If you can, I will make some poster where I write: "You aren't the shit" "This is temporary" "Don't start teaching stupid noob" etc ...

Thank you dude, I thought this was safe.

Whatever you decide to do, always take at least 1 hour everyday to find your life purpose or to work on it everyday. It's easy to get lost in other stuff that seems WAY MORE important. I would recommand the life purpose course from Actualized.org, it's really worth it, but if you find an another one or want to do it on your own that's ok, even though I don't think It's a good idea to limite yourself like that.

@Natasha I don't understand you woman, try to at least use 1% of your left brain when you talk to superior human beings. Maybe we will be able to decipher something from your antic and barbarian language, but I'm not optimistic.

Relatively speaking, yes Could have got at least 10 upvotes with this post ...

When you try to introduce Actualized.org to your friends ...

Is your first sentence a question ? BTW, I'm happy for you, you seem to be less confused than some months ago

I never know if someone is serious saying things like that, because I don't think I'm wise. I thought I was, for a long time, but now it sounds like a joke, because all I write is automatic. I just let my mind be a blank, then I have sounds in my head that tells me what to write, and my hands starts moving. If I don't know what to write, there is sounds in my head that appears and I do a google search on them, or I pick a book I have and search for certain notes. So I can't be wise, because nothing comes from me, you see ? It can looks that way from an external perspective, but internally there is no one that is doing anything. Something is wise yes, but it's not me

Ok so I don't know the diagnosis, but since it's exactly the same symptoms as me I can tell you what I did. I basically did what you're doing with meditation. Maybe you're not doing this though: Everytime I have a though I "watch" it and try not to identify with it, which result in almost no identification to any thoughts. That means that if I get sad, there is sadness but no me to be sad. If I'm acting like a an asshole, there is just assholery, I'm witnessing the reaction only. I basically did that all the time, everyday, and now there is still thoughts (can't get rid of them), but there is almost never an identification of them. It helps because if you witness anger or pain, you release it at the same time. Other thing I did, everything that I know that scars me, I imagine that I had to face it in my mind (like once a week for 30 minutes). It's the most frustrating and scary exercice I know, but it dissolve a lot of negative energy from you. You basically imagine the scenario, then you focus on the emotion that appear, not the scenario, not the thought. If the emotion goes away, you imagine again the scene, and focus only on the emotion again. Check my signature, there is a post that will help you with what you have. I still think you should see a psychologist, there may be things we overlooked, and I'm not a professional

You can also engage in the forum discussion. No one will bite you here, we are all there to help each other

My claim: You buried all your negative emotions from your past trauma inside, and now they aren't allowing you to feel emotions naturally. They are in your subconscious and like you said you can't even feel them most of the time, it's more like a subtle and consistent pain in your stomach . You never feel really alive, whatever you do, it's hard for you to genuinely smile, it's like there is no positive emotions that could come out of you, you don't even remember what it is to be happy or joyful, let alone to love (and you wonder if you ever knew). You are always stressed, and anxious too (maybe not much, but you do). Is that it ? Or do I assume some things here ?

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Continue to describe if you can, because if this was already there before you start to meditate or to be conscious of your thoughts, it's kind of strange. It sounds like what I had before starting actualized.org, I've been disconnected from people from an early age, and at school I was bullied from time to time, also mostly alone 95% of the time, does that sounds familiar or not ?

Repost because it's such a powerful one

Don't you think critizing them isn't really helping either ? Were you really at peace when you wrote that ? (Not critizing you, kind of paradoxically lol).

You just don't understand, they had a rough childhood ...

Ok then you should see a specialist, first medical, and if nothing can be found, a shrink. Could be a lot of things. Did you take the life purpose course ? Maybe it's a problem of passion, maybe what you think is a passion now isn't anymore, and just a habit (you didn't specify what that was). I would still see specialists just to be sure though. Concerning stopping to waste so much time on video games/anime/shows, there is this post: Can you describe this feeling of "dumbed down" in depth plz ? Like really in-depth.

How many times to you jerk off per day ? @Solvinden Private message if you're incomfortable to answer

What the f... ?

Yeah, shoking right ? Apparently I heard they can also use a car, but that seems like a whole new level of bullshit ...

Is your lack of energy chronic ? For how long have you felt "numbed down" ?