Shin

The only fear (as of now) I resist is the fear of death. Can't face it when I want, and when I do it's an automatic and instinctual , ???? Help me raptor sama ?

Why reprogram it ? Isn't that still fear/resistance ? ?

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If you still have karma to purge yes ?

Forget about the next video. We are not worth it for him anymore. We are juste filthy devils, never forget that. ?

https://youtu.be/nmgii5LRBTU

I forgot to tell this. Yesterday evening I was having diner with a friend. She didn't know what bondage or Shibari meant (don't google this if you're on Nofap ). So since she's a bit too innocent about those kind of things, I explained quite in depth what it was ... She couldn't look at other women the same way after this And 5 minutes after she says to me that Women starts to get visually attractive to her It's really not complicated to be joyful, you just let the parts of you that are hurt go. You can only do that by letting out and facing your pain. If you hide the pain, resist it, or mental masturbate about it, it will only get worse. So don't flee from your own shadow, it will only intensify and become even more painful to face later on. You really need to be honest with yourself, because you're already in pain, this isn't a life to be hurt and fearful of so many things. Joyfulness is not to have your life how you want it to be, but to be totally ok with how it is in each moment, Those are two different things, and most often, they don't go along, at all. It's only difficult until you've cleanses some of your shadows, you just won't be able to go back once you've seen how powerful and free you are. Then it will become easy to let go and move on from things that triggers you, even really painful and sad situations, the things you fear the most now. It's easy, but painful. It's the only way to life a happy life though, And it is that you want, Right ? Oh and today I also saw, The most beautiful eyes I ever seen, Again,

In retrospect, 10 years of depression was the best thing that ever happened to me.

Everything about enlightenment is paradoxical, because it includes everything. The logical mind can't and won't ever grasp it, the best it can do is intuitively knowing it's true, because it is already it, it just doesn't realize it.

Unless you work on that, there will always be a scar in you that will consciously or unconsciously says that you can't be happy without it. You need to see for yourself that it's not gonna cut it, that nothing external to you can make you happy. Lots of meditation/shadow work and facing your fears mentally and in the real world is what you need to do.

Sadly, Never.

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Leo is supposed to be higher than stage blue ?

Maybe he uses this as a way to shock the ego, but yeah he use it quite often nowadays, that's weird. I don't think it's a good word to use either, it implies a sense of low worth. Unconscious is better, it only implies that you are not aware of something, yet.

You think you do, but until death come you really don't know ?

Then stop chasing enlightenment, you might have to face your own death. That's way more frightening ?

Are you sure you know this and it's just hearsays that you try to fit into your worldview just so everything make sense from your egotic point of view ? You may be enlightened, but that doesn't mean you can stop working on your ego.

I never took a psychedelics. Just weed when I was 14.

Except the dmt visuals, all of those happened to me and I'm not enlightened. Those are mild inconveniences, there are things that can happen on the path that are way more fucked up than this ?

I think he was a youtuber once. Long ago, In a galaxy far, far away ...

The good old days when the type of shoes you wore determined with whom you were talking to ! We were so free !! So non-conformism !!! ???

A recovery from an hardcore addiction can make your mind go crazy. Nofap is no exception, it's not because it's not a chemical drug that it can't be an hardcore addiction.