Shin

The paradox is that even though I'm scared as fuck, I still inquire Go figure

It can't be complicated if it's what we are by default ...

Especially people who think they have too much thoughts or emotions to meditate, or that meditation is complex, or that it is an activity.

Exactly Shhhhh

This is so not true. I'm building my secret cult in here since 2 years, Leo never banned me

You can become highly psychotic and just batshit crazy.

This is green stage pill bullshit, I wish I could close this thread without any further explanation ! ??? ?

It's here we go again. You need meme classes ?

Stop listening so much music or stop thinking meditation is anything else than being aware of being aware.

What else could you possibly want to experience if you only had 3 days to live ?

I DIDN'T SIGN UP FOR THIS ????? Now I understand why almost no teacher ever talk in depth about this, we would never start the journey if we knew ?

Literally shitting in my pants right now ????

Be prepared to the eventuality that you could die. Research «enlightenment on the level of the gut». Even if you think you're prepared, you won't be, but at least you will know what could happen.

This is our life lol

The only way you can be a devil is by being ignorant, inconscious, and deluded. You can't act malevolently if you truly know what you're doing, there is too much cognitive dissonance for that to happen. This is why Jesus said «forgave them, for they don't know what they are doing».

150 years ago he would have been burned by blue scientists. We live in a good society don't you think ?

I don't know about wet dreams. I personally used to have them a lot, but only when I was still thinking a lot about sex. Now that I don't value sex that much (almost not at all), I rarely have them, or maybe once a month top.

Life in a nutshell:

Last night I freaked out pretty bad. Until 4AM I think I couldn't sleep, because I had energy in my chest and heart that wanted to go out. I don't know if it's me and my mind making it all up, but what's sure is that it's the same thing as when I felt I was gonna die One year ago. I push it back everytime, I fear to loose control if I do, which I logically know It would be better, but when it happens for real it's a whole different story. I don't think there is anything to do, it's gonna work it out itself, either it's gonna happen full force and I won't have a choice, or it will subside and come back (or not). This is I think what Adyashanti tells about, the enlightenment of the level of the gut, when you literally feel like you're going to die. If this is it, I won't have a choice I suppose, it doesn't happen to everyone, so don't be scared. If you read this, you're probably as fucked as I am anyway, so, good death I would have thought that after things like this I would go totally in the opposite direction, but apparently I can't. I can't unsee what I saw, or unfeel what I felt, in both the waking state and the dreaming state. I don't feel there is even a real difference between the two, except in the waking state I've never been fully lucid in it. Ahah, this must be so funny to read from the perspective of someone who knows his true nature, I'm sure they would be like "just surrender you little brat " <3

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