Shin

Because otherwise you couldn't experience suffering.

Friday Today was a funny backslide. I missed my train of 2:16PM because I forgot my backpack. I had to go back to my appartment, so I decided to walk since I would be late no matter what I do. From there I started to do stupid things My next train was at 4:16PM, so I could have waited at my flat and do some constructive things like doing some of the habits of the day. BUT NO !!! In my mind I paid for a 1 hour bus ticket (1,5€) so I HAD to take the next bus It's not like I'm living far from the train station, it's something like a 10 minutes walk So I just played Crash Royale and Brawl Stars for 2 hours, and since I already backslided at that point, my mind was like "hey, get some pancakes, like the one with disgusting nutella at 2€, it's not like you already ate a meal for 6€ today" When I finally got home at 5PM or so, I didn't have the will to do more than the rest of the habits of the day, I could have, but I didn't. This day made me realize that I didn't allowed myself to have just one day off in more than a week. So this backslide was a good thing in a sense, because now I will take one day off a week, and for now it will be friday

Today was weird. I got a wet dream which I ejaculated on, but I didn't feel depleted this time. Almost if not the same level of energy as usual !

That's how it feels: From "The Art of Peace and Happiness" by Rupert Spira

I'm considering switching affirmation or adding one in the Morning just before to leave the flat. The affirmations would be "I'm already enlightened" Bentinho course and the book of Rupert Spira starts to experientially make me realize I'm already enlightened, which I knew for some time intellectually. Now it's different, I don't "chase" the same way as before, I'm genuinely curious instead of trying to become something "more" That changes everything, because there is no pressure anymore, How could there be a pressure to be something you already are, it doesn't even make sense I think I start to understand what the meaning of "Don't chase enlightenment". It doesn't really mean to stop trying to realize it, it means to stop thinking you will become something else/will experience something else, that your current experience isn't already enlightenment. It can seems paradoxical, because we really don't feel and experience life how the teachers explain how they experience it. It isn't though, It's not because we don't feel inconditional love/eternal peace and freedom, that it isn't already there. We just can't feel it because we're confused, but being confused is very different than not being something. Being confused means you already know the Truth, but you forgot or are veiling it in some way, but it's still there at this very moment.

She needs to feel that you can handle yourself emotionally wise, and not act or say anything to please her just because she asked for it. This is because as a man you are energetically speaking the one who has the role of the leader, and she can't trust you with that if you can't stand your ground when she shit test you. How could she trust you to be a leader, if you can't handle her petty shit tests ? She needs that, because the feminine wants to surrender, totally. How could she surrender to someone who doesn't look like he can handle things as easy as a shit test ?

Rupert Spira teachings made me realize something very obvious. All the sensations, like in a dream () are made of the same stuff, and therefore, everything is just an expression of the same substance. It's hard to put into words, but everything feels the same, but at the same time you can differentiate the sensations if you need to, for practical purpose. We actually do that all the time, by thinking very subtly about it, like feel your hand right now without thinking about it as your hand. Just feel the raw sensations. Almost impossible to do, the mind will automatically associate and think about it as your hand, no matter you do. Of course it's not just about the hand, but everything else is either thought as us or not us, it's automatic and feels like we're doing nothing, but we do if we inquire deep enough. If you do, then even extreme temperature or physical pain, or whatever can't hurt you, you would just be conscious of it, and would still act to preserve the body from harm, but it wouldn't make you suffer at all. Usually I'm someone who has hard time with extreme temperature, but now it doesn't really matter, it's just a perception. Also we're not moving anywhere. The 3 dimensional world is an illusion, just like in a dream (), there is never a moment where it feels like you're moving. The character you're playing might seem to move, but you don't, there is nothing to move

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Level of lazyness of the day: Peeing without touching my dick at the common toilet, because I don't want to go back to my flat to wash my hands. It would have take 15 seconds top, literally.

Kinda don't understand why I'm always tired monday. It's not because of the sleeping schedule, because there are weeks where I'm fine and stable about this. Can't be the food, cause I don't eat something especially harsh to digest. Is it just the class that is just about taking notes, with nothing to understand ? Maybe my brain refuse to accept this bullshit, I don't know Quite happy that my friend is finally turning the page on the guy who just wanted sex out of her, by dating an another dude (that seems way better) One interesting thing to notice about that day, was when I was on the train, I was talking to someone, and behind this person 2 other people were also looking at me. It was like I was looking at me through them, while talking to them at the same time.

Procrastination is a dangerous habit of yours ? You often say to yourself "damn I had all days to do it, and it's 23 " ? The spiritual grillfriend often act passive agressive when you skip a day ? SAY NO MORE !!!!! HERE IS THE NEXT REVOLUTIONNARY ULTRA MAC 9001 MEDITATION TECHNIQUE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok. So you just wake up from a restful night. You put your legs as if you wanted to do abs, with the arms layed down along your chest and hips. You have your eyes open in the pitch black dark. Now you just stay there focusing on your breath, either on your belly or your throat/nose. VOILA !!! You have meditated even before the day begin. EVEN BEFORE YOU GET OUT OF YOUR BED !!!!! How easy and practical is that ! ... Of course it doesn't work if you're still tired when you wake up ...

The multi orgasmic man

It does. It's only one component though. Shadow work, meditation, remaining conscious during the day, self deception work is the full package

Check if that's healthy. Getting your dick erected that much everyday without never ejaculating might damage it.

Both time I walked, especially the second time, I was amazed of how life seems more and more dream-like. Everything feels great, even the wind, the cold, the grey sky, it's all beautiful in its own way. It's really amazing guys, I wish all of you could feel how I feel nowadays, it's like being a kid again. There is 100% trust in what will happen. I have 100% faith that life will support me. I noticed in the past few weeks, that everything I need comes to me effortlessly, without me seeking for it in the first place. Only happened once before, 2 years ago for the 6 months I was getting my bachelor degree, I was just focusing and what I genuinely felt I should do while still studying non-duality and meditating 2 hours a day. This happens because you are synchronizing with life, surrendering what you think you desire for what you really want, and letting life taking care of everything else.

He died Again What a prick ?

@Rilles Maybe he died again ???

Leo is dead. DEAD !!!!! ???

I demand a refund. Oh wait ... ?