Shin

You're letting your spiritual pride turning your life into a shithole. That's brilliant. But you're God, and if you decided to live a life of misery, well, nobody can stop you, Except you.

Then there is nothing to complain about ?

With this logic, why are you even trying to get help ? Everything is predestined according to you.

You're not being responsable and caring about the people who are reading this post too. What about people who will read this and thinks it's a good idea ?

«awakened» again in a dream, and was again in terror to the fact that it's all a shame (especially «me» ofc). ?

Not once you appeared to be concerned about other people than your sorry ass. What about your family ? Your children ? Your friends ? Like seriously are you that fucking egotistical ?

Why do you want to harm the body when you could transcend your sense of self to realize The Self ? That sounds like you're impatient and reckless rather than genuinely interested. There is no need to rush it, and if you do this you will make people that care about you miserable.

If you had accepted yourself you wouldn't say you can't change yourself. Once you realize what thoughts are, you would know you could become whatever you want, there would be no limiting beliefs anymore. All this talk about being how you are is just you clinging to certain beliefs, which may be true right now, but aren't fundamentally true.

No

I don't know, there just is a high change you will relapse if you do this while still being addicted.

If you're talking about Leo, as far as I know he doesn't sell 5-Meo yet. If you're talking about Osho, maybe, I have no clue. If you're talking about me, I know that very well, and it's one of my biggest concern.

Not suffering is experienced when God is tired to suffer. That may be hard to swallow, but you actually like to suffer, that's your favorite activity !

He was wise, But also an asshole

What if you actually wanted to experience suffering ? Surely you cant' have experienced everything if you don't. What if you chose to have limited power in this incarnation ?

So you mean in your hand ?

Doesn't matter. His book is still the best if you want to get out of the dream of thoughts (and all the suffering it creates out of thin air). Best 20 bucks I ever dropped.

Already bought and sold your wife yes. She was quite a woman !

I rent her, more bucks on the long term !

It is SOOOOO easy to make people laugh. You just have to stop taking yourself seriously, don't give a damn about what people think, and just say whatever you want because you just want to have fun, FOR YOU ! Seems hard because you're stuck in an endless loop of self defeating thoughts. No self critical thoughts = endless growth in whatever department you want. Again I was like you, now I can make some people smile just by looking at them, I don't even need to talk !

I was like you, maybe worse, and now everything you mentioned is a non issue. Work with Nahm and it will be the case for you too. It will take time, tears and lots of suffering, but you're already suffering anyway, so might as well go through it fully.

To be extremely direct, You're dreaming right now, except there is not a personal you to dream the dream. You dream an infinite number of dreams simultaneously, and decided to be completely clueless about that in some of them, Like that you could play the dream as if it was serious and risky, upping up the sensation of it being real. You won't accept this untill you suffer so much in the dream that you open up to the possibility of it being a joke. That's basically what's happening here, but you're infinitely smart, so you will use all the rationalization in the world as how it can't be the case !

17 and 18. Sold them for 247 goats 10 years ago. Good profit ?

Me casually checking Twitch after 3 hours of self developement Literally 5 seconds after (Don't judge me I'm poor af ) Only played 20 minutes, got some important things to do for college first, But after I've done those things ...

Lesson to learn from this, Shave your head, it brings wisdom.

Don't be jealous ?