Shin

- Gandhi

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Wrong assumption. It cannot be confusing without you being confused in the first place.

It can only be confusing if you hold beliefs of some kind. Drop them.

The more you look, the weirder it gets ? LOOK AT IT !

You can't not play the game you don't know you're playing on yourself .

We're the elite ! The savior of humanity ! The superior RACE !

Don't worry, I'm french, My english skill sucking is superior to yours. I am superior ?

This sentence is not properly written.

"For smart people" He decided to trigger egos in the title of his videos now. Smart people ... So I guess this is the moment I have to stop watching the videos ...

I tend to only make jokes since I read this quote. ?

Sorry guys, there is no drama to read in this journal I'm not the kind of person to socialize a lot too, so when I came here for the journal, I don't even know what to write. Don't worry though, at some point shit will hit the fan and you'll be well served again, maybe, perhaps, eventually, So today I will explain where I am on the spiritual journey (gotta fill the journal somehow ). Nothing really changed in 1 year I think, I am at a place where everything is peaceful. There is an unending silence and motionless "I can't say what" in me, wherever I go or do or think, it's there and it's me. It doesn't matter what happens, I'm always there watching, and there is no time, in the sense that nothing really change, ever. My head feels empty and if the sensations about it weren't there, and If I haven't the concept of me having a head, I wouldn't even know it's there (that's a lot of if, but still). It's like there is a wrap up of sensations around the head, but in the head there is nothing, and it's the same thing about the body. The more conscious I become, the less I actually feel there is even a person in there, it's just a lot of perceptions and mental preferences, rather than a soul or an individual. I am both my thoughts/mind and not. I still am identified to my thoughts, I can feel the identification, but at the same time, I am not them because I experience them as an another perceptions too and see them from a distance too (so to speak, there is no way to describe this I think). There is really a sense of doership when I think, I can sense there is a "me" in every thought, as subtle as it is, which is also paradoxical since I see it and not identify after all. Bodily wise, It's as if I'm watching myself from a distance, yet there is nothing that changes in the domain of perception, I still see and experience the body the exact same way. I am not having emotions, emotions are going through me, the same can be said about the body, it's more like the body is in me than I am in the body, even though paradoxically I still feel I am in the body (I know ). The separation between me and other objects feels arbritrary, I feel it is only there because Ithere is this identification to the body, which I somehow know is not true, as if in one little shift in perception would destroy this paradigm in an instant. The best way to describe this, would be that I am a 3D camera locked on a specific body/mind, experiencing everything from its point of view. There is so much paradoxes already at this level of perception, that my mind has completely stopped to understand what's happening and what will happen, there is just complete faith in the process. Can't say faith in god or the universe, or life, because it doesn't feel like it's separate from me at all, yet I am included in it, and it's in me too. I'm writting now, but it's more like the fingers move instinctively at the same time that thoughts appears, and they are both experienced at a distance, and yet still feel very alive, close, intimate and inseparable from me.

You always think of what will go wrong and can't have fun. Having fun is seen as being childish and stupid.

What do you mean ?

Be careful, Or the non dual police will catch you !!!

@Barna

Even if it could, there would still be one huge problem, It needs to be experienced for oneself to understand what it is. It's just waaaaaay too intimate and experiential to be explained. Every explanation, no matter how good it is, even if it is grasped, will always be millions miles away from what it actually is. Forget about understanding what it is, it's a game you can't win

If you're really "spiritual", Self-actualization and Transcendence goes together, one will boost the other greatly and vice versa. We need to be very careful not to use one to avoid the other though (spiritual bypassing or good old excuses to stay blind). That being said, I don't think you can choose to pursue enlightenment, you're either in or not, and once you started to see the mind flaws, you can't really go back, there is a natural impulse to ascend.

You either were rock bottom and had no choice but to try, got lucky and had a mystical experience so deep that you can't ignore it, or you have innate wisdom/deep curiosity.